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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9229
  company。”   He   could   perhaps   have   given   no   precise   form   to   the
  reasons that determined this conclusion; but it is well known to all
  experienced        minds     that   our    firmest    convictions     are    often
  dependent   on   subtle   impressions   for   which   words   are   quite   too
  coarse a medium。 However it was; no one from the Poyser family
  went   to   church    that   afternoon    except    Hetty   and   the  boys;   yet
  Adam was bold enough to join them after church; and say that he
  would     walk   home     with   them;   though    all  the  way    through    the
  village he appeared to be chiefly occupied with Marty and Tommy;
  telling them about the squirrels in Binton Coppice; and promising
  to take them there some day。 But when they came to the fields he
  said to the boys; “Now; then; which is the stoutest walker? Him as
  gets to th’ home…gate first shall be the first to go with me to Binton
  Coppice on the donkey。 But Tommy must have the start up to the
  next stile; because he’s the smallest。”
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  Adam      had   never    behaved     so   much     like  a  determined      lover
  before。   As   soon   as   the   boys   had   both   set   off;   he   looked   down   at
  Hetty and said; “Won’t you hang on my arm; Hetty?” in a pleading
  tone;   as   if   he   had   already   asked   her   and   she   had   refused。   Hetty
  looked up at him smilingly and put her round arm through his in a
  moment。 It was nothing to her; putting her arm through Adam’s;
  but she knew he cared a great deal about having her arm through
  his; and she wished him to care。 Her heart beat no faster; and she
  looked at the half…bare hedgerows and the ploughed field with the
  same sense of oppressive dulness as before。 But Adam scarcely felt
  that   he   was   walking。   He   thought   Hetty   must   know   that   he   was
  pressing   her   arm   a   little—a   very   little。   Words   rushed   to   his   lips
  that he dared not utter—that he had made up his mind not to utter
  yet—and   so   he   was   silent   for   the   length   of   that   field。   The   calm
  patience with which he had once waited for Hetty’s love; content
  only with her presence and the thought of the future; had forsaken
  him     since    that   terrible   shock    nearly    three    months      ago。   The
  agitations of jealousy had given a new restlessness to his passion—
  had     made    fear   and    uncertainty     too   hard   almost     to  bear。   But
  though he might not speak to Hetty of his love; he would tell her
  about his new prospects and see if she would be pleased。 So when
  he was enough master of himself to talk; he said; “I’m going to tell
  your uncle some news that’ll surprise him; Hetty; and I think he’ll
  be glad to hear it too。”
  “What’s that?” Hetty said indifferently。
  “Why;   Mr。   Burge   has   offered   me   a   share   in   his   business;   and
  I’m going to take it。”
  There was a change in Hetty’s face; certainly not produced by
  any     agreeable     impression      from    this   news。    In   fact  she   felt  a
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  momentary   annoyance   and   alarm;   for   she   had   so   often   heard   it
  hinted   by   her   uncle   that   Adam   might   have   Mary   Burge   and   a
  share in the business any day; if he liked; that she associated the
  two     objects   now;    and    the   thought     immediately       occurred      that
  perhaps Adam   had   given   her   up   because   of   what   had   happened
  lately;   and   had   turned   towards   Mary   Burge。   With   that   thought;
  and before she had time to remember any reasons why it could not
  be   true;   came   a   new   sense   of   forsakenness   and   disappointment。
  The one thing—the one person—her mind had rested on in its dull
  weariness;   had   slipped   away   from   her;   and   peevish   misery   filled
  her eyes with tears。 She was looking on the ground; but Adam saw
  her face; saw the tears; and before he had finished saying; “Hetty;
  dear Hetty; what are you crying for?” his eager rapid thought had
  flown   through  all   the   causes   conceivable   to   him;   and   had   at   last
  alighted on half the true one。 Hetty thought he was going to marry
  Mary   Burge—she   didn’t   like   him   to   marry—perhaps   she   didn’t
  like   him    to   marry   any   one   but   herself?   All    caution    was   swept
  away—all reason for it was gone; and Adam could feel nothing but
  trembling   joy。   He   leaned   towards   her   and   took   her   hand;   as   he
  said:
  “I could afford to be married now; Hetty—I could make a wife
  comfortable; but I shall never want to be married if you won’t have
  me。”
  Hetty   looked   up   at   him   and   smiled   through   her   tears;   as   she
  had done to Arthur that first evening in the wood; when she had
  thought   he   was   not   coming;   and   yet   he   came。   It   was   a   feebler
  relief; a feebler triumph she felt now; but the great dark eyes and
  the sweet  lips   were   as   beautiful as   ever;   perhaps more   beautiful;
  for  there   was   a   more   luxuriant   womanliness   about   Hetty   of   late。
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  Adam could hardly believe in the happiness  of  that  moment。   His
  right hand held her left; and he pressed her arm close against his
  heart as he leaned down towards her。
  “Do you really love me; Hetty? Will you be my own wife; to love
  and take care of as long as I live?”
  Hetty did not speak; but Adam’s face was very close to hers; and
  she put up her round cheek against his; like a kitten。 She wanted
  to   be   caressed—she   wanted   to   feel       as  if   Arthur   were   with   her
  again。
  Adam   cared   for   no   words   after   that;     and   they   hardly   spoke
  through the rest of the walk。 He only said; “I may tell your uncle
  and aunt; mayn’t I; Hetty?” and she said; “Yes。”
  The   red   fire…light   on   the   hearth   at   the   Hall   Farm    shone   on
  joyful faces that evening; when Hetty was gone upstairs and Adam
  took     the  opportunity      of  telling   Mr。   and    Mrs。    Poyser    and    the
  grandfather  that  he   saw  his   way   to   maintaining   a   wife   now;   and
  that Hetty had consented to have him。
  “I   hope   you   have   no   objections   against   me   for   her   husband;”
  said Adam; “I’m a poor man as yet; but she shall want nothing as I
  can work for。”
  “Objections?”   said   Mr。   Poyser;   while   the        grandfather   leaned
  forward   and   brought   out   his   long   “Nay;   nay。”   “What   objections
  can   we   ha’   to   you;   lad?   Never   mind   your   being   poorish   as   yet;
  there’s   money   in   your   head…piece   as   there’s   money   i’   the   sown
  field; but it must ha’ time。 You’ve got enough to begin on; and we
  can  do  a  deal   tow’rt  the   bit  o’   furniture   you’ll   want。   Thee   ’st   got
  feathers and linen to spare—plenty; eh?”
  This question was of course addressed to Mrs。 Poyser; who was
  wrapped up in a warm shawl and was too hoarse to speak with her
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  usual facility。 At first she   only  nodded   emphatically; but  she   was
  presently unable to resist the temptation to be more explicit。
  “It  ’ud   be a   poor  tale   if  I   hadna   feathers   and   linen;”   she   said;
  hoarsely;   “when   I   never   sell   a   fowl   but   what’s   plucked;   and   the
  wheel’s a…going every day o’ the week。”
  “Come;   my  wench;”   said   Mr。   Poyser;   when   Hetty   came   down;
  “come and kiss us; and let us wish you luck。”
  Hetty went very quietly and kissed the big good…natured man。
  “There!”   he   said;   patting   her   on   the   back;   “go   and   kiss   your
  aunt and your grandfather。 I’m as wishful t’ have you settled well
  as if you was my own daughter; and so’s your aunt; I’ll be bound;
  for she’s done by you  this   seven   ’ear;   Hetty;   as   if  you’d  been   her
  own。 Come; come; now;” he went on; becoming jocose; as soon as
  Hetty had   kissed   her  aunt  and   the