第 48 节
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打倒一切 更新:2024-04-07 21:07 字数:9322
〃But we must first suppose Isabella to have had a heart
to loseconsequently to have been a very different creature;
and; in that case; she would have met with very different treatment。〃
〃It is very right that you should stand by your brother。〃
〃And if you would stand by yours; you would not be
much distressed by the disappointment of Miss Thorpe。
But your mind is warped by an innate principle of
general integrity; and therefore not accessible to the cool
reasonings of family partiality; or a desire of revenge。〃
Catherine was complimented out of further bitterness。
Frederick could not be unpardonably guilty; while Henry
made himself so agreeable。 She resolved on not answering
Isabella's letter; and tried to think no more of it。
CHAPTER 28
Soon after this; the general found himself obliged
to go to London for a week; and he left Northanger
earnestly regretting that any necessity should rob him
even for an hour of Miss Morland's company; and anxiously
recommending the study of her comfort and amusement
to his children as their chief object in his absence。
His departure gave Catherine the first experimental conviction
that a loss may be sometimes a gain。 The happiness with
which their time now passed; every employment voluntary;
every laugh indulged; every meal a scene of ease and
good humour; walking where they liked and when they liked;
their hours; pleasures; and fatigues at their own command;
made her thoroughly sensible of the restraint which the
general's presence had imposed; and most thankfully feel
their present release from it。 Such ease and such delights
made her love the place and the people more and more
every day; and had it not been for a dread of its soon
becoming expedient to leave the one; and an apprehension
of not being equally beloved by the other; she would at
each moment of each day have been perfectly happy; but she
was now in the fourth week of her visit; before the general
came home; the fourth week would be turned; and perhaps
it might seem an intrusion if she stayed much longer。
This was a painful consideration whenever it occurred;
and eager to get rid of such a weight on her mind;
she very soon resolved to speak to Eleanor about it
at once; propose going away; and be guided in her conduct
by the manner in which her proposal might be taken。
Aware that if she gave herself much time; she might
feel it difficult to bring forward so unpleasant
a subject; she took the first opportunity of being
suddenly alone with Eleanor; and of Eleanor's being
in the middle of a speech about something very different;
to start forth her obligation of going away very soon。
Eleanor looked and declared herself much concerned。
She had 〃hoped for the pleasure of her company for a much
longer timehad been misled (perhaps by her wishes)
to suppose that a much longer visit had been promisedand
could not but think that if Mr。 and Mrs。 Morland were
aware of the pleasure it was to her to have her there;
they would be too generous to hasten her return。〃
Catherine explained: 〃Oh! As to that; Papa and Mamma were
in no hurry at all。 As long as she was happy; they would
always be satisfied。〃
〃Then why; might she ask; in such a hurry herself
to leave them?〃
〃Oh! Because she had been there so long。〃
〃Nay; if you can use such a word; I can urge you
no farther。 If you think it long〃
〃Oh! No; I do not indeed。 For my own pleasure; I could
stay with you as long again。〃 And it was directly settled that;
till she had; her leaving them was not even to be thought of。
In having this cause of uneasiness so pleasantly removed;
the force of the other was likewise weakened。 The kindness;
the earnestness of Eleanor's manner in pressing her to stay;
and Henry's gratified look on being told that her stay
was determined; were such sweet proofs of her importance
with them; as left her only just so much solicitude
as the human mind can never do comfortably without。
She didalmost alwaysbelieve that Henry loved her;
and quite always that his father and sister loved and
even wished her to belong to them; and believing so far;
her doubts and anxieties were merely sportive irritations。
Henry was not able to obey his father's injunction of
remaining wholly at Northanger in attendance on the ladies;
during his absence in London; the engagements of his curate
at Woodston obliging him to leave them on Saturday for a
couple of nights。 His loss was not now what it had been
while the general was at home; it lessened their gaiety;
but did not ruin their comfort; and the two girls agreeing
in occupation; and improving in intimacy; found themselves
so well sufficient for the time to themselves; that it was
eleven o'clock; rather a late hour at the abbey; before they
quitted the supper…room on the day of Henry's departure。
They had just reached the head of the stairs when it seemed;
as far as the thickness of the walls would allow them
to judge; that a carriage was driving up to the door;
and the next moment confirmed the idea by the loud noise
of the house…bell。 After the first perturbation of surprise
had passed away; in a 〃Good heaven! What can be the matter?〃
it was quickly decided by Eleanor to be her eldest brother;
whose arrival was often as sudden; if not quite so unseasonable;
and accordingly she hurried down to welcome him。
Catherine walked on to her chamber; making up her
mind as well as she could; to a further acquaintance with
Captain Tilney; and comforting herself under the unpleasant
impression his conduct had given her; and the persuasion
of his being by far too fine a gentleman to approve of her;
that at least they should not meet under such circumstances
as would make their meeting materially painful。
She trusted he would never speak of Miss Thorpe;
and indeed; as he must by this time be ashamed of the
part he had acted; there could be no danger of it;
and as long as all mention of Bath scenes were avoided;
she thought she could behave to him very civilly。
In such considerations time passed away; and it was certainly
in his favour that Eleanor should be so glad to see him;
and have so much to say; for half an hour was almost
gone since his arrival; and Eleanor did not come up。
At that moment Catherine thought she heard her
step in the gallery; and listened for its continuance;
but all was silent。 Scarcely; however; had she convicted
her fancy of error; when the noise of something moving
close to her door made her start; it seemed as if someone
was touching the very doorwayand in another moment
a slight motion of the lock proved that some hand must
be on it。 She trembled a little at the idea of anyone's
approaching so cautiously; but resolving not to be again
overcome by trivial appearances of alarm; or misled
by a raised imagination; she stepped quietly forward;
and opened the door。 Eleanor; and only Eleanor; stood there。
Catherine's spirits; however; were tranquillized but for
an instant; for Eleanor's cheeks were pale; and her manner
greatly agitated。 Though evidently intending to come in;
it seemed an effort to enter the room; and a still
greater to speak when there。 Catherine; supposing some
uneasiness on Captain Tilney's account; could only
express her concern by silent attention; obliged her
to be seated; rubbed her temples with lavender…water;
and hung over her with affectionate solicitude。
〃My dear Catherine; you must notyou must not indeed〃
were Eleanor's first connected words。 〃I am quite well。
This kindness distracts meI cannot bear itI come
to you on such an errand!〃
〃Errand! To me!〃
〃How shall I tell you! Oh! How shall I tell you!〃
A new idea now darted into Catherine's mind;
and turning as pale as her friend; she exclaimed;
〃'Tis a messenger from Woodston!〃
〃You are mistaken; indeed;〃 returned Eleanor; looking at
her most compassionately; 〃it is no one from Woodston。
It is my father himself。〃 Her voice faltered; and her eyes
were turned to the ground as she mentioned his name。
His unlooked…for return was enough in itself to make
Catherine's heart sink;