第 58 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  from which she had been pronounced to be suffering might be a
  mere phrase intended to prepare him for the future disclosure of
  something infinitely and indescribably worse。
  The doctor; on hearing Mr。 Carling's report; exhibited no
  surprise and held to his opinion。 Her nervous system was out of
  order; and her husband had been needlessly frightened by a
  hysterical paroxysm。 If she did not get better in a week; change
  of scene might then be tried。 In the meantime; there was not the
  least cause for alarm。
  On the next day she was quieter; but she hardly spoke at all。 At
  night she slept well; and Mr。 Carling's faith in the medical man
  revived again。
  The morning after was the morning which would bring the answer
  from the publisher in London。 The rector's study was on the
  ground floor; and when he heard the postman's knock; being
  especially anxious that morning about his correspondence; he went
  out into the hall to receive his letters the moment they were put
  on the table。
  It was not the footman who had answered the door; as usual; but
  Mrs。 Carling's maid。 She had taken the letters from the postman;
  and she was going away with them upstairs。
  He stopped her; and asked her why she did not put the letters on
  the hall table as usual。 The maid; looking very much confused;
  said that her mistress had desired that whatever the postman had
  brought that morning should be carried up to her room。 He took
  the letters abruptly from the girl; without asking any more
  questions; and went back into his study。
  Up to this time no shadow of a suspicion had fallen on his mind。
  Hitherto there had been a simple obvious explanation for every
  unusual event that had occurred during the last three or four
  days; but this last circumstance in connection with the letters
  was not to be accounted for。 Nevertheless; even now; it was not
  distrust of his wife that was busy at his mindhe was too fond
  of her and too proud of her to feel itthe sensation was more
  like uneasy surprise。 He longed to go and question her; and get a
  satisfactory answer; and have done with it。 But there was a voice
  speaking within him that had never made itself heard beforea
  voice with a persistent warning in it; that said; Wait; and look
  at your letters first。
  He spread them out on the table with hands that trembled he knew
  not why。 Among them was the back number of the _Times_ for which
  he had written to London; with a letter from the publisher
  explaining the means by which the copy had been procured。
  He opened the newspaper with a vague feeling of alarm at finding
  that those letters to the editor which he had been so eager to
  read; and that perfecting of the mutilated volume which he had
  been so anxious to accomplish; had become objects of secondary
  importance in his mind。 An inexplicable curiosity about the
  general contents of the paper was now the one moving influence
  which asserted itself within him; he spread open the broad sheet
  on the table。
  The first page on which his eye fell was the page on the
  right…hand side。 It contained those very lettersthree in
  numberwhich he had once been so anxious to see。 He tried to
  read them; but no effort could fix his wandering attention。 He
  looked aside to the opposite page; on the left hand。 It was the
  page that contained the leading articles。
  They were three in number。 The first was on foreign politics; the
  second was a sarcastic commentary on a recent division in the
  House of Lords; the third was one of those articles on social
  subjects which have greatly and honorably helped to raise the
  reputation of the _Times_ above all contest and all rivalry。
  The lines of this third article which first caught his eye
  comprised the opening sentence of the second paragraph; and
  contained these words:
  It appears; from the narrative which will be found in another
  part of our columns; that this unfortunate woman married; in the
  spring of the year 18; one Mr。 Fergus Duncan; of Glendarn; in
  the Highlands of Scotland。 。 。
  The letters swam and mingled together under his eyes before he
  could go on to the next sentence。 His wife exhibited as an object
  for public compassion in the _Times_ newspaper! On the brink of
  the dreadful discovery that was advancing on him; his mind reeled
  back; and a deadly faintness came over him。 There was water on a
  side…tablehe drank a deep draught of itroused himselfseized
  on the newspaper with both hands; as if it had been a living
  thing that could feel the desperate resolution of his grasp; and
  read the article through; sentence by sentence; word by word。
  The subject was the Law of Divorce; and the example quoted was
  the example of his wife。
  At that time England stood disgracefully alone as the one
  civilized country in the world having a divorce law for the
  husband which was not also a divorce law for the wife。 The writer
  in the _Times_ boldly and eloquently exposed this discreditable
  anomaly in the administration of justice; hinted delicately at
  the unutterable wrongs suffered by Mrs。 Duncan; and plainly
  showed that she was indebted to the accident of having been
  married in Scotland; and to her consequent right of appeal to the
  Scotch tribunals; for a full and final release from the tie that
  bound her to the vilest of husbands; which the English law of
  that day would have mercilessly refused。
  He read that。 Other men might have gone on to the narrative
  extracted from the Scotch newspaper。 But at the last word of the
  article _he_ stopped。
  The newspaper; and the unread details which it contained; lost
  all hold on his attention in an instant; and in their stead;
  living and burning on his mind; like the Letters of Doom on the
  walls of Belshazzar; there rose up in judgment against him the
  last words of a verse in the Gospel of Saint Luke
  _〃Whosoever marrieth her that is put away from her husband;
  commiteth adultery。〃_
  He had preached from these words; he had warned his hearers; with
  the whole strength of the fanatical sincerity that was in him; to
  beware of prevaricating with the prohibition which that verse
  contained; and to accept it as literally; unreservedly; finally
  forbidding the marriage of a divorced woman。 He had insisted on
  that plain interpretation of plain words in terms which had made
  his congregation tremble。 And now he stood alone in the secrecy
  of his own chamber self…convicted of the deadly sin which he had
  denouncedhe stood; as he had told the wicked among his hearers
  that they would stand at the Last Day; before the Judgment Seat。
  He was unconscious of the lapse of time; he never knew whether it
  was many minutes or few before the door of his room was suddenly
  and softly opened。 It did open; and his wife came in。
  In her white dress; with a white shawl thrown over her shoulders;
  her dark hair; so neat and glossy at other times; hanging tangled
  about her colorless cheeks; and heightening the glassy brightness
  of terror in her eyesso he saw her; the woman put away from her
  husbandthe woman whose love had made his life happy and had
  stained his soul with a deadly sin。
  She came on to within a few paces of him without a word or a
  tear; or a shadow of change passing over the dreadful rigidity of
  her face。 She looked at him with a strange look; she pointed to
  the newspaper crumpled in his hand with a strange gesture; she
  spoke to him in a strange voice。
  〃You know it!〃 she said。
  His eyes met hersshe shrank from themturnedand laid her
  arms and her head heavily against the wall。
  〃Oh; Alfred;〃 she said; 〃I was so lonely in the world; and I was
  so fond of you!〃
  The woman's delicacy; the woman's trembling tenderness welled up
  from her heart; and touched her voice with a tone of its old
  sweetness as she murmured those simple words。
  She said no more。 Her confession of her fault; her appeal to
  their past love for pardon; were both poured forth in that one
  sentence。 She left it to his own heart to tell him the rest。 How
  anxiously her vigilant love had followed his every word and
  treasured up his every opinion in the days when they first met;
  how weakly and falsely; and yet with how true an affection for
  him; she had shrunk from the disclosure  which she knew but too
  well would have separ ated them even at the church door; how
  desperately she had fought against the coming discovery which
  threatened to tear her from the bosom she clung to; and to cast
  her out into the world with the shadow of her own shame to darken
  her life to the endall this she left him to feel; for the
  moment which might part them forever was the moment when she knew
  best how truly; how passionately he had loved her。
  His lips trembled as he stood looking at her in silence; and the
  slow; burning tears dropped heavily; one by one; down his cheeks。
  The natural human remembrance of the golden days of their
  companionship; of the nights and nights when that dear
  headturned away from him now in unutterable misery and
  shamehad nestled itself so fondly and so happily on his breast;
  fought hard to silence his conscience; to root out his dreadful
  sense of guilt; to tear the words of Judgment from their ruthless
  hold on his mind; to claim him in the sweet names of Pity and of
  Love。 If she had