第 10 节
作者:浮游云中      更新:2024-04-07 11:54      字数:9319
  leaping up to meet us; and we waited for the earth to rise and strike us in
  the face。     But we ran。       We knew not where we were going。                We knew
  only that we must run; run to the end of the world; to the end of our days。
  Then we knew suddenly that we were lying on a soft earth and that we
  had   stopped。 Trees   taller than   we had   ever   seen   before   stood   over us   in
  great silence。 Then we knew。            We were in the Uncharted Forest。 We had
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  not thought of coming here; but our legs had carried our wisdom; and our
  legs had brought us to the Uncharted Forest against our will。
  Our glass box lay beside us。           We crawled to it; we fell upon it; our
  face in our arms; and we lay still。
  We   lay   thus   for   a   long   time。 Then   we   rose;   we   took   our   box   and
  walked on into the forest。
  It mattered not where we went。           We knew that men would not follow
  us;   for   they   never   enter   the   Uncharted   Forest。 We   had   nothing   to   fear
  from them。       The forest disposes of its own victims。          This gave us no fear
  either。    Only we wished to be away; away from the City and from the air
  that touches upon the air of the City。           So we walked on; our box in our
  arms; our heart empty。
  We are doomed。         Whatever days are left to us; we shall spend them
  alone。    And we have heard of the corruption to be found in solitude。                 We
  have torn ourselves from the truth which is our brother men; and there is
  no road back for us; and no redemption。
  We   know   these   things;   but   we   do   not   care。   We   care   for   nothing   on
  earth。    We are tired。
  Only   the   glass   box   in   our   arms   is   like   a   living   heart   that   gives   us
  strength。     We have lied to ourselves。         We have not built this box for the
  good of our brothers。         We built it for its own sake。         It is above all our
  brothers   to   us;   and   its   truth   above   their   truth。   Why   wonder   about   this?
  We have not many days to live。            We are walking to the fangs awaiting us
  somewhere among the great; silent trees。              There is not a thing behind us
  to regret。
  Then a blow of pain struck us; our first and our only。 We thought of the
  Golden One。        We thought of the Golden One whom we shall never see
  again。     Then the pain passed。 It is best。        We are one of the Damned。            It
  is best if the Golden One forget our name and the body which bore that
  name。
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  PART EIGHT
  It has been a day of wonder; this; our first day in the forest。
  We awoke when a ray of sunlight fell across our face。               We wanted to
  leap to our feet; as we have had to leap every morning of our life; but we
  remembered suddenly that no bell had rung and that there was no bell to
  ring   anywhere。      We   lay   on   our   back;   we   threw   our   arms   out;   and   we
  looked   up   at   the   sky。   The   leaves   had   edges   of   silver   that   trembled   and
  rippled like a river of green and fire flowing high above us。              We did not
  wish to move。       We thought suddenly that we could lie thus as long as we
  wished; and we laughed aloud at the thought。             We could also rise; or run;
  or leap; or fall down again。        We were thinking that these were thoughts
  without sense; but before we knew it our body had risen in one leap。 Our
  arms stretched out of their own will; and our body whirled and whirled; till
  it   raised   a   wind   to   rustle   through   the   leaves   of   the   bushes。 Then   our
  hands seized a branch and swung us high into a tree; with no aim save the
  wonder of learning the strength of our body。            The branch snapped under
  us and we fell upon the moss that was soft as a cushion。              Then our body;
  losing all sense; rolled over and over on the moss; dry leaves in our tunic;
  in our hair; in our face。      And we heard suddenly that we were laughing;
  laughing aloud; laughing as if there were no power left in us save laughter。
  Then we took our glass box; and we went on into the forest。              We went
  on;   cutting   through   the   branches;   and   it   was   as   if   we   were   swimming
  through a sea of leaves; with the bushes as waves rising and falling and
  rising around us; and flinging their green sprays high to the treetops。 The
  trees parted before us; calling us forward。 The forest seemed to welcome
  us。   We went on; without thought; without care; with nothing to feel save
  the song of our body。
  We stopped when we felt hunger。            We saw birds in the tree branches;
  and flying from under our footsteps。          We picked a stone and we sent it as
  an arrow at a bird。 It fell before us。       We made a fire; we cooked the bird;
  and we ate it; and no meal had ever tasted better to us。             And we thought
  suddenly that there was a great satisfaction to be found in the food which
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  we need and obtain by our own hand。            And we wished to be hungry again
  and soon; that we might know again this strange new pride in eating。
  Then we walked on。         And we came to a stream which lay as a streak
  of glass among the trees。        It lay so still that we saw no water but only a
  cut in the earth; in which the trees grew down; upturned; and the sky lay at
  the bottom。     We knelt by the stream and we bent down to drink。 And then
  we   stopped。    For;   upon   the   blue   of   the   sky   below   us;   we   saw   our   own
  face for the first time。
  We sat still and we held our breath。 For our face and our body were
  beautiful。 Our face was not like the faces of our brothers; for we felt not
  pity   when   looking   upon     it。   Our   body   was   not   like   the   bodies   of  our
  brothers; for our limbs were straight and thin and hard and strong。 And we
  thought that we could trust this being who looked upon us from the stream;
  and that we had nothing to fear with this being。
  We walked on till the sun had set。 When the shadows gathered among
  the trees; we stopped in a hollow between the roots; where we shall sleep
  tonight。    And suddenly; for the first time this day; we remembered that we
  are the Damned。       We remembered it; and we laughed。
  We are writing this on the paper we had hidden in our tunic together
  with the written pages we had brought for the World Council of Scholars;
  but never given to them。 We have much to speak of to ourselves; and we
  hope we shall find the words for it in the days to come。             Now; we cannot
  speak; for we cannot understand。
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  PART NINE
  We have not written for many days。 We did not wish to speak。                  For
  we needed no words to remember that which has happened to us。
  It was on our second day in the forest that we heard steps behind us。
  We hid in the bushes; and we waited。            The steps came closer。 And then
  we saw the fold of a white tunic among the trees; and a gleam of gold。
  We   leapt   forward;   we   ran   to   them;   and   we   stood   looking   upon   the
  Golden One。
  They saw us; and their hands closed into fists; and the fists pulled their
  arms   down;  as if   they  wished   their  arms   to   hold   them;   while  their   body
  swayed。     And they could not speak。
  We     dared   not  come   too   close  to  them。   We   asked;   and  our   voice
  trembled:
  〃How did you come to be here; Golden One?〃
  But they whispered only:
  〃We have found you。 。 。 。〃
  〃How did you come to be in the forest?〃 we asked。
  They raised their head; and there was a great pride in their voice; they
  answered:
  〃We have followed you。〃
  Then we could not speak; and they said:
  〃We heard that you had gone to the Uncharted Forest; for the whole
  City is speaking of it。      So on the night of the day when we heard it; we
  ran away from the Home of the Peasants。             We found the marks of your
  feet across the plain where no men walk。 So we followed them; and we
  went into the   forest; and we   followed the path   where the branches   were
  broken by your body。〃
  Their white tunic was torn; and the branches had cut the skin of their
  arms;    but  they