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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9225
  gently along the yard; and turned the key gently in the door; but;
  as he expected; Gyp; who lay in the workshop; gave a sharp bark。
  It   subsided   when   he   saw  Adam;   holding   up   his   finger   at   him   to
  impose      silence;   and   in   his  dumb;     tailless  joy  he   must    content
  himself with rubbing his body against his master’s legs。
  Adam   was   too   heart…sick   to   take   notice   of   Gyp’s   fondling。   He
  threw himself on the bench and stared dully at the wood and the
  signs   of   work   around   him;   wondering  if   he   should   ever   come   to
  feel pleasure in them again; while Gyp; dimly aware that there was
  something   wrong   with   his   master;   laid   his   rough   grey   head   on
  Adam’s knee and wrinkled his brows to look up at him。 Hitherto;
  since     Sunday      afternoon;     Adam      had    been     constantly     among
  strange people and in strange places; having no associations with
  the details of his daily life;  and now  that  by  the   light  of  this   new
  morning   he   was   come   back   to   his   home   and   surrounded   by   the
  familiar   objects   that   seemed   for   ever   robbed   of   their   charm;   the
  reality—the   hard;   inevitable   reality   of   his   troubles   pressed   upon
  him with a new weight。 Right before him was an unfinished chest
  of   drawers;     which    he   had   been    making     in  spare    moments      for
  Hetty’s use; when his home should be hers。
  Seth had not heard Adam’s entrance; but  he   had been   roused
  by   Gyp’s   bark;   and   Adam   heard   him   moving   about   in   the   room
  above;     dressing     himself。    Seth’s    first  thoughts     were    about    his
  brother:     he   would    come     home    to…day;    surely;   for  the   business
  would be wanting him sadly by to…morrow; but it was pleasant to
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  think   he   had   had   a   longer   holiday   than   he   had   expected。      And
  would      Dinah    come     too?   Seth   felt  that   that   was    the   greatest
  happiness he could look forward to for himself; though he had no
  hope left that she would ever love him well enough to marry him;
  but he had often said to himself; it was better to be Dinah’s friend
  and brother than any other woman’s husband。 If he could but be
  always near her; instead of living so far off!
  He   came   downstairs   and   opened   the   inner   door   leading   from
  the   kitchen   into   the   workshop;   intending   to   let   out   Gyp;   but   he
  stood still in the doorway; smitten with a sudden shock at the sight
  of   Adam     seated    listlessly  on   the   bench;    pale;   unwashed;      with
  sunken   blank   eyes;   almost   like   a   drunkard   in   the   morning。   But
  Seth  felt  in an  instant  what  the   marks  meant—not   drunkenness;
  but    some     great    calamity。     Adam     looked     up   at   him    without
  speaking;   and   Seth   moved   forward          towards    the   bench;    himself
  trembling so that speech did not come readily。
  “God have mercy on us; Addy;” he said; in a low  voice;   sitting
  down on the bench beside Adam; “what is it?”
  Adam   was   unable   to   speak。   The   strong   man;   accustomed           to
  suppress the signs of sorrow; had felt his heart swell like a child’s
  at   this   first   approach   of   sympathy。    He   fell  on   Seth’s   neck   and
  sobbed。
  Seth     was    prepared      for  the   worst     now;    for;  even     in  his
  recollections of their boyhood; Adam had never sobbed before。
  “Is it death; Adam? Is she dead?” he asked; in a low tone; when
  Adam raised his head and was recovering himself。
  “No; lad; but she’s gone—gone away from us。 She’s never been
  to   Snowfield。   Dinah’s   been   gone   to   Leeds   ever   since   last   Friday
  was a fortnight; the very day Hetty set out。 I can’t find out where
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  she went after she got to Stoniton。”
  Seth was silent from utter astonishment: he knew nothing that
  could suggest to him a reason for Hetty’s going away。
  “Hast any notion what she’s done it for?” he said; at last。
  “She can’t ha’ loved me。   She didn’t  like   our  marriage   when it
  came   nigh—that   must   be   it;”   said   Adam。   He   had   determined   to
  mention no further reason。
  “I hear Mother stirring;” said Seth。 “Must we tell her?”
  “No;   not   yet;”   said   Adam;   rising   from   the   bench   and   pushing
  the   hair   from   his   face;   as   if   he   wanted   to   rouse   himself。   “I   can’t
  have her told yet; and I must set out on another journey directly;
  after   I’ve   been   to   the   village   and   th’   Hall   Farm。   I   can’t   tell   thee
  where I’m going; and thee must say to her I’m gone on business as
  nobody is to know anything about。 I’ll go and wash myself now。”
  Adam moved towards the door of the workshop; but after a step or
  two   he   turned   round;   and;   meeting   Seth’s   eyes   with   a   calm   sad
  glance; he said; “I must take all the money out o’ the tin box; lad;
  but if anything happens to me; all the rest ’ll be thine; to take care
  o’ Mother with。”
  Seth   was   pale   and   trembling:   he   felt   there   was   some   terrible
  secret  under all   this。   “Brother;”   he   said;   faintly—he   never   called
  Adam       “Brother”     except     in  solemn     moments—“I         don’t    believe
  you’ll do anything as you can’t ask God’s blessing on。”
  “Nay;   lad;”   said   Adam;   “don’t   be   afraid。   I’m   for   doing   nought
  but what’s a man’s duty。”
  The thought that if he   betrayed   his   trouble   to  his  mother;   she
  would only distress him by words; half of blundering affection; half
  of irrepressible triumph that Hetty proved as unfit to be his wife as
  she    had    always     foreseen;    brought     back     some    of  his   habitual
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  firmness and self…command。 He had felt ill on his journey home—
  he    told   her   when     she    came     down—had        stayed     all  night   at
  Treddleston   for  that  reason; and   a   bad   headache;   that   still   hung
  about   him   this   morning;   accounted   for   his        paleness    and   heavy
  eyes。
  He determined to go to the village; in the first place; attend to
  his   business   for   an   hour;   and   give   notice   to   Burge   of   his   being
  obliged to go on a journey; which he must beg him not to mention
  to   any   one;   for   he   wished   to   avoid   going   to   the   Hall   Farm   near
  breakfast…time;   when   the   children   and   servants   would   be   in   the
  house…place;       and   there    must    be  exclamations       in  their   hearing
  about his having returned without Hetty。 He waited until the clock
  struck nine before he left the work…yard at the village; and set off;
  through the fields; towards the Farm。 It was an immense relief to
  him;     as   he   came    near    the   Home      Close;    to  see    Mr。   Poyser
  advancing towards him; for this would spare him the pain of going
  to the house。 Mr。 Poyser was walking briskly this March morning;
  with a sense of spring business on his mind: he was going to cast
  the master’s eye on the shoeing of a new cart…horse; carrying  his
  spud   as   a   useful   companion   by   the   way。   His   surprise   was   great
  when   he   caught   sight   of   Adam;   but   he   was   not   a   man   given   to
  presentiments of evil。
  “Why; Adam; lad; is’t you? Have ye been all this time away and
  not brought the lasses back; after all? Where are they?”
  “No;    I’ve   not   brought     ’em;”   said   Adam;      turning    round;     to
  indicate that he wished to walk back with Mr。 Poyser。
  “Why;”   said   Martin;   looking   with   sharper   attention   at   Adam;
  “ye look bad。 Is there anything happened?”
  “Yes;”   said   Adam;   heavily。   “A   sad   thing’s   happened。   I   didna
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  find Hetty at Snowfield。”
  Mr。    Poyser’s     good…natured        face   show