第 8 节
作者:痛罚      更新:2024-04-07 11:54      字数:9322
  our different viewpoints。  Beyond doubt I was a pert and
  trying young person。  I lost no opportunity to lead Prudence
  beyond her intellectual depth and leave her there; and
  Prudence vented her chagrin not alone upon me; but upon
  my little brother。  I became a thorn in her side; and one
  day; after an especially unpleasant episode in which Harry
  also figured; she plucked me out; as it were; and cast me
  for ever from her。  From that time I studied at home; where
  I was a much more valuable economic factor than I had
  been in school。
  The second spring after our arrival Harry and I
  extended our operations by tapping the sugar…
  bushes; collecting all the sap; and carrying it home
  in pails slung from our yoke…laden shoulders。  To…
  gether we made one hundred and fifty pounds of
  sugar and a barrel of syrup; but here again; as al…
  ways; we worked in primitive ways。  To get the sap
  we chopped a gash in the tree and drove in a spile。
  Then we dug out a trough to catch the sap。  It was
  no light task to lift these troughs full of sap and
  empty the sap into buckets; but we did it success…
  fully; and afterward built fires and boiled it down。
  By this time we had also cleared some of our ground;
  and during the spring we were able to plow; dividing
  the work in a way that seemed fair to us both。
  These were strenuous occupations for a boy of nine
  and a girl of thirteen; but; though we were not in…
  ordinately good children; we never complained; we
  found them very satisfactory substitutes for more
  normal bucolic joys。  Inevitably; we had our little
  tragedies。  Our cow died; and for an entire winter
  we went without milk。  Our coffee soon gave out;
  and as a substitute we made and used a mixture of
  browned peas and burnt rye。  In the winter we
  were always cold; and the water problem; until we
  had built our well; was ever with us。
  Father joined us at the end of eighteen months;
  but though his presence gave us pleasure and moral
  support; he was not an addition to our executive
  staff。  He brought with him a rocking…chair for
  mother and a new supply of books; on which I fell
  as a starving man falls upon food。  Father read as
  eagerly as I; but much more steadily。  His mind
  was always busy with problems; and if; while he
  was laboring in the field; a new problem presented
  itself to him; the imperishable curiosity that was
  in him made him scurry at once to the house to
  solve it。  I have known him to spend a planting
  season in figuring on the production of a certain
  number of kernels of corn; instead of planting the
  corn and raising it。  In the winter he was supposed
  to spend his time clearing land for orchards and
  the like; but instead he pored over his books and
  problems day after day and often half the night as
  well。  It soon became known among our neigh…
  bors; who were rapidly increasing in number; that
  we had books and that father like to read aloud;
  and men walked ten miles or more to spend the night
  with us and listen to his reading。  Often; as his
  fame grew; ten or twelve men would arrive at our
  cabin on Saturday and remain over Sunday。  When
  my mother once tried to check this influx of guests
  by mildly pointing out; among other things; the
  waste of candles represented by frequent all…night
  readings; every man humbly appeared again on the
  following Saturday with a candle in each hand。
  They were not sensitive; and; as they had brought
  their candles; it seemed fitting to them and to father
  that we girls should cook for them and supply them
  with food。
  Father's tolerance of idleness in others; however;
  did not extend to tolerance of idleness in us; and
  this led to my first rebellion; which occurred when
  I was fourteen。  For once; I had been in the woods
  all day; buried in my books; and when I returned
  at night; still in the dream world these books had
  opened to me; father was awaiting my coming with
  a brow dark with disapproval。  As it happened;
  mother had felt that day some special need of me;
  and father reproached me bitterly for being beyond
  reachan idler who wasted time while mother
  labored。  He ended a long arraignment by predicting
  gloomily that with such tendencies I would make
  nothing of my life。
  The injustice of the criticism cut deep; I knew
  I had done and was doing my share for the family;
  and already; too; I had begun to feel the call of my
  career。  For some reason I wanted to preachto
  talk to people; to tell them things。  Just why; just
  what; I did not yet knowbut I had begun to
  preach in the silent woods; to stand up on stumps
  and address the unresponsive trees; to feel the stir
  of aspiration within me。
  When my father had finished all he wished to
  say; I looked at him and answered; quietly; ‘‘Father;
  some day I am going to college。''
  I can still see his slight; ironical smile。  It drove
  me to a second prediction。  I was young enough to
  measure success by material results; so I added;
  recklessly:
  ‘‘And before I die I shall be worth ten thousand
  dollars!''
  The amount staggered me even as it dropped from
  my lips。  It was the largest fortune my imagination
  could conceive; and in my heart I believed that no
  woman ever had possessed or would possess so
  much。  So far as I knew; too; no woman had gone
  to college。  But now that I had put my secret hopes
  into words; I was desperately determined to make
  those hopes come true。  After I became a wage…
  earner I lost my desire to make a fortune; but the
  college dream grew with the years; and though my
  college career seemed as remote as the most distant
  star; I hitched my little wagon to that star and never
  afterward wholly lost sight of its friendly gleam。
  When I was fifteen years old I was offered a situa…
  tion as school…teacher。  By this time the com…
  munity was growing around us with the rapidity
  characteristic of these Western settlements; and we
  had nearer neighbors whose children needed instruc…
  tion。  I passed an examination before a school…
  board consisting of three nervous and self…conscious
  men whose certificate I still hold; and I at once
  began my professional career on the modest salary
  of two dollars a week and my board。  The school
  was four miles from my home; so I ‘‘boarded round''
  with the families of my pupils; staying two weeks
  in each place; and often walking from three to six
  miles a day to and from my little log school…house
  in every kind of weather。  During the first year I
  had about fourteen pupils; of varying ages; sizes;
  and temperaments; and there was hardly a book in
  the school…room except those I owned。  One little
  girl; I remember; read from an almanac; while a
  second used a hymn…book。
  In winter the school…house was heated by a wood…
  stove; to which the teacher had to give close personal
  attention。  I could not depend on my pupils to
  make the fires or carry in the fuel; and it was often
  necessary to fetch the wood myself; sometimes for
  long distances through the forest。  Again and again;
  after miles of walking through winter storms; I
  reached the school…house with my clothing wet
  through; and in these soaked garments I taught
  during the day。  In ‘‘boarding round'' I often found
  myself in one…room cabins; with bunks at the end
  and the sole partition a sheet or a blanket; behind
  which I slept with one or two of the children。  It
  was the custom on these occasions for the man of
  the house to delicately retire to the barn while we
  women got to bed; and to disappear again in the
  morning while we dressed。  In some places the
  meals were so badly cooked that I could not eat
  them; and often the only food my poor little pupils
  brought to school for their noonday meal was a
  piece of bread or a bit of raw pork。
  I earned my two dollars a week that year; but I
  had to wait for my wages until the dog tax was col…
  lected in the spring。  When the money was thus
  raised; and the twenty…six dollars for my thirteen
  weeks of teaching were graciously put into my
  hands; I went ‘‘outside'' to the nearest shop and
  joyously spent almost the entire amount for my
  first ‘‘party dress。''  The gown I bought was; I con…
  sidered; a beautiful creation。  In color it was a rich
  magenta; and the skirt was elaborately braided with
  black cable…cord。  My admiration for it was justi…
  fied; for it did all a young girl's eager heart could
  ask of any gownit led to my first proposal。
  The youth who sought my hand was about twenty
  years old; and by an unhappy chance he was also
  the least attractive young person in the country…
  sidethe laughing…stock of the neighbors; the butt
  of his associates。  The night he came to offer me
  his heart there were already two young men at our
  home calling on my sisters; and we were all sitting
  around the fire in the living…room when my suitor
  appeared。  His costume; like himself; left much to
  be desired。  He wore a blue flanne