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some ladies; to whom I will introduce you; will dispel these sad thoughts;
and I shall again see returning chearfulness animate those lovely features。〃
〃Oh never! never!〃 cried Charlotte; emphatically: 〃the virtuous part of
my sex will scorn me; and I will never associate with infamy。 No; Belcour;
here let me hide my shame and sorrow; here let me spend my few
remaining days in obscurity; unknown and unpitied; here let me die
unlamented; and my name sink to oblivion。〃 Here her tears stopped her
utterance。 Belcour was awed to silence: he dared not interrupt her; and
after a moment's pause she proceeded〃I once had conceived the thought
of going to New…York to seek out the still dear; though cruel; ungenerous
Montraville; to throw myself at his feet; and entreat his compassion;
heaven knows; not for myself; if I am no longer beloved; I will not be
indebted to his pity to redress my injuries; but I would have knelt and
entreated him not to forsake my poor unborn〃 She could say no more; a
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crimson glow rushed over her cheeks; and covering her face with her
hands; she sobbed aloud。
Something like humanity was awakened in Belcour's breast by this
pathetic speech: he arose and walked towards the window; but the selfish
passion which had taken possession of his heart; soon stifled these finer
emotions; and he thought if Charlotte was once convinced she had no
longer any dependance on Montraville; she would more readily throw
herself on his protection。 Determined; therefore; to inform her of all that
had happened; he again resumed his seat; and finding she began to be
more composed; enquired if she had ever heard from Montraville since the
unfortunate recontre in her bed chamber。
〃Ah no;〃 said she。 〃I fear I shall never hear from him again。〃
〃I am greatly of your opinion;〃 said Belcour; 〃for he has been for some
time past greatly attached〃
At the word 〃attached〃 a death…like paleness overspread the
countenance of Charlotte; but she applied to some hartshorn which stood
beside her; and Belcour proceeded。
〃He has been for some time past greatly attached to one Miss Franklin;
a pleasing lively girl; with a large fortune。〃
〃She may be richer; may be handsomer;〃 cried Charlotte; 〃but cannot
love him so well。 Oh may she beware of his art; and not trust him too far
as I have done。〃
〃He addresses her publicly;〃 said he; 〃and it was rumoured they were
to be married before he sailed for Eustatia; whither his company is
ordered。〃
〃Belcour;〃 said Charlotte; seizing his hand; and gazing at him earnestly;
while her pale lips trembled with convulsive agony; 〃tell me; and tell me
truly; I beseech you; do you think he can be such a villain as to marry
another woman; and leave me to die with want and misery in a strange
land: tell me what you think; I can bear it very well; I will not shrink from
this heaviest stroke of fate; I have deserved my afflictions; and I will
endeavour to bear them as I ought。〃
〃I fear;〃 said Belcour; 〃he can be that villain。〃
〃Perhaps;〃 cried she; eagerly interrupting him; 〃perhaps he is married
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already: come; let me know the worst;〃 continued she with an affected
look of composure: 〃you need not be afraid; I shall not send the fortunate
lady a bowl of poison。〃
〃Well then; my dear girl;〃 said he; deceived by her appearance; 〃they
were married on Thursday; and yesterday morning they sailed for
Eustatia。〃
〃Marriedgonesay you?〃 cried she in a distracted accent; 〃what
without a last farewell; without one thought on my unhappy situation! Oh
Montraville; may God forgive your perfidy。〃 She shrieked; and Belcour
sprang forward just in time to prevent her falling to the floor。
Alarming faintings now succeeded each other; and she was conveyed
to her bed; from whence she earnestly prayed she might never more arise。
Belcour staid with her that night; and in the morning found her in a high
fever。 The fits she had been seized with had greatly terrified him; and
confined as she now was to a bed of sickness; she was no longer an object
of desire: it is true for several days he went constantly to see her; but her
pale; emaciated appearance disgusted him: his visits became less frequent;
he forgot the solemn charge given him by Montraville; he even forgot the
money entrusted to his care; and; the burning blush of indignation and
shame tinges my cheek while I write it; this disgrace to humanity and
manhood at length forgot even the injured Charlotte; and; attracted by the
blooming health of a farmer's daughter; whom he had seen in his frequent
excursions to the country; he left the unhappy girl to sink unnoticed to the
grave; a prey to sickness; grief; and penury; while he; having triumphed
over the virtue of the artless cottager; rioted in all the intemperance of
luxury and lawless pleasure。
CHAPTER XXVIII。
A TRIFLING RETROSPECT。
〃BLESS my heart;〃 cries my young; volatile reader; 〃I shall never have
patience to get through these volumes; there are so many ahs! and ohs! so
much fainting; tears; and distress; I am sick to death of the subject。〃 My
dear; chearful; innocent girl; for innocent I will suppose you to be; or you
would acutely feel the woes of Charlotte; did conscience say; thus might it
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have been with me; had not Providence interposed to snatch me from
destruction: therefore; my lively; innocent girl; I must request your
patience: I am writing a tale of truth: I mean to write it to the heart: but if
perchance the heart is rendered impenetrable by unbounded prosperity; or
a continuance in vice; I expect not my tale to please; nay; I even expect it
will be thrown by with disgust。 But softly; gentle fair one; I pray you
throw it not aside till you have perused the whole; mayhap you may find
something therein to repay you for the trouble。 Methinks I see a sarcastic
smile sit on your countenance。〃And what;〃 cry you; 〃does the conceited
author suppose we can glean from these pages; if Charlotte is held up as
an object of terror; to prevent us from falling into guilty errors? does not
La Rue triumph in her shame; and by adding art to guilt; obtain the
affection of a worthy man; and rise to a station where she is beheld with
respect; and chearfully received into all companies。 What then is the moral
you would inculcate? Would you wish us to think that a deviation from
virtue; if covered by art and hypocrisy; is not an object of detestation; but
on the contrary shall raise us to fame and honour? while the hapless girl
who falls a victim to her too great sensibility; shall be loaded with
ignominy and shame?〃 No; my fair querist; I mean no such thing。
Remember the endeavours of the wicked are often suffered to prosper; that
in the end their fall may be attended with more bitterness of heart; while
the cup of affliction is poured out for wise and salutary ends; and they who
are compelled to drain it even to the bitter dregs; often find comfort at the
bottom; the tear of penitence blots their offences from the book of fate;
and they rise from the heavy; painful trial; purified and fit for a mansion in
the kingdom of eternity。
Yes; my young friends; the tear of compassion shall fall for the fate of
Charlotte; while the name of La Rue shall be detested and despised。 For
Charlotte; the soul melts with sympathy; for La Rue; it feels nothing but
horror and contempt。 But perhaps your gay hearts would rather follow the
fortunate Mrs。 Crayton through the scenes of pleasure and dissipation in
which she was engaged; than listen to the complaints and miseries of
Charlotte。 I will for on