第 7 节
作者:换裁判      更新:2024-01-16 22:39      字数:9322
  proving the certainty of this last incident; opened his eyes as
  to the character and life of these two women。
  Had they really waited till the portrait was given them before
  robbing him of his purse? In such a combination the theft was
  even more odious。 The painter recollected that for the last two
  or three evenings Adelaide; while seeming to examine with a
  girl's curiosity the particular stitch of the worn silk netting;
  was probably counting the coins in the purse; while making some
  light jests; quite innocent in appearance; but no doubt with the
  object of watching for a moment when the sum was worth stealing。
  〃The old admiral has perhaps good reasons for not marrying
  Adelaide; and so the Baroness has tried〃
  But at this hypothesis he checked himself; not finishing his
  thought; which was contradicted by a very just reflection; 〃If
  the Baroness hopes to get me to marry her daughter;〃 thought he;
  〃they would not have robbed me。〃
  Then; clinging to his illusions; to the love that already had
  taken such deep root; he tried to find a justification in some
  accident。 〃The purse must have fallen on the floor;〃 said he to
  himself; 〃or I left it lying on my chair。 Or perhaps I have it
  about meI am so absent…minded!〃 He searched himself with
  hurried movements; but did not find the ill…starred purse。 His
  memory cruelly retraced the fatal truth; minute by minute。 He
  distinctly saw the purse lying on the green cloth; but then;
  doubtful no longer; he excused Adelaide; telling himself that
  persons in misfortune should not be so hastily condemned。 There
  was; of course; some secret behind this apparently degrading
  action。 He would not admit that that proud and noble face was a
  lie。
  At the same time the wretched rooms rose before him; denuded of
  the poetry of love which beautifies everything; he saw them dirty
  and faded; regarding them as emblematic of an inner life devoid
  of honor; idle and vicious。 Are not our feelings written; as it
  were; on the things about us?
  Next morning he rose; not having slept。 The heartache; that
  terrible malady of the soul; had made rapid inroads。 To lose the
  bliss we dreamed of; to renounce our whole future; is a keener
  pang than that caused by the loss of known happiness; however
  complete it may have been; for is not Hope better than Memory?
  The thoughts into which our spirit is suddenly plunged are like a
  shoreless sea; in which we may swim for a moment; but where our
  love is doomed to drown and die。 And it is a frightful death。 Are
  not our feelings the most glorious part of our life? It is this
  partial death which; in certain delicate or powerful natures;
  leads to the terrible ruin produced by disenchantment; by hopes
  and passions betrayed。 Thus it was with the young painter。 He
  went out at a very early hour to walk under the fresh shade of
  the Tuileries; absorbed in his thoughts; forgetting everything in
  the world。
  There by chance he met one of his most intimate friends; a
  school…fellow and studio…mate; with whom he had lived on better
  terms than with a brother。
  〃Why; Hippolyte; what ails you?〃 asked Francois Souchet; the
  young sculptor who had just won the first prize; and was soon to
  set out for Italy。
  〃I am most unhappy;〃 replied Hippolyte gravely。
  〃Nothing but a love affair can cause you grief。 Money; glory;
  respectyou lack nothing。〃
  Insensibly the painter was led into confidences; and confessed
  his love。 The moment he mentioned the Rue de Suresnes; and a
  young girl living on the fourth floor; 〃Stop; stop;〃 cried
  Souchet lightly。 〃A little girl I see every morning at the Church
  of the Assumption; and with whom I have a flirtation。 But; my
  dear fellow; we all know her。 The mother is a Baroness。 Do you
  really believe in a Baroness living up four flights of stairs?
  Brrr! Why; you are a relic of the golden age! We see the old
  mother here; in this avenue; every day; why; her face; her
  appearance; tell everything。 What; have you not known her for
  what she is by the way she holds her bag?〃
  The two friends walked up and down for some time; and several
  young men who knew Souchet or Schinner joined them。 The painter's
  adventure; which the sculptor regarded as unimportant; was
  repeated by him。
  〃So he; too; has seen that young lady!〃 said Souchet。
  And then there were comments; laughter; innocent mockery; full of
  the liveliness familiar to artists; but which pained Hippolyte
  frightfully。 A certain native reticence made him uncomfortable as
  he saw his heart's secret so carelessly handled; his passion
  rent; torn to tatters; a young and unknown girl; whose life
  seemed to be so modest; the victim of condemnation; right or
  wrong; but pronounced with such reckless indifference。 He
  pretended to be moved by a spirit of contradiction; asking each
  for proofs of his assertions; and their jests began again。
  〃But; my dear boy; have you seen the Baroness' shawl?〃 asked
  Souchet。
  〃Have you ever followed the girl when she patters off to church
  in the morning?〃 said Joseph Bridau; a young dauber in Gros'
  studio。
  〃Oh; the mother has among other virtues a certain gray gown;
  which I regard as typical;〃 said Bixiou; the caricaturist。
  〃Listen; Hippolyte;〃 the sculptor went on。 〃Come here at about
  four o'clock; and just study the walk of both mother and
  daughter。 If after that you still have doubts! well; no one can
  ever make anything of you; you would be capable of marrying your
  porter's daughter。
  Torn by the most conflicting feelings; the painter parted from
  his friends。 It seemed to him that Adelaide and her mother must
  be superior to these accusations; and at the bottom of his heart
  he was filled with remorse for having suspected the purity of
  this beautiful and simple girl。 He went to his studio; passing
  the door of the rooms where Adelaide was; and conscious of a pain
  at his heart which no man can misapprehend。 He loved Mademoiselle
  de Rouville so passionately that; in spite of the theft of the
  purse; he still worshiped her。 His love was that of the Chevalier
  des Grieux admiring his mistress; and holding her as pure; even
  on the cart which carries such lost creatures to prison。 〃Why
  should not my love keep her the purest of women? Why abandon her
  to evil and to vice without holding out a rescuing hand to her?〃
  The idea of this mission pleased him。 Love makes a gain of
  everything。 Nothing tempts a young man more than to play the part
  of a good genius to a woman。 There is something inexplicably
  romantic in such an enterprise which appeals to a highly…strung
  soul。 Is it not the utmost stretch of devotion under the loftiest
  and most engaging aspect? Is there not something grand in the
  thought that we love enough still to love on when the love of
  others dwindles and dies?
  Hippolyte sat down in his studio; gazed at his picture without
  doing anything to it; seeing the figures through tears that
  swelled in his eyes; holding his brush in his hand; going up to
  the canvas as if to soften down an effect; but not touching it。
  Night fell; and he was still in this attitude。 Roused from his
  moodiness by the darkness; he went downstairs; met the old
  admiral on the way; looked darkly at him as he bowed; and fled。
  He had intended going in to see the ladies; but the sight of
  Adelaide's protector froze his heart and dispelled his purpose。
  For the hundredth time he wondered what interest could bring this
  old prodigal; with his eighty thousand francs a year; to this
  fourth story; where he lost about forty francs every evening; and
  he thought he could guess what it was。
  The next and following days Hippolyte threw himself into his
  work; and to try to conquer his passion by the swift rush of
  ideas and the ardor of composition。 He half succeeded。 Study
  consoled him; though it could not smother the memories of so many
  tender hours spent with Adelaide。
  One evening; as he left his studio; he saw the door of the
  ladies' rooms half open。 Somebody was standing in the recess of
  the window; and the position of the door and the staircase made
  it impossible that the painter should pass without seeing
  Adelaide。 He bowed coldly; with a glance of supreme indifference;
  but judging of the girl's suffering by his own; he felt an inward
  shudder as he reflected on the bitterness which that look and
  that coldness must produce in a loving heart。 To crown the most
  delightful feast which ever brought joy to two pure souls; by
  eight days of disdain; of the deepest and most utter contempt!A
  frightful conclusion。 And perhaps the purse had been found;
  perhaps Adelaide had looked for her friend every evening。
  This simple and natural idea filled the lover with fresh remorse;
  he asked himself whether the proofs of attachment given him by
  the young girl; the delightful talks; full of the love that had
  so charmed him; did not deserve at least an inquiry; were not
  wo