第 3 节
作者:痛罚      更新:2024-04-07 11:54      字数:9322
  to his shipyard; where my hatchet and saw had vio…
  lent exercise as I imitated the workers around me。
  Discovering that my tiny petticoats were in my way;
  my new friend had a little boy's suit made for me;
  and thus emancipated; at this tender age; I worked
  unwearyingly at his side all day long and day after
  day。  No doubt it was due to him that I did not
  casually saw off a few of my toes and fingers。  Cer…
  tainly I smashed them often enough with blows of
  my dull but active hatchet。  I was very; very busy;
  and I have always maintained that I began to earn
  my share of the family's living at the age of five
  for in return for the delights of my society; which
  seemed never to pall upon him; my new friend al…
  lowed my brothers to carry home from the ship…
  yard all the wood my mother could use。
  We remained in New Bedford less than a year;
  for in the spring of 1852 my father made another
  change; taking his family to Lawrence; Massa…
  chusetts; where we lived until 1859。  The years in
  Lawrence were interesting and formative ones。  At
  the tender age of nine and ten I became interested
  in the Abolition movement。  We were Unitarians;
  and General Oliver and many of the prominent citi…
  zens of Lawrence belonged to the Unitarian Church。
  We knew Robert Shaw; who led the first negro regi…
  ment; and Judge Storrow; one of the leading New
  England judges of his time; as well as the Cabots
  and George A。 Walton; who was the author of
  Walton's Arithmetic and head of the Lawrence
  schools。  Outbursts of war talk thrilled me; and
  occasionally I had a little adventure of my own; as
  when one day; in visiting our cellar; I heard a noise
  in the coal…bin。  I investigated and discovered a
  negro woman concealed there。  I had been reading
  Uncle Tom's Cabin; as well as listening to the
  conversation of my elders; so I was vastly stirred
  over the negro question。  I raced up…stairs in a
  condition of awe…struck and quivering excitement;
  which my mother promptly suppressed by sending
  me to bed。  No doubt she questioned my youthful
  discretion; for she almost convinced me that I had
  seen nothing at allalmost; but not quite; and she
  wisely kept me close to her for several days; until
  the escaped slave my father was hiding was safely
  out of the house and away。  Discovery of this seri…
  ous offense might have borne grave results for him。
  It was in Lawrence; too; that I received and spent
  my first twenty…five cents。  I used an entire day in
  doing this; and the occasion was one of the most
  delightful and memorable of my life。  It was the
  Fourth of July; and I was dressed in white and rode
  in a procession。  My sister Mary; who also graced
  the procession; had also been given twenty…five
  cents; and during the parade; when; for obvious
  reasons; we were unable to break ranks and spend
  our wealth; the consciousness of it lay heavily upon
  us。  When we finally began our shopping the first
  place we visited was a candy store; and I recall dis…
  tinctly that we forced the weary proprietor to take
  down and show us every jar in the place before we
  spent one penny。  The first banana I ever ate was
  purchased that day; and I hesitated over it a long
  time。  Its cost was five cents; and in view of that
  large expenditure; the eating of the fruit; I was
  afraid; would be too brief a joy。  I bought it; how…
  ever; and the experience developed into a tragedy;
  for; not knowing enough to peel the banana; I bit
  through skin and pulp alike; as if I were eating an
  apple; and then burst into ears of disappointment。
  The beautiful conduct of my sister Mary shines
  down through the years。  She; wise child; had
  taken no chances with the unknown; but now;
  moved by my despair; she bought half of my banana;
  and we divided the fruit; the loss; and the lesson。
  Fate; moreover; had another turn of the screw for
  us; for; after Mary had taken a bite of it; we gave
  what was left of the banana to a boy who stood near
  us and who knew how to eat it; and not even the
  large amount of candy in our sticky hands enabled
  us to regard with calmness the subsequent happiness
  of that little boy。
  Another experience with fruit in Lawrence illus…
  trates the ideas of my mother and the character of
  the training she gave her children。  Our neighbors;
  the Cabots; were one day giving a great garden party;
  and my sister was helping to pick strawberries for
  the occasion。  When I was going home from school
  I passed the berry…patches and stopped to speak to
  my sister; who at once presented me with two straw…
  berries。  She said Mrs。 Cabot had told her to eat
  all she wanted; but that she would eat two less than
  she wanted and give those two to me。  To my
  mind; the suggestion was generous and proper; in
  my life strawberries were rare。  I ate one berry;
  and then; overcome by an ambition to be generous
  also; took the other berry home to my mother; tell…
  ing her how I had got it。  To my chagrin; mother
  was deeply shocked。  She told me that the trans…
  action was all wrong; and she made me take back
  the berry and explain the matter to Mrs。 Cabot。
  By the time I reached that generous lady the berry
  was the worse for its journey; and so was I。  I was
  only nine years old and very sensitive。  It was clear
  to me that I could hardly live through the humilia…
  tion of the confession; and it was indeed a bitter
  experience the worst; I think; in my young life;
  though Mrs。 Cabot was both sympathetic and
  understanding。  She kissed me; and sent a quart
  of strawberries to my mother; but for a long time
  afterward I could not meet her kind eyes; for I be…
  lieved that in her heart she thought me a thief。
  My second friendship; and one which had a strong
  influence on my after…life; was formed in Lawrence。
  I was not more than ten years old when I met this
  new friend; but the memory of her in after…years;
  and the impression she had made on my susceptible
  young mind; led me first into the ministry; next into
  medicine; and finally into suffrage…work。  Living
  next door to us; on Prospect Hill; was a beautiful
  and mysterious woman。  All we children knew of
  her was that she was a vivid and romantic figure;
  who seemed to have no friends and of whom our
  elders spoke in whispers or not at all。  To me she
  was a princess in a fairy…tale; for she rode a white
  horse and wore a blue velvet riding…habit with a
  blue velvet hat and a picturesquely drooping white
  plume。  I soon learned at what hours she went
  forth to ride; and I used to hover around our gate
  for the joy of seeing her mount and gallop away。
  I realized that there was something unusual about
  her house; and I had an idea that the prince was
  waiting for her somewhere in the far distance; and
  that for the time at least she had escaped the ogre
  in the castle she left behind。  I was wrong about
  the prince; but right about the ogre。  It was only
  when my unhappy lady left her castle that she was
  free。
  Very soon she noticed me。  Possibly she saw the
  adoration in my childish eyes。  She began to nod
  and smile at me; and then to speak to me; but at
  first I was almost afraid to answer her。  There were
  stories now among the children that the house was
  haunted; and that by night a ghost walked there and
  in the grounds。  I felt an extraordinary interest in
  the ghost; and I spent hours peering through our
  picket fence; trying to catch a glimpse of it; but I
  hesitated to be on terms of neighborly intimacy with
  one who dwelt with ghosts。
  One day the mysterious lady bent and kissed me。
  Then; straightening up; she looked at me queerly
  and said:  ‘‘Go and tell your mother I did that。''
  There was something very compelling in her manner。
  I knew at once that I must tell my mother what she
  had done; and I ran into our house and did so。
  While my mother was considering the problem the
  situation presented; for she knew the character of
  the house next door; a note was handed in to her
  a very pathetic little note from my mysterious lady;
  asking my mother to let me come and see her。  Long
  afterward mother showed it to me。  It ended with
  the words:  ‘‘She will see no one but me。  No harm
  shall come to her。  Trust me。''
  That night my parents talked the matter over and
  decided to let me go。  Probably they felt that the
  slave next door was as much to be pitied as the es…
  caped…negro slaves they so often harbored in our
  home。  I made my visit; which was the first of many;
  and a strange friendship began and developed be…
  tween the woman of the town and the little girl she
  loved。  Some of those visits I remember as vividly
  as if I had made them yesterday。  There was never
  the slightest suggestion during any of them of things
  I should not see or hear; for while I was with her
  my hostess became a child again; and we played
  together like children。  She had wonderful toys for
  me; and pictures and books; but the thing I love