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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9213
  He did not look directly at Adam; but glanced carelessly round at
  the trees and then lifted up one foot to look at the sole of his boot。
  He cared to say no more—he had thrown quite dust enough into
  honest  Adam’s   eyes—and   as   he   spoke   the   last   words;   he   walked
  on。
  “Stop     a  bit;  sir;”  said  Adam;     in  a   hard   peremptory       voice;
  without turning round。 “I’ve got a word to say to you。”
  Arthur      paused     in   surprise。    Susceptible     persons     are   more
  affected     by  a  change     of  tone   than   by   unexpected      words;    and
  Arthur had the susceptibility of a nature at once affectionate and
  vain。 He was still more surprised when he saw that Adam had not
  moved;   but   stood   with   his   back   to   him;   as   if   summoning   him   to
  return。    What     did  he   mean?     He   was    going   to  make     a  serious
  business of this affair。 Arthur felt his temper rising。 A patronising
  disposition always has its meaner side; and in the confusion of his
  irritation and alarm there entered the feeling that a man to whom
  he had shown so much favour as to Adam was not in a position to
  criticise his conduct。 And yet he was dominated; as one who feels
  himself in the wrong always is; by the man whose good opinion he
  cares    for。  In   spite   of  pride   and    temper;    there    was   as   much
  deprecation   as   anger   in   his   voice   when   he   said;   “What   do   you
  mean; Adam?”
  “I   mean;   sir”—answered   Adam;   in   the   same   harsh   voice;   still
  without turning round—“I mean; sir; that you don’t deceive me by
  your light words。 This is not the first time you’ve met Hetty Sorrel
  in this grove; and this is not the first time you’ve kissed her。”
  Arthur  felt  a   startled  uncertainty  how  far  Adam  was   speaking
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  from     knowledge;       and    how     far  from     mere    inference。     And     this
  uncertainty;       which     prevented       him    from     contriving     a   prudent
  answer;   heightened   his   irritation。   He   said;   in   a   high   sharp   tone;
  “Well; sir; what then?”
  “Why; then; instead of acting like th’ upright; honourable man
  we’ve all believed you to be; you’ve been acting the part of a selfish
  light…minded scoundrel。 You know as well as I do what it’s to lead
  to   when   a   gentleman   like   you   kisses   and   makes   love   to   a   young
  woman like   Hetty;   and  gives   her  presents   as   she’s   frightened   for
  other  folks   to  see。   And   I   say   it   again;   you’re   acting   the   part   of   a
  selfish light…minded scoundrel though it cuts me to th’ heart to say
  so; and I’d rather ha’ lost my right hand。”
  “Let    me    tell  you;   Adam;”      said   Arthur;     bridling    his   growing
  anger   and   trying   to   recur   to   his   careless   tone;   “you’re   not   only
  devilishly  impertinent;   but   you’re   talking  nonsense。   Every   pretty
  girl   is not  such  a  fool   as   you;   to  suppose   that   when   a   gentleman
  admires her beauty and pays her a little attention; he must mean
  something   particular。   Every   man   likes   to   flirt   with   a   pretty   girl;
  and     every    pretty    girl   likes   to  be   flirted   with。    The    wider     the
  distance between them; the less harm there is; for then she’s not
  likely to deceive herself。”
  “I   don’t  know   what   you   mean   by   flirting;”   said   Adam;   “but   if
  you  mean behaving  to  a   woman   as   if   you   loved   her;   and   yet   not
  loving   her   all   the   while;   I   say   that’s   not   th’   action   of   an   honest
  man; and what isn’t honest does come t’ harm。 I’m not a fool; and
  you’re   not   a   fool;   and   you   know   better   than   what   you’re   saying。
  You know it couldn’t be made public as you’ve behaved to Hetty as
  y’ have done without her losing her character and bringing shame
  and trouble on her and her relations。 What if you meant  nothing
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  by   your   kissing   and   your   presents?   Other   folks   won’t   believe   as
  you’ve   meant  nothing;   and don’t  tell   me about  her  not  deceiving
  herself。 I tell you as you’ve filled her mind so with the thought of
  you  as   it’ll   mayhap   poison   her life; and   she’ll   never   love   another
  man as ’ud make her a good husband。”
  Arthur   had   felt   a   sudden   relief   while   Adam   was   speaking;   he
  perceived   that  Adam   had   no positive   knowledge   of  the   past;   and
  that    there   was    no   irrevocable     damage      done    by  this   evening’s
  unfortunate rencontre。   Adam could  still be   deceived。   The   candid
  Arthur   had   brought   himself   into   a   position   in   which   successful
  lying was his only hope。 The hope allayed his anger a little。
  “Well; Adam;” he said; in a tone of friendly concession; “you’re
  perhaps right。 Perhaps I’ve gone a little too far in taking notice of
  the   pretty   little   thing   and   stealing   a   kiss   now   and   then。   You’re
  such a grave; steady fellow; you don’t understand the   temptation
  to    such    trifling。   I’m   sure    I  wouldn’t      bring    any    trouble    or
  annoyance on her and the good Poysers on any account if I could
  help it。 But I think you look a little  too  seriously  at it。   You  know
  I’m going away immediately; so I shan’t make any more mistakes
  of the kind。 But let us say good…night”—Arthur here turned round
  to walk on—“and talk no more about the matter。 The whole thing
  will soon be forgotten。”
  “No;     by   God!”    Adam      burst    out   with    rage   that    could    be
  controlled      no   longer;    throwing     down     the   basket    of  tools   and
  striding forward till he was right in front of Arthur。 All his jealousy
  and sense of personal injury; which he had been hitherto trying to
  keep under; had leaped up and mastered him。 What man of us; in
  the first moments of a sharp agony; could ever feel that the fellow…
  man who has been the medium of inflicting it did not mean to hurt
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  us? In our instinctive rebellion against pain; we are children again;
  and  demand an active   will   to   wreak   our   vengeance   on。   Adam   at
  this   moment  could   only  feel   that  he   had   been   robbed   of   Hetty—
  robbed treacherously by the man in whom he had trusted—and he
  stood close in front of Arthur; with fierce eyes glaring at him; with
  pale   lips   and   clenched   hands;   the   hard   tones   in      which   he    had
  hitherto been constraining himself to express no more than a just
  indignation   giving   way   to   a   deep   agitated   voice   that   seemed   to
  shake him as he spoke。
  “No; it’ll not be soon forgot; as you’ve come in between her and
  me;    when     she   might    ha’   loved   me—it’ll     not   soon   be   forgot   as
  you’ve   robbed   me   o’   my   happiness;   while   I   thought   you   was   my
  best friend; and a noble…minded man; as I was proud to work for。
  And   you’ve   been   kissing   her;   and   meaning   nothing;           have    you?
  And   I   never   kissed   her   i’   my   life—but   I’d   ha’   worked   hard   for
  years for the right to kiss her。 And you make light of it。 You think
  little o’ doing what may damage other folks; so as you get your bit
  o’ trifling; as means nothing。 I throw back your favours; for you’re
  not   the   man   I   took   you   for。   I’ll   never   count   you   my   friend   any
  more。   I’d   rather   you’d   act   as   my   enemy;   and   fight   me   where   I
  stand—it’s all th’ amends you can make me。”
  Poor   Adam;   possessed   by   rage   that   could   find   no   other   vent;
  began to throw off his coat and his cap; too blind with passion to
  notice   the   change   that   had   taken   place   in   Arthur   while   he   was
  speaking。 Arthur’s lips were now as pale as Adam’s; his heart was
  beating     violently。    The   discovery     that   Adam     loved    Hetty    was   a
  shock which made him for the moment see himself in the light of
  Adam’s indignation; and regard Adam’s suffering as not merely a
  consequence; but an element of his error。 The wo