第 2 节
作者:换裁判      更新:2024-01-16 22:39      字数:9322
  she suffered; at the cost of her heart and her sweet illusions;
  the disenchantment which falls on us so slowly and yet so
  quicklyfor we try to postpone as long as possible our belief in
  evil; and it seems to come too soonthat day was a whole age of
  reflection; and it was also a day of religious thought and
  resignation。 She refused the alms of the man who had betrayed
  her; renounced the world; and made a glory of her shame。 She gave
  herself up entirely to her motherly love; seeking in it all her
  joys in exchange for the social pleasures to which she bid
  farewell。 She lived by work; saving up a treasure for her son。
  And; in after years; a day; an hour repaid her amply for the long
  and weary sacrifices of her indigence。
  At the last exhibition her son had received the Cross of the
  Legion of Honor。 The newspapers; unanimous in hailing an unknown
  genius; still rang with sincere praises。 Artists themselves
  acknowledged Schinner as a master; and dealers covered his
  canvases with gold pieces。 At five…and…twenty Hippolyte Schinner;
  to whom his mother had transmitted her woman's soul; understood
  more clearly than ever his position in the world。 Anxious to
  restore to his mother the pleasures of which society had so long
  robbed her; he lived for her; hoping by the aid of fame and
  fortune to see her one day happy; rich; respected; and surrounded
  by men of mark。 Schinner had therefore chosen his friends among
  the most honorable and distinguished men。 Fastidious in the
  selection of his intimates; he desired to raise still further a
  position which his talent had placed high。 The work to which he
  had devoted himself from boyhood; by compelling him to dwell in
  solitudethe mother of great thoughtshad left him the
  beautiful beliefs which grace the early days of life。 His
  adolescent soul was not closed to any of the thousand bashful
  emotions by which a young man is a being apart; whose heart
  abounds in joys; in poetry; in virginal hopes; puerile in the
  eyes of men of the world; but deep because they are single…
  hearted。
  He was endowed with the gentle and polite manners which speak to
  the soul; and fascinate even those who do not understand them。 He
  was well made。 His voice; coming from his heart; stirred that of
  others to noble sentiments; and bore witness to his true modesty
  by a certain ingenuousness of tone。 Those who saw him felt drawn
  to him by that attraction of the moral nature which men of
  science are happily unable to analyze; they would detect in it
  some phenomenon of galvanism; or the current of I know not what
  fluid; and express our sentiments in a formula of ratios of
  oxygen and electricity。
  These details will perhaps explain to strong…minded persons and
  to men of fashion why; in the absence of the porter whom he had
  sent to the end of the Rue de la Madeleine to call him a coach;
  Hippolyte Schinner did not ask the man's wife any questions
  concerning the two women whose kindness of heart had shown itself
  in his behalf。 But though he replied Yes or No to the inquiries;
  natural under the circumstances; which the good woman made as to
  his accident; and the friendly intervention of the tenants
  occupying the fourth floor; he could not hinder her from
  following the instinct of her kind; she mentioned the two
  strangers; speaking of them as prompted by the interests of her
  policy and the subterranean opinions of the porter's lodge。
  〃Ah;〃 said she; 〃they were; no doubt; Mademoiselle Leseigneur and
  her mother; who have lived here these four years。 We do not know
  exactly what these ladies do; in the morning; only till the hour
  of noon; an old woman who is half deaf; and who never speaks any
  more than a wall; comes in to help them; in the evening; two or
  three old gentlemen; with loops of ribbon; like you; monsieur;
  come to see them; and often stay very late。 One of them comes in
  a carriage with servants; and is said to have sixty thousand
  francs a year。 However; they are very quiet tenants; as you are;
  monsieur; and economical! they live on nothing; and as soon as a
  letter is brought they pay for it。 It is a queer thing; monsieur;
  the mother's name is not the same as the daughter's。 Ah; but when
  they go for a walk in the Tuileries; mademoiselle is very smart;
  and she never goes out but she is followed by a lot of young men;
  but she shuts the door in their face; and she is quite right。 The
  proprietor would never allow〃
  The coach having come; Hippolyte heard no more; and went home。
  His mother; to whom he related his adventure; dressed his wound
  afresh; and would not allow him to go to the studio next day。
  After taking advice; various treatments were prescribed; and
  Hippolyte remained at home three days。 During this retirement his
  idle fancy recalled vividly; bit by bit; the details of the scene
  that had ensued on his fainting fit。 The young girl's profile was
  clearly projected against the darkness of his inward vision; he
  saw once more the mother's faded features; or he felt the touch
  of Adelaide's hands。 He remembered some gesture which at first
  had not greatly struck him; but whose exquisite grace was thrown
  into relief by memory; then an attitude; or the tones of a
  melodious voice; enhanced by the distance of remembrance;
  suddenly rose before him; as objects plunging to the bottom of
  deep waters come back to the surface。
  So; on the day when he could resume work; he went early to his
  studio; but the visit he undoubtedly had a right to pay to his
  neighbors was the true cause of his haste; he had already
  forgotten the pictures he had begun。 At the moment when a passion
  throws off its swaddling clothes; inexplicable pleasures are
  felt; known to those who have loved。 So some readers will
  understand why the painter mounted the stairs to the fourth floor
  but slowly; and will be in the secret of the throbs that followed
  each other so rapidly in his heart at the moment when he saw the
  humble brown door of the rooms inhabited by Mademoiselle
  Leseigneur。 This girl; whose name was not the same as her
  mother's; had aroused the young painter's deepest sympathies; he
  chose to fancy some similarity between himself and her as to
  their position; and attributed to her misfortunes of birth akin
  to his own。 All the time he worked Hippolyte gave himself very
  willingly to thoughts of love; and made a great deal of noise to
  compel the two ladies to think of him; as he was thinking of
  them。 He stayed late at the studio and dined there; then; at
  about seven o'clock; he went down to call on his neighbors。
  No painter of manners has ventured to initiate usperhaps out of
  modestyinto the really curious privacy of certain Parisian
  existences; into the secret of the dwellings whence emerge such
  fresh and elegant toilets; such brilliant women; who rich on the
  surface; allow the signs of very doubtful comfort to peep out in
  every part of their home。 If; here; the picture is too boldly
  drawn; if you find it tedious in places; do not blame the
  description; which is; indeed; part and parcel of my story; for
  the appearance of the rooms inhabited by his two neighbors had a
  great influence on the feelings and hopes of Hippolyte Schinner。
  The house belonged to one of those proprietors in whom there is a
  foregone and profound horror of repairs and decoration; one of
  the men who regard their position as Paris house…owners as a
  business。 In the vast chain of moral species; these people hold a
  middle place between the miser and the usurer。 Optimists in their
  own interests; they are all faithful to the Austrian status quo。
  If you speak of moving a cupboard or a door; of opening the most
  indispensable air…hole; their eyes flash; their bile rises; they
  rear like a frightened horse。 When the wind blows down a few
  chimney…pots they are quite ill; and deprive themselves of an
  evening at the Gymnase or the Porte…Saint…Martin Theatre; 〃on
  account of repairs。〃 Hippolyte; who had seen the performance
  gratis of a comical scene with Monsieur Molineux as concerning
  certain decorative repairs in his studio; was not surprised to
  see the dark greasy paint; the oily stains; spots; and other
  disagreeable accessories that varied the woodwork。 And these
  stigmata of poverty are not altogether devoid of poetry in an
  artist's eyes。
  Mademoiselle Leseigneur herself opened the door。 On recognizing
  the young artist she bowed; and at the same time; with Parisian
  adroitness; and with the presence of mind that pride can lend;
  she turned round to shut the door in a glass partition through
  which Hippolyte might have caught sight of some linen hung by
  lines over patent ironing stoves; an old camp…bed; some wood…
  embers; charcoal; irons; a filter; the household crockery; and
  all the utensils familiar to a small household。 Muslin curtains;
  fairly white; carefully screened this lumber…rooma capharnaum;
  as the French call such a domestic laboratory;which was lighted
  by windows