第 8 节
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face; the curve of his lips; a prominent chin; the fine modelling of
his forehead; his melancholy countenance; caused by a sense of his
poverty warring with the powers that he felt within him; were all
indications of repressed and imprisoned talent。 In any other place
than the town of Alencon the mere aspect of his person would have won
him the assistance of superior men; or of women who are able to
recognize genius in obscurity。 If his was not genius; it was at any
rate the form and aspect of it; if he had not the actual force of a
great heart; the glow of such a heart was in his glance。 Although he
was capable of expressing the highest feeling; a casing of timidity
destroyed all the graces of his youth; just as the ice of poverty kept
him from daring to put forth all his powers。 Provincial life; without
an opening; without appreciation; without encouragement; described a
circle about him in which languished and died the power of thought;a
power which as yet had scarcely reached its dawn。 Moreover; Athanase
possessed that savage pride which poverty intensifies in noble minds;
exalting them in their struggle with men and things; although at their
start in life it is an obstacle to their advancement。 Genius proceeds
in two ways: either it takes its opportunitylike Napoleon; like
Molierethe moment that it sees it; or it waits to be sought when it
has patiently revealed itself。 Young Granson belonged to that class of
men of talent who distrust themselves and are easily discouraged。 His
soul was contemplative。 He lived more by thought than by action。
Perhaps he might have seemed deficient or incomplete to those who
cannot conceive of genius without the sparkle of French passion; but
he was powerful in the world of mind; and he was liable to reach;
through a series of emotions imperceptible to common souls; those
sudden determinations which make fools say of a man; 〃He is mad。〃
The contempt which the world pours out on poverty was death to
Athanase; the enervating heat of solitude; without a breath or current
of air; relaxed the bow which ever strove to tighten itself; his soul
grew weary in this painful effort without results。 Athanase was a man
who might have taken his place among the glories of France; but; eagle
as he was; cooped in a cage without his proper nourishment; he was
about to die of hunger after contemplating with an ardent eye the
fields of air and the mountain heights where genius soars。 His work in
the city library escaped attention; and he buried in his soul his
thoughts of fame; fearing that they might injure him; but deeper than
all lay buried within him the secret of his heart;a passion which
hollowed his cheeks and yellowed his brow。 He loved his distant
cousin; this very Mademoiselle Cormon whom the Chevalier de Valois and
du Bousquier; his hidden rivals; were stalking。 This love had had its
origin in calculation。 Mademoiselle Cormon was thought to be one of
the richest persons in the town: the poor lad had therefore been led
to love her by desires for material happiness; by the hope; long
indulged; of gilding with comfort his mother's last years; by eager
longing for the ease of life so needful to men who live by thought;
but this most innocent point of departure degraded his passion in his
own eyes。 Moreover; he feared the ridicule the world would cast upon
the love of a young man of twenty…three for an old maid of forty。
And yet his passion was real; whatever may seem false about such a
love elsewhere; it can be realized as a fact in the provinces; where;
manners and morals being without change or chance or movement or
mystery; marriage becomes a necessity of life。 No family will accept a
young man of dissolute habits。 However natural the liaison of a young
man; like Athanase; with a handsome girl; like Suzanne; for instance;
might seem in a capital; it alarms provincial parents; and destroys
the hopes of marriage of a poor young man when possibly the fortune of
a rich one might cause such an unfortunate antecedent to be
overlooked。 Between the depravity of certain liaisons and a sincere
love; a man of honor and no fortune will not hesitate: he prefers the
misfortunes of virtue to the evils of vice。 But in the provinces women
with whom a young man call fall in love are rare。 A rich young girl he
cannot obtain in a region where all is calculation; a poor young girl
he is prevented from loving; it would be; as provincials say; marrying
hunger and thirst。 Such monkish solitude is; however; dangerous to
youth。
These reflections explain why provincial life is so firmly based on
marriage。 Thus we find that ardent and vigorous genius; forced to rely
on the independence of its own poverty; quits these cold regions where
thought is persecuted by brutal indifference; where no woman is
willing to be a sister of charity to a man of talent; of art; of
science。
Who will really understand Athanase Granson's love for Mademoiselle
Cormon? Certainly neither rich menthose sultans of society who fill
their haremsnor middle…class men; who follow the well…beaten high…
road of prejudices; nor women who; not choosing to understand the
passions of artists; impose the yoke of their virtues upon men of
genius; imagining that the two sexes are governed by the same laws。
Here; perhaps; we should appeal to those young men who suffer from the
repression of their first desires at the moment when all their forces
are developing; to artists sick of their own genius smothering under
the pressure of poverty; to men of talent; persecuted and without
influence; often without friends at the start; who have ended by
triumphing over that double anguish; equally agonizing; of soul and
body。 Such men will well understand the lancinating pains of the
cancer which was now consuming Athanase; they have gone through those
long and bitter deliberations made in presence of some grandiose
purpose they had not the means to carry out; they have endured those
secret miscarriages in which the fructifying seed of genius falls on
arid soil。 Such men know that the grandeur of desires is in proportion
to the height and breadth of the imagination。 The higher they spring;
the lower they fall; and how can it be that ties and bonds should not
be broken by such a fall? Their piercing eye has seenas did Athanase
the brilliant future which awaited them; and from which they fancied
that only a thin gauze parted them; but that gauze through which their
eyes could see is changed by Society into a wall of iron。 Impelled by
a vocation; by a sentiment of art; they endeavor again and again to
live by sentiments which society as incessantly materializes。 Alas!
the provinces calculate and arrange marriage with the one view of
material comfort; and a poor artist or man of science is forbidden to
double its purpose and make it the saviour of his genius by securing
to him the means of subsistence!
Moved by such ideas; Athanase Granson first thought of marriage with
Mademoiselle Cormon as a means of obtaining a livelihood which would
be permanent。 Thence he could rise to fame; and make his mother happy;
knowing at the same time that he was capable of faithfully loving his
wife。 But soon his own will created; although he did not know it; a
genuine passion。 He began to study the old maid; and; by dint of the
charm which habit gives; he ended by seeing only her beauties and
ignoring her defects。
In a young man of twenty…three the senses count for much in love;
their fire produces a sort of prism between his eyes and the woman。
From this point of view the clasp with which Beaumarchis' Cherubin
seizes Marceline is a stroke of genius。 But when we reflect that in
the utter isolation to which poverty condemned poor Athanase;
Mademoiselle Cormon was the only figure presented to his gaze; that
she attracted his eye incessantly; that all the light he had was
concentrated on her; surely his love may be considered natural。
This sentiment; so carefully hidden; increased from day to day。
Desires; sufferings; hopes; and meditations swelled in quietness and
silence the lake widening ever in the young man's breast; as hour by
hour added its drop of water to the volume。 And the wider this inward
circle; drawn by the imagination; aided by the senses; grew; the more
imposing Mademoiselle Cormon appeared to Athanase; and the more his
own timidity increased。
The mother had divined the truth。 Like all provincial mothers; she
calculated candidly in her own mind the advantages of the match。 She
told herself that Mademoiselle Cormon would be very lucky to secure a
husband in a young man of twenty…three; full of talent; who would
always be an honor to his family and the neighborhood; at the same
time the obstacles which her son's want of fortune and Mademoiselle
Cormon's age presented to the marriage seemed to her almost
insurmountable; she could think of nothing but patience as being able