第 3 节
作者:莫莫言      更新:2024-01-06 10:43      字数:9321
  〃I did write。〃
  〃Plainly?〃
  〃Yes。 I told him in so many words that he was deceiving himself;
  and that I could never marry him。〃
  〃Plain enough; in all conscience! Having said that; surely you
  are not to blame。 What are you fretting about now?〃
  〃Suppose my letter has never reached him?〃
  〃Why should you suppose anything of the sort?〃
  〃What I wrote required an answer; Lucy_asked_ for an answer。
  The answer has never come。 What is the plain conclusion? My
  letter has never reached him。 And the _Atalanta_ is expected
  back! Richard Wardour is returning to EnglandRichard Wardour
  will claim me as his wife! You wondered just now if I really
  meant what I said。 Do you doubt it still?〃
  Mrs。 Crayford leaned back absently in her chair。 For the first
  time since the conversation had begun; she let a question pass
  without making a reply。 The truth is; Mrs。 Crayford was thinking。
  She saw Clara's position plainly; she understood the disturbing
  effect of it on the mind of a young girl。 Still; making all
  allowances; she felt quite at a loss; so far; to account for
  Clara's excessive agitation。 Her quick observing faculty had just
  detected that Clara's face showed no signs of relief; now that
  she had unburdened herself of her secret。 There was something
  clearly under the surface heresomething of importance that
  still remained to be discovered。 A shrewd doubt crossed Mrs。
  Crayford's mind; and inspired the next words which she addressed
  to her young friend。
  〃My dear;〃 she said abruptly; 〃have you told me all?〃
  Clara started as if the question terrified her。 Feeling sure that
  she now had the clew in her hand; Mrs。 Crayford deliberately
  repeated her question; in another form of words。 Instead of
  answering; Clara suddenly looked up。 At the same moment a faint
  flush of color appeared in her face for the first time。
  Looking up instinctively on her side; Mrs。 Crayford became aware
  of the presence; in the conservatory; of a young gentleman who
  was claiming Clara as his partner in the coming waltz。 Mrs。
  Crayford fell into thinking once more。 Had this young gentleman
  (she asked herself) anything to do with the untold end of the
  story? Was this the true secret of Clara Burnham's terror at the
  impending return of Richard Wardour? Mrs。 Crayford decided on
  putting her doubts to the test。
  〃A friend of yours; my dear?〃 she asked; innocently。 〃Suppose you
  introduce us to each other。〃
  Clara confusedly introduced the young gentleman。
  〃Mr。 Francis Aldersley; Lucy。 Mr。 Aldersley belongs to the Arctic
  expedition。〃
  〃Attached to the expedition?〃 Mrs。 Crayford repeated。 〃I am
  attached to the expedition tooin my way。 I had better introduce
  myself; Mr。 Aldersley; as Clara seems to have forgotten to do it
  for me。 I am Mrs。 Crayford。 My husband is Lieutenant Crayford; of
  the _Wanderer_。 Do you belong to that ship?〃
  〃I have not the honor; Mrs。 Crayford。 I belong to the _Sea…mew_。〃
  Mrs。 Crayford's superb eyes looked shrewdly backward and forward
  between Clara and Francis Aldersley; and saw the untold sequel to
  Clara's story。 The young officer was a bright; handsome;
  gentleman…like lad。 Just the person to seriously complicate the
  difficulty with Richard Wardour! There was no time for making any
  further inquiries。 The band had begun the prelude to the waltz;
  and Francis Aldersley was waiting for his partner。 With a word of
  apology to the young man; Mrs。 Crayford drew Clara aside for a
  moment; and spoke to her in a whisper。
  〃One word; my dear; before you return to the ball…room。 It may
  sound conceited; after the little you have told me; but I think I
  understand your position _now_; better than you do yourself。 Do
  you want to hear my opinion?〃
  〃I am longing to hear it; Lucy! I want your opinion; I want your
  advice。〃
  〃You shall have both in the plainest and fewest words。 First; my
  opinion: You have no choice but to come to an explanation with
  Mr。 Wardour as soon as he returns。 Second; my advice: If you wish
  to make the explanation easy to both sides; take care that you
  make it in the character of a free woman。〃
  She laid a strong emphasis on the last three words; and looked
  pointedly at Francis Aldersley as she pronounced them。 〃I won't
  keep you from your partner any longer; Clara;〃 she resumed; and
  led the way back to the ball…room。
  Chapter 3。
  The burden on Clara's mind weighs on it more heavily than ever;
  after what Mrs。 Crayford has said to her。 She is too unhappy to
  feel the inspiriting influence of the dance。 After a turn round
  the room; she complains of fatigue。 Mr。 Francis Aldersley looks
  at the conservatory (still as invitingly cool and empty as ever);
  leads her back to it; and places her on a seat among the shrubs。
  She triesvery feeblyto dismiss him。
  〃Don't let me keep you from dancing; Mr。 Aldersley。〃
  He seats himself by her side; and feasts his eyes on the lovely
  downcast face that dares not turn toward him。 He whispers to her:
  〃Call me Frank。〃
  She longs to call him Frankshe loves him with all her heart。
  But Mrs。 Crayford's warning words are still in her mind。 She
  never opens her lips。 Her lover moves a little closer; and asks
  another favor。 Men are all alike on these occasions。 Silence
  invariably encourages them to try again。
  〃Clara! have you forgotten what I said at the concert yesterday?
  May I say it again?〃
  〃No!〃
  〃We sail to…morrow for the Arctic seas。 I may not return for
  years。 Don't send me away without hope! Think of the long; lonely
  time in the dark North! Make it a happy time for _me_。〃
  Though he speaks with the fervor of a man; he is little more than
  a lad: he is only twenty years old; and he is going to risk his
  young life on the frozen deep! Clara pities him as she never
  pitied any human creature before。 He gently takes her hand。 She
  tries to release it。
  〃What! not even that little favor on the last night?〃
  Her faithful heart takes his part; in spite of her。 Her hand
  remains in his; and feels its soft persuasive pressure。 She is a
  lost woman。 It is only a question of time now!
  〃Clara! do you love me?〃
  There is a pause。 She shrinks from looking at himshe trembles
  with strange contradictory sensations of pleasure and pain。 His
  arm steals round her; he repeats his question in a whisper; his
  lips almost touch her little rosy ear as he says it again:
  〃Do you love me?〃
  She closes her eyes faintlyshe hears nothing but those
  wordsfeels nothing but his arm round her forgets Mrs。
  Crayford's warningforgets Richard Wardour himselfturns
  suddenly; with a loving woman's desperate disregard of everything
  but her lovenestles her head on his bosom; and answers him in
  that way; at last!
  He lifts the beautiful drooping headtheir lips meet in their
  first kissthey are both in heaven: it is Clara who brings them
  back to earth again with a startit is Clara who says; 〃Oh! what
  have I done?〃as usual; when it is too late。
  Frank answers the question。
  〃You have made me happy; my angel。 Now; when I come back; I come
  back to make you my wife。〃
  She shudders。 She remembers Richard Wardour again at those words。
  〃Mind!〃 she says; 〃nobody is to know we are engaged till I permit
  you to mention it。 Remember that!〃
  He promises to remember it。 His arm tries to wind round her once
  more。 No! She is mistress of herself; she can positively dismiss
  him nowafter she has let him kiss her!
  〃Go!〃 she says。 〃I want to see Mrs。 Crayford。 Find her! Say I am
  here; waiting to speak to her。 Go at once; Frankfor my sake!〃
  There is no alternative but to obey her。 His eyes drink a last
  draught of her beauty。 He hurries away on his errandthe
  happiest man in the room。 Five minutes since she was only his
  partner in the dance。 He has spokenand she has pledged herself
  to be his partner for life!
  Chapter 4。
  It was not easy to find Mrs。 Crayford in the crowd。 Searching
  here; and searching there; Frank became conscious of a stranger;
  who appeared to be looking for somebody; on his side。 He was a
  dark; heavy…browed; strongly…built man; dressed in a shabby old
  naval officer's uniform。 His mannerstrikingly resolute and
  self…containedwas unmistakably the manner of a gentleman。 He
  wound his way slowly through the crowd; stopping to look at every
  lady whom he passed; and then looking away again with a frown。
  Little by little he approached the conservatoryentered it;
  after a moment's reflectiondetected the glimmer of a white
  dress in the distance; through the shrubs and flowersadvanced
  to get a nearer view of the ladyand burst into Clara's presence
  with a cry of delight。
  She sprang to her feet。 She stood before him speechless;
  motionless; struck to stone。 All her life was in her eyesthe
  eyes which told her she was looking at Richard Wardour。
  He was the first to speak。
  〃I am sorry I startled you; my darling。 I forgot everything but
  the happiness of seeing you again。 We only reached our moorings
  two hours since。 I was some time inquiring after you; and some
  time getting my ticket when they told me you were at the ball。
  Wish me joy; Clara! I am promoted。 I have come back to make you
  my wife。〃
  A momentary change passed over the blank terror of her face。 Her
  color rose faintly; her