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which she was engaged; than listen to the complaints and miseries of
Charlotte。 I will for once oblige you; I will for once follow her to midnight
revels; balls; and scenes of gaiety; for in such was she constantly engaged。
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I have said her person was lovely; let us add that she was surrounded
by splendor and affluence; and he must know but little of the world who
can wonder; (however faulty such a woman's conduct;) at her being
followed by the men; and her company courted by the women: in short
Mrs。 Crayton was the universal favourite: she set the fashions; she was
toasted by all the gentlemen; and copied by all the ladies。
Colonel Crayton was a domestic man。 Could he be happy with such a
woman? impossible! Remonstrance was vain: he might as well have
preached to the winds; as endeavour to persuade her from any action;
however ridiculous; on which she had set her mind: in short; after a little
ineffectual struggle; he gave up the attempt; and left her to follow the bent
of her own inclinations: what those were; I think the reader must have seen
enough of her character to form a just idea。 Among the number who paid
their devotions at her shrine; she singled one; a young Ensign of mean
birth; indifferent education; and weak intellects。 How such a man came
into the army; we hardly know to account for; and how he afterwards rose
to posts of honour is likewise strange and wonderful。 But fortune is blind;
and so are those too frequently who have the power of dispensing her
favours: else why do we see fools and knaves at the very top of the wheel;
while patient merit sinks to the extreme of the opposite abyss。 But we may
form a thousand conjectures on this subject; and yet never hit on the right。
Let us therefore endeavour to deserve her smiles; and whether we succeed
or not; we shall feel more innate satisfaction; than thousands of those who
bask in the sunshine of her favour unworthily。 But to return to Mrs。
Crayton: this young man; whom I shall distinguish by the name of
Corydon; was the reigning favourite of her heart。 He escorted her to the
play; danced with her at every ball; and when indisposition prevented her
going out; it was he alone who was permitted to chear the gloomy solitude
to which she was obliged to confine herself。 Did she ever think of poor
Charlotte? if she did; my dear Miss; it was only to laugh at the poor girl's
want of spirit in consenting to be moped up in the country; while
Montraville was enjoying all the pleasures of a gay; dissipated city。 When
she heard of his marriage; she smiling said; so there's an end of Madam
Charlotte's hopes。 I wonder who will take her now; or what will become of
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the little affected prude?
But as you have lead to the subject; I think we may as well return to
the distressed Charlotte; and not; like the unfeeling Mrs。 Crayton; shut our
hearts to the call of humanity。
CHAPTER XXIX。
WE GO FORWARD AGAIN。
THE strength of Charlotte's constitution combatted against her
disorder; and she began slowly to recover; though she still laboured under
a violent depression of spirits: how must that depression be encreased;
when; upon examining her little store; she found herself reduced to one
solitary guinea; and that during her illness the attendance of an apothecary
and nurse; together with many other unavoidable expences; had involved
her in debt; from which she saw no method of extricating herself。 As to the
faint hope which she had entertained of hearing from and being relieved
by her parents; it now entirely forsook her; for it was above four months
since her letter was dispatched; and she had received no answer: she
therefore imagined that her conduct had either entirely alienated their
affection from her; or broken their hearts; and she must never more hope
to receive their blessing。
Never did any human being wish for death with greater fervency or
with juster cause; yet she had too just a sense of the duties of the Christian
religion to attempt to put a period to her own existence。 〃I have but to be
patient a little longer;〃 she would cry; 〃and nature; fatigued and fainting;
will throw off this heavy load of mortality; and I shall be released from all
my sufferings。 〃
It was one cold stormy day in the latter end of December; as Charlotte
sat by a handful of fire; the low state of her finances not allowing her to
replenish her stock of fuel; and prudence teaching her to be careful of what
she had; when she was surprised by the entrance of a farmer's wife; who;
without much ceremony; seated herself; and began this curious harangue。
〃I'm come to see if as how you can pay your rent; because as how we
hear Captain Montable is gone away; and it's fifty to one if he b'ant killed
afore he comes back again; an then; Miss; or Ma'am; or whatever you may
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be; as I was saying to my husband; where are we to look for our money。 〃
This was a stroke altogether unexpected by Charlotte: she knew so
little of the ways of the world that she had never bestowed a thought on
the payment for the rent of the house; she knew indeed that she owed a
good deal; but this was never reckoned among the others: she was
thunder…struck; she hardly knew what answer to make; yet it was
absolutely necessary that she should say something; and judging of the
gentleness of every female disposition by her own; she thought the best
way to interest the woman in her favour would be to tell her candidly to
what a situation she was reduced; and how little probability there was of
her ever paying any body。
Alas poor Charlotte; how confined was her knowledge of human
nature; or she would have been convinced that the only way to insure the
friendship and assistance of your surrounding acquaintance is to convince
them you do not require it; for when once the petrifying aspect of distress
and penury appear; whose qualities; like Medusa's head; can change to
stone all that look upon it; when once this Gorgon claims acquaintance
with us; the phantom of friendship; that before courted our notice; will
vanish into unsubstantial air; and the whole world before us appear a
barren waste。 Pardon me; ye dear spirits of benevolence; whose benign
smiles and chearful…giving hand have strewed sweet flowers on many a
thorny path through which my wayward fate forced me to pass; think not;
that; in condemning the unfeeling texture of the human heart; I forget the
spring from whence flow an the comforts I enjoy: oh no! I look up to you
as to bright constellations; gathering new splendours from the surrounding
darkness; but ah! whilst I adore the benignant rays that cheared and
illumined my heart; I mourn that their influence cannot extend to all the
sons and daughters of affliction。
〃Indeed; Madam;〃 said poor Charlotte in a tremulous accent; 〃I am at a
loss what to do。 Montraville placed me here; and promised to defray all
my expenses: but he has forgot his promise; he has forsaken me; and I
have no friend who has either power or will to relieve me。 Let me hope; as
you see my unhappy situation; your charity〃
〃Charity;〃 cried the woman impatiently interrupting her; 〃charity
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indeed: why; Mistress; charity begins at home; and I have seven children
at home; HONEST; LAWFUL children; and it is my duty to keep them;
and do you think I will give away my property to a nasty; impudent hussey;
to maintain her and her bastard; an I was saying to my husband the other
day what will this world come to; honest women are nothing now…a…days;
while the har