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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9229
  Adam   was   determined   to   stay   no  longer;   no   one   wanted   him;
  and no one would notice if he slipped away。 As soon as he got out
  of   doors;   he   began   to   walk   at   his   habitual   rapid   pace;   hurrying
  along without knowing why; busy with the painful thought that the
  memory   of   this   day;   so   full   of   honour   and   promise   to   him;   was
  poisoned      for   ever。  Suddenly;      when   he    was   far  on   through     the
  Chase; he stopped; startled by a flash of reviving hope。 After all; he
  might be a fool; making a great misery out of a trifle。 Hetty; fond of
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  finery as she was; might have   bought  the   thing  herself。   It  looked
  too expensive for that—it looked like the things on white satin in
  the    great    jeweller’s     shop     at  Rosseter。      But    Adam      had    very
  imperfect   notions   of   the   value   of   such   things;   and   he   thought   it
  could   certainly   not   cost  more   than   a   guinea。   Perhaps   Hetty   had
  had     as  much      as  that   in   Christmas      boxes;    and    there    was    no
  knowing but she might have been   childish  enough  to  spend   it in
  that way; she was such a young thing; and she couldn’t help loving
  finery! But then; why had she been so frightened about it at first;
  and changed colour so; and afterwards pretended not to care? Oh;
  that was because she was ashamed of his seeing that she had such
  a   smart   thing—she   was   conscious   that   it   was   wrong   for   her   to
  spend her  money  on   it; and   she   knew  that  Adam  disapproved   of
  finery。 It was a proof she cared about what he liked and disliked。
  She   must   have   thought   from   his   silence   and   gravity   afterwards
  that he was very much displeased with her; that he was inclined to
  be   harsh   and   severe   towards   her   foibles。   And   as   he   walked   on
  more      quietly;    chewing      the    cud    of  this   new     hope;    his   only
  uneasiness   was   that   he   had   behaved   in   a   way   which   might   chill
  Hetty’s feeling towards him。 For this last view of the matter must
  be   the   true   one。   How   could   Hetty   have   an   accepted   lover;   quite
  unknown to him? She was never away from her uncle’s house for
  more   than   a   day;   she   could   have   no   acquaintances   that   did   not
  come there; and no intimacies unknown to her uncle and aunt。 It
  would   be   folly   to   believe   that   the   locket   was   given   to   her   by   a
  lover。   The   little   ring   of   dark   hair   he   felt   sure   was   her   own;   he
  could form no guess about the light hair under it; for he   had   not
  seen it very distinctly。 It might be a bit of her father’s or mother’s;
  who had died when she was a child; and she would naturally put a
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  bit of her own along with it。
  And so Adam went to bed comforted; having woven for himself
  an ingenious   web   of probabilities—the   surest   screen   a   wise   man
  can place between himself and the truth。 His last waking thoughts
  melted   into   a   dream   that   he   was   with   Hetty   again   at   the     Hall
  Farm; and that he was asking her to forgive him for being so cold
  and silent。
  And   while   he   was   dreaming  this; Arthur  was   leading   Hetty   to
  the dance and saying to her in low hurried tones; “I shall be in the
  wood the day after to…morrow at seven; come as early as you can。”
  And   Hetty’s   foolish   joys   and   hopes;   which   had   flown   away   for   a
  little   space;   scared   by   a   mere   nothing;   now   all   came      fluttering
  back;   unconscious   of   the   real   peril。   She   was   happy   for   the   first
  time   this   long   day;   and   wished   that   dance   would   last   for   hours。
  Arthur wished it too; it was the last weakness he meant to indulge
  in;   and   a   man   never   lies   with   more   delicious   languor   under   the
  influence of a passion than when he has persuaded himself that he
  shall subdue it to…morrow。
  But Mrs。 Poyser’s wishes were quite the reverse of this; for her
  mind was filled with dreary forebodings as to the retardation of to…
  morrow morning’s cheese in consequence of these late hours。 Now
  that   Hetty   had   done   her   duty   and      danced     one   dance     with   the
  young squire; Mr。 Poyser must go out and see if the cart was come
  back      to  fetch    them;     for   it  was    half…past     ten    o’clock;    and
  notwithstanding a mild suggestion on his part that it would be bad
  manners for them to be the first to go; Mrs。 Poyser was resolute on
  the point; “manners or no manners。”
  “What! Going already; Mrs。 Poyser?” said old Mr。 Donnithorne;
  as   she   came   to   curtsy   and   take   leave;   “I   thought   we   should   not
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  part with any of our guests till eleven。 Mrs。 Irwine and I; who are
  elderly people; think of sitting out the dance till then。”
  “Oh;   Your   Honour;   it’s   all   right   and   proper   for   gentlefolks   to
  stay    up   by   candlelight—they’ve         got  no   cheese    on   their   minds。
  We’re late enough as it is; an’ there’s no lettin’ the cows know as
  they mustn’t want to be milked so early to…morrow mornin’。 So; if
  you’ll please t’ excuse us; we’ll take our leave。”
  “Eh!” she said to her husband;   as   they  set  off  in   the   cart;   “I’d
  sooner ha’ brewin’ day and washin’ day together than one o’ these
  pleasurin’   days。   There’s   no   work   so   tirin’   as   danglin’   about   an’
  starin’   an’   not   rightly   knowin’   what   you’re   goin’   to   do   next;   and
  keepin’   your   face   i’   smilin’   order   like   a   grocer   o’   market…day   for
  fear people shouldna think you civil enough。 An’ you’ve nothing to
  show for ’t when it’s done; if it isn’t a yallow face wi’ eatin’ things
  as disagree。”
  “Nay; nay;” said Mr。 Poyser; who was in his merriest mood; and
  felt that he had had a great day; “a bit o’ pleasuring’s good for thee
  sometimes。 An’ thee danc’st as well as any of ’em; for I’ll back thee
  against all the wives i’ the parish for a light foot an’ ankle。 An’  it
  was a great honour for the young squire to ask thee first—I reckon
  it was because I sat at th’ head o’ the table an’ made the speech。
  An’ Hetty too—she never had such a partner before—a fine young
  gentleman   in   reg’mentals。   It’ll   serve   you   to   talk   on;   Hetty;   when
  you’re   an   old   woman—how   you   danced   wi’   th’   young   squire   the
  day he come o’ age。”
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  Book Fourth
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  Chapter XXVII
  A Crisis
  t was beyond the middle of August—nearly three weeks after
  the birthday feast。 The reaping of the wheat had begun in our
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  north midland county of Loamshire; but the harvest was likely
  still  to  be   retarded    by  the   heavy    rains;  which    were    causing
  inundations and much damage throughout the country。 From this
  last trouble the Broxton and Hayslope farmers; on  their  pleasant
  uplands and in their brook…watered valleys; had not suffered; and
  as I cannot pretend that they were such exceptional farmers as to
  love   the   general   good   better   than   their   own;   you   will   infer   that
  they were not in very low spirits about the rapid rise in the price of
  bread;  so  long   as   there   was   hope   of   gathering   in   their   own   corn
  undamaged;   and   occasional   days   of   sunshine   and   drying   winds
  flattered this hope。
  The     eighteenth    of  August    was   one   of  these  days   when    the
  sunshine     looked    brighter   in  all  eyes  for  the   gloom    that  went
  before。 Grand masses of cloud were hurried across   the blue; and
  the   great   round   hills