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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9238
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  respectfully when she saw Mr。 Irwine looking at her and
  advancing towards her。 He had never yet spoken to her; or stood
  face   to  face   with  her;   and   her   first   thought;   as   her   eyes   met   his;
  was;   “What   a   well…favoured   countenance!  Oh   that   the   good   seed
  might fall on that soil; for it would surely flourish。” The agreeable
  impression must  have been mutual;   for  Mr。   Irwine   bowed  to  her
  with   a   benignant   deference;   which   would   have   been   equally   in
  place if she had been the most dignified lady of his acquaintance。
  “You   are   only  a   visitor   in   this   neighbourhood;   I   think?”   were
  his first words; as he seated himself opposite to her。
  “No;   sir;   I   come   from   Snowfield;   in   Stonyshire。   But   my   aunt
  was    very   kind;   wanting   me    to  have   rest  from    my   work    there;
  because I’d been ill; and she invited me to come and stay with her
  for a while。”
  “Ah; I remember Snowfield very well; I once had occasion to go
  there。 It’s a dreary  bleak   place。   They  were   building  a   cotton…mill
  there; but that’s many years ago now。 I suppose the place is a good
  deal changed by the employment that mill must have brought。”
  “It is changed so far as the mill has brought people there; who
  get a livelihood for themselves by working in it; and make it better
  for   the   trades…folks。   I   work   in   it   myself;   and   have   reason   to   be
  grateful;   for   thereby   I   have   enough   and   to   spare。   But   it’s   still   a
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  bleak place; as you say; sir—very different from this country。”
  “You     have    relations   living   there;   probably;     so   that  you    are
  attached to the place as your home?”
  “I   had   an   aunt   there   once;   she   brought   me   up;   for   I   was   an
  orphan。   But  she   was   taken away  seven   years  ago;   and  I   have   no
  other kindred that I know of; besides my Aunt Poyser; who is very
  good   to   me;   and   would   have   me   come   and   live   in   this   country;
  which  to  be   sure   is a   good land;   wherein   they   eat   bread   without
  scarceness。 But I’m not free to leave Snowfield; where I was first
  planted; and have grown deep into it; like the   small   grass   on   the
  hill…top。”
  “Ah; I daresay you have many religious friends and companions
  there; you are a Methodist—a Wesleyan; I think?”
  “Yes; my aunt at Snowfield belonged to the Society; and I have
  cause to be thankful for the privileges I have had thereby from my
  earliest childhood。”
  “And     have    you   been    long   in  the  habit    of  preaching?      For   I
  understand you preached at Hayslope last night。”
  “I   first  took   to  the   work   four   years   since;   when   I   was   twenty…
  one。”
  “Your Society sanctions women’s preaching; then?”
  “It   doesn’t   forbid   them;   sir;   when   they’ve   a   clear   call   to   the
  work;     and   when     their  ministry     is  owned    by   the   conversion     of
  sinners and   the   strengthening   of  God’s   people。   Mrs。   Fletcher;   as
  you may have heard about; was the first woman to preach in the
  Society;   I   believe;   before   she   was   married;   when   she   was   Miss
  Bosanquet;       and    Mr。   Wesley     approved      of  her   undertaking       the
  work。 She had a great gift; and there are many others now living
  who   are    precious     fellow…helpers      in  the  work    of  the   ministry。    I
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  understand there’s been voices raised against it  in  the  Society  of
  late; but  I   cannot  but  think  their  counsel   will   come   to  nought。   It
  isn’t   for   men   to   make   channels   for   God’s      Spirit;  as   they   make
  channels   for  the   watercourses;   and   say;   ‘Flow   here;   but   flow  not
  there。’”
  “But  don’t  you  find   some   danger   among   your   people—I   don’t
  mean to say that it is so with you; far from it—but don’t you find
  sometimes that both men and women fancy  themselves channels
  for God’s Spirit; and are quite mistaken; so that  they  set  about  a
  work      for   which     they   are    unfit   and    bring     holy   things     into
  contempt?”
  “Doubtless   it   is   so   sometimes;   for   there   have   been   evil…doers
  among   us   who   have   sought   to   deceive   the   brethren;   and   some
  there   are   who   deceive   their   own   selves。   But   we   are   not   without
  discipline and correction to put a check upon these things。 There’s
  a   very   strict   order   kept   among   us;   and   the   brethren   and   sisters
  watch for each other’s souls as they that must give account。 They
  don’t    go   every   one    his  own    way   and    say;   ‘Am    I  my   brother’s
  keeper?’”
  “But     tell  me—if     I  may    ask;   and    I  am   really   interested     in
  knowing it—how you first came to think of preaching?”
  “Indeed; sir;   I   didn’t  think  of  it  at  all—I’d been   used   from   the
  time I was sixteen to talk to the little children; and teach them; and
  sometimes I had had my heart enlarged to speak in class; and was
  much drawn out in prayer with the sick。 But I had felt no call to
  preach;   for   when   I’m   not   greatly   wrought   upon;         I’m   too   much
  given to sit still and keep by myself。 It seems as if I could sit silent
  all day long with the thought of God overflowing my soul—as the
  pebbles      lie  bathed    in   the  Willow     Brook。     For   thoughts     are   so
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  great—aren’t they; sir? They seem to lie upon us like a deep flood;
  and it’s my besetment to forget where I am and everything about
  me; and lose myself in thoughts that I could give no account of; for
  I   could   neither   make   a   beginning   nor   ending   of   them   in   words。
  That   was   my   way   as   long   as   I   can   remember;   but   sometimes   it
  seemed as if speech came to me without any will of my own; and
  words were given to me that came out as the tears come; because
  our   hearts   are   full   and   we   can’t   help   it。   And   those   were   always
  times of great blessing; though I had never thought it could be so
  with me before a congregation of people。  But;   sir;   we   are led   on;
  like the little children; by a way that we know not。 I was called to
  preach   quite   suddenly;   and   since   then   I   have   never   been   left   in
  doubt about the work that was laid upon me。”
  “But tell me the   circumstances—just  how  it  was;   the   very  day
  you began to preach。”
  “It was one Sunday I walked with brother Marlowe; who was an
  aged     man;    one   of  the   local   preachers;     all  the   way    to  Hetton…
  Deeps—that’s         a  village    where     the   people    get   their   living    by
  working      in   the   lead…mines;     and    where     there’s   no   church     nor
  preacher;   but  they  live like sheep   without  a   shepherd。  It’s   better
  than     twelve    miles   from    Snowfield;     so   we   set  out   early   in   the
  morning; for it was summertime; and I had a   wonderful   sense   of
  the Divine love as we walked over the hills; where there’s no trees;
  you know; sir; as there is here; to make the sky look smaller; but
  you   see   the   heavens   stretched   out   like   a   tent;   and   you   feel   the
  everlasting arms around you。 But before we got to Hetton; brother
  Marlowe       was    seized   with   a  dizziness     that   made    him    afraid   of
  falling; for he overworked himself sadly; at his years; in watching
  and   praying;   and   walking   so   many   miles   to   speak   the   Word;   as
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  well as carrying on his trade of linen…weaving。 And when we got to
  the village; the people were expecting him; for he’d appointed the
  time and the place when he was there before; and such of them as
  cared   to  hear  the   Word   of   Life   were   assembled   on   a   spot   where
  the   cottages   was   thic