第 13 节
作者:莫莫言      更新:2024-01-06 10:43      字数:9322
  Those words were spoken with a calm certainty of conviction that
  was terrible to hear。 〃I have no more to say;〃 she added; after a
  moment; and rose to return to the house。 Mrs。 Crayford caught her
  by the hand; and forced her to take her seat again。
  〃Don't look at me; don't speak to me; in that horrible manner!〃
  she exclaimed。 〃Clara! it is unworthy of a reasonable being; it
  is doubting the mercy of God; to say what you have just said。
  Look at the newspaper again。 See! They tell you plainly that
  their information is not to be depended onthey warn you to wait
  for further particulars。 The very words at the top of the list
  show how little they knew of the truth 'Dead _or_ Missing!' On
  their own showing; it is quite as likely that Frank is missing as
  that Frank is dead。 For all you know; the next mail may bring a
  letter from him。 Are you listening to me?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃Can you deny what I say?〃
  〃No。〃
  〃'Yes!' 'No!' Is that the way to answer me when I am so
  distressed and so anxious about you?〃
  〃I am sorry I spoke as I did; Lucy。 We look at some subjects in
  very different ways。 I don't dispute; dear; that yours is the
  reasonable view。〃
  〃You don't dispute?〃 retorted Mrs。 Crayford; warmly。 〃No! you do
  what is worseyou believe in your own opinion; you persist in
  your own conclusionwith the newspaper before you! Do you; or do
  you not; believe the newspaper?〃
  〃I believe in what I saw last night。〃
  〃In what you saw last night! You; an educated woman; a clever
  woman; believing in a vision of your own fancya mere dream! I
  wonder you are not ashamed to acknowledge it!〃
  〃Call it a dream if you like; Lucy。 I have had other dreams at
  other timesand I have known them to be fulfilled。〃
  〃Yes!〃 said Mrs。 Crayford。 〃For once in a way they may have been
  fulfilled; by chanceand you notice it; and remember it; and pin
  your faith on it。 Come; Clara; be honest!What about the
  occasions when the chance has been against you; and your dreams
  have not been fulfilled? You superstitious people are all alike。
  You conveniently forget when your dreams and your presentiments
  prove false。 For my sake; dear; if not for your own;〃 she
  continued; in gentler and tenderer tones; 〃try to be more
  reasonable and more hopeful。 Don't lose your trust in the future;
  and your trust in God。 God; who has saved my husband; can save
  Frank。 While there is doubt; there is hope。 Don't embitter my
  happiness; Clara! Try to think as I thinkif it is only to show
  that you love me。〃
  She put her arm round the girl's neck; and kissed her。 Clara
  returned the kiss; Clara answered; sadly and submissively;
  〃I do love you; Lucy。 I _will_ try。〃
  Having answered in those terms; she sighed to herself; and said
  no more。 It would have been plain; only too plain; to far less
  observant eyes than Mrs。 Crayford's that no salutary impression
  had been produced on her。 She had ceased to defend her own way of
  thinking; she spoke of it no morebut there was the terrible
  conviction of Frank's death at Wardour's hands rooted as firmly
  as ever in her mind! Discouraged and distressed; Mrs。 Crayford
  left her; and walked back toward the house。
  Chapter 15。
  At the drawing…room window of the villa there appeared a polite
  little man; with bright intelligent eyes; and cheerful sociable
  manners。 Neatly dressed in professional black; he stood;
  self…proclaimed; a prosperous country doctorsuccessful and
  popular in a wide circle of patients and friends。 As Mrs。
  Crayford approached him; he stepped out briskly to meet her on
  the lawn; with both hands extended in courteous and cordial
  greeting。
  〃My dear madam; accept my heartfelt congratulations!〃 cried the
  doctor。 〃I have seen the good news in the paper; and I could
  hardly feel more rejoiced than I do now if I had the honor of
  knowing Lieutenant Crayford personally。 We mean to celebrate the
  occasion at home。 I said to my wife before I came out; 'A bottle
  of the old Madeira at dinner to…day; mind!to drink the
  lieutenant's health; God bless him!' And how is our interesting
  patient? The news is not altogether what we could wish; so far as
  she is concerned。 I felt a little anxious; to tell you the truth;
  about the effect of it; and I have paid my visit to…day before my
  usual time。 Not that I take a gloomy view of the news myself。 No!
  There is clearly a doubt about the correctness of the
  information; so far as Mr。 Aldersley is concernedand that is a
  point; a great point in Mr。 Aldersley's favor。 I give him the
  benefit of the doubt; as the lawyers say。 Does Miss Burnham give
  him the benefit of the doubt too? I hardly dare hope it; I
  confess。〃
  〃Miss Burnham has grieved and alarmed me;〃 Mrs。 Crayford
  answered。 〃I was just thinking of sending for you when we met
  here。〃
  With those introductory words; she told the doctor exactly what
  had happened; repeating not only the conversation of that morning
  between Clara and herself; but also the words which had fallen
  from Clara; in the trance of the past night。
  The doctor listened attentively。 Little by little; its easy
  smiling composure vanished from his face; as Mrs。 Crayford went
  on; and left him completely transformed into a grave and
  thoughtful man。
  〃Let us go and look at her;〃 he said。
  He seated himself by Clara's side; and carefully studied her
  face; with his hand on her pulse。 There was no sympathy here
  between the dreamy mystical temperament of the patient and the
  downright practical character of the doctor。 Clara secretly
  disliked her medical attendant。 She submitted impatiently to the
  close investigation of which he made her the object。 He
  questioned herand she answered irritably。 Advancing a step
  further (the doctor was not easily discouraged) he adverted to
  the news of the Expedition; and took up the tone of remonstrance
  which had been already adopted by Mrs。 Crayford。 Clara declined
  to discuss the question。 She rose with formal politeness; and
  requested permission to return to the house。 The doctor attempted
  no further resistance。 〃By all means; Miss Burnham;〃 he answered;
  resignedlyhaving first cast a look at Mrs。 Crayford which said
  plainly; 〃Stay here with me。〃 Clara bowed her acknowledgments in
  co ld silence; and left them together。 The doctor's bright eyes
  followed the girl's wasted; yet still graceful figure as it
  slowly receded from view; with an expression of grave anxiety
  which Mrs。 Crayford noticed with grave misgiving on her side。 He
  said nothing; until Clara had disappeared under the veranda which
  ran round the garden…side of the house。
  〃I think you told me;〃 he began; 〃that Miss Burnham has neither
  father nor mother living?〃
  〃Yes。 Miss Burnham is an orphan。〃
  〃Has she any near relatives?〃
  〃No。 You may speak to me as her guardian and her friend。 Are you
  alarmed about her?〃
  〃I am seriously alarmed。 It is only two days since I called here
  last; and I see a marked change in her for the worsephysically
  and morally; a change for the worse。 Don't needlessly alarm
  yourself! The case is not; I trust; entirely beyond the reach of
  remedy。 The great hope for us is the hope that Mr。 Aldersley may
  still be living。 In that event; I should feel no misgivings about
  the future。 Her marriage would make a healthy and a happy woman
  of her。 But as things are; I own I dread that settled conviction
  in her mind that Mr。 Aldersley is dead; and that her own death is
  soon to follow。 In her present state of health this idea
  (haunting her as it certainly will night and day) will have its
  influence on her body as well as on her mind。 Unless we can check
  the mischief; her last reserves of strength will give way。 If you
  wish for other advice; by all means send for it。 You have my
  opinion。〃
  〃I am quite satisfied with your opinion;〃 Mrs。 Crayford replied。
  〃For God's sake; tell me; what can we do?〃
  〃We can try a complete change;〃 said the doctor。 〃We can remove
  her at once from this place。〃
  〃She will refuse to leave it;〃 Mrs。 Crayford rejoined。 〃I have
  more than once proposed a change to herand she always says No。〃
  The doctor paused for a moment; like a man collecting his
  thoughts。
  〃I heard something on my way here;〃 he proceeded; 〃which suggests
  to my mind a method of meeting the difficulty that you have just
  mentioned。 Unless I am entirely mistaken; Miss Burnham will not
  say No to the change that I have in view for her。〃
  〃What is it?〃 asked Mrs。 Crayford; eagerly。
  〃Pardon me if I ask you a question; on my part; before I reply;〃
  said the doctor。 〃Are you fortunate enough to possess any
  interest at the Admiralty?〃
  〃Certainly。 My father is in the Secretary's office; and two of
  the Lords of the Admiralty are friends of his。〃
  〃Excellent! Now I can speak out plainly with little fear of
  disappointing you。 After what I have said; you will agree with
  me; that the only change in Miss Burnham's life which will be of
  any use to her is a change that will alter the present tone of
  her mind on the subject of Mr。 Aldersley。 Place her in a position
  to discovernot by reference to her own distempered fancies and
  visions; but by reference to actual evidence and actual
  factwhether Mr。 Aldersley is; or is not; a living man; and
  there will be an end of the hyste