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作者:老是不进球      更新:2024-04-07 11:52      字数:9322
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  imitation   of   nature。   Liz   grew   uneasy;   but   she   had   no   one   in   whom   to
  confide her fears。  She had been   very regular in   her payments to   Mother
  Mawks; and that irate lady; kept in order by her bull…dog of a husband; had
  been     of  late  very    contented     to  let  her  have    the  child   without     further
  interference。   Liz   knew   well   enough   that   no   one   in   the   miserable   alley
  where she dwelt would care whether the baby were ill or not。 They would
  tell   her;   〃The   more   sickly   the   better   for   your   trade。〃   Besides;   she   was
  jealous; she could not endure the idea of any one tending it or touching it
  but    herself。    Children     were    often   ailing;   she    thought;    and    if  left  to
  themselves without doctor's stuff they recovered sometimes more quickly
  than   they   had   sickened。   Thus   soothing   her   inward   tremors   as   best   she
  might;   she   took   more   care   than   ever   of   her   frail   charge;   stinting   herself
  than she might nourish it; though the baby seemed to care less and less for
  mundane   necessities;   and   only   submitted   to          be   fed;   as   it   were;  under
  patient and silent protest。
  And so the sands in Time's hour…glass ran slowly but surely away; and
  it was New…Year's eve。 Liz had wandered about all day; singing her little
  repertoire of ballads in the teeth of a cruel; snow…laden wind so cruel that
  people      otherwise     charitably    disposed     had    shut   close   their   doors    and
  windows; and had not even heard her voice。 Thus the last span of the Old
  Year   had   proved   most   unprofitable   and   dreary;   she   had   gained   no   more
  than sixpence; how could she return with only that humble amount to face
  Mother Mawks and her vituperative fury? Her throat ached; she was very
  tired; and; as the night darkened from pale to deep and starless shadows;
  she strolled mechanically from the Strand to the Embankment; and   after
  walking some little distance she sat down in a corner close to Cleopatra's
  Needlethat mocking obelisk that has looked upon the decay of empires;
  itself    impassive;      and   that   still  appears     to   say;   〃Pass    on;   ye   puny
  generations! I; a mere carven block of stone; shall outlive you all!〃 For the
  first   time   in   all   her   experience   the   child   in   her   arms   seemed   a   heavy
  burden。 She put aside her shawl and surveyed it tenderly; it was fast asleep;
  a small; peaceful smile on its thin; quiet face。 Thoroughly worn out herself;
  she leaned her head against the damp stone wall behind her; and clasping
  the infant tightly to her breast; she also sleptthe heavy; dreamless sleep
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  of   utter   fatigue   and   physical   exhaustion。  The   solemn   night   moved   on;   a
  night    of   black   vapours;     the   pageant    of   the  Old    Year's   deathbed      was
  unbrightened by so much as a single star。 None of the hurrying passers…by
  perceived the weary woman where she slept in that obscure corner; and for
  a long while she rested there undisturbed。 Suddenly a vivid glare of light
  dazzled her eyes; she started to her feet half asleep; but still instinctively
  retaining   the   infant   in   her   close   embrace。 A  dark   form;   buttoned   to   the
  throat and holding a brilliant bull's…eye lantern; stood before her。
  〃Come now;〃 said this personage; 〃this won't do! Move on!〃
  Liz smiled faintly and apologetically。
  〃All right!〃 she answered; striving to speak cheerfully; and raising her
  eyes to the policeman's good…natured countenance。 〃I didn't mean to fall
  asleep here。 I don't know how I came to do it。 I must go home; of course。〃
  〃Of   course;〃   said   the   policeman;   somewhat   mollified   by   her   evident
  humility; and touched in spite of himself by the pathos of her eyes。 Then
  turning his lamp more fully upon her; he continued; 〃Is that a baby you've
  got there?〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Liz; half proudly; half tenderly。 〃Poor little dear! it's been
  ailing sadlybut I think it's better now than it was。〃
  And;   encouraged   by   his   friendly   tone;   she   opened   the   folds   of   her
  shawl to show him her one treasure。 The bulls…eye came into still closer
  requisition   as   the   kindly  guardian   of   the   peace   peered inquiringly  at   the
  tiny    bundle。    He    had   scarcely     looked    when     he   started   back    with    an
  exclamation:
  〃God bless my soul!〃 he cried; 〃it's dead!〃
  〃Dead!〃 shrieked Liz; 〃oh; no; no! Not dead! Don't say so; oh; don't;
  don't   say   so!   Oh;   you   can't   mean   it!   Oh;   for   God's   love;   say   you   didn't
  mean it! It can't be dead; not really dead!no; no; indeed! Oh; baby; baby!
  You are not dead; my pet my angel; not dead; oh no!〃
  And breathless;   frantic   with   fear;   she  felt   the   little  thing's   hands   and
  feet and face; kissed it wildly; and called it by a thousand endearing names;
  in vainin   vain!   Its   tiny  body  was   already  stiff   and   rigid;   it   had   been   a
  corpse more than two hours。
  The policeman   coughed;  and brushed   his thick   gauntlet   glove across
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  his eyes。 He was an emissary of the law; but he had a heart。 He thought of
  his   bright…eyed     wife   at  home;    and   of  the   soft…cheeked;     cuddling    little
  creature   that   clung   to   her   bosom   and   crowed   with   rapture   whenever   he
  came near。
  〃Look   here;〃   he   said;   very   gently;   laying   one   hand   on   the   woman's
  shoulder as she crouched shivering against the wall; and staring piteously
  at the motionless waxen form in her arms; 〃it's no use fretting about it。〃
  He paused; there was an uncomfortable lump in his throat; and he had to
  cough again to get it down。 〃The poor little creature's gonethere's no help
  for it。 The next world's a better place than this; you know! There; there;
  don't take on so about it〃 this as Liz shuddered and sighed; a sigh of such
  complete despair that it went straight to his honest soul; and showed him
  how futile were his efforts at consolation。 But he had his duty to attend to;
  and he went on in firmer tones: 〃Now; like a good woman; you just move
  off from here and go home。 If I leave you here by yourself a bit; will you
  promise   me   to   go   straight   home?   I   mustn't   find   you   here   when   I   come
  back     on  this  beat;   d'  ye  understand?〃      Liz   nodded。     〃That's   right!〃   he
  resumed;   cheerily。   〃I'll   give   you   just   ten   minutes;   you   just   go   straight
  home。〃
  And with a 〃Good…night;〃 uttered in accents meant to be comforting;
  he turned away and paced on; his measured tread echoing on the silence at
  first   loudly;   then   fainter   and   fainter;   till   it   altogether   died   away;   as   his
  bulky figure disappeared in the distance。 Left to herself; Liz rose from her
  crouching posture; rocking the dead child in her arms; she smiled。
  〃Go straight home!〃 she murmured; half aloud。 〃Home; sweet home!
  Yes; baby; yes; my darling; we will go home together!〃
  And creeping cautiously along in the shadows; she reached a flight of
  the broad stone steps leading down to the river。 She descended them; one
  by one; the black water lapped against them heavily; heavily; the tide was
  full up。 She paused; a sonorous; deep…toned iron voice rang through the air
  with   reverberating;   solemn       melody。   It   was   the   great   bell   of   St。   Paul's
  tolling midnightthe Old Year was dead。
  〃Straight home!〃 she repeated; with a beautiful; expectant look in her
  wild;   weary  eyes。   〃My  little   darling! Yes;   we   are   both   tired;   we   will   go
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  home! Home; sweet home! We will go!〃
  Kissing the   cold   face   of   the baby  corpse   she   held;   she   threw   herself
  forward;   there   followed   a   sullen;   deep   splasha   slight   struggleand   all
  was over! The water lapped against the steps heavily; heavily; as before;
  the policeman passed once more; and saw to his satisfaction that the coast
  was     clear;  through    the   dark   veil   of  the  sky   one   star  looked     out  and
  twinkled for a brief instant; then disappeared again。 A clash and clamour
  of bells startled the brooding night; here and there a window was open