第 4 节
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莫莫言 更新:2024-01-06 10:43 字数:9322
A momentary change passed over the blank terror of her face。 Her
color rose faintly; her lips moved。 She abruptly put a question
to him。
〃Did you get my letter?〃
He started。 〃A letter from you? I never received it。〃
The momentary animation died out of her face again。 She drew back
from him and dropped into a chair。 He advanced toward her;
astonished and alarmed。 She shrank in the chairshrank; as if
she was frightened of him。
〃Clara; you have not even shaken hands with me! What does it
mean?〃
He paused; waiting and watching her。 She made no reply。 A flash
of the quick temper in him leaped up in his eyes。 He repeated his
last words in louder and sterner tones:
〃What does it mean?〃
She replied this time。 His tone had hurt herhis tone had roused
her sinking courage。
〃It means; Mr。 Wardour; that you have been mistaken from the
first。〃
〃How have I been mistaken?〃
〃You have been under a wrong impression; and you have given me no
opportunity of setting you right。〃
〃In what way have I been wrong?〃
〃You have been too hasty and too confident about yourself and
about me。 You have entirely misunderstood me。 I am grieved to
distress you; but for your sake I must speak plainly。 I am your
friend always; Mr。 Wardour。 I can never be your wife。〃
He mechanically repeated the last words。 He seemed to doubt
whether he had heard her aright。
〃You can never be my wife?〃
〃Never!〃
〃Why?〃
There was no answer。 She was incapable of telling him a
falsehood。 She was ashamed to tell him the truth。
He stooped over her; and suddenly possessed himself of her hand。
Holding her hand firmly; he stooped a little lower; searching for
the signs which might answer him in her face。 His own face
darkened slowly while he looked。 He was beginning to suspect her;
and he acknowledged it in his next words。
〃Something has changed you toward me; Clara。 Somebody has
influenced you against me。 Is ityou force me to ask the
questionis it some other man?〃
〃You have no right to ask me that。〃
He went on without noticing what she had said to him。
〃Has that other man come between you and me? I speak plainly on
my side。 Speak plainly on yours。〃
〃I _have_ spoken。 I have nothing more to say。〃
There was a pause。 She saw the warning light which told of the
fire within him; growing brighter and brighter in his eyes。 She
felt his grasp strengthening on her hand。 He appealed to her for
the last time。
〃Reflect;〃 he said; 〃reflect before it is too late。 Your silence
will not serve you。 If you persist in not answering me; I shall
take your silence as a confession。 Do you hear me?〃
〃I hear you。〃
〃Clara Burnham! I am not to be trifled with。 Clara Burnham! I
insist on the truth。 Are you false to me?〃
She resented that searching question with a woman's keen sense of
the insult that is implied in doubting her to her face。
〃Mr。 Wardour! you forget yourself when you call me to account in
that way。 I never encouraged you。 I never gave you promise or
pledge〃
He passionately interrupted her before she could say more。
〃You have engaged yourself in my absence。 Your words own it; your
looks own it! You have engaged yourself to another man!〃
〃If I _have_ engaged myself; what right have you to complain of
it?〃 she answered firmly。 〃What right have you to control my
actions?〃
The next words died away on her lips。 He suddenly dropped her
hand。 A marked change appeared in the expression of his eyesa
change which told her of the terrible passions that she had let
loose in him。 She read; dimly read; something in his face which
made her tremblenot for herself; but for Frank。
Little by little the dark color faded out of his face。 His deep
voice dropped suddenly to a low and quiet tone as he spoke the
parting words。
〃Say no more; Miss Burnhamyou have said enough。 I am answered;
I am dismissed。〃 He paused; and; stepping close up to her; laid
his hand on her arm。
〃The time may come;〃 he said; 〃when I shall forgive you。 But the
man who has robbed me of you shall rue the day when you and he
first met。〃
He turned and left her。
A few minutes later; Mrs。 Crayford; entering the conservatory;
was met by one of the attendants at the ball。 The man stopped as
if he wished to speak to her。
〃What do you want?〃 she asked。
〃I beg your pardon; ma'am。 Do you happen to have a
smelling…bottle about you? There is a young lady in the
conservatory who is taken faint。〃
Between the Scenes
The Landing Stage
Chapter 5。
The morning of the next daythe morning on which the ships were
to sailcame bright and breezy。 Mrs。 Crayford; having arranged
to follow her husband to the water…side; and see the last of him
before he embarked; entered Clara's room on her way out of the
house; anxious to hear how her young friend passed the night。 To
her astonishment she found Clara had risen; and was dressed; like
herself; to go out。
〃What does this mean; my dear? After what you suffered last
nightafter the shock of seeing that manwhy don't you take my
advice and rest in your bed?〃
〃I can't rest。 I have not slept all night。 Have you been out
yet?〃
〃No。〃
〃Have you seen or heard anything of Richard Wardour?〃
〃What an extraordinary question!〃
〃Answer my question! Don't trifle with me!〃
〃Compose yourself; Clara。 I have neither seen nor heard anything
of Richard Wardour。 Take my word for it; he is far enough away by
this time。〃
〃No! He is here! He is near us! All night long the presentiment
has pursued meFrank and Richard Wardour will meet。〃
〃My dear child! what are you thinking of? T hey are total
strangers to each other。〃
〃Something will happen to bring them together。 I feel it! I know
it! They will meetthere will be a mortal quarrel between
themand I shall be to blame。 Oh; Lucy! why didn't I take your
advice? Why was I mad enough to let Frank know that I loved him?
Are you going to the landing…stage? I am all readyI must go
with you。〃
〃You must not think of it; Clara。 There will be crowding and
confusion at the water…side。 You are not strong enough to bear
it。 WaitI won't be long awaywait till I come back。〃
〃I must and will go with you! Crowd? _He_ will be among the
crowd! Confusion? In that confusion _he_ will find his way to
Frank! Don't ask me to wait。 I shall go mad if I wait。 I shall
not know a moment's ease until I have seen Frank; with my own
eyes; safe in the boat which takes him to his ship! You have got
your bonnet on; what are we stopping here for? Come! or I shall
go without you。 Look at the clock; we have not a moment to lose!〃
It was useless to contend with her。 Mrs。 Crayford yielded。 The
two women left the house together。
The landing…stage; as Mrs。 Crayford had predicted; was thronged
with spectators。 Not only the relatives and friends of the Arctic
voyagers; but strangers as well; had assembled in large numbers
to see the ships sail。 Clara's eyes wandered affrightedly hither
and thither among the strange faces in the crowd; searching for
the one face that she dreaded to see; and not finding it。 So
completely were her nerves unstrung; that she started with a cry
of alarm on suddenly hearing Frank's voice behind her。
〃The _Sea…mew_'s boats are waiting;〃 he said。 〃I must go;
darling。 How pale you are looking; Clara! Are you ill?〃
She never answered。 She questioned him with wild eyes and
trembling lips。
〃Has anything happened to you; Frank? anything out of the
common?〃
Frank laughed at the strange question。
〃Anything out of the common?〃 he repeated。 〃Nothing that I know
of; except sailing for the Arctic seas。 That's out of the common;
I supposeisn't it?〃
〃Has anybody spoken to you since last night? Has any stranger
followed you in the street?〃
Frank turned in blank amazement to Mrs。 Crayford。
〃What on earth does she mean?〃
Mrs。 Crayford's lively invention supplied her with an answer on
the spur of the moment。
〃Do you believe in dreams; Frank? Of course you don't! Clara has
been dreaming about you; and Clara is foolish enough to believe
in dreams。 That's allit's not worth talking about。 Hark! they
are calling you。 Say good…by; or you will be too late for the
boat。〃
Frank took Clara's hand。 Long afterwardin the dark Arctic days;
in the dreary Arctic nightshe remembered how coldly and how
passively that hand lay in his。
〃Courage; Clara!〃 he said; gayly。 〃A sailor's sweetheart must
accustom herself to partings。 The time will soon pass。 Good…by;
my darling! Good…by; my wife!〃
He kissed the cold hand; he looked his lastfor many a long
year; perhaps!at the pale and beautiful face。 〃How she loves
me!〃 he thought。 〃How the parting distresses her!〃 He still held
her hand; he would have lingered longer; if Mrs。 Crayford had not
wisely waived all ceremony and pushed him away。
The two ladies followed him at a safe distance through the crowd;
and saw him step into the boat。 The oars struck the water; Frank
waved his cap to Clara。 In a moment more a vessel at anchor hid
the boat from view。 They had seen the last of him on his way to
the Frozen Deep!
〃No Richard Wardour in the boat;〃 said Mrs。 Crayford。 〃No Richard
Wardour on the shore。 Let this be a lesson t