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every danger; and; in studying to promote your happiness; insure my own。
But I cannot break my mother's heart; Montraville; I must not bring the
grey hairs of my doating grand…father with sorrow to the grave; or make
my beloved father perhaps curse the hour that gave me birth。〃 She covered
her face with her hands; and burst into tears。
〃All these distressing scenes; my dear Charlotte;〃 cried Montraville;
〃are merely the chimeras of a disturbed fancy。 Your parents might perhaps
grieve at first; but when they heard from your own hand that you was with
a man of honour; and that it was to insure your felicity by an union with
him; to which you feared they would never have given their assent; that
you left their protection; they will; be assured; forgive an error which love
alone occasioned; and when we return from America; receive you with
open arms and tears of joy。〃
Belcour and Mademoiselle heard this last speech; and conceiving it a
proper time to throw in their advice and persuasions; approached Charlotte;
and so well seconded the entreaties of Montraville; that finding
Mademoiselle intended going with Belcour; and feeling her own
treacherous heart too much inclined to accompany them; the hapless
Charlotte; in an evil hour; consented that the next evening they should
bring a chaise to the end of the town; and that she would leave her friends;
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and throw herself entirely on the protection of Montraville。 〃But should
you;〃 said she; looking earnestly at him; her eyes full of tears; 〃should you;
forgetful of your promises; and repenting the engagements you here
voluntarily enter into; forsake and leave me on a foreign shore〃 〃Judge
not so meanly of me;〃 said he。 〃The moment we reach our place of
destination; Hymen shall sanctify our love; and when I shall forget your
goodness; may heaven forget me。〃
〃Ah;〃 said Charlotte; leaning on Mademoiselle's arm as they walked
up the garden together; 〃I have forgot all that I ought to have remembered;
in consenting to this intended elopement。〃
〃You are a strange girl;〃 said Mademoiselle: 〃you never know your
own mind two minutes at a time。 just now you declared Montraville's
happiness was what you prized most in the world; and now I suppose you
repent having insured that happiness by agreeing to accompany him
abroad。〃
〃Indeed I do repent;〃 replied Charlotte; 〃from my soul: but while
discretion points out the impropriety of my conduct; inclination urges me
on to ruin。〃
〃Ruin! fiddlestick!〃 said Mademoiselle; 〃am I not going with you? and
do I feel any of these qualms?〃
〃You do not renounce a tender father and mother;〃 said Charlotte。
〃But I hazard my dear reputation;〃 replied Mademoiselle; bridling。
〃True;〃 replied Charlotte; 〃but you do not feel what I do。〃 She then
bade her good night: but sleep was a stranger to her eyes; and the tear of
anguish watered her pillow。
CHAPTER XII。
Nature's last; best gift: Creature in whom excell'd; whatever
could To sight or thought be nam'd! Holy; divine! good; amiable; and
sweet! How thou art fall'n! WHEN Charlotte left her restless bed;
her languid eye and pale cheek discovered to Madame Du Pont the
little repose she had tasted。
〃My dear child;〃 said the affectionate governess; 〃what is the cause of
the languor so apparent in your frame? Are you not well?〃
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〃Yes; my dear Madam; very well;〃 replied Charlotte; attempting to
smile; 〃but I know not how it was; I could not sleep last night; and my
spirits are depressed this morning。〃
〃Come chear up; my love;〃 said the governess; 〃I believe I have
brought a cordial to revive them。 I have just received a letter from your
good mama; and here is one for yourself。〃
Charlotte hastily took the letter: it contained these words
〃As to…morrow is the anniversary of the happy day that gave my
beloved girl to the anxious wishes of a maternal heart; I have requested
your governess to let you come home and spend it with us; and as I know
you to be a good affectionate child; and make it your study to improve in
those branches of education which you know will give most pleasure to
your delighted parents; as a reward for your diligence and attention I have
prepared an agreeable surprise for your reception。 Your grand…father; eager
to embrace the darling of his aged heart; will come in the chaise for you;
so hold yourself in readiness to attend him by nine o'clock。 Your dear
father joins in every tender wish for your health and future felicity; which
warms the heart of my dear Charlotte's affectionate mother; L。 TEMPLE。〃
〃Gracious heaven!〃 cried Charlotte; forgetting where she was; and
raising her streaming eyes as in earnest supplication。
Madame Du Pont was surprised。 〃Why these tears; my love?〃 said she。
〃Why this seeming agitation? I thought the letter would have rejoiced;
instead of distressing you。〃
〃It does rejoice me;〃 replied Charlotte; endeavouring at composure;
〃but I was praying for merit to deserve the unremitted attentions of the
best of parents。〃
〃You do right;〃 said Madame Du Pont; 〃to ask the assistance of heaven
that you may continue to deserve their love。 Continue; my dear Charlotte;
in the course you have ever pursued; and you will insure at once their
happiness and your own。 〃
〃Oh!〃 cried Charlotte; as her governess left her; 〃I have forfeited both
for ever! Yet let me reflect:the irrevocable step is not yet taken: it is not
too late to recede from the brink of a precipice; from which I can only
behold the dark abyss of ruin; shame; and remorse!〃
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She arose from her seat; and flew to the apartment of La Rue。 〃Oh
Mademoiselle!〃 said she; 〃I am snatched by a miracle from destruction!
This letter has saved me: it has opened my eyes to the folly I was so near
committing。 I will not go; Mademoiselle; I will not wound the hearts of
those dear parents who make my happiness the whole study of their lives。〃
〃Well;〃 said Mademoiselle; 〃do as you please; Miss; but pray
understand that my resolution is taken; and it is not in your power to alter
it。 I shall meet the gentlemen at the appointed hour; and shall not be
surprized at any outrage which Montraville may commit; when he finds
himself disappointed。 Indeed I should not be astonished; was he to come
immediately here; and reproach you for your instability in the hearing of
the whole school: and what will be the consequence? you will bear the
odium of having formed the resolution of eloping; and every girl of spirit
will laugh at your want of fortitude to put it in execution; while prudes and
fools will load you with reproach and contempt。 You will have lost the
confidence of your parents; incurred their anger; and the scoffs of the
world; and what fruit do you expect to reap from this piece of heroism;
(for such no doubt you think it is?) you will have the pleasure to reflect;
that you have deceived the man who adores you; and whom in your heart
you prefer to all other men; and that you are separated from him for ever。 〃
This eloquent harangue was given with such volubility; that Charlotte
could not find an opportunity to interrupt her; or to offer a single word till
the whole was finished; and then found her ideas so confused; that she
knew not what to say。
At length she determined that she would go with Mademoiselle to the
place of assignation; convince Montraville of the necessity of adhering to
the resolution of remaining behind; assure him of her affection; and bid
him adieu。
Charlotte formed this