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作者:打倒一切      更新:2024-04-07 21:07      字数:9322
  in the next day; and remained in almost constant attendance
  for four and twenty hours。  On the fifth day she died。
  During the progress of her disorder; Frederick and I (we
  were both at home) saw her repeatedly; and from our own
  observation can bear witness to her having received
  every possible attention which could spring from the
  affection of those about her; or which her situation
  in life could command。  Poor Eleanor was absent; and at
  such a distance as to return only to see her mother in
  her coffin。〃
  〃But your father;〃 said Catherine; 〃was he afflicted?〃
  〃For a time; greatly so。  You have erred in supposing
  him not attached to her。  He loved her; I am persuaded;
  as well as it was possible for him towe have not all;
  you know; the same tenderness of dispositionand
  I will not pretend to say that while she lived;
  she might not often have had much to bear; but though
  his temper injured her; his judgment never did。
  His value of her was sincere; and; if not permanently;
  he was truly afflicted by her death。〃
  〃I am very glad of it;〃 said Catherine; 〃it would
  have been very shocking!〃
  〃If I understand you rightly; you had formed a
  surmise of such horror as I have hardly words to Dear
  Miss Morland; consider the dreadful nature of the suspicions
  you have entertained。  What have you been judging from?
  Remember the country and the age in which we live。
  Remember that we are English; that we are Christians。
  Consult your own understanding; your own sense of the probable;
  your own observation of what is passing around you。
  Does our education prepare us for such atrocities? Do
  our laws connive at them? Could they be perpetrated
  without being known; in a country like this; where social
  and literary intercourse is on such a footing; where every
  man is surrounded by a neighbourhood of voluntary spies;
  and where roads and newspapers lay everything open? Dearest
  Miss Morland; what ideas have you been admitting?〃
  They had reached the end of the gallery; and with
  tears of shame she ran off to her own room。
  CHAPTER 25
  The visions of romance were over。  Catherine was
  completely awakened。  Henry's address; short as it had been;
  had more thoroughly opened her eyes to the extravagance of her
  late fancies than all their several disappointments had done。
  Most grievously was she humbled。  Most bitterly did she cry。
  It was not only with herself that she was sunkbut
  with Henry。  Her folly; which now seemed even criminal;
  was all exposed to him; and he must despise her forever。
  The liberty which her imagination had dared to take with
  the character of his fathercould he ever forgive it? The
  absurdity of her curiosity and her fearscould they ever
  be forgotten? She hated herself more than she could express。
  He hadshe thought he had; once or twice before this
  fatal morning; shown something like affection for her。
  But nowin short; she made herself as miserable as
  possible for about half an hour; went down when the clock
  struck five; with a broken heart; and could scarcely give
  an intelligible answer to Eleanor's inquiry if she was well。
  The formidable Henry soon followed her into the room;
  and the only difference in his behaviour to her was
  that he paid her rather more attention than usual。
  Catherine had never wanted comfort more; and he looked
  as if he was aware of it。
  The evening wore away with no abatement of this
  soothing politeness; and her spirits were gradually raised
  to a modest tranquillity。  She did not learn either
  to forget or defend the past; but she learned to hope
  that it would never transpire farther; and that it might
  not cost her Henry's entire regard。  Her thoughts being
  still chiefly fixed on what she had with such causeless
  terror felt and done; nothing could shortly be clearer than
  that it had been all a voluntary; self…created delusion;
  each trifling circumstance receiving importance from
  an imagination resolved on alarm; and everything forced
  to bend to one purpose by a mind which; before she
  entered the abbey; had been craving to be frightened。
  She remembered with what feelings she had prepared for a
  knowledge of Northanger。  She saw that the infatuation
  had been created; the mischief settled; long before her
  quitting Bath; and it seemed as if the whole might be traced
  to the influence of that sort of reading which she had
  there indulged。
  Charming as were all Mrs。 Radcliffe's works;
  and charming even as were the works of all her imitators;
  it was not in them perhaps that human nature; at least
  in the Midland counties of England; was to be looked for。
  Of the Alps and Pyrenees; with their pine forests and
  their vices; they might give a faithful delineation;
  and Italy; Switzerland; and the south of France might be
  as fruitful in horrors as they were there represented。
  Catherine dared not doubt beyond her own country; and even
  of that; if hard pressed; would have yielded the northern
  and western extremities。  But in the central part of
  England there was surely some security for the existence
  even of a wife not beloved; in the laws of the land;
  and the manners of the age。  Murder was not tolerated;
  servants were not slaves; and neither poison nor sleeping
  potions to be procured; like rhubarb; from every druggist。
  Among the Alps and Pyrenees; perhaps; there were no
  mixed characters。  There; such as were not as spotless
  as an angel might have the dispositions of a fiend。
  But in England it was not so; among the English; she believed;
  in their hearts and habits; there was a general though
  unequal mixture of good and bad。  Upon this conviction;
  she would not be surprised if even in Henry and Eleanor
  Tilney; some slight imperfection might hereafter appear;
  and upon this conviction she need not fear to acknowledge
  some actual specks in the character of their father; who;
  though cleared from the grossly injurious suspicions which
  she must ever blush to have entertained; she did believe;
  upon serious consideration; to be not perfectly amiable。
  Her mind made up on these several points;
  and her resolution formed; of always judging and acting
  in future with the greatest good sense; she had nothing
  to do but to forgive herself and be happier than ever;
  and the lenient hand of time did much for her by
  insensible gradations in the course of another day。
  Henry's astonishing generosity and nobleness of conduct;
  in never alluding in the slightest way to what had passed;
  was of the greatest assistance to her; and sooner than
  she could have supposed it possible in the beginning of
  her distress; her spirits became absolutely comfortable;
  and capable; as heretofore; of continual improvement by
  anything he said。  There were still some subjects; indeed;
  under which she believed they must always tremblethe
  mention of a chest or a cabinet; for instanceand she did
  not love the sight of japan in any shape: but even she
  could allow that an occasional memento of past folly;
  however painful; might not be without use。
  The anxieties of common life began soon to succeed to
  the alarms of romance。  Her desire of hearing from Isabella
  grew every day greater。  She was quite impatient to know
  how the Bath world went on; and how the rooms were attended;
  and especially was she anxious to be assured of Isabella's
  having matched some fine netting…cotton; on which she
  had left her intent; and of her continuing on the best
  terms with James。  Her only dependence for information
  of any kind was on Isabella。  James had protested against
  writing to her till his return to Oxford; and Mrs。 Allen
  had given her no hopes of a letter till she had got back
  to Fullerton。  But Isabella had promised and promised again;
  and when she promised a thing; she was so scrupulous
  in performing it! This made it so particularly strange!
  For nine successive mornings; Catherine wondered
  over the repetition of a disappointment; which each
  morning became more severe: but; on the tenth; when she
  entered the breakfast…room; her first object was a letter;
  held out by Henry's willing hand。  She thanked him
  as heartily as if he had written it himself。  〃'Tis only
  from James; however;〃 as she looked at the direc