第 36 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  time to consider what I had better do next; partly from an
  unaccountable curiosity that urged me; strangely to myself; to
  see all I could of the outside of the place before I attempted to
  gain admission at the gate。
  At the back of the convent I found an outhouse; built on to the
  walla clumsy; decayed building; with the greater part of the
  roof fallen in; and with a jagged hole in one of its sides; where
  in all probability a window had once been。 Behind the outhouse
  the trees grew thicker than ever。 As I looked toward them I could
  not determine whether the ground beyond me rose or fellwhether
  it was grassy; or earthy; or rocky。 I could see nothing but the
  all…pervading leaves; brambles; ferns; and long grass。
  Not a sound broke the oppressive stillness。 No bird's note rose
  from the leafy wilderness around me; no voices spoke in the
  convent garden behind the scowling wall; no clock struck in the
  chapel…tower; no dog barked in the ruined outhouse。 The dead
  silence deepened the solitude of the place inexpressibly。 I began
  to feel it weighing on my spiritsthe more; because woods were
  never favorite places with me to walk in。 The sort of pastoral
  happiness which poets often represent when they sing of life in
  the woods never; to my mind; has half the charm of life on the
  mountain or in the plain。 When I am in a wood; I miss the
  boundless loveliness of the sky; and the delicious softness that
  distance gives to the earthly view beneath。 I feel oppressively
  the change which the free air suffers when it gets imprisoned
  among leaves; and I am always awed; rather than pleased; by that
  mysterious still light which shines with such a strange dim
  luster in deep places among trees。 It may convict me of want of
  taste and absence of due feeling for the marvelous beauties of
  vegetation; but I must frankly own that I never penetrate far
  into a wood without finding that the getting out of it again is
  the pleasantest part of my walkthe getting out on to the barest
  down; the wildest hill…side; the bleakest mountain topthe
  getting out anywhere; so that I can see the sky over me and the
  view before me as far as my eye can reach。
  After such a confession as I have now made; it will appear
  surprising to no one that I should have felt the strongest
  possible inclination; while I stood by the ruined outhouse; to
  retrace my steps at once; and make the best of my way out of the
  wood。 I had; indeed; actually turned to depart; when the
  remembrance of the er rand which had brought me to the convent
  suddenly stayed my feet。 It seemed doubtful whether I should be
  admitted into the building if I rang the bell; and more than
  doubtful; if I were let in; whether the inhabitants would be able
  to afford me any clew to the information of which I was in
  search。 However; it was my duty to Monkton to leave no means of
  helping him in his desperate object untried; so I resolved to go
  round to the front of the convent again; and ring at the
  gate…bell at all hazards。
  By the merest chance I looked up as I passed the side of the
  outhouse where the jagged hole was; and noticed that it was
  pierced rather high in the wall。
  As I stopped to observe this; the closeness of the atmosphere in
  the wood seemed to be affecting me more unpleasantly than ever。
  I waited a minute and untied my cravat。
  Closeness? surely it was something more than that。 The air was
  even more distasteful to my nostrils than to my lungs。 There was
  some faint; indescribable smell loading itsome smell of which I
  had never had any previous experiencesome smell which I thought
  (now that my attention was directed to it) grew more and more
  certainly traceable to its source the nearer I advanced to the
  outhouse;
  By the time I had tried the experiment two or three times; and
  had made myself sure of this fact; my curiosity became excited。
  There were plenty of fragments of stone and brick lying about me。
  I gathered some of them together; and piled them up below the
  hole; then mounted to the top; and; feeling rather ashamed of
  what I was doing; peeped into the outhouse。
  The sight of horror that met my eyes the instant I looked through
  the hole is as present to my memory now as if I had beheld it
  yesterday。 I can hardly write of it at this distance of time
  without a thrill of the old terror running through me again to
  the heart。
  The first impression conveyed to me; as I looked in; was of a
  long; recumbent object; tinged with a lightish blue color all
  over; extended on trestles; and bearing a certain hideous;
  half…formed resemblance to the human face and figure。 I looked
  again; and felt certain of it。 There were the prominences of the
  forehead; nose; and chin; dimly shown as under a veilthere; the
  round outline of the chest and the hollow below itthere; the
  points of the knees; and the stiff; ghastly; upturned feet。 I
  looked again; yet more attentively。 My eyes got accustomed to the
  dim light streaming in through the broken roof; and I satisfied
  myself; judging by the great length of the body from head to
  foot; that I was looking at the corpse of a mana corpse that
  had apparently once had a sheet spread over it; and that had lain
  rotting on the trestles under the open sky long enough for the
  linen to take the livid; light…blue tinge of mildew and decay
  which now covered it。
  How long I remained with my eyes fixed on that dread sight of
  death; on that tombless; terrible wreck of humanity; poisoning
  the still air; and seeming even to stain the faint descending
  light that disclosed it; I know not。 I remember a dull; distant
  sound among the trees; as if the breeze were risingthe slow
  creeping on of the sound to near the place where I stoodthe
  noiseless whirling fall of a dead leaf on the corpse below me;
  through the gap in the outhouse roofand the effect of awakening
  my energies; of relaxing the heavy strain on my mind; which even
  the slight change wrought in the scene I beheld by the falling
  leaf produced in me immediately。 I descended to the ground; and;
  sitting down on the heap of stones; wiped away the thick
  perspiration which covered my face; and which I now became aware
  of for the first time。 It was something more than the hideous
  spectacle unexpectedly offered to my eyes which had shaken my
  nerves as I felt that they were shaken now。 Monkton's prediction
  that; if we succeeded in discovering his uncle's body; we should
  find it unburied; recurred to me the instant I saw the trestles
  and their ghastly burden。 I felt assured on the instant that I
  had found the dead manthe old prophecy recurred to my memorya
  strange yearning sorrow; a vague foreboding of ill; an
  inexplicable terror; as I thought of the poor lad who was
  awaiting my return in the distant town; struck through me with a
  chill of superstitious dread; robbed me of my judgment and
  resolution; and left me when I had at last recovered myself; weak
  and dizzy; as if I had just suffered under some pang of
  overpowering physical pain。
  I hastened round to the convent gate and rang impatiently at the
  bellwaited a little while and rang againthen heard footsteps。
  In the middle of the gate; just opposite my face; there was a
  small sliding panel; not more than a few inches long; this was
  presently pushed aside from within。 I saw; through a bit of iron
  grating; two dull; light gray eyes staring vacantly at me; and
  heard a feeble husky voice saying:
  〃What may you please to want?'
  〃I am a traveler〃 I began。
  〃We live in a miserable place。 We have nothing to show travelers
  here。〃
  〃I don't come to see anything。 I have an important question to
  ask; which I believe some one in this convent will be able to
  answer。 If you are not willing to let me in; at least come out
  and speak to me here。〃
  〃Are you alone?〃
  〃Quite alone。〃
  〃Are there no women with you?〃
  〃None。〃
  The gate was slowly unbarred; and an old Capuchin; very infirm;
  very suspicious; and very dirty; stood before me。 I was far too
  excited and impatient to waste any time in prefatory phrases; so;
  telling the monk at once how I had looked through the hole in the
  outhouse; and what I had seen inside; I asked him; in plain
  terms; who the man had been whose corpse I had beheld; and why
  the body was left unburied?
  The old Capuchin listened to me with watery eyes that twinkled
  suspiciously。 He had a battered tin snuff…box in his hand; and
  his finger and thumb slowly chased a few scattered grains of
  snuff round and round the inside of the box all the time I was
  speaking。 When I had done; he shook his head and said: 〃That was
  certainly an ugly sight in their outhouse; one of the ugliest
  sights; he felt sure; that ever I had seen in all my life!〃
  〃I don't want to talk of the sight;〃 I rejoined; impatiently; 〃I
  want to know who the man was; how he died; and why he is not
  decently buried。 Can you tell me?〃
  The monk's finger and thumb having captured three or four grains
  of snuff at last; he slowly drew them into his nostrils; holding
  the box open under his nose the while; to prevent the possibility
  of wasting even one grain; sniffed once or twice
  luxuriouslyclosed the boxthen looked at me again with his
  eyes watering and twinkling more suspiciously than before