第 13 节
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莫莫言 更新:2024-01-06 10:43 字数:9322
Those words were spoken with a calm certainty of conviction that
was terrible to hear。 〃I have no more to say;〃 she added; after a
moment; and rose to return to the house。 Mrs。 Crayford caught her
by the hand; and forced her to take her seat again。
〃Don't look at me; don't speak to me; in that horrible manner!〃
she exclaimed。 〃Clara! it is unworthy of a reasonable being; it
is doubting the mercy of God; to say what you have just said。
Look at the newspaper again。 See! They tell you plainly that
their information is not to be depended onthey warn you to wait
for further particulars。 The very words at the top of the list
show how little they knew of the truth 'Dead _or_ Missing!' On
their own showing; it is quite as likely that Frank is missing as
that Frank is dead。 For all you know; the next mail may bring a
letter from him。 Are you listening to me?〃
〃Yes。〃
〃Can you deny what I say?〃
〃No。〃
〃'Yes!' 'No!' Is that the way to answer me when I am so
distressed and so anxious about you?〃
〃I am sorry I spoke as I did; Lucy。 We look at some subjects in
very different ways。 I don't dispute; dear; that yours is the
reasonable view。〃
〃You don't dispute?〃 retorted Mrs。 Crayford; warmly。 〃No! you do
what is worseyou believe in your own opinion; you persist in
your own conclusionwith the newspaper before you! Do you; or do
you not; believe the newspaper?〃
〃I believe in what I saw last night。〃
〃In what you saw last night! You; an educated woman; a clever
woman; believing in a vision of your own fancya mere dream! I
wonder you are not ashamed to acknowledge it!〃
〃Call it a dream if you like; Lucy。 I have had other dreams at
other timesand I have known them to be fulfilled。〃
〃Yes!〃 said Mrs。 Crayford。 〃For once in a way they may have been
fulfilled; by chanceand you notice it; and remember it; and pin
your faith on it。 Come; Clara; be honest!What about the
occasions when the chance has been against you; and your dreams
have not been fulfilled? You superstitious people are all alike。
You conveniently forget when your dreams and your presentiments
prove false。 For my sake; dear; if not for your own;〃 she
continued; in gentler and tenderer tones; 〃try to be more
reasonable and more hopeful。 Don't lose your trust in the future;
and your trust in God。 God; who has saved my husband; can save
Frank。 While there is doubt; there is hope。 Don't embitter my
happiness; Clara! Try to think as I thinkif it is only to show
that you love me。〃
She put her arm round the girl's neck; and kissed her。 Clara
returned the kiss; Clara answered; sadly and submissively;
〃I do love you; Lucy。 I _will_ try。〃
Having answered in those terms; she sighed to herself; and said
no more。 It would have been plain; only too plain; to far less
observant eyes than Mrs。 Crayford's that no salutary impression
had been produced on her。 She had ceased to defend her own way of
thinking; she spoke of it no morebut there was the terrible
conviction of Frank's death at Wardour's hands rooted as firmly
as ever in her mind! Discouraged and distressed; Mrs。 Crayford
left her; and walked back toward the house。
Chapter 15。
At the drawing…room window of the villa there appeared a polite
little man; with bright intelligent eyes; and cheerful sociable
manners。 Neatly dressed in professional black; he stood;
self…proclaimed; a prosperous country doctorsuccessful and
popular in a wide circle of patients and friends。 As Mrs。
Crayford approached him; he stepped out briskly to meet her on
the lawn; with both hands extended in courteous and cordial
greeting。
〃My dear madam; accept my heartfelt congratulations!〃 cried the
doctor。 〃I have seen the good news in the paper; and I could
hardly feel more rejoiced than I do now if I had the honor of
knowing Lieutenant Crayford personally。 We mean to celebrate the
occasion at home。 I said to my wife before I came out; 'A bottle
of the old Madeira at dinner to…day; mind!to drink the
lieutenant's health; God bless him!' And how is our interesting
patient? The news is not altogether what we could wish; so far as
she is concerned。 I felt a little anxious; to tell you the truth;
about the effect of it; and I have paid my visit to…day before my
usual time。 Not that I take a gloomy view of the news myself。 No!
There is clearly a doubt about the correctness of the
information; so far as Mr。 Aldersley is concernedand that is a
point; a great point in Mr。 Aldersley's favor。 I give him the
benefit of the doubt; as the lawyers say。 Does Miss Burnham give
him the benefit of the doubt too? I hardly dare hope it; I
confess。〃
〃Miss Burnham has grieved and alarmed me;〃 Mrs。 Crayford
answered。 〃I was just thinking of sending for you when we met
here。〃
With those introductory words; she told the doctor exactly what
had happened; repeating not only the conversation of that morning
between Clara and herself; but also the words which had fallen
from Clara; in the trance of the past night。
The doctor listened attentively。 Little by little; its easy
smiling composure vanished from his face; as Mrs。 Crayford went
on; and left him completely transformed into a grave and
thoughtful man。
〃Let us go and look at her;〃 he said。
He seated himself by Clara's side; and carefully studied her
face; with his hand on her pulse。 There was no sympathy here
between the dreamy mystical temperament of the patient and the
downright practical character of the doctor。 Clara secretly
disliked her medical attendant。 She submitted impatiently to the
close investigation of which he made her the object。 He
questioned herand she answered irritably。 Advancing a step
further (the doctor was not easily discouraged) he adverted to
the news of the Expedition; and took up the tone of remonstrance
which had been already adopted by Mrs。 Crayford。 Clara declined
to discuss the question。 She rose with formal politeness; and
requested permission to return to the house。 The doctor attempted
no further resistance。 〃By all means; Miss Burnham;〃 he answered;
resignedlyhaving first cast a look at Mrs。 Crayford which said
plainly; 〃Stay here with me。〃 Clara bowed her acknowledgments in
co ld silence; and left them together。 The doctor's bright eyes
followed the girl's wasted; yet still graceful figure as it
slowly receded from view; with an expression of grave anxiety
which Mrs。 Crayford noticed with grave misgiving on her side。 He
said nothing; until Clara had disappeared under the veranda which
ran round the garden…side of the house。
〃I think you told me;〃 he began; 〃that Miss Burnham has neither
father nor mother living?〃
〃Yes。 Miss Burnham is an orphan。〃
〃Has she any near relatives?〃
〃No。 You may speak to me as her guardian and her friend。 Are you
alarmed about her?〃
〃I am seriously alarmed。 It is only two days since I called here
last; and I see a marked change in her for the worsephysically
and morally; a change for the worse。 Don't needlessly alarm
yourself! The case is not; I trust; entirely beyond the reach of
remedy。 The great hope for us is the hope that Mr。 Aldersley may
still be living。 In that event; I should feel no misgivings about
the future。 Her marriage would make a healthy and a happy woman
of her。 But as things are; I own I dread that settled conviction
in her mind that Mr。 Aldersley is dead; and that her own death is
soon to follow。 In her present state of health this idea
(haunting her as it certainly will night and day) will have its
influence on her body as well as on her mind。 Unless we can check
the mischief; her last reserves of strength will give way。 If you
wish for other advice; by all means send for it。 You have my
opinion。〃
〃I am quite satisfied with your opinion;〃 Mrs。 Crayford replied。
〃For God's sake; tell me; what can we do?〃
〃We can try a complete change;〃 said the doctor。 〃We can remove
her at once from this place。〃
〃She will refuse to leave it;〃 Mrs。 Crayford rejoined。 〃I have
more than once proposed a change to herand she always says No。〃
The doctor paused for a moment; like a man collecting his
thoughts。
〃I heard something on my way here;〃 he proceeded; 〃which suggests
to my mind a method of meeting the difficulty that you have just
mentioned。 Unless I am entirely mistaken; Miss Burnham will not
say No to the change that I have in view for her。〃
〃What is it?〃 asked Mrs。 Crayford; eagerly。
〃Pardon me if I ask you a question; on my part; before I reply;〃
said the doctor。 〃Are you fortunate enough to possess any
interest at the Admiralty?〃
〃Certainly。 My father is in the Secretary's office; and two of
the Lords of the Admiralty are friends of his。〃
〃Excellent! Now I can speak out plainly with little fear of
disappointing you。 After what I have said; you will agree with
me; that the only change in Miss Burnham's life which will be of
any use to her is a change that will alter the present tone of
her mind on the subject of Mr。 Aldersley。 Place her in a position
to discovernot by reference to her own distempered fancies and
visions; but by reference to actual evidence and actual
factwhether Mr。 Aldersley is; or is not; a living man; and
there will be an end of the hyste