第 6 节
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瞎说呗 更新:2024-01-24 16:00 字数:9322
erceive the same or any cognate facts; they agree upon a word as symbol; and hence we have such words as TREE; STAR; LOVE; HONOUR; or DEATH; hence also we have this word RIGHT; which; like the others; we all understand; most of us understand differently; and none can express succinctly otherwise。 Yet even on the straitest view; we can make some steps towards comprehension of our own superior thoughts。 For it is an incredible and most bewildering fact that a man; through life; is on variable terms with himself; he is aware of tiffs and reconciliations; the intimacy is at times almost suspended; at times it is renewed again with joy。 As we said before; his inner self or soul appears to him by successive revelations; and is frequently obscured。 It is from a study of these alternations that we can alone hope to discover; even dimly; what seems right and what seems wrong to this veiled prophet of ourself。
All that is in the man in the larger sense; what we call impression as well as what we call intuition; so far as my argument looks; we must accept。 It is not wrong to desire food; or exercise; or beautiful surroundings; or the love of sex; or interest which is the food of the mind。 All these are craved; all these should be craved; to none of these in itself does the soul demur; where there comes an undeniable want; we recognise a demand of nature。 Yet we know that these natural demands may be superseded; for the demands which are common to mankind make but a shadowy consideration in comparison to the demands of the individual soul。 Food is almost the first prerequisite; and yet a high character will go without food to the ruin and death of the body rather than gain it in a manner which the spirit disavows。 Pascal laid aside mathematics; Origen doctored his body with a knife; every day some one is thus mortifying his dearest interests and desires; and; in Christ's words; entering maim into the Kingdom of Heaven。 This is to supersede the lesser and less harmonious affections by renunciation; and though by this ascetic path we may get to heaven; we cannot get thither a whole and perfect man。 But there is another way; to supersede them by reconciliation; in which the soul and all the faculties and senses pursue a common route and share in one desire。 Thus; man is tormented by a very imperious physical desire; it spoils his rest; it is not to be denied; the doctors will tell you; not I; how it is a physical need; like the want of food or slumber。 In the satisfaction of this desire; as it first appears; the soul sparingly takes part; nay; it oft unsparingly regrets and disapproves the satisfaction。 But let the man learn to love a woman as far as he is capable of love; and for this random affection of the body there is substituted a steady determination; a consent of all his powers and faculties; which supersedes; adopts; and commands the other。 The desire survives; strengthened; perhaps; but taught obedience and changed in scope and character。 Life is no longer a tale of betrayals and regrets; for the man now lives as a whole; his consciousness now moves on uninterrupted like a river; through all the extremes and ups and downs of passion; he remains approvingly conscious of himself。
Now to me; this seems a type of that rightness which the soul demands。 It demands that we shall not live alternately with our opposing tendencies in continual see…saw of passion and disgust; but seek some path on which the tendencies shall no longer oppose; but serve each other to a common end。 It demands that we shall not pursue broken ends; but great and comprehensive purposes; in which soul and body may unite like notes in a harmonious chord。 That were indeed a way of peace and pleasure; that were indeed a heaven upon earth。 It does not demand; however; or; to speak in measure; it does not demand of me; that I should starve my appetites for no purpose under heaven but as a purpose in itself; or; in a weak despair; pluck out the eye that I have not yet learned to guide and enjoy with wisdom。 The soul demands unity of purpose; not the dismemberment of man; it seeks to roll up all his strength and sweetness; all his passion and wisdom; into one; and make of him a perfect man exulting in perfection。 To conclude ascetically is to give up; and not to solve; the problem。 The ascetic and the creeping hog; although they are at different poles; have equally failed in life。 The one has sacrificed his crew; the other brings back his seamen in a cock…boat; and has lost the ship。 I believe there are not many sea…captains who would plume themselves on either result as a success。
But if it is righteousness thus to fuse together our divisive impulses and march with one mind through life; there is plainly one thing more unrighteous than all others; and one declension which is irretrievable and draws on the rest。 And this is to lose consciousness of oneself。 In the best of times; it is but by flashes; when our whole nature is clear; strong and conscious; and events conspire to leave us free; that we enjoy communion with our soul。 At the worst; we are so fallen and passive that we may say shortly we have none。 An arctic torpor seizes upon men。 Although built of nerves; and set adrift in a stimulating world; they develop a tendency to go bodily to sleep; consciousness becomes engrossed among the reflex and mechanical parts of life; and soon loses both the will and power to look higher considerations in the face。 This is ruin; this is the last failure in life; this is temporal damnation; damnation on the spot and without the form of judgment。 'What shall it profit a man if he gain the whole world and LOSE HIMSELF?'
It is to keep a man awake; to keep him alive to his own soul and its fixed design of righteousness; that the better part of moral and religious education is directed; not only that of words and doctors; but the sharp ferule of calamity under which we are all God's scholars till we die。 If; as teachers; we are to say anything to the purpose; we must say what will remind the pupil of his soul; we must speak that soul's dialect; we must talk of life and conduct as his soul would have him think of them。 If; from some conformity between us and the pupil; or perhaps among all men; we do in truth speak in such a dialect and express such views; beyond question we shall touch in him a spring; beyond question he will recognise the dialect as one that he himself has spoken in his better hours; beyond question he will cry; 'I had forgotten; but now I remember; I too have eyes; and I had forgot to use them! I too have a soul of my own; arrogantly upright; and to that I will listen and conform。' In short; say to him anything that he has once thought; or been upon the point of thinking; or show him any view of life that he has once clearly seen; or been upon the point of clearly seeing; and you have done your part and may leave him to complete the education for himself。
Now; the view taught at the present time seems to me to want greatness; and the dialect in which alone it can be intelligibly uttered is not the dialect of my soul。 It is a sort of postponement of life; nothing quite is; but something different is to be; we are to keep our eyes upon the indirect from the cradle to the grave。 We are to regulate our conduct not by desire; but by a politic eye upon the future; and to value acts as they will bring us money or good opinion; as they will bring us; in one word; PROFIT。 We must be what is called respectable; and offend no one by our carriage; it will not do to make oneself conspicuous … who knows? even in virtue? says the Christian parent! And we must be what is called prudent and make money; not only because it is pleasant to have money; but because that also is a part of respectability; and we cannot hope to be received in society without decent possessions。 Received in society! as if that were the kingdom of heaven! There is dear Mr。 So…and…so; … look at him! … so much respected … so much looked up to … quite the Christian merchant! And we must cut our conduct as strictly as possible after the pattern of Mr。 So…and…so; and lay our whole lives to make money and be strictly decent。 Besides these holy injunctions; which form by far the greater part of a youth's training in our Christian homes; there are at least two other doctrines。 We are to live just now as well as we can; but scrape at last into heaven; where we shall be good。 We are to worry through the week in a lay; disreputable way; but; to make matters square; live a different life on Sunday。
The train of thought we have been following gives us a key to all these positions; without stepping aside to justify them on their own ground。 It is because we have been disgusted fifty times with physical squalls; and fifty times torn between conflicting impulses; that we teach people this indirect and tactical procedure in life; and to judge by remote consequences instead of the immediate face of things。 The very desire to act as our own souls would have us; coupled with a pathetic disbelief in ourselves; moves us to follow