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津鸿一瞥 更新:2023-08-28 11:47 字数:9322
the Hall except when my mistress was alone there。 Meaning no
wrong; and therefore stooping to no concealment; she never
thought of taking any measures to keep Mr。 Meeke out of the way
when he happened to be with her at the time of her husband's
coming home; whether it was only from a riding excursion in the
neighborhood or from a cruise in the schooner。 In this way it so
turned out that whenever my master came home; after a long or
short absence; in nine cases out of ten he found the parson at
the Hall。
At first he used to laugh at this circumstance; and to amuse
himself with some coarse jokes at the expense of his wife and her
companion。 But; after a while; his variable temper changed; as
usual。 He grew sulky; rude; angry; and; at last; downright
jealous of Mr。 Meeke。 Though too proud to confess it in so many
words; he still showed the state of his mind clearly enough to my
mistress to excite her indignation。 She was a woman who could be
led anywhere by any one for whom she had a regard; but there was
a firm spirit within her that rose at the slightest show of
injustice or oppression; and that resented tyrannical usage of
any sort perhaps a little too warmly。 The bare suspicion that her
husband could feel any distrust of her set her all in a flame;
and she took the most unfortunate; and yet; at the same time; the
most natural way for a woman; of resenting it。 The ruder her
husband was to Mr。 Meeke the more kindly she behaved to him。 This
led to serious disputes and dissensions; and thence; in time; to
a violent quarrel。 I could not avoid hearing the last part of the
altercation between them; for it took place in the garden…walk;
outside the dining…room window; while I was occupied in laying
the table for lunch。
Without repeating their wordswhich I have no right to do;
having heard by accident what I had no business to hearI may
say generally; to show how serious the quarrel was; that my
mistress charged my master with having married from mercenary
motives; with keeping out of her company as much as he could; and
with insulting her by a suspicion which it would be hard ever to
forgive; and impossible ever to forget。 He replied by violent
language directed against herself; and by commanding her never to
open the doors again to Mr。 Meeke; she; on her side; declaring
that she would never consent to insult a clergyman and a
gentleman in order to satisfy the whim of a tyrannical husband。
Upon that; he called out; with a great oath; to have his horse
saddled directly; declaring that he would not stop another
instant under the same roof with a woman who had set him at
defiance; and warning his wife that he would come back; if Mr。
Meeke entered the house again; and horsewhip him; in spite of his
black coat; all through the village。
With those words he left her; and rode away to the sea…port where
his yacht was lying。 My mistress kept up her spirit till he was
out of sight; and then burst into a dreadful screaming passion of
tears; which ended by leaving her so weak that she had to be
carried to her bed like a woman who was at the point of death。
The same evening my master's horse was ridden back by a
messenger; who brought a scrap of notepaper with him addressed to
me。 It only contained these lines:
〃Pack up my clothes and deliver them immediately to the bearer。
You may tell your mistress that I sail to…night at eleven o'clock
for a cruise to Sweden。 Forward my letters to the post…office;
Stockholm。〃
I obeyed the orders given to me except that relating to my
mistress。 The doctor had been sent for; and was still in the
house。 I consulted him upon the propriety of my delivering the
message。 He positively forbade me to do so that night; and told
me to give him the slip of paper; and leave it to his discretion
to show it to her or not the next morning。
The messenger had hardly been gone an hour when Mr。 Meeke's
housekeeper came to the Hall with a roll of music for my
mistress。 I told the woman of my master's sudden departure; and
of the doctor being in the house。 This news brought Mr。 Meeke
himself to the Hall in a great flutter。
I felt so angry with him for being the causeinnocent as he
might beof the shocking scene which had taken place; that I
exceeded the bounds of my duty; and told him the whole truth。 The
poor; weak; wavering; childish creature flushed up red in the
face; then turned as pale as ashes; and dropped into one of the
hall chairs cryingliterally crying fit to break his heart。 〃Oh;
William;〃 says he; wringing his little frail; trembling white
hands as helpless as a baby; 〃oh; William; what am I to do?〃
〃As you ask me that question; sir;〃 says I; 〃you will excuse me;
I hope; if; being a servant; I plainly speak my mind
notwithstanding。 I know my station well enough to be aware that;
strictly speaking; I have done wrong; and far exceeded my duty;
in telling you as much as I have told you already; but I would go
through fire and water; sir;〃 says I; feeling my own eyes getting
moist; 〃for my mistress's sake。 She has no relation here who can
speak to you; and it is even better that a servant like me should
risk being guilty of an impertinence; than that dreadful and
lasting mischief should arise from the right remedy not being
applied at the right time。 This is what I should do; sir; in your
place。 Saving your presence; I should leave off crying; and go
back home and write to Mr。 James Smith; saying that I would not;
as a clergyman; give him railing for railing; but would prove how
unworthily he had suspected me by ceasing to visit at the Hall
from thi s time forth; rather than be a cause of dissension
between man and wife。 If you will put that into proper language;
sir; and will have the letter ready for me in half an hour's
time; I will call for it on the fastest horse in our stables;
and; at my own risk; will give it to my master before he sails
to…night。 I have nothing more to say; sir; except to ask your
pardon for forgetting my proper place; and for making bold to
speak on a very serious matter as equal to equal; and as man to
man。〃
To do Mr。 Meeke justice; he had a heart; though it was a very
small one。 He shook hands with me; and said he accepted my advice
as the advice of a friend; and so went back to his parsonage to
write the letter。 In half an hour I called for it on horseback;
but it was not ready for me。 Mr。 Meeke was ridiculously nice
about how he should express himself when he got a pen into his
hand。 I found him with his desk littered with rough copies; in a
perfect agony about how to turn his phrases delicately enough in
referring to my mistress。 Every minute being precious; I hurried
him as much as I could; without standing on any ceremony。 It took
half an hour more; with all my efforts; before he could make up
his mind that the letter would do。 I started off with it at a
gallop; and never drew rein till I got to the sea…port town。
The harbor…clock chimed the quarter past eleven as I rode by it;
and when I got down to the jetty there was no yacht to be seen。
She had been cast off from her moorings ten minutes before
eleven; and as the clock struck she had sailed out of the harbor。
I would have followed in a boat; but it was a fine starlight
night; with a fresh wind blowing; and the sailors on the pier
laughed at me when I spoke of rowing after a schooner yacht which
had got a quarter of an hour's start of us; with the wind abeam
and the tide in her favor。
I rode back with a heavy heart。 All I could do now was to send
the letter to the post…office; Stockholm。
The next day the doctor showed my mistress the scrap of paper
with the message on it from my master; and an hour or two after
that; a letter was sent to her in Mr。 Meeke's handwriting;
explaining the reason why she must not expect to see him at the
Hall; and referring to me in terms of high praise as a sensible
and faithful man who had spoken the right word at the right time。
I am able to repeat the substance of the letter; because I heard
all about it from my mistress; under very unpleasant
circumstances so far as I was concerned。
The news of my master's departure did not affect her as the
doctor had supposed it would。 Instead of distressing her; it
roused her spirit and made her angry; her pride; as I imagine;
being wounded by the contemptuous manner in which her husband had
notified his intention of sailing to Sweden at the end of a
message to a servant about packing his clothes。 Finding her in
that temper of mind; the letter from Mr。 Meeke only irritated her
the more。 She insisted on getting up; and as soon as she was
dressed and downstairs; she vented her violent humor on me;
reproaching me for impertinent interference in the affairs of my
betters; and declaring that she had almost made up her mind to
turn me out of my place for it。 I did not defend myself; because
I respected her sorrows and the irritation that came from them;
also; because I knew the natural kindness of her nature well
enough to be assured that she would make amends to me for her
harshness the moment her mind was composed again。 The result
showed that I was right。 That same evening she sent for me and
begged me to fo