第 76 节
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津鸿一瞥 更新:2023-08-28 11:47 字数:9321
improved。 Imagine me now; if you please; on the high road to
prosperity; with good large offices and a respectable staff of
clerks; and picture me to yourselves sitting alone in my private
room between four and five o'clock on a certain Saturday
afternoon。
All my letters had been written; all the people who had
appointments with me had been received。 I was looking carelessly
over the newspaper; and thinking about going home; when one of my
clerks came in; and said that a stranger wished to see me
immediately on very important business。
〃Did he mention his name?〃 I inquired。
〃No; sir。〃
〃Did you not ask him for it?〃
〃Yes; sir。 And he said you would be none the wiser if he told me
what it was。〃
〃Does he look like a begging…letter writer?〃
〃He looks a little shabby; sir; but he doesn't talk at all like a
begging…letter writer。 He spoke sharp and decided; sir; and said
it was
in your interests that he came; and that you would deeply regret
it afterward if you refused to see him。〃
〃He said that; did he? Show him in at once; then。〃
He was shown in immediately: a middling…sized man; with a sharp;
unwholesome…looking face; and with a flippant; reckless manner;
dressed in a style of shabby smartness; eying me with a bold
look; and not so overburdened with politeness as to trouble
himself about taking off his hat when he came in。 I had never
seen him before in my life; and I could not form the slightest
conjecture from his appearance to guide me toward guessing his
position in the world。 He was not a gentleman; evidently; but as
to fixing his whereabouts in the infinite downward gradations of
vagabond existence in London; that was a mystery which I was
totally incompetent to solve。
〃Is your name Trowbridge?〃 he began。
〃Yes;〃 I answered; dryly enough。
〃Do you bank with Marsh; Stracey; Fauntleroy & Graham?〃
〃Why do you ask?〃
〃Answer my question; and you will know。〃
〃Very well; I _do_ bank with Marsh; Stracey; Fauntleroy &
Grahamand what then?〃
〃Draw out every farthing of balance you have got before the bank
closes at five to…day。〃
I stared at him in speechless amazement。 The words; for an
instant; absolutely petrified me。
〃Stare as much as you like;〃 he proceeded; coolly; 〃I mean what I
say。 Look at your clock there。 In twenty minutes it will strike
five; and the bank will be shut。 Draw out every farthing; I tell
you again; and look sharp about it。〃
〃Draw out my money!〃 I exclaimed; partially recovering myself。
〃Are you in your right senses? Do you know that the firm I bank
with represents one of the first houses in the world? What do you
meanyou; who are a total stranger to meby taking this
extraordinary interest in my affairs? If you want me to act on
your advice; why don't you explain yourself?〃
〃I have explained myself。 Act on my advice or not; just as you
like。 It doesn't matter to me。 I have done what I promised; and
there's an end of it。〃
He turned to the door。 The minute…hand of the clock was getting
on from the twenty minutes to the quarter。
〃Done what you promised?〃 I repeated; getting up to stop him。
〃Yes;〃 he said; with his hand on the lock。 〃I have given my
message。 Whatever happens; remember that。 Good…afternoon。〃
He was gone before I could speak again。
I tried to call after him; but my speech suddenly failed me。 It
was very foolish; it was very unaccountable; but there was
something in the man's last words which had more than half
frightened me。
I looked at the clock。 The minute…hand was on the quarter。
My office was just far enough from the bank to make it necessary
for me to decide on the instant。 If I had had time to think; I am
perfectly certain that I should not have profited by the
extraordinary warning that had just been addressed to me。 The
suspicious appearance and manners of the stranger; the outrageous
improbability of the inference against the credit of the bank
toward which his words pointed; the chance that some underhand
attempt was being made; by some enemy of mine; to frighten me
into embroiling myself with one of my best friends; through
showing an ignorant distrust of the firm with which he was
associated as partnerall these considerations would
unquestionably have occurred to me if I could have found time for
reflection; and; as a necessary consequence; not one farthing of
my balance would have been taken from the keeping of the bank on
that memorable day。
As it was; I had just time enough to act; and not a spare moment
for thinking。 Some heavy payments made at the beginning of the
week had so far decreased my balance that the sum to my credit in
the banking…book barely reached fifteen hundred pounds。 I
snatched up my check…book; wrote a draft for the whole amount;
and ordered one of my clerks to run to the bank and get it cashed
before the doors closed。 What impulse urged me on; except the
blind impulse of hurry and bewilderment; I can't say。 I acted
mechanically; under the influence of the vague inexplicable fear
which the man's extraordinary parting words had aroused in me;
without stopping to analyze my own sensationsalmost without
knowing what I was about。 In three minutes from the time when the
stranger had closed my door the clerk had started for the bank;
and I was alone again in my room; with my hands as cold as ice
and my head all in a whirl。
I did not recover my control over myself until the clerk came
back with the notes in his hand。 He had just got to the bank in
the nick of time。 As the cash for my draft was handed to him over
the counter; the clock struck five; and he heard the order given
to close the doors。
When I had counted the bank…notes and had locked them up in the
safe; my better sense seemed to come back to me on a sudden。
Never have I reproached myself before or since as I reproached
myself at that moment。 What sort of return had I made for Mr。
Fauntleroy's fatherly kindness to me? I had insulted him by the
meanest; the grossest distrust of the honor and the credit of his
house; and that on the word of an absolute stranger; of a
vagabond; if ever there was one yet。 It was madnessdownright
madness in any man to have acted as I had done。 I could not
account for my own inconceivably thoughtless proceeding。 I could
hardly believe in it myself。 I opened the safe and looked at the
bank…notes again。 I locked it once more; and flung the key down
on the table in a fury of vexation against myself。 There the
money was; upbraiding me with my own inconceivable folly; telling
me in the plainest terms that I had risked depriving myself of my
best and kindest friend henceforth and forever。
It was necessary to do something at once toward making all the
atonement that lay in my power。 I felt that; as soon as I began
to cool down a little。 There was but one plain; straight…forward
way left now out of the scrape in which I had been mad enough to
involve myself。 I took my hat; and; without stopping an instant
to hesitate; hurried off to the bank to make a clean breast of it
to Mr。 Fauntleroy。
When I knocked at the private door and asked for him; I was told
that he had not been at the bank for the last two days。 One of
the other partners was there; however; and was working at that
moment in his own room。
I sent in my name at once; and asked to see him。 He and I were
little better than strangers to each other; and the interview was
likely to be; on that account; unspeakably embarrassing and
humiliating on my side。 Still; I could not go home。 I could not
endure the inaction of the next day; the Sunday; without having
done my best on the spot to repair the error into which my own
folly had led me。 Uncomfortable as I felt at the prospect of the
approaching interview; I should have been far more uneasy in my
mind if the partner had declined to see me。
To my relief; the bank porter returned with a message requesting
me to walk in。
What particular form my explanations and apologies took when I
tried to offer them is more than I can tell now。 I was so
confused and distressed that I hardly knew what I was talking
about at the time。 The one circumstance which I remember clearly
is that I was ashamed to refer to my interview with the strange
man; and that I tried to account for my sudden withdrawal of my
balance by referring it to some inexplicable panic; caused by
mischievous reports which I was unable to trace to their source;
and which; for anything I knew to the contrary; might; after all;
have been only started in jest。 Greatly to my surprise; the
partner did not seem to notice the lamentable lameness of my
excuses; and did not additionally confuse me by asking any
questions。 A weary; absent look; which I had observed on his face
when I came in; remained on it while I was speaking。 It seemed to
be an effort to him even to keep up the appearance of listening
to me; and when; at last; I fairly broke down in the middle of a
sentence; and gave up the hope of getting any further; all the
answer he gave me was comprised in these few civil commonplace
words:
〃Never mind; Mr。 Trowbridge; pray don't think of apologizing。 We
are all liable to make mista kes。 Say nothing more about it; and
bring the