第 3 节
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蝴蝶的出走 更新:2024-04-14 09:15 字数:9319
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Inside; the purser was untying a great roll of newspapers;
many of them weeks old; gathered in the lower ports by
the Pajaro to be distributed at casual stopping…places。
Thus do the beneficent voyagers scatter news and enter…
tainment among the prisoners of sea and mountains。
Tio Pancho; the hotel proprietor; set his great silver…
rimmed aiteojos upon his nose and divided the papers
into a number of smaller rolls。 A barefooted muchacho
dashed in; desiring the post of messenger。
〃Bien venido;〃 said Tio Pancho。 〃This to Se駉ra
Conant; that to el Doctor S…S…Schlegel Dios! what a
name to say! … that to Se駉r Davis one for Don
Alberto。 These two for the Casa de Huespedes; Numero
6; en la calle de las Buenas Gracias。 And say to them all;
muchacho; that the Pajaro sails for Panama at three this
afternoon。 If any have letters to send by the post; let
them come quickly; that they may first pass through the
correo。〃
Mrs。 Conant received her roll of newspapers at four
o'clock。 The boy was late in delivering them; because
he had been deflected from his duty by an iguana that
crossed his path and to which he immediately gave chase。
But it made no hardship; for she had no letters to send。
She was idling in a hammock in the patio of the house
that she occupied; half awake; half happily dreaming of the
paradise that she and Merriam had created out of the
wrecks of their pasts。 She was content now for the horizon
of that shimmering sea to be the horizon of her life。 They
had shut out the world and closed the door。
Merriam was coming to her house at seven; after his
dinner at the hotel。 She would put on a white dress and
an apricot…coloured lace mantilla; and they would walk
an hour under the cocoanut palms by the lagoon。 She
smiled contentedly; and chose a paper at random from
the roll the boy had brought。
At first the words of a certain headline of a Sunday
newspaper meant nothing to her; they conveyed only
a visualized sense of familiarity。 The largest type ran
thus: 〃Lloyd B。 Conant secures divorce。〃 And then the
subheadings: 〃Well…known Saint Louis paint manufac…
turer wins suit; pleading one year's absence of wife。〃
〃Her mysterious disappearance recalled。〃 〃Nothing has
been heard of her since。〃
Twisting herself quickly out of the hammock; Mrs。
Conant's eye soon traversed the half…column of the
〃Recall。〃 It ended thus: 〃It will be remembered that
Mrs。 Conant disappeared one evening in March of last
year。 It was freely rumoured that her marriage with
Lloyd B。 Conant resulted in much unhappiness。 Stories
were not wanting to the effect that his cruelty toward
his wife had more than once taken the form of physical
abuse。 After her departure a full bottle of tincture of
aconite; a deadly poison; was found in a small medicine
cabinet in her bedroom。 This might have been an
indication that she meditated suicide。 It is supposed
abandoned such an intention if she possessed
it; and left her home instead。〃
Mrs。 Conant slowly dropped the paper; and sat on a
chair; clasping her hands tightly。
〃Let me think O God! let me think;〃 she whis…
pered。 〃I took the bottle with me 。 。 。 I threw it
out of the window of the train 。 。 。 I 。 。 。
there was another bottle in the cabinet 。 。 。 there
were two; side by side the aconite and the valerian
that I took when I could not sleep 。 。 。 If they
found the aconite bottle full; why but; he is alive; of
course I gave him only a harmless dose of valerian
。 。 。 I am not a murderess in fact 。 。 。 Ralph; I
0 God; don't let this be a dream!〃
She went into the part of the house that she rented from
the old Peruvian man and his wife; shut the door; and
walked up and down her room swiftly and feverishly
for half an hour。 Merriam's photograph stood in a frame
on a table。 She picked it up; looked at it with a smile
of exquisite tenderness; and dropped four tears on it。
And Merriam only twenty rods away! Then she stood
still for ten minutes; looking into space。 She looked into
space through a slowly opening door。 On her side of the
door was the building material for a castle of Romance
love; an Arcady of waving palms; a lullaby of waves on
the shore of a haven of rest; respite; peace; a lotus land
of dreamy ease and security a life of poetry and heart's
ease and refuge。 Romanticist; will you tell me what
Mrs。 Conant saw on the other side of the door? You
cannot? that is; you will not? Very well; then listen。
She saw herself go into a department store and buy five
spools of silk thread and three yards of gingham to make
an apron for the cook。 〃Shall I charge it; ma'am?〃
asked the clerk。 As she walked out a lady whom she met
greeted her cordially。 〃Oh; where did you get the pattern for
those sleeves; dear Mrs。 Conant?〃 she said。 At the corner
a policeman helped her across the street and touched his
helmet。 〃Any callers?〃 she asked the maid when she
reached home。 〃Mrs。 Waldron;〃 answered the maid;
and the tqvo Misses Jenkinson。〃 〃Very well;〃 she said。
You may bring me a cup of tea; Maggie。〃
Mrs。 Conant went to the door and called Angela; the old
Peruvian woman。 〃If Mateo is there send him to me。〃
Mateo; a half…breed; shuffling and old but efficient; came。
〃Is there a steamer or a vessel of any kind leaving
this coast to…night or to…morrow that I can get passage
on?〃 she asked。
Mateo considered。
〃At Punta Reina; thirty miles down the coast; se駉ra;〃
he answered; 〃there is a small steamer loading with
cinchona and dyewoods。 She sails for San Francisco
to…morrow at sunrise。 So says my brother; who arrived
in his sloop to…day; passing by Punta Reina。〃
〃You must take me in that sloop to that steamer
to…night。 Will you do that?〃
〃Perhaps 〃 Mateo shrugged a suggestive shoul…
der。 Mrs。 Conant took a handful of money from a
drawer and gave it to him。
〃Get the sloop ready behind the little point of land below
the town;〃 she ordered。 〃Get sailors; and be ready
to sail at six o'clock。 In half an hour bring a cart partly
filled with straw into the patio here; and take my trunk
to the sloop。 There is more money yet。 Now; hurry。〃
For one time Mateo walked away without shuffling
his feet。
〃Angela;〃 cried Mrs。 Conant; almost fiercely; 〃come
and help me pack。 I am going away。 Out with this
trunk。 My clothes first。 Stir yourself。 Those dark
dresses first。 Hurry。〃
From the first she did not waver from her decision。
Her view was clear and final。 Her door had opened
and let the world in。 Her love for Merriam was not
lessened; but it now appeared a hopeless and unrealizable
thing。 The visions of their future that had seemed so
blissful and complete had vanished。 She tried to assure
herself that her renunciation was rather for his sake than
for her own。 Now that she was cleared of her burden
at least; technically would not his own weigh too heavily
upon him? If she should cling to him; would not the
difference forever silently mar and corrode their happiness?
Thus she reasoned; but there were a thousand little voices
calling to her that she could feel rather than hear; like the
hum of distant; powerful machinery the little voices
of the world; that; when raised in unison; can send their
insistent call through the thickest door。
Once while packing; a brief shadow of the lotus dream
came back to her。 She held Merriam's picture to her heart
with one hand; while she threw a pair of shoes into the
trunk with her other。
At six o'clock Mateo returned and reported the sloop
ready。 He and his brother lifted the trunk into the cart;
covered it with straw and conveyed it to the point of
embarkation。 From there they transferred it on board
in the sloop's dory。 Then Mateo returned for additional
orders。
Mrs。 Conant was ready。 She had settled all business
matters with Angela; and was impatiently waiting。 She
wore a long; loose black…silk duster that she often walked
about in when the evenino's were chilly。 On her head
was a small round hat; and over it the apricot…coloured
lace mantilla。
Dusk had quickly followed the short twilight。 Mateo
led her by dark and grass…grown streets toward the point
behind which the sloop was anchored。 On turning a
corner they beheld the Hotel Orilla del Mar three streets
away; nebulously aglow with its array of kerosene lamps。
Mrs。 Conant paused; with streamin eyes。 〃I must;
I must see him once before I go;〃 she murmured in
anguish。 But even then she did not falter in her decision。
Quickly she invented a plan by which she might speak to
him; and yet make her departure without his knowing。
She would walk past the hotel; ask some one to call him
out and talk a few moments on some trivial excuse;
leaving him expecting to see her at her home at seven。
She