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Is poverty your portion?she will lighten your labours; preside at your
frugal board; and watch your quiet slumbers。
Is your state mediocrity?she will heighten every blessing you enjoy;
by informing you how grateful you should be to that bountiful Providence
who might have placed you in the most abject situation; and; by teaching
you to weigh your blessings against your deserts; show you how much
more you receive than you have a right to expect。
Are you possessed of affluence?what an inexhaustible fund of
happiness will she lay before you! To relieve the distressed; redress the
injured; in short; to perform all the good works of peace and mercy。
Content; my dear friends; will blunt even the arrows of adversity; so
that they cannot materially harm you。 She will dwell in the humblest
cottage; she will attend you even to a prison。 Her parent is Religion; her
sisters; Patience and Hope。 She will pass with you through life; smoothing
the rough paths and tread to earth those thorns which every one must meet
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with as they journey onward to the appointed goal。 She will soften the
pains of sickness; continue with you even in the cold gloomy hour of death;
and; cheating you with the smiles of her heaven…born sister; Hope; lead
you triumphant to a blissfull eternity。
I confess I have rambled strangely from my story: but what of that? if I
have been so lucky as to find the road to happiness; why should I be such
a niggard as to omit so good an opportunity of pointing out the way to
others。 The very basis of true peace of mind is a benevolent wish to see all
the world as happy as one's Self; and from my soul do I pity the selfish
churl; who; remembering the little bickerings of anger; envy; and fifty
other disagreeables to which frail mortality is subject; would wish to
revenge the affront which pride whispers him he has received。 For my
own part; I can safely declare; there is not a human being in the universe;
whose prosperity I should not rejoice in; and to whose happiness I would
not contribute to the utmost limit of my power: and may my offences be
no more remembered in the day of general retribution; than as from my
soul I forgive every offence or injury received from a fellow creature。
Merciful heaven! who would exchange the rapture of such a reflexion
for all the gaudy tinsel which the world calls pleasure!
But to return。Content dwelt in Mrs。 Temple's bosom; and spread a
charming animation over her countenance; as her husband led her in; to
lay the plan she had formed (for the celebration of Charlotte's birth day;)
before Mr。 Eldridge。
CHAPTER IX。
WE KNOW NOT WHAT A DAY MAY BRING FORTH。
VARIOUS were the sensations which agitated the mind of Charlotte;
during the day preceding the evening in which she was to meet
Montraville。 Several times did she almost resolve to go to her governess;
show her the letter; and be guided by her advice: but Charlotte had taken
one step in the ways of imprudence; and when that is once done; there are
always innumerable obstacles to prevent the erring person returning to the
path of rectitude: yet these obstacles; however forcible they may appear in
general; exist chiefly in imagination。
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Charlotte feared the anger of her governess: she loved her mother; and
the very idea of incurring her displeasure; gave her the greatest uneasiness:
but there was a more forcible reason still remaining: should she show the
letter to Madame Du Pont; she must confess the means by which it came
into her possession; and what would be the consequence? Mademoiselle
would be turned out of doors。
〃I must not be ungrateful;〃 said she。 〃La Rue is very kind to me;
besides I can; when I see Montraville; inform him of the impropriety of
our continuing to see or correspond with each other; and request him to
come no more to Chichester。〃
However prudent Charlotte might be in these resolutions; she certainly
did not take a proper method to confirm herself in them。 Several times in
the course of the day; she indulged herself in reading over the letter; and
each time she read it; the contents sunk deeper in her heart。 As evening
drew near; she caught herself frequently consulting her watch。 〃I wish this
foolish meeting was over;〃 said she; by way of apology to her own heart;
〃I wish it was over; for when I have seen him; and convinced him my
resolution is not to be shaken; I shall feel my mind much easier。〃
The appointed hour arrived。 Charlotte and Mademoiselle eluded the
eye of vigilance; and Montraville; who had waited their coming with
impatience; received them with rapturous and unbounded
acknowledgments for their condescension: he had wisely brought Belcour
with him to entertain Mademoiselle; while he enjoyed an uninterrupted
conversation with Charlotte。
Belcour was a man whose character might be comprised in a few
words; and as he will make some figure in the ensuing pages; I shall here
describe him。 He possessed a genteel fortune; and had a liberal education;
dissipated; thoughtless; and capricious; he paid little regard to the moral
duties; and less to religious ones: eager in the pursuit of pleasure; he
minded not the miseries he inflicted on others; provided his own wishes;
however extravagant; were gratified。 Self; darling self; was the idol he
worshipped; and to that he would have sacrificed the interest and
happiness of all mankind。 Such was the friend of Montraville: will not the
reader be ready to imagine; that the man who could regard such a
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character; must be actuated by the same feelings; follow the same pursuits;
and be equally unworthy with the person to whom he thus gave his
confidence?
But Montraville was a different character: generous in his disposition;
liberal in his opinions; and good…natured almost to a fault; yet eager and
impetuous in the pursuit of a favorite object; he staid not to reflect on the
consequence which might follow the attainment of his wishes; with a mind
ever open to conviction; had he been so fortunate as to possess a friend
who would have pointed out the cruelty of endeavouring to gain the heart
of an innocent artless girl; when he knew it was utterly impossible for him
to marry her; and when the gratification of his passion would be
unavoidable infamy and misery to her; and a cause of never…ceasing
remorse to himself: had these dreadful consequences been placed before
him in a proper light; the humanity of his nature would have urged him to
give up the pursuit: but Belcour was not this friend; he rather encouraged
the growing passion of Montraville; and being pleased with the vivacity of
Mademoiselle; resolved to leave no argument untried; which he thought
might prevail on her to be the companion of their intended voyage; and he
made no doubt but her example; added to the rhetoric of Montraville;
would persuade Charlotte to go with them。
Charlotte had; when she went out to meet Montraville; flattered herself
that her resolution was not to be shaken; and that; conscious of the
impropriety of her conduct in having a clandestine intercourse with a
stranger; she would never repeat the indiscretion。
But alas! poor Charlotte; she knew not the deceitfulness of her own
heart; or she would have avoided the trial of her stability。
Montraville was tender; eloquent; ardent; and yet respectful。 〃Shall I
not see you once more;〃 said he; 〃before I leave England? will you not
bless me by an assurance; that when we are divided by a vast expanse of
sea I shall not be forgotten?〃
Charlotte sighed。
〃Why that sigh; my dear Charl