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  every danger; and; in studying to promote your happiness; insure my own。
  But I   cannot break my   mother's heart; Montraville;   I   must not   bring the
  grey hairs of my doating grand…father with sorrow to the grave; or make
  my beloved father perhaps curse the hour that gave me birth。〃 She covered
  her face with her hands; and burst into tears。
  〃All   these   distressing   scenes;   my   dear   Charlotte;〃   cried   Montraville;
  〃are merely the chimeras of a disturbed fancy。 Your parents might perhaps
  grieve at first; but when they heard from your own hand that you was with
  a man of honour; and that it was to insure your felicity by an union with
  him; to which you feared they would never have given their assent; that
  you left their protection; they will; be assured; forgive an error which love
  alone   occasioned;   and   when   we   return   from America;   receive   you   with
  open arms and tears of joy。〃
  Belcour and Mademoiselle heard this last speech; and conceiving it a
  proper time to throw in their advice and persuasions; approached Charlotte;
  and     so   well    seconded      the   entreaties    of   Montraville;      that   finding
  Mademoiselle         intended     going    with    Belcour;     and    feeling    her   own
  treacherous      heart   too  much     inclined    to  accompany      them;    the  hapless
  Charlotte;   in   an   evil   hour;   consented   that   the   next   evening   they   should
  bring a chaise to the end of the town; and that she would leave her friends;
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  and   throw  herself   entirely  on   the protection   of   Montraville。   〃But   should
  you;〃 said she; looking earnestly at him; her eyes full of tears; 〃should you;
  forgetful    of   your   promises;    and   repenting    the   engagements      you    here
  voluntarily enter into; forsake and leave me on a foreign shore〃 〃Judge
  not   so   meanly   of   me;〃   said   he。  〃The   moment   we   reach   our   place     of
  destination; Hymen shall sanctify our love; and when I shall forget your
  goodness; may heaven forget me。〃
  〃Ah;〃   said   Charlotte;  leaning   on   Mademoiselle's   arm  as   they  walked
  up the garden together; 〃I have forgot all that I ought to have remembered;
  in consenting to this intended elopement。〃
  〃You   are   a   strange   girl;〃   said   Mademoiselle:   〃you   never   know   your
  own   mind   two   minutes   at   a   time。   just   now   you   declared   Montraville's
  happiness was what you prized most in the world; and now I suppose you
  repent    having    insured    that  happiness     by  agreeing     to  accompany      him
  abroad。〃
  〃Indeed     I  do  repent;〃   replied   Charlotte;   〃from   my   soul:    but  while
  discretion points out the impropriety of my conduct; inclination urges me
  on to ruin。〃
  〃Ruin! fiddlestick!〃 said Mademoiselle; 〃am I not going with you? and
  do I feel any of these qualms?〃
  〃You do not renounce a tender father and mother;〃 said Charlotte。
  〃But I hazard my dear reputation;〃 replied Mademoiselle; bridling。
  〃True;〃   replied   Charlotte;   〃but   you   do   not   feel   what   I  do。〃   She   then
  bade her good night: but sleep was a stranger to her eyes; and the tear of
  anguish watered her pillow。
  CHAPTER XII。
  Nature's last; best gift: Creature in whom excell'd; whatever
  could To sight or thought be nam'd! Holy; divine! good; amiable; and
  sweet! How thou art fall'n! WHEN Charlotte left her restless bed;
  her languid eye and pale cheek discovered to Madame Du Pont the
  little repose she had tasted。
  〃My dear child;〃 said the affectionate governess; 〃what is the cause of
  the languor so apparent in your frame? Are you not well?〃
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  〃Yes;   my   dear   Madam;   very   well;〃   replied   Charlotte;   attempting   to
  smile; 〃but   I know  not how it   was;   I   could   not sleep   last night;  and   my
  spirits are depressed this morning。〃
  〃Come       chear   up;   my   love;〃    said  the   governess;     〃I  believe    I  have
  brought a cordial to revive them。 I have just received a letter from  your
  good mama; and here is one for yourself。〃
  Charlotte hastily took the letter: it contained these words
  〃As   to…morrow   is   the      anniversary   of   the   happy   day   that   gave      my
  beloved girl to the  anxious   wishes   of a  maternal heart;  I  have   requested
  your governess to let you come home and spend it with us; and as I know
  you to be a good affectionate child; and make it your study to improve in
  those branches of   education which you know will give   most pleasure   to
  your delighted parents; as a reward for your diligence and attention I have
  prepared an agreeable surprise for your reception。 Your grand…father; eager
  to embrace the darling of his aged heart; will come in the chaise for you;
  so   hold   yourself   in   readiness   to   attend   him   by   nine   o'clock。   Your   dear
  father joins in every tender wish for your health and future felicity; which
  warms the heart of my dear Charlotte's affectionate mother; L。 TEMPLE。〃
  〃Gracious   heaven!〃   cried   Charlotte;   forgetting   where   she   was;   and
  raising her streaming eyes as in earnest supplication。
  Madame Du Pont was surprised。 〃Why these tears; my love?〃 said she。
  〃Why   this   seeming   agitation?   I   thought   the   letter   would   have   rejoiced;
  instead of distressing you。〃
  〃It   does   rejoice   me;〃   replied   Charlotte;   endeavouring   at   composure;
  〃but   I   was   praying   for   merit   to   deserve   the   unremitted   attentions   of   the
  best of parents。〃
  〃You do right;〃 said Madame Du Pont; 〃to ask the assistance of heaven
  that you may continue to deserve their love。 Continue; my dear Charlotte;
  in   the   course   you   have   ever   pursued;   and   you   will   insure   at   once   their
  happiness and your own。 〃
  〃Oh!〃 cried Charlotte; as her governess left her; 〃I have forfeited both
  for ever! Yet let me reflect:the irrevocable step is not yet taken: it is not
  too   late   to   recede   from   the   brink   of   a   precipice;   from   which   I   can   only
  behold the dark abyss of ruin; shame; and remorse!〃
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  She   arose   from   her   seat;   and   flew   to   the   apartment   of   La   Rue。   〃Oh
  Mademoiselle!〃 said   she;   〃I am  snatched   by a   miracle   from  destruction!
  This letter has saved me: it has opened my eyes to the folly I was so near
  committing。 I will not go; Mademoiselle; I will not wound the hearts of
  those dear parents who make my happiness the whole study of their lives。〃
  〃Well;〃      said   Mademoiselle;        〃do    as   you    please;    Miss;    but   pray
  understand that my resolution is taken; and it is not in your power to alter
  it。   I   shall   meet   the   gentlemen   at   the   appointed   hour;   and   shall   not   be
  surprized   at   any  outrage   which   Montraville   may  commit;   when   he   finds
  himself disappointed。 Indeed I should not be astonished; was he to come
  immediately here; and reproach you for your instability in the hearing of
  the   whole   school:   and   what   will   be   the   consequence?   you   will   bear   the
  odium of having formed the resolution of eloping; and every girl of spirit
  will laugh at your want of fortitude to put it in execution; while prudes and
  fools   will   load   you   with   reproach   and   contempt。 You   will   have   lost   the
  confidence   of   your   parents;   incurred   their   anger;   and   the   scoffs   of   the
  world; and   what fruit   do you   expect to   reap from  this piece   of   heroism;
  (for such no doubt you think it is?) you will have the pleasure to reflect;
  that you have deceived the man who adores you; and whom in your heart
  you prefer to all other men; and that you are separated from him for ever。 〃
  This eloquent harangue was given with such volubility; that Charlotte
  could not find an opportunity to interrupt her; or to offer a single word till
  the   whole   was   finished;   and   then   found   her   ideas   so   confused;   that   she
  knew not what to say。
  At length she determined that she would go with Mademoiselle to the
  place of assignation; convince Montraville of the necessity of adhering to
  the  resolution   of   remaining   behind;   assure  him  of   her   affection;  and   bid
  him adieu。
  Charlotte formed this