第 87 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:48      字数:9322
  quickly and kissed my forehead。 I was quite overcome; and sank
  down and hid my face on the table。 When I looked up again he was
  gone。
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  June 25th; 1841。 I write these lines on my wedding morning; when
  little more than a year has passed since Robert returned to
  England。
  His salary was increased yesterday to one hundred and fifty
  pounds a year。 If I only knew where Mr。 Mallinson was; I would
  write and tell him of our present happiness。 But for the
  situation which his kindness procured for Robert; we might still
  have been waiting vainly for the day that has now come。
  I am to work at home for the future; and Sally is to help us in
  our new abode。 If Mary could have lived to see this day! I am not
  ungrateful for my blessings; but oh; how I miss that sweet face
  on this morning of all others!
  I got up to…day early enough to go alone to the grave; and to
  gather the nosegay that now lies before me from the flowers that
  grow round it。 I shall put it in my bosom when Robert comes to
  fetch me to the church。 Mary would have been my bridesmaid if she
  had lived; and I can't forget Mary; even on my wedding…day。 。 。 。
  THE NIGHT。
  THE last words of the last story fell low and trembling from
  Owen's lips。 He waited for a moment while Jessie dried the tears
  which Anne Rodway's simple diary had drawn from her warm young
  heart; then closed the manuscript; and taking her hand patted it
  in his gentle; fatherly way。
  〃You will be glad to hear; my love;〃 he said; 〃that I can speak
  from personal experience of Anne Rodway's happiness。 She came to
  live in my parish soon after the trial at which she appeared as
  chief witness; and I was the clergyman who married her。 Months
  before that I knew her story; and had read those portions of her
  diary which you have just heard。 When I made her my little
  present on her wedding day; and when she gratefully entreated me
  to tell her what she could do for me in return; I asked for a
  copy of her diary to keep among the papers that I treasured most。
  'The reading of it now and then;' I said; 'will encourage that
  faith in the brighter and better part of human nature which I
  hope; by God's help; to preserve pure to my dying day。' In that
  way I became possessed of the manuscript: it was Anne's husband
  who made the copy for me。 You have noticed a few withered leaves
  scattered here and there between the pages。 They were put there;
  years since; by the bride's own hand: they are all that now
  remain of the flowers that Anne Rodway gathered on her marriage
  morning from Mary Mallinson's grave。〃
  Jessie tried to answer; but the words failed on her lips。 Between
  the effect of the story; and the anticipation of the parting now
  so near at hand; the good; impulsive; affectionate creature was
  fairly overcome。 She laid her head on Owen's shoulder; and kept
  tight hold of his hand; and let her heart speak simply for
  itself; without attempting to help it by a single word。
  The silence that followed was broken harshly by the tower clock。
  The heavy hammer slowly rang out ten strokes through the gloomy
  night…time and the dying storm。
  I waited till the last humming echo of the clock fainted into
  dead stillness。 I listened once more attentively; and again
  listened in vain。 Then I rose; and proposed to my brothers that
  we should leave our guest to compose herself for the night。
  When Owen and Morgan were ready to quit the room; I took her by
  the hand; and drew her a little aside。
  〃You leave us early; my dear;〃 I said; 〃but; before you go
  to…morrow morning〃
  I stopped to listen for the last time; before the words were
  spoken which committed me to the desperate experiment of pleading
  George's cause in defiance of his own request。 Nothing caught my
  ear but the sweep of the weary weakened wind and the melancholy
  surging of the shaken trees。
  〃But; before you go to…morrow morning;〃 I resumed; 〃I want to
  speak to you in private。 We shall breakfast at eight o'clock。 Is
  it asking too much to beg you to come and see me alone in my
  study at half past seven?〃
  Just as her lips opened to answer me I saw a change pass over her
  face。 I had kept her hand in mine while I was speaking; and I
  must have pressed it unconsciously so hard as almost to hurt her。
  She may even have uttered a few words of remonstrance; but they
  never reached me: my whole hearing sense was seized; absorbed;
  petrified。 At the very instant when I had ceased speaking; I; and
  I alone; heard a faint sounda sound that was new to mefly
  past the Glen Tower on the wings of the wind。
  〃Open the window; for God's sake!〃 I cried。
  My hand mechanically held hers tighter and tighter。 She struggled
  to free it; looking hard at me with pale cheeks and frightened
  eyes。 Owen hastened up and released her; and put his arms round
  me。
  〃Griffith; Griffith!〃 he whispered; 〃control yourself; for
  George's sake。〃
  Morgan hurried to the window and threw it wide open。
  The wind and rain rushed in fiercely。 Welcome; welcome wind! They
  all heard it now。 〃Oh; Father in heaven; so merciful to fathers
  on earthmy son; my son!〃
  It came in; louder and louder with every gust of windthe
  joyous; rapid gathering roll of wheels。 My eyes fastened on her
  as if they could see to her heart; while she stood there with her
  sweet face turned on me all pale and startled。 I tried to speak
  to her; I tried to break away from Owen's arms; to throw my own
  arms round her; to keep her on my bosom; till _he_ came to take
  her from me。 But all my strength had gone in the long waiting and
  the long suspense。 My head sank on Owen's breastbut I still
  heard the wheels。 Morgan loosened my cravat; and sprinkled water
  over my faceI still heard the wheels。 The poor terrified girl
  ran into her room; and came back with her smelling…saltsI heard
  the carriage stop at the house。 The room whirled round and round
  with me; but I heard the eager hurry of footsteps in the hall;
  and the opening of the door。 In another moment my son's voice
  rose clear and cheerful from below; greeting the old servants who
  loved him。 The dear; familiar tones just poured into my ear; and
  then; the moment they filled it; hushed me suddenly to rest。
  When I came to myself again my eyes opened upon George。 I was
  lying on the sofa; still in the same room; the lights we had read
  by in the evening were burning on the table; my son was kneeling
  at my pillow; and we two were alone。
  THE MORNING。
  THE wind is fainter; but there is still no calm。 The rain is
  ceasing; but there is still no sunshine。 The view from my window
  shows me the mist heavy on the earth; and a dim gray veil drawn
  darkly over the sky。 Less than twelve hours since; such a
  prospect would have saddened me for the day。 I look out at it
  this morning; through the bright medium of my own happiness; and
  not the shadow of a shade falls across the steady inner sunshine
  that is poring over my heart。
  The pen lingers fondly in my hand; and yet it is little; very
  little; that I have left to say。 The Purple Volume lies open by
  my side; with the stories ranged together in it in the order in
  which they were read。 My son has learned to prize them already as
  the faithful friends who served him at his utmost need。 I have
  only to wind off the little thread of narrative on which they are
  all strung together before the volume is closed and our anxious
  literary experiment fairly ended。
  My son and I had a quiet hour together on that happy night
  before we retired to rest。 The little love…plot invented in
  George's interests now required one last stroke of diplomacy to
  complete it before we all threw off our masks and assumed our
  true characters for the future。 When my son and I parted for the
  night; we had planned the necessary stratagem for taking our
  lovely guest by surprise as soon as she was out of her bed in the
  morning。
  Shortly after seven o'clock I sent a message to Jessie by her
  maid; informing her that a good night's rest had done wonders for
  me; and that I expected to see her in my study at half past
  seven; as we had arranged the evening before。 As soon as her
  answer; promising to be punctual to the appointment; had reached
  me; I took George into my studyleft him in my place to plead
  his own causeand stole away; five minutes before the half hour;
  to join my brothers in the breakfast…room。
  Although the sense of my own happiness disposed me to take the
  brightest view of my son's chances; I must nevertheless
  acknowledge that some nervous anxieties still fluttered about my
  heart while the slow minutes of suspense were counting themselves
  out in the breakfast…room。 I had as little attention to spare for
  Owen's quiet prognostications of success as for Morgan's pitiless
  sarcasms on love; courtship; and matrimony。 A quarter of an hour
  elapsedthen twenty minutes。 The hand moved on; and the clock
  pointed to five minutes to eight; before I heard the study door
  open; and before the sound of rapidly…advancing footsteps warned
  me that George was coming into the room。
  His beaming face told the good news before a word could be spoken
  on either side。 The excess of his happiness literally and truly
  deprived him of speech。 He stood eagerly looking at us all thr