第 52 节
作者:江暖      更新:2024-04-09 19:51      字数:9322
  before I can marry him。〃
  〃You mean;〃 said he; with trembling lips〃you mean I must be a soldier?〃
  〃As you have said; they will not let you off。 You are a strong; healthy youthyou are unmarried; and have no one to support; for your father can take care of himself。 Why; then; as the king is in need of soldiers; should they pass you by?〃
  〃It is too true。〃 murmured Charles Henry; despondently。 After a slight pause; he said: 〃But I will not be a soldierI cannot! For it is true I am a cowardI have not a particle of courage! That is born with one; it cannot be acquired; I have it not; and cannot therefore be a soldier。〃
  〃Nor shall you become one;〃 said Anna; with determination。
  〃What can you do?〃
  〃I will join the army in your stead!〃
  Charles Henry stared at her。 He was on the point of laughing; but the sight of her inspired; earnest countenance; in which a world of determination was expressed; sobered him completely。
  〃I will do as I said; for I have great courage; and when I think of a battle my heart beats loudly; not with fear but with rapturous joy。 To me; nothing would be more glorious than to die; banner in hand; surrounded by the thunder of cannon; and to cry out exultingly; as the blood flows from my wounds; 'Vive le roi! vive la patrie!'〃 Her form was raised majestically; her countenance beamed with inspiration; a daring fire sparkled in her eyesshe was so changed in form and expression; that Charles Henry drew back from her in terror。
  〃I am afraid of you; Anna Sophia;〃 said he; shuddering。 〃You are changedyou are not like yourself。〃
  〃No;〃 said she; 〃nor am I the same。 Yesterday I was Anna Sophia Detzlofffrom to…day I am Charles Henry Buschman。 Do not interrupt meit must be! You shall not break your father's heartyou shall not bring disgrace upon the village。 The king has called youyou must obey the call。 But I will go in your place; you shall remain quietly at home; thrashing your corn; cutting your hay; and taking care of your kind old father; while I shall be upon the battle… field; fighting in your place。〃
  〃Do you then love me well enough to give your life for me?〃 cried Charles Henry; with streaming eyes。
  She shook her head slowly; thoughtfully。 〃I do not know if it be love;〃 said she。 〃I only feel that it must be donethere is no other outlet but this to help us all。 Let us speak no more about it… …only tell me that you accept it。〃
  〃It is impossible; Anna Sophia。〃
  〃Only accept it; and all will be right。〃
  〃I cannot。 It would be an everlasting shame to me。〃
  She pressed her teeth tightly togetherher eyes gleamed with anger。 〃Hear me out;〃 said she。 〃Go; or staywhichever you doI do not remain here! I must away and seek my fortune。 I have never been happy; as yetupon the battle…field I may be。 I have nothing to lose; and can therefore win all。 Well; say! Am I to be a soldier in your stead?〃
  〃If you really wish it; I must yield;〃 said he; sadly。 〃You say you have nothing to lose; but I; I have you; and I cannot; will not lose you。 And as you would be angry with and leave me if I said 'No;' I prefer saying 'Yes。'〃
  Anna Sophia gave a cry of delight; and; for the first time; gave Charles Henry a willing kiss。 〃Many; many thanks; Charles Henry;〃 said she。 〃Now we will all be happy。〃
  Charles Henry sighed。 He could not bring himself to trust in Anna's prophecy。
  〃And now;〃 said she; eagerly; 〃how shall we go about it?〃
  CHAPTER IV。
  FAREWELL TO THE VILLAGE。
  In the course of the day; Charles Henry accompanied the other boys to the village; where an officer was to call out the names of those who were drafted。 As his name was called out; he did not change countenancehe remained as gay and cheerful as before; while the other boys were gazing sadly; thoughtfully before them。 Then the officer handed each of them a ticket upon which their names were printed; and ordered them to go immediately to the nearest city; Cleve; and receive their uniforms。 Charles Henry requested a day's leave; as he had various preparations to make for his father; to whom he wished to will the little property he had inherited from his mother。 The officer granted him one day。 Charles Henry left the house gayly; but instead of turning his steps toward the little hut inhabited by his father; he took the path leading to the old school… house; where his bride lived。
  She stood at her door waiting for him。 〃Well;〃 said she; hastily; 〃is all right?〃
  〃Yes;〃 said he; sadly; 〃I am drafted。〃
  She grasped the printed ticket from his hand and hid it in her bosom。 〃Now;〃 said she; 〃you have but to bring me a decent suit of clothes。〃
  〃My Sunday suit; Anna;〃 said he; smiling。 〃It is new; I intended to be married in it。〃
  〃I shall not hurt it;〃 said she。 〃There is a merchant at Cleve; whom I know to be good and honestI will leave the clothes with him; and next Sunday you can walk to the city for them。〃
  〃You will not even keep them to remember me by?〃
  〃It is impossible for me ever to forget you; Charles Henry; for I shall bear your name。〃
  〃From now on; throughout your whole life; you shall bear it; Anna。 For when you return; you will remember your promise; and marry me。 You will not forget me when far away?〃
  〃How do I know I shall return?〃 said she。 〃A soldier's life is in constant danger。 There can be no talk of marriage until this war is over。 But it is now time we were asleep; Charles Henry。 You and I have many things to do to…morrow; we must arrange our household affairsyou for the sake of appearances; and I in good earnest。 Good…night; then; Charles Henry。〃
  〃Will you not kiss me on this our last night; Anna Sophia?〃 said he; sadly。
  〃A soldier kisses no man;〃 said she; with a weary smile。 〃He might embrace a friend; as his life ebbed out upon the battle…field; but none other; Charles Henry。 Good…night。〃
  She entered and bolted the door after her; then lighting a candle she hastened to her attic…room。 Seating herself at her father's table; she spread a large sheet of foolscap before her and commenced writing。 She was making her will with a firm; unshaken hand。 She began by taking leave of the villagers; and implored them to forgive her for causing them sorrow; but that life in the old hut; without her parents; had become burdensome to her; and as her betrothed was now going away; she could endure it no longer。 She then divided her few possessions; leaving to every friend some slight remembrance; such as ribbons; a prayer…book; or a handkerchief。 Her clothes she divided among the village wives。 But her house; with all its contents; she left to Father Buschman; with the request that he would live in it; at least in summer。
  When she had finished; she threw herself upon her bed to rest from the many fatigues and heart…aches of the day。 In her dreams her parents appeared to herthey beckoned; kissed; and blessed her。 Strengthened by this dream; she sprang joyfully at daybreak from her couch。 She felt now assured that what she was about to do was right; for otherwise her parents would not have appeared to her。 She now continued the preparations for her journey cheerfully。 She packed all her linen clothes into a small bundle; and then scoured and dusted her little house carefully。 Dressing herself with more than her usual care; and putting her testament in her pocket; she left the house。
  Anna took the road leading to the parsonage; she wished to go to confession to her old pastor for the last time。 He had known her during the whole of her short life; had baptized her; and with him she had taken her first communion。 She had confessed to him her most secret thoughts; and with loving smile; he absolved what she deemed her sins。 He would not break the seal of confession; and she therefore opened her heart to him without fear。
  The old pastor was deeply moved; and laying his hand upon her head he wept。 When she had bid him a long and loving adieu; and had wiped the tears from her eyes; she left the parsonage and hastened to the woods; where Father Buschman was tending his sheep。 As soon as the old shepherd saw her; he beckoned to her his welcome。
  〃I did not see you throughout the whole of yesterday; Anna Sophia;〃 said he; 〃and my heart was heavy within me; there was something wanting to my happiness。〃
  〃I will remain with you to…day to make up for yesterday's absence;〃 said she; seating herself beside him and kissing him tenderly。 〃I could not work to…day; for my heart aches; I will rest myself with you。〃
  〃Your heart aches because Charles Henry must leave us;〃 said the old shepherd。 〃You would prefer his remaining at home; and not being a soldier?〃
  〃No; I would not prefer this; father;〃 said she; earnestly; 〃would you?〃
  The old man looked thoughtful for some time; then said:
  〃It will be a great sorrow to me; Anna Sophia; for he is the last remaining light of my youth; and when he goes all will be dark and gloomy for me。 It does me good to see his bright; handsome face; to hear his gay morning and evening song; and when you two are sitting beside me hand in hand upon the old bench at the front of our little hut; my youth comes back to me。 I see myself sitting on the same bench with my dear old womanit was our favorite seat when we were young。 When Charles Henry leaves me; I no