第 2 节
作者:莫莫言      更新:2024-01-06 10:43      字数:9322
  further?〃
  The captain took the hint。 He instantly changed the subject;
  choosing; on this occasion; safe professional topics。 He spoke of
  ships that were ordered on foreign service; and; finding that
  these as subjects failed to interest Mrs。 Crayford; he spoke next
  of ships that were ordered home again。 This last experiment
  produced its effectan effect which the captain had not
  bargained for。
  〃Do you know;〃 he began; 〃that the _Atalanta_ is expected back
  from the West Coast of Africa every day? Have you any
  acquaintances among the officers of that ship?〃
  As it so happened; he put those questions to Mrs。 Crayford while
  they were engaged in one of the figures of the dance which
  brought them within hearing of the opposite couple。 At the same
  momentto the astonishment of her friends and admirersMiss
  Clara Burnham threw the quadrille into confusion by making a
  mistake! Everybody waited to see her set the mistake right。 She
  made no attempt to set it rightshe turned deadly pale and
  caught her partner by the arm。
  〃The heat!〃 she said; faintly。 〃Take me awaytake me into the
  air!〃
  Lieutenant Crayford instantly led her out of the dance; and took
  her into the cool and empty conservatory; at the end of the room。
  As a matter of course; Captain Helding and Mrs。 Crayford left the
  quadrille at the same time。 The captain saw his way to a joke。
  〃Is this the trance coming on?〃 he whispered。 〃If it is; as
  commander of the Arctic expedition; I have a particular request
  to make。 Will the Second Sight oblige me by seeing the shortest
  way to the Northwest Passage; before we leave England?〃
  Mrs。 Crayford declined to humor the joke。 〃If you will excuse my
  leaving you;〃 she said quietly; 〃I will try and find out what is
  the matter with Miss Burnham。〃
  At the entrance to the conservatory; Mrs。 Crayford encountered
  her husband。 The lieutenant was of middle age; tall and comely。 A
  man with a winning simplicity and gentleness in his manner; and
  an irresistible kindness in his brave blue eyes。 In one word; a
  man whom everybody lovedincluding his wife。
  〃Don't be alarmed;〃 said the lieutenant。 〃The heat has overcome
  herthat's all。〃
  Mrs。 Crayford shook her head; and looked at her husband; half
  satirically; half fondly。
  〃You dear old innocent!〃 she exclaimed; 〃that excuse may do for
  _you_。 For my part; I don't believe a word of it。 Go and get
  another partner; and leave Clara to me。〃
  She entered the conservatory and seated herself by Clara's side。
  Chapter 2。
  〃Now; my dear!〃 Mrs。 Crayford began; 〃what does this mean?〃
  〃Nothing。〃
  〃That won't do; Clara。 Try again。〃
  〃The heat of the room〃
  〃That won't do; either。 Say that you choose to keep your own
  secrets; and I shall understand what you mean。〃
  Clara's sad; clear gray eyes looked up for the first time in Mrs。
  Crayford's face; and suddenly became dimmed with tears。
  〃If I only dared tell you!〃 she murmured。 〃I hold so to your good
  opinion of me; Lucyand I am so afraid of losing it。〃
  Mrs。 Crayford's manner changed。 Her eyes rested gravely and
  anxiously on Clara's face。
  〃You know as well as I do that nothing can shake my affection for
  you;〃 she said。 〃Do justice; my child; to your old friend。 There
  is nobody here to listen to what we say。 Open your heart; Clara。
  I see you are in trouble; and I want to comfort you。〃
  Clara began to yield。 In other words; she began to make
  conditions。
  〃Will you promise to keep what I tell you a secret from every
  living creature?〃 she began。
  Mrs。 Crayford met that question; by putting a question on her
  side。
  〃Does 'every living creature' include my husband?〃
  〃Your husband more than anybody! I love him; I revere him。 He is
  so noble; he is so good! If I told him what I am going to tell
  you; he would despise me。 Own it plainly; Lucy; if I am asking
  too much in asking you to keep a secret from your husband。〃
  〃Nonsense; child! When you are married; you will know that the
  easiest of all secrets to keep is a secret from your husband。 I
  give you my promise。 Now begin!〃
  Clara hesitated painfully。
  〃I don't know how to begin!〃 she exclaimed; with a burst of
  despair。 〃The words won't come to me。〃
  〃Then I must help you。 Do you feel ill tonight? Do you feel as
  you felt that day when you were with my sister and me in the
  garden?〃
  〃Oh no。〃
  〃You are not ill; you are not really affected by the heatand
  yet you turn as pale as ashes; and you are obliged to leave the
  quadrille! There must be some reason for this。〃
  〃There is a reason。 Captain Helding〃
  〃Captain Helding! What in the name of wonder has the captain to
  do with it?〃
  〃He told you something about the _Atalanta_。 He said the
  _Atalanta_ was expected back from Africa immediately。〃
  〃Well; and what of that? Is there anybody in whom you are
  interested coming home in the ship?〃
  〃Somebody whom I am afraid of is coming home in the ship。〃
  Mrs。 Crayford's magnificent black eyes opened wide in amazement。
  〃My dear Clara! do you really mean what you say?〃
  〃Wait a little; Lucy; and you shall judge for yourself。 We must
  go backif I am to make you understand meto the year before we
  knew each otherto the last year of my father's life。 Did I ever
  tell you that my father moved southward; for the sake of his
  health; to a house in Kent that was lent to him by a friend?〃
  〃No; my dear; I don't remember ever hearing of the house in Kent。
  Tell me about it。〃
  〃There is nothing to tell; except this: the new house was near a
  fine country…seat standing in its own park。 The owner of the
  place was a gentleman named Wardour。 He; too; was one of my
  father's Kentish friends。 He had an only son。〃
  She paused; and played nervously with her fan。 Mrs。 Crayford
  looked at her attentively。 Clara's eyes remained fixed on her
  fanClara said no more。 〃What was the son's name?〃 asked Mrs。
  Crayford; quietly。
  〃Richard。〃
  〃Am I right; Clara; in suspecting that Mr。 Richard Wardour
  admired you?〃
  The question produced its intended effect。 The question helped
  Clara to go on。
  〃I hardly knew at first;〃 she said; 〃whether he admired me or
  not。 He was very strange in his waysheadstrong; terribly
  headstrong and passionate; but generous and affectionate in spite
  of his faults of temper。 Can you understand such a character?〃
  〃Such characters exist by thousands。 I have my faults of temper。
  I begin to like Richard already。 Go on。〃
  〃The days went by; Lucy; and the weeks went by。 We were thrown
  very much together。 I began; little by little; to have some
  suspicion of the truth。〃
  〃And Richard helped to confirm your suspicions; of course?
  〃No。 He was notunhappily for mehe was not that sort of man。
  He never spoke of the feeling with which he regarded me。 It was I
  who saw it。 I couldn't help seeing it。 I did all I could to show
  that I was willing to be a sister to him; and that I could never
  be anything else。 He did not understand me; or he would not; I
  can't say which。〃
  〃'Would not;' is the most likely; my dear。 Go on。〃
  〃It might have been as you say。 There was a strange; rough
  bashfulness about him。 He confused and puzzled me。 He never spoke
  out。 He seemed to treat me as if our future lives had been
  provided for while we were
  children。 What could I do; Lucy?〃
  〃Do? You could have asked your father to end the difficulty for
  you。〃
  〃Impossible! You forget what I have just told you。 My father was
  suffering at that time under the illness which afterward caused
  his death。 He was quite unfit to interfere。〃
  〃Was there no one else who could help you?〃
  〃No one。〃
  〃No lady in whom you could confide?〃
  〃I had acquaintances among the ladies in the neighborhood。 I had
  no friends。〃
  〃What did you do; then?〃
  〃Nothing。 I hesitated; I put off coming to an explanation with
  him; unfortunately; until it was too late。〃
  〃What do you mean by too late?〃
  〃You shall hear。 I ought to have told you that Richard Wardour is
  in the navy〃
  〃Indeed! I am more interested in him than ever。 Well?〃
  〃One spring day Richard came to our house to take leave of us
  before he joined his ship。 I thought he was gone; and I went into
  the next room。 It was my own sitting…room; and it opened on to
  the garden。〃
  〃Yes?〃
  〃Richard must have been watching me。 He suddenly appeared in the
  garden。 Without waiting for me to invite him; he walked into the
  room。 I was a little startled as well as surprised; but I managed
  to hide it。 I said; 'What is it; Mr。 Wardour?' He stepped close
  up to me; he said; in his quick; rough way: 'Clara! I am going to
  the African coast。 If I live; I shall come back promoted; and we
  both know what will happen then。' He kissed me。 I was half
  frightened; half angry。 Before I could compose myself to say a
  word; he was out in the garden againhe was gone! I ought to
  have spoken; I know。 It was not honorable; not kind toward him。
  You can't reproach me for my want of courage and frankness more
  bitterly than I reproach myself!〃
  〃My dear child; I don't reproach you。 I only think you might have
  written to him。〃
  〃I did write。〃
  〃Plainly?〃
  〃Yes。 I told him in so many words that he was deceiving himself;
  and that I could never marry him。〃
  〃Plain enough; in all co