第 11 节
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人生几何 更新:2024-01-24 16:00 字数:9322
〃Money is not everything; my dear; nor social recognition。 There are many things I would value more。〃
〃What are they?〃 She was facing him now; her brows knit; a marked antagonism in her voice。
〃Good manners and good taste; Sallie; and kindly consideration for another's feelings;〃 he answered。 He spoke calmly and kindly; as was his custom。 He had lived almost all his life with this high…strung Sallie Horn; whose eyes flashed now and then as they had done in the old days when he won her hand。 He knew every side of her temperament。 〃Good manners; and good taste〃he repeated; as if wishing to emphasize his thoughts〃Oliver has all of these; and he has; besides; loyalty to his friends。 He never speaks of Mr。 Crocker but with affection; and I love to hear him。 That man is an artist of great talent; and yet it seems to be the fashion in this town to ridicule him。 If Ollie has any gifts which would fit him to be a painter; I should be delighted to see him a painter。 It is a profession despised now; as are many others; but it is the profession of a gentleman; for all they say; and a noble one!〃 Then he stopped and said; thoughtfully; as if communing with himself〃I wish he could be a painter。 Since Gilbert Stuart's time we have had so few men of whom we can boast。 This country will one day be proud to honor her artists。〃
Mrs。 Horn sank back in her chair。 She felt the hopelessness of all further discussion with her husband。 〃He would not have talked this way ten years ago;〃 she said to herself。 〃Everything has gone wrong since he left the law。〃 But to her husband she said:
〃You always measure everything by your hopes; Richard; and you never look at the practical side of anything。 Ollie is old enough to begin to think how he will earn his bread。 I see now how hopeless it is for us to try and make a lawyer of himhis heart is not in it。 I have come little by little to the conclusion that what he wants most is hard work; and he wants it right away; just as soon as we can find something for him to dosomething with his hands; if necessary; not something full of dreams and imaginings;〃 and her voice rose in its earnestness。 〃I am getting more and more anxious about him every day;〃 she added; suddenly controlling herself; 〃and when you encourage him in foolish vagaries you only make it harder for me; dear;〃 and her voice softened and broke with emotion。
〃He ought to have gone into the laboratory; Sallie;〃 Richard added quickly; in a reflective tonelaying his hand on her shoulder as he noticed the change of voice〃 just as I wanted him to do when he left school。 There is a future for scientific men in this country which you do not seea future which few around me seem to see。 Great changes are coming; not only in science; but in the arts and in all useful knowledge。 If Ollie can add to the brilliancy of this future by becoming a brilliant painter; able to help educate those about him; there could be no higher calling for him。 Three things are coming; my dear perhaps four。〃 The inventor had risen from his seat and stood beside her; his eyes turned away into the dark as if he were addressing some unseen person。 〃The superseding of steam; aerial locomotion; and the education of the common people; black and white。 One other may comethe freeing of the slavesbut the others are sure。 Science; not money; nor family traditions; nor questions of birth; will shape the destinies of the country。 We may not live to see it; but Oliver will; and I want him to be where he can help on the movement。 You were opposed to his becoming a scientist; and I feel assured made a mistake。 Don't stand in his way again; dear。〃
〃Yes; Richard; I was opposed to it; because I did not want him to waste his time over all sorts of foolish experiments; which would certainly〃 She did not finish the sentence。 Her anxiety had not yet gone as far as that。 With a quick gesture she rose from her chair and drawing her white gossamer shawl about her shouldersleft the room and walked out onto the front steps; followed by Richard。
If the inventor heard the thrust he did not reply。 He would not argue with his wife over it; nor did it check the flow of his courtesy。 She had never seen the value of what he was striving for; but she would in time he knew。
〃Yes; I think it is cooler out here;〃 was all he said; as he placed a cushion to soften her seat on the threshold。 When he had arranged another pillow behind her back and hunted round the dark parlor for a stool for her feet; he found a chair for himself and sat down beside her。 She thanked him; but her thoughts were evidently far away。 She was weighing in her mind what must be her next move if Oliver persisted in this new departure。 Richard broke the silence。
〃I haven't told you of the good offer I've had for the farm; Sallie。〃
〃No; but we're not going to sell it; of course。〃 She was leaning back against the jamb of the door as she spoke; the shawl hanging loose; her delicate white hands in her lap。 It was an idle answer to an idle question; for her mind was still with Oliver。
〃Well; I hadn't thought of doing so until to…day;〃 he answered; slowly; 〃but I had a notice from the bank that they must call in the mortgage; and so I thought I might as well sell the whole place; pay off the debt; and use the balance for〃
〃Sell the farm; Richard?〃 It was her hand now that sought his; and with a firm grasp as if she would restrain him then and there in his purpose。
〃Yes; I can get several thousand dollars over and above the mortgage; and I need the money; Sallie。 It will only be a temporary matter〃 and he smoothed her arm tenderly; speaking as a lover of long standing might do who is less absorbed with the caress than with the subject under discussion。 〃The motor will be ready in a few weeksas soon as the new batteries are finished。 Then; my dear; you won't have to curtail your expenses as you have done。〃 His voice was full of hope now; a smile lighting his face as he thought of all the pleasure and comfort his success would bring her。
〃But you said that same thing when you were working on the steam…valve; for which you put that very mortgage on the farm; and now that's all gone and〃
〃The failure of the steam…valve; as I have always told you; was due to my own carelessness; Sallie。 I should have patented it sooner。 They are making enormous sums on it; I hear; and are using my cut… off; and I think dishonestly。 But the motor has been protected at every new step that I have taken。 My first patent of August 13; 1856; supersedes all others; and cannot be shaken。 Now; my dear; don't worry about ityou have never known me to fail; and I won't now。 Besides; you forget my successes; Salliethe turbine water…wheel and the others。 It will all come; right。〃
〃It will never come right。〃 She had risen from her seat; and was standing over; him; both hands on his shoulders; her eyes looking down into his; her voice trembling。 〃Oh; Richard; Richard! Give up this life of dreams you are living; and go back to your law…office。 You always succeeded in the law。 This new career of yours is ruining us。 I can economize; dear; just as I have always done;〃 she added; with another sudden change of tone; bending over him and slipping her hand caressingly into his。 〃I will do everything to help you。 I did not mean to be cross a moment ago。 I was worried about Oliver's talk。 I have been silent so longI must speak。 Don't be angry; dear; but you must keep the farm。 I will go myself and see about the mortgage at the bankwe cannotwe must not; go on this way we will have nothing left。〃
He patted her arm again in his gentle waynot to calm her fears; he knew so well that she was wrong; but to quiet the nerves that he thought unstrung。
〃But I need this extra money for some improvements which I〃
〃Yes; I know you THINK so; but you don't; Richard; you don't?〃 For Heaven's sake; throw the motor out into the street; and be done with it。 It will ruin us all if things go on as they have done。〃
The inventor raised his eyes quickly。 He had never seen her so disturbed in all their married life。 She had never spoken in this way before。
〃Don't excite yourself; Sallie;〃 he said; gravely; and with a certain air of authority in his manner。 〃You'll bring on one of your headachesit will all come right。 Come; my dear; let us go into the house。 People are passing; and will wonder。〃
She followed him back into the drawing…room; his hand still held fast in hers。
〃Promise me one thing;〃 she said; stopping at the door and looking up into his eyes; 〃and I won't say another word。 Please do nothing more about the farm unless you let me know。 Let me think first how I can help。 It will all come out right; as you say; but it will be because we will make it come right; dear。〃 She drew his face down toward her with one hand and kissed him tenderly on his cheek。 Then she bade him good…night and resumed her seat by the window; to watch for Oliver's return。
Try as she would; she could not banish her fears。 The news of Richard's intention to pay off the loan by selling the farm had sent a shudder through her heart such as she had never before experienced; for that which she had dreaded had come to pass。 Loyal as she had always been to her husband; and proud a