第 4 节
作者:莫莫言      更新:2024-01-06 10:43      字数:9322
  A momentary change passed over the blank terror of her face。 Her
  color rose faintly; her lips moved。 She abruptly put a question
  to him。
  〃Did you get my letter?〃
  He started。 〃A letter from you? I never received it。〃
  The momentary animation died out of her face again。 She drew back
  from him and dropped into a chair。 He advanced toward her;
  astonished and alarmed。 She shrank in the chairshrank; as if
  she was frightened of him。
  〃Clara; you have not even shaken hands with me! What does it
  mean?〃
  He paused; waiting and watching her。 She made no reply。 A flash
  of the quick temper in him leaped up in his eyes。 He repeated his
  last words in louder and sterner tones:
  〃What does it mean?〃
  She replied this time。 His tone had hurt herhis tone had roused
  her sinking courage。
  〃It means; Mr。 Wardour; that you have been mistaken from the
  first。〃
  〃How have I been mistaken?〃
  〃You have been under a wrong impression; and you have given me no
  opportunity of setting you right。〃
  〃In what way have I been wrong?〃
  〃You have been too hasty and too confident about yourself and
  about me。 You have entirely misunderstood me。 I am grieved to
  distress you; but for your sake I must speak plainly。 I am your
  friend always; Mr。 Wardour。 I can never be your wife。〃
  He mechanically repeated the last words。 He seemed to doubt
  whether he had heard her aright。
  〃You can never be my wife?〃
  〃Never!〃
  〃Why?〃
  There was no answer。 She was incapable of telling him a
  falsehood。 She was ashamed to tell him the truth。
  He stooped over her; and suddenly possessed himself of her hand。
  Holding her hand firmly; he stooped a little lower; searching for
  the signs which might answer him in her face。 His own face
  darkened slowly while he looked。 He was beginning to suspect her;
  and he acknowledged it in his next words。
  〃Something has changed you toward me; Clara。 Somebody has
  influenced you against me。 Is ityou force me to ask the
  questionis it some other man?〃
  〃You have no right to ask me that。〃
  He went on without noticing what she had said to him。
  〃Has that other man come between you and me? I speak plainly on
  my side。 Speak plainly on yours。〃
  〃I _have_ spoken。 I have nothing more to say。〃
  There was a pause。 She saw the warning light which told of the
  fire within him; growing brighter and brighter in his eyes。 She
  felt his grasp strengthening on her hand。 He appealed to her for
  the last time。
  〃Reflect;〃 he said; 〃reflect before it is too late。 Your silence
  will not serve you。 If you persist in not answering me; I shall
  take your silence as a confession。 Do you hear me?〃
  〃I hear you。〃
  〃Clara Burnham! I am not to be trifled with。 Clara Burnham! I
  insist on the truth。 Are you false to me?〃
  She resented that searching question with a woman's keen sense of
  the insult that is implied in doubting her to her face。
  〃Mr。 Wardour! you forget yourself when you call me to account in
  that way。 I never encouraged you。 I never gave you promise or
  pledge〃
  He passionately interrupted her before she could say more。
  〃You have engaged yourself in my absence。 Your words own it; your
  looks own it! You have engaged yourself to another man!〃
  〃If I _have_ engaged myself; what right have you to complain of
  it?〃 she answered firmly。 〃What right have you to control my
  actions?〃
  The next words died away on her lips。 He suddenly dropped her
  hand。 A marked change appeared in the expression of his eyesa
  change which told her of the terrible passions that she had let
  loose in him。 She read; dimly read; something in his face which
  made her tremblenot for herself; but for Frank。
  Little by little the dark color faded out of his face。 His deep
  voice dropped suddenly to a low and quiet tone as he spoke the
  parting words。
  〃Say no more; Miss Burnhamyou have said enough。 I am answered;
  I am dismissed。〃 He paused; and; stepping close up to her; laid
  his hand on her arm。
  〃The time may come;〃 he said; 〃when I shall forgive you。 But the
  man who has robbed me of you shall rue the day when you and he
  first met。〃
  He turned and left her。
  A few minutes later; Mrs。 Crayford; entering the conservatory;
  was met by one of the attendants at the ball。 The man stopped as
  if he wished to speak to her。
  〃What do you want?〃 she asked。
  〃I beg your pardon; ma'am。 Do you happen to have a
  smelling…bottle about you? There is a young lady in the
  conservatory who is taken faint。〃
  Between the Scenes
  The Landing Stage
  Chapter 5。
  The morning of the next daythe morning on which the ships were
  to sailcame bright and breezy。 Mrs。 Crayford; having arranged
  to follow her husband to the water…side; and see the last of him
  before he embarked; entered Clara's room on her way out of the
  house; anxious to hear how her young friend passed the night。 To
  her astonishment she found Clara had risen; and was dressed; like
  herself; to go out。
  〃What does this mean; my dear? After what you suffered last
  nightafter the shock of seeing that manwhy don't you take my
  advice and rest in your bed?〃
  〃I can't rest。 I have not slept all night。 Have you been out
  yet?〃
  〃No。〃
  〃Have you seen or heard anything of Richard Wardour?〃
  〃What an extraordinary question!〃
  〃Answer my question! Don't trifle with me!〃
  〃Compose yourself; Clara。 I have neither seen nor heard anything
  of Richard Wardour。 Take my word for it; he is far enough away by
  this time。〃
  〃No! He is here! He is near us! All night long the presentiment
  has pursued meFrank and Richard Wardour will meet。〃
  〃My dear child! what are you thinking of? T hey are total
  strangers to each other。〃
  〃Something will happen to bring them together。 I feel it! I know
  it! They will meetthere will be a mortal quarrel between
  themand I shall be to blame。 Oh; Lucy! why didn't I take your
  advice? Why was I mad enough to let Frank know that I loved him?
  Are you going to the landing…stage? I am all readyI must go
  with you。〃
  〃You must not think of it; Clara。 There will be crowding and
  confusion at the water…side。 You are not strong enough to bear
  it。 WaitI won't be long awaywait till I come back。〃
  〃I must and will go with you! Crowd? _He_ will be among the
  crowd! Confusion? In that confusion _he_ will find his way to
  Frank! Don't ask me to wait。 I shall go mad if I wait。 I shall
  not know a moment's ease until I have seen Frank; with my own
  eyes; safe in the boat which takes him to his ship! You have got
  your bonnet on; what are we stopping here for? Come! or I shall
  go without you。 Look at the clock; we have not a moment to lose!〃
  It was useless to contend with her。 Mrs。 Crayford yielded。 The
  two women left the house together。
  The landing…stage; as Mrs。 Crayford had predicted; was thronged
  with spectators。 Not only the relatives and friends of the Arctic
  voyagers; but strangers as well; had assembled in large numbers
  to see the ships sail。 Clara's eyes wandered affrightedly hither
  and thither among the strange faces in the crowd; searching for
  the one face that she dreaded to see; and not finding it。 So
  completely were her nerves unstrung; that she started with a cry
  of alarm on suddenly hearing Frank's voice behind her。
  〃The _Sea…mew_'s boats are waiting;〃 he said。 〃I must go;
  darling。 How pale you are looking; Clara! Are you ill?〃
  She never answered。 She questioned him with wild eyes and
  trembling lips。
  〃Has anything happened to you; Frank? anything out of the
  common?〃
  Frank laughed at the strange question。
  〃Anything out of the common?〃 he repeated。 〃Nothing that I know
  of; except sailing for the Arctic seas。 That's out of the common;
  I supposeisn't it?〃
  〃Has anybody spoken to you since last night? Has any stranger
  followed you in the street?〃
  Frank turned in blank amazement to Mrs。 Crayford。
  〃What on earth does she mean?〃
  Mrs。 Crayford's lively invention supplied her with an answer on
  the spur of the moment。
  〃Do you believe in dreams; Frank? Of course you don't! Clara has
  been dreaming about you; and Clara is foolish enough to believe
  in dreams。 That's allit's not worth talking about。 Hark! they
  are calling you。 Say good…by; or you will be too late for the
  boat。〃
  Frank took Clara's hand。 Long afterwardin the dark Arctic days;
  in the dreary Arctic nightshe remembered how coldly and how
  passively that hand lay in his。
  〃Courage; Clara!〃 he said; gayly。 〃A sailor's sweetheart must
  accustom herself to partings。 The time will soon pass。 Good…by;
  my darling! Good…by; my wife!〃
  He kissed the cold hand; he looked his lastfor many a long
  year; perhaps!at the pale and beautiful face。 〃How she loves
  me!〃 he thought。 〃How the parting distresses her!〃 He still held
  her hand; he would have lingered longer; if Mrs。 Crayford had not
  wisely waived all ceremony and pushed him away。
  The two ladies followed him at a safe distance through the crowd;
  and saw him step into the boat。 The oars struck the water; Frank
  waved his cap to Clara。 In a moment more a vessel at anchor hid
  the boat from view。 They had seen the last of him on his way to
  the Frozen Deep!
  〃No Richard Wardour in the boat;〃 said Mrs。 Crayford。 〃No Richard
  Wardour on the shore。 Let this be a lesson t