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温暖寒冬 更新:2024-04-09 19:50 字数:9238
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respectfully when she saw Mr。 Irwine looking at her and
advancing towards her。 He had never yet spoken to her; or stood
face to face with her; and her first thought; as her eyes met his;
was; “What a well…favoured countenance! Oh that the good seed
might fall on that soil; for it would surely flourish。” The agreeable
impression must have been mutual; for Mr。 Irwine bowed to her
with a benignant deference; which would have been equally in
place if she had been the most dignified lady of his acquaintance。
“You are only a visitor in this neighbourhood; I think?” were
his first words; as he seated himself opposite to her。
“No; sir; I come from Snowfield; in Stonyshire。 But my aunt
was very kind; wanting me to have rest from my work there;
because I’d been ill; and she invited me to come and stay with her
for a while。”
“Ah; I remember Snowfield very well; I once had occasion to go
there。 It’s a dreary bleak place。 They were building a cotton…mill
there; but that’s many years ago now。 I suppose the place is a good
deal changed by the employment that mill must have brought。”
“It is changed so far as the mill has brought people there; who
get a livelihood for themselves by working in it; and make it better
for the trades…folks。 I work in it myself; and have reason to be
grateful; for thereby I have enough and to spare。 But it’s still a
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bleak place; as you say; sir—very different from this country。”
“You have relations living there; probably; so that you are
attached to the place as your home?”
“I had an aunt there once; she brought me up; for I was an
orphan。 But she was taken away seven years ago; and I have no
other kindred that I know of; besides my Aunt Poyser; who is very
good to me; and would have me come and live in this country;
which to be sure is a good land; wherein they eat bread without
scarceness。 But I’m not free to leave Snowfield; where I was first
planted; and have grown deep into it; like the small grass on the
hill…top。”
“Ah; I daresay you have many religious friends and companions
there; you are a Methodist—a Wesleyan; I think?”
“Yes; my aunt at Snowfield belonged to the Society; and I have
cause to be thankful for the privileges I have had thereby from my
earliest childhood。”
“And have you been long in the habit of preaching? For I
understand you preached at Hayslope last night。”
“I first took to the work four years since; when I was twenty…
one。”
“Your Society sanctions women’s preaching; then?”
“It doesn’t forbid them; sir; when they’ve a clear call to the
work; and when their ministry is owned by the conversion of
sinners and the strengthening of God’s people。 Mrs。 Fletcher; as
you may have heard about; was the first woman to preach in the
Society; I believe; before she was married; when she was Miss
Bosanquet; and Mr。 Wesley approved of her undertaking the
work。 She had a great gift; and there are many others now living
who are precious fellow…helpers in the work of the ministry。 I
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understand there’s been voices raised against it in the Society of
late; but I cannot but think their counsel will come to nought。 It
isn’t for men to make channels for God’s Spirit; as they make
channels for the watercourses; and say; ‘Flow here; but flow not
there。’”
“But don’t you find some danger among your people—I don’t
mean to say that it is so with you; far from it—but don’t you find
sometimes that both men and women fancy themselves channels
for God’s Spirit; and are quite mistaken; so that they set about a
work for which they are unfit and bring holy things into
contempt?”
“Doubtless it is so sometimes; for there have been evil…doers
among us who have sought to deceive the brethren; and some
there are who deceive their own selves。 But we are not without
discipline and correction to put a check upon these things。 There’s
a very strict order kept among us; and the brethren and sisters
watch for each other’s souls as they that must give account。 They
don’t go every one his own way and say; ‘Am I my brother’s
keeper?’”
“But tell me—if I may ask; and I am really interested in
knowing it—how you first came to think of preaching?”
“Indeed; sir; I didn’t think of it at all—I’d been used from the
time I was sixteen to talk to the little children; and teach them; and
sometimes I had had my heart enlarged to speak in class; and was
much drawn out in prayer with the sick。 But I had felt no call to
preach; for when I’m not greatly wrought upon; I’m too much
given to sit still and keep by myself。 It seems as if I could sit silent
all day long with the thought of God overflowing my soul—as the
pebbles lie bathed in the Willow Brook。 For thoughts are so
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great—aren’t they; sir? They seem to lie upon us like a deep flood;
and it’s my besetment to forget where I am and everything about
me; and lose myself in thoughts that I could give no account of; for
I could neither make a beginning nor ending of them in words。
That was my way as long as I can remember; but sometimes it
seemed as if speech came to me without any will of my own; and
words were given to me that came out as the tears come; because
our hearts are full and we can’t help it。 And those were always
times of great blessing; though I had never thought it could be so
with me before a congregation of people。 But; sir; we are led on;
like the little children; by a way that we know not。 I was called to
preach quite suddenly; and since then I have never been left in
doubt about the work that was laid upon me。”
“But tell me the circumstances—just how it was; the very day
you began to preach。”
“It was one Sunday I walked with brother Marlowe; who was an
aged man; one of the local preachers; all the way to Hetton…
Deeps—that’s a village where the people get their living by
working in the lead…mines; and where there’s no church nor
preacher; but they live like sheep without a shepherd。 It’s better
than twelve miles from Snowfield; so we set out early in the
morning; for it was summertime; and I had a wonderful sense of
the Divine love as we walked over the hills; where there’s no trees;
you know; sir; as there is here; to make the sky look smaller; but
you see the heavens stretched out like a tent; and you feel the
everlasting arms around you。 But before we got to Hetton; brother
Marlowe was seized with a dizziness that made him afraid of
falling; for he overworked himself sadly; at his years; in watching
and praying; and walking so many miles to speak the Word; as
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well as carrying on his trade of linen…weaving。 And when we got to
the village; the people were expecting him; for he’d appointed the
time and the place when he was there before; and such of them as
cared to hear the Word of Life were assembled on a spot where
the cottages was thic