第 3 节
作者:蝴蝶的出走      更新:2024-04-14 09:15      字数:9319
  either。
  Inside; the purser was untying a great roll of newspapers;
  many of them weeks old; gathered in the lower ports by
  the Pajaro to be distributed at casual stopping…places。
  Thus do the beneficent voyagers scatter news and enter…
  tainment among the prisoners of sea and mountains。
  Tio Pancho; the hotel proprietor; set his great silver…
  rimmed aiteojos upon his nose and divided the papers
  into a number of smaller rolls。  A barefooted muchacho
  dashed in; desiring the post of messenger。
  〃Bien venido;〃 said Tio Pancho。  〃This to Se駉ra
  Conant; that to el Doctor S…S…Schlegel  Dios! what a
  name to say! … that to Se駉r Davis  one for Don
  Alberto。  These two for the Casa de Huespedes; Numero
  6; en la calle de las Buenas Gracias。  And say to them all;
  muchacho; that the Pajaro sails for Panama at three this
  afternoon。  If any have letters to send by the post; let
  them come quickly; that they may first pass through the
  correo。〃
  Mrs。 Conant received her roll of newspapers at four
  o'clock。  The boy was late in delivering them; because
  he had been deflected from his duty by an iguana that
  crossed his path and to which he immediately gave chase。
  But it made no hardship; for she had no letters to send。
  She was idling in a hammock in the patio of the house
  that she occupied; half awake; half happily dreaming of the
  paradise that she and Merriam had created out of the
  wrecks of their pasts。  She was content now for the horizon
  of that shimmering sea to be the horizon of her life。  They
  had shut out the world and closed the door。
  Merriam was coming to her house at seven; after his
  dinner at the hotel。  She would put on a white dress and
  an apricot…coloured lace mantilla; and they would walk
  an hour under the cocoanut palms by the lagoon。  She
  smiled contentedly; and chose a paper at random from
  the roll the boy had brought。
  At first the words of a certain headline of a Sunday
  newspaper meant nothing to her; they conveyed only
  a visualized sense of familiarity。  The largest type ran
  thus: 〃Lloyd B。 Conant secures divorce。〃 And then the
  subheadings: 〃Well…known Saint Louis paint manufac…
  turer wins suit; pleading one year's absence of wife。〃
  〃Her mysterious disappearance recalled。〃 〃Nothing has
  been heard of her since。〃
  Twisting herself quickly out of the hammock; Mrs。
  Conant's eye soon traversed the half…column of the
  〃Recall。〃 It ended thus: 〃It will be remembered that
  Mrs。 Conant disappeared one evening in March of last
  year。  It was freely rumoured that her marriage with
  Lloyd B。  Conant resulted in much unhappiness。  Stories
  were not wanting to the effect that his cruelty toward
  his wife had more than once taken the form of physical
  abuse。  After her departure a full bottle of tincture of
  aconite; a deadly poison; was found in a small medicine
  cabinet in her bedroom。  This might have been an
  indication that she meditated suicide。  It is supposed
  abandoned such an intention if she possessed
  it; and left her home instead。〃
  Mrs。 Conant slowly dropped the paper; and sat on a
  chair; clasping her hands tightly。
  〃Let me think  O God!  let me think;〃 she whis…
  pered。  〃I took the bottle with me  。 。 。  I threw it
  out of the window of the train  。 。 。  I   。 。 。
  there was another bottle in the cabinet  。 。 。  there
  were two; side by side  the aconite  and the valerian
  that I took when I could not sleep  。 。 。  If they
  found the aconite bottle full; why  but; he is  alive; of
  course  I gave him only a harmless dose of valerian
  。 。 。  I am not a murderess in fact  。 。 。  Ralph; I
  0 God; don't let this be a dream!〃
  She went into the part of the house that she rented from
  the old Peruvian man and his wife; shut the door; and
  walked up and down her room swiftly and feverishly
  for half an hour。  Merriam's photograph stood in a frame
  on a table。  She picked it up; looked at it with a smile
  of exquisite tenderness; and  dropped four tears on it。
  And Merriam only twenty rods away!  Then she stood
  still for ten minutes; looking into space。  She looked into
  space through a slowly opening door。  On her side of the
  door was the building material for a castle of Romance
  love; an Arcady of waving palms; a lullaby of waves on
  the shore of a haven of rest; respite; peace; a lotus land
  of dreamy ease and security  a life of poetry and heart's
  ease and refuge。  Romanticist; will you tell me what
  Mrs。 Conant saw on the other side of the door?  You
  cannot?  that is; you will not?  Very well; then listen。
  She saw herself go into a department store and buy five
  spools of silk thread and three yards of gingham to make
  an apron for the cook。  〃Shall I charge it; ma'am?〃
  asked the clerk。  As she walked out a lady whom she met
  greeted her cordially。  〃Oh; where did you get the pattern for
  those sleeves; dear Mrs。 Conant?〃 she said。  At the corner
  a policeman helped her across the street and touched his
  helmet。  〃Any callers?〃 she asked the maid when she
  reached home。  〃Mrs。 Waldron;〃 answered the maid;
  and the tqvo Misses Jenkinson。〃 〃Very well;〃 she said。
  You may bring me a cup of tea; Maggie。〃
  Mrs。 Conant went to the door and called Angela; the old
  Peruvian woman。  〃If Mateo is there send him to me。〃
  Mateo; a half…breed; shuffling and old but efficient; came。
  〃Is there a steamer or a vessel of any kind leaving
  this coast to…night or to…morrow that I can get passage
  on?〃 she asked。
  Mateo considered。
  〃At Punta Reina; thirty miles down the coast; se駉ra;〃
  he answered; 〃there is a small steamer loading with
  cinchona and dyewoods。  She sails for San Francisco
  to…morrow at sunrise。  So says my brother; who arrived
  in his sloop to…day; passing by Punta Reina。〃
  〃You must take me in that sloop to that steamer
  to…night。  Will you do that?〃
  〃Perhaps  〃 Mateo shrugged a suggestive shoul…
  der。  Mrs。 Conant took a handful of money from a
  drawer and gave it to him。
  〃Get the sloop ready behind the little point of land below
  the town;〃 she ordered。  〃Get sailors; and be ready
  to sail at six o'clock。  In half an hour bring a cart partly
  filled with straw into the patio here; and take my trunk
  to the sloop。  There is more money yet。  Now; hurry。〃
  For one time Mateo walked away without shuffling
  his feet。
  〃Angela;〃 cried Mrs。 Conant; almost fiercely; 〃come
  and help me pack。  I am going away。  Out with this
  trunk。  My clothes first。  Stir yourself。  Those dark
  dresses first。  Hurry。〃
  From the first she did not waver from her decision。
  Her view was clear and final。  Her door had opened
  and let the world in。  Her love for Merriam was not
  lessened; but it now appeared a hopeless and unrealizable
  thing。  The visions of their future that had seemed so
  blissful and complete had vanished。  She tried to assure
  herself that her renunciation was rather for his sake than
  for her own。  Now that she was cleared of her burden
  at least; technically  would not his own weigh too heavily
  upon him?  If she should cling to him; would not the
  difference forever silently mar and corrode their happiness?
  Thus she reasoned; but there were a thousand little voices
  calling to her that she could feel rather than hear; like the
  hum of distant; powerful machinery  the little voices
  of the world; that; when raised in unison; can send their
  insistent call through the thickest door。
  Once while packing; a brief shadow of the lotus dream
  came back to her。  She held Merriam's picture to her heart
  with one hand; while she threw a pair of shoes into the
  trunk with her other。
  At six o'clock Mateo returned and reported the sloop
  ready。  He and his brother lifted the trunk into the cart;
  covered it with straw and conveyed it to the point of
  embarkation。  From there they transferred it on board
  in the sloop's dory。  Then Mateo returned for additional
  orders。
  Mrs。 Conant was ready。  She had settled all business
  matters with Angela; and was impatiently waiting。  She
  wore a long; loose black…silk duster that she often walked
  about in when the evenino's were chilly。  On her head
  was a small round hat; and over it the apricot…coloured
  lace mantilla。
  Dusk had quickly followed the short twilight。  Mateo
  led her by dark and grass…grown streets toward the point
  behind which the sloop was anchored。  On turning a
  corner they beheld the Hotel Orilla del Mar three streets
  away; nebulously aglow with its array of kerosene lamps。
  Mrs。 Conant paused; with streamin eyes。  〃I must;
  I must see him once before I go;〃 she murmured in
  anguish。  But even then she did not falter in her decision。
  Quickly she invented a plan by which she might speak to
  him; and yet make her departure without his knowing。
  She would walk past the hotel; ask some one to call him
  out and talk a few moments on some trivial excuse;
  leaving him expecting to see her at her home at seven。
  She