第 36 节
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津鸿一瞥 更新:2023-08-28 11:47 字数:9322
time to consider what I had better do next; partly from an
unaccountable curiosity that urged me; strangely to myself; to
see all I could of the outside of the place before I attempted to
gain admission at the gate。
At the back of the convent I found an outhouse; built on to the
walla clumsy; decayed building; with the greater part of the
roof fallen in; and with a jagged hole in one of its sides; where
in all probability a window had once been。 Behind the outhouse
the trees grew thicker than ever。 As I looked toward them I could
not determine whether the ground beyond me rose or fellwhether
it was grassy; or earthy; or rocky。 I could see nothing but the
all…pervading leaves; brambles; ferns; and long grass。
Not a sound broke the oppressive stillness。 No bird's note rose
from the leafy wilderness around me; no voices spoke in the
convent garden behind the scowling wall; no clock struck in the
chapel…tower; no dog barked in the ruined outhouse。 The dead
silence deepened the solitude of the place inexpressibly。 I began
to feel it weighing on my spiritsthe more; because woods were
never favorite places with me to walk in。 The sort of pastoral
happiness which poets often represent when they sing of life in
the woods never; to my mind; has half the charm of life on the
mountain or in the plain。 When I am in a wood; I miss the
boundless loveliness of the sky; and the delicious softness that
distance gives to the earthly view beneath。 I feel oppressively
the change which the free air suffers when it gets imprisoned
among leaves; and I am always awed; rather than pleased; by that
mysterious still light which shines with such a strange dim
luster in deep places among trees。 It may convict me of want of
taste and absence of due feeling for the marvelous beauties of
vegetation; but I must frankly own that I never penetrate far
into a wood without finding that the getting out of it again is
the pleasantest part of my walkthe getting out on to the barest
down; the wildest hill…side; the bleakest mountain topthe
getting out anywhere; so that I can see the sky over me and the
view before me as far as my eye can reach。
After such a confession as I have now made; it will appear
surprising to no one that I should have felt the strongest
possible inclination; while I stood by the ruined outhouse; to
retrace my steps at once; and make the best of my way out of the
wood。 I had; indeed; actually turned to depart; when the
remembrance of the er rand which had brought me to the convent
suddenly stayed my feet。 It seemed doubtful whether I should be
admitted into the building if I rang the bell; and more than
doubtful; if I were let in; whether the inhabitants would be able
to afford me any clew to the information of which I was in
search。 However; it was my duty to Monkton to leave no means of
helping him in his desperate object untried; so I resolved to go
round to the front of the convent again; and ring at the
gate…bell at all hazards。
By the merest chance I looked up as I passed the side of the
outhouse where the jagged hole was; and noticed that it was
pierced rather high in the wall。
As I stopped to observe this; the closeness of the atmosphere in
the wood seemed to be affecting me more unpleasantly than ever。
I waited a minute and untied my cravat。
Closeness? surely it was something more than that。 The air was
even more distasteful to my nostrils than to my lungs。 There was
some faint; indescribable smell loading itsome smell of which I
had never had any previous experiencesome smell which I thought
(now that my attention was directed to it) grew more and more
certainly traceable to its source the nearer I advanced to the
outhouse;
By the time I had tried the experiment two or three times; and
had made myself sure of this fact; my curiosity became excited。
There were plenty of fragments of stone and brick lying about me。
I gathered some of them together; and piled them up below the
hole; then mounted to the top; and; feeling rather ashamed of
what I was doing; peeped into the outhouse。
The sight of horror that met my eyes the instant I looked through
the hole is as present to my memory now as if I had beheld it
yesterday。 I can hardly write of it at this distance of time
without a thrill of the old terror running through me again to
the heart。
The first impression conveyed to me; as I looked in; was of a
long; recumbent object; tinged with a lightish blue color all
over; extended on trestles; and bearing a certain hideous;
half…formed resemblance to the human face and figure。 I looked
again; and felt certain of it。 There were the prominences of the
forehead; nose; and chin; dimly shown as under a veilthere; the
round outline of the chest and the hollow below itthere; the
points of the knees; and the stiff; ghastly; upturned feet。 I
looked again; yet more attentively。 My eyes got accustomed to the
dim light streaming in through the broken roof; and I satisfied
myself; judging by the great length of the body from head to
foot; that I was looking at the corpse of a mana corpse that
had apparently once had a sheet spread over it; and that had lain
rotting on the trestles under the open sky long enough for the
linen to take the livid; light…blue tinge of mildew and decay
which now covered it。
How long I remained with my eyes fixed on that dread sight of
death; on that tombless; terrible wreck of humanity; poisoning
the still air; and seeming even to stain the faint descending
light that disclosed it; I know not。 I remember a dull; distant
sound among the trees; as if the breeze were risingthe slow
creeping on of the sound to near the place where I stoodthe
noiseless whirling fall of a dead leaf on the corpse below me;
through the gap in the outhouse roofand the effect of awakening
my energies; of relaxing the heavy strain on my mind; which even
the slight change wrought in the scene I beheld by the falling
leaf produced in me immediately。 I descended to the ground; and;
sitting down on the heap of stones; wiped away the thick
perspiration which covered my face; and which I now became aware
of for the first time。 It was something more than the hideous
spectacle unexpectedly offered to my eyes which had shaken my
nerves as I felt that they were shaken now。 Monkton's prediction
that; if we succeeded in discovering his uncle's body; we should
find it unburied; recurred to me the instant I saw the trestles
and their ghastly burden。 I felt assured on the instant that I
had found the dead manthe old prophecy recurred to my memorya
strange yearning sorrow; a vague foreboding of ill; an
inexplicable terror; as I thought of the poor lad who was
awaiting my return in the distant town; struck through me with a
chill of superstitious dread; robbed me of my judgment and
resolution; and left me when I had at last recovered myself; weak
and dizzy; as if I had just suffered under some pang of
overpowering physical pain。
I hastened round to the convent gate and rang impatiently at the
bellwaited a little while and rang againthen heard footsteps。
In the middle of the gate; just opposite my face; there was a
small sliding panel; not more than a few inches long; this was
presently pushed aside from within。 I saw; through a bit of iron
grating; two dull; light gray eyes staring vacantly at me; and
heard a feeble husky voice saying:
〃What may you please to want?'
〃I am a traveler〃 I began。
〃We live in a miserable place。 We have nothing to show travelers
here。〃
〃I don't come to see anything。 I have an important question to
ask; which I believe some one in this convent will be able to
answer。 If you are not willing to let me in; at least come out
and speak to me here。〃
〃Are you alone?〃
〃Quite alone。〃
〃Are there no women with you?〃
〃None。〃
The gate was slowly unbarred; and an old Capuchin; very infirm;
very suspicious; and very dirty; stood before me。 I was far too
excited and impatient to waste any time in prefatory phrases; so;
telling the monk at once how I had looked through the hole in the
outhouse; and what I had seen inside; I asked him; in plain
terms; who the man had been whose corpse I had beheld; and why
the body was left unburied?
The old Capuchin listened to me with watery eyes that twinkled
suspiciously。 He had a battered tin snuff…box in his hand; and
his finger and thumb slowly chased a few scattered grains of
snuff round and round the inside of the box all the time I was
speaking。 When I had done; he shook his head and said: 〃That was
certainly an ugly sight in their outhouse; one of the ugliest
sights; he felt sure; that ever I had seen in all my life!〃
〃I don't want to talk of the sight;〃 I rejoined; impatiently; 〃I
want to know who the man was; how he died; and why he is not
decently buried。 Can you tell me?〃
The monk's finger and thumb having captured three or four grains
of snuff at last; he slowly drew them into his nostrils; holding
the box open under his nose the while; to prevent the possibility
of wasting even one grain; sniffed once or twice
luxuriouslyclosed the boxthen looked at me again with his
eyes watering and twinkling more suspiciously than before