第 43 节
作者:蝴蝶的出走      更新:2024-04-14 09:15      字数:9322
  are not in sympathy with my argument。  But I will
  answer you so。  If I could reach my particular star; to
  drag it down; I would not do it; but if it were fallen; I
  would pick it up; and thank Heaven for the privilege。〃
  They were silent for some minutes。  Norah shivered;
  and thrust her hands deep into the pockets of her jacket。
  Lorison uttered a remorseful exclamation。
  〃I'm not cold;〃 she said。  〃I was just thinking。  I
  ought to tell you something。  You have selected a strange
  confidante。  But you cannot expect a chance acquain…
  ance; picked up in a doubtful restaurant; to be an angel。〃
  〃Norah!〃  cried Lorison。
  〃Let me go on。  You have told me about yourself。
  We have been such good friends。  I must tell you now
  what I never wanted you to know。  I am  worse than
  you are。  I was on the stage 。 。 。 I sang in the
  chorus 。 。 。 I was pretty bad; I guess 。 。 。 I
  stole diamonds  from the prima donna    。 。 。 they
  arrested me     。 。 。 I gave most of them up; and they
  let me go 。 。   。 I drank wine every night      。 。 。 a
  great deal 。 。 。 I was very wicked; but  〃
  Lorison knelt quickly by her side and took her
  hands。
  〃Dear Norah!〃  he said; exultantly。  〃It is you; it is
  you I love!  You never guessed it; did you?  'Tis you
  I meant all the time。  Now I can speak。  Let me make
  you forget the past。  We have both suffered; let us shut
  out the world; and live for each other。  Norah; do you
  hear me say I love you?〃
  〃In spite of  〃
  〃Rather say because of it。  You have come out of
  your past noble and good。  Your heart is an angel's;
  Give it to me。〃
  〃A little while ago you feared the future too much to
  even speak。〃
  〃But for you; not for myself。  Can you love me?〃
  She cast herself; wildly sobbing; upon his breast。
  〃Better than life  than truth itself  than every…
  thing。〃
  〃And my own past;〃 said Lorison; with a note of
  solicitude  〃can you forgive and  〃
  〃I answered you that;〃 she whispered; 〃when I told
  you I loved you。〃  She leaned away; and looked thought…
  fully at him。  〃If I had not told you about myself; would
  you have  would you  〃
  〃No;〃 he interrupted; 〃I would never have let you
  know I loved you。  I would never have asked you this
  Norah; will you be my wife?〃
  She wept again。
  〃Oh; believe me; I am good now  I am no longer
  wicked!  I will be the best wife in the world。  Don't
  think I am  bad any more。  If you do I shall die; I
  shall die!〃
  While he was consoling; her; she brightened up; eager
  and impetuous。  〃Will vou marry me to…night?〃  she
  said。  〃Will you prove it that way。  I have a reason for
  wishing it to be to…night。  Will you?〃
  Of one of two things was this exceeding frankness the
  outcome: either of importunate brazenness or of utter
  innocence。  The lover's perspective contained only the
  one。
  〃The sooner;〃 said Lorison; 〃the happier I shall be。〃
  〃What is there to do?〃  she asked。  〃What do you
  have to get?  Come!  You should know。〃
  Her energy stirred the dreamer to action。
  〃A city directory first;〃 he cried; gayly; 〃to find where
  the man lives who gives licenses to happiness。  We will
  go together and rout him out。  Cabs; cars; policemen;
  telephones and ministers shall aid us。〃
  〃Father Rogan shall marry us;〃 said the girl; with
  ardour。  〃I will take you to him。〃
  An hour later the two stood at the open doorway of an
  immense; gloomy brick building in a narrow and lonely
  street。  The license was tight in Norah's hand。
  〃Wait here a moment;〃 she said; 〃till I find Father
  Rogan。〃
  She plunged into the black hallway; and the lover was
  left standing; as it were; on one leg; outside。  His impa…
  tience was not greatly taxed。  Gazing curiously into
  what seemed the hallway to Erebus; he was presently
  reassured by a stream of light that bisected the darkness;
  far down the passage。  Then he heard her call; and
  fluttered lampward; like the moth。  She beckoned him
  through a doorway into the room whence emanated the
  light。  The room was bare of nearly everything except
  books; which had subjugated all its space。  Here and
  there little spots of territory had been reconquered。  An
  elderly; bald man; with a superlatively calm; remote eye;
  stood by a table with a book in his hand; his finger still
  marking a page。  His dress was sombre and appertained
  to a religious order。  His eye denoted an acquaintance
  with the perspective。
  〃Father Rogan;〃 said Norah; 〃this is he。〃
  〃The two of ye;〃 said Father Rogan; 〃want to get
  married?〃
  They did not deny it。  He married them。  The cere…
  mony was quickly done。  One who could have witnessed
  it; and felt its scope; might have trembled at the terrible
  inadequacy of it to rise to the dignity of its endless chain
  of results。
  Afterward the priest spake briefly; as if by rote; of
  certain other civil and legal addenda that either might or
  should; at a later time; cap the ceremony。  Lorison
  tendered a fee; which was declined; and before the door
  closed after the departing couple Father Rogan's book
  popped open again where his finger marked it。
  In the dark hall Norah whirled and clung to her com…
  panion; tearful。
  〃Will you never; never be sorry?〃
  At last she was reassured。
  At the first light they reached upon the street; she asked
  the time; just as she had each night。  Lorison looked at
  his watch。  Half…past eight。
  Lorison thought it was from habit that she guided their
  steps toward the corner where they always parted。  But;
  arrived there; she hesitated; and then released his arm。
  A drug store stood on the corner; its bright; soft light
  shone upon them。
  〃Please leave me here as usual to…night;〃 said Norah;
  sweetly。  〃I must  I would rather you would。  You
  will not object?  At six to…morrow evening I will meet
  you at Antonio's。  I want to sit with vou there once more。
  And then  I will go where you say。〃  She gave him a
  bewildering; bright smile; and walked swiftly away。
  Surely it needed all the strength of her charm to carry
  off this astounding behaviour。  It was no discredit to
  Lorison's strength of mind that his head began to whirl。
  Pocketing his hands; he rambled vacuously over to the
  druggist's windows; and began assiduously to spell over
  the names of the patent medicines therein displayed。
  As soon as be had recovered his wits; he proceeded
  along the street in an aimless fashion。  After drifting for
  two or three squares; he flowed into a somewhat more
  pretentious thoroughfare; a way much frequented by him
  in his solitary ramblings。  For here was a row of slops
  devoted to traffic in goods of the widest range of choice
  handiworks of art; skill and fancy; products of nature
  and labour from every zone。
  Here; for a time; he loitered among the conspicuous
  windows; where was set; emphasized bv congested floods
  of light; the cunningest spoil of the interiors。  There
  were few passers; and of this Lorison was glad。  He was
  not of the world。  For a long time he had touched his
  fellow man only at the gear of a levelled cog…wheel  at
  right angles; and upon a different axis。  He had dropped
  into a distinctly new orbit。  The stroke of ill fortune had
  acted upon him; in effect; as a blow delivered upon the
  apex of a certain ingenious toy; the musical top; which…
  when thus buffeted while spinning; gives forth; with
  scarcely retarded motion; a complete change of key and
  chord。
  Strolling along the pacific avenue; he experienced
  singular; supernatural calm; accompanied by an unusual a
  activity of brain。  Reflecting upon recent affairs; be
  assured himself of his happiness in having won for a bride
  the one he had so greatly desired; yet he wondered mildly
  at his dearth of active emotion。  Her strange behaviour
  in abandoning him without valid excuse on his bridal eve
  aroused in him only a vague and curious speculation。
  Again; he found himself contemplating; with complaisant
  serenity; the incidents of her somewhat lively career。  His
  perspective seemed to have been queerly shifted。
  As he stood before a window near a corner; his ears
  were assailed by a waxing clamour and commotion。  He
  stood close to the window to allow passage to the cause
  of the hubbub  a procession of human beings; which
  rounded the corner aid headed in his direction。  He
  perceived a salient hue of blue and a glitter of brass about
  a central figure of dazzling white and silver; and a ragged
  wake of black; bobbing figures。
  Two ponderous policemen Were conducting between
  them a woman dressed as if for the stage; in a short; white;
  satiny skirt reaching to the knees; pink stockings; and a
  sort of sleeveless bodice bright with relucent; armour…like
  scales。  Upon her curly; light hair was perched; at a
  rollicking angle; a shining tin helmet。  The costume was
  to be instantly recognized as one of those ama