第 34 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  different when we afterward reasoned together about the purpose
  which the apparition had come to fulfillfar different when she
  showed me that its mission might be for good instead of for evil;
  and that the warning it was sent to give might be to my profit
  instead of to my loss。 At those words; the new idea which gave
  the new hope of life came to me in an instant。 I believed then;
  what I believe now; that I have a supernatural warrant for my
  errand here。 In that faith I live; without it I should die。 _She_
  never ridiculed it; never scorned it as insanity。 Mark what I
  say! The spirit that appeared to me in the Abbeythat has never
  left me sincethat stands there now by your side; warns me to
  escape from the fatality which hangs over our race; and commands
  me; if I would avoid it; to bury the unburied dead。 Mortal loves
  and mortal interests must bow to that awful bidding。 The
  specter…presence will never leave me till I have sheltered the
  corpse that cries to the earth to cover it! I dare not returnI
  dare not marry till I have filled the place that is empty in
  Wincot vault。〃
  His eyes flashed and dilatedhis voice deepeneda fanatic
  ecstasy shone in his expression as he uttered these words。
  Shocked and grieved as I was; I made no attempt to remonstrate or
  to reason with him。 It would have been useless to have referred
  to any of the usual commonplaces about optical delusions or
  diseased imaginationsworse than useless to have attempted to
  account by natural causes for any of the extraordinary
  coincidences and events of which he had spoken。 Briefly as he had
  referred to Miss Elmslie; he had said enough to show me that the
  only hope of the poor girl who loved him best and had known him
  longest of any one was in humoring his delusions to the last。 How
  faithfully she still clung to the belief that she could restore
  him! How resolutely was she sacrificing herself to his morbid
  fancies; in the hope of a happy future that might never come!
  Little as I knew of Miss Elmslie; the mere thought of her
  situation; as I now reflected on it; made me feel sick at heart。
  〃They call me Mad Monkton!〃 he exclaimed; suddenly breaking the
  silence between us during the last few minutes; 〃Here and in
  England everybody believes I am out of my senses except Ada and
  you。 She has been my salvation; and you will be my salvation too。
  Something told me that when I first met you walking in the Villa
  Peale。 I struggled against the strong desire that was in me to
  trust my secret to you; but I could resist it no longer when I
  saw you to…night at the ball; the phantom seemed to draw me on to
  you as you stood alone in the quiet room。 Tell me more of that
  idea of yours about finding the place where the duel was fought。
  If I set out to…morrow to seek for it myself; where must I go to
  first? where?〃 He stopped; his strength was evidently becoming
  exhausted; and his mind was growing confused。 〃What am I to do? I
  can't remember。 You know everythingwill you not help me? My
  misery has made me unable to help myself。〃
  He stopped; murmured something about failing if he went to the
  frontier alone; and spoke confusedly of delays that might be
  fatal; then tried to utter the name of 〃Ada〃; but; in pronouncing
  the first letter; his voice faltered; and; turning abruptly from
  me; he burst into tears。
  My pity for him got the better of my prudence at that moment; and
  without thinking of responsibilities; I promised at once to do
  for him whatever he asked。 The wild triumph in his expression as
  he started up and seized my hand showed me that I had better have
  been more cautious; but it was too late now to retract what I had
  said。 The next best thing to do was to try if I could not induce
  him to compose himself a little; and then to go away and think
  coolly over the whole affair by myself。
  〃Yes; yes;〃 he rejoined; in answer to the few words I now spoke
  to try and calm him; 〃don't be afraid about me。 After what you
  have said; I'll answer for my own coolness and composure under
  all emergencies。 I have been so long used to the apparition that
  I hardly feel its presence at all except on rare occasions。
  Besides; I have here in this little packet of letters the
  medicine for every m alady of the sick heart。 They are Ada's
  letters; I read them to calm me whenever my misfortune seems to
  get the better of my endurance。 I wanted that half hour to read
  them in to…night before you came; to make myself fit to see you;
  and I shall go through them again after you are gone; so; once
  more; don't be afraid about me。 I know I shall succeed with your
  help; and Ada shall thank you as you deserve to be thanked when
  we get back to England。 If you hear the fools at Naples talk
  about my being mad; don't trouble yourself to contradict them;
  the scandal is so contemptible that it must end by contradicting
  itself。〃
  I left him; promising to return early the next day。
  When I got back to my hotel; I felt that any idea of sleeping
  after all that I had seen and heard was out of the question; so I
  lit my pipe; and; sitting by the windowhow it refreshed my mind
  just then to look at the calm moonlight!tried to think what it
  would be best to do。 In the first place; any appeal to doctors or
  to Alfred's friends in England was out of the question。 I could
  not persuade myself that his intellect was sufficiently
  disordered to justify me; under existing circumstances; in
  disclosing the secret which he had intrusted to my keeping。 In
  the second place; all attempts on my part to induce him to
  abandon the idea of searching out his uncle's remains would be
  utterly useless after what I had incautiously said to him。 Having
  settled these two conclusions; the only really great difficulty
  which remained to perplex me was whether I was justified in
  aiding him to execute his extraordinary purpose。
  Supposing that; with my help; he found Mr。 Monkton's body; and
  took it back with him to England; was it right in me thus to lend
  myself to promoting the marriage which would most likely follow
  these eventsa marriage which it might be the duty of every one
  to prevent at all hazards? This set me thinking about the extent
  of his madness; or to speak more mildly and more correctly; of
  his delusion。 Sane he certainly was on all ordinary subjects;
  nay; in all the narrative parts of what he had said to me on this
  very evening he had spoken clearly and connectedly。 As for the
  story of the apparition; other men; with intellects as clear as
  the intellects of their neighbors had fancied themselves pursued
  by a phantom; and had even written about it in a high strain of
  philosophical speculation。 It was plain that the real
  hallucination in the case now before me lay in Monkton's
  conviction of the truth of the old prophecy; and in his idea that
  the fancied apparition was a supernatural warning to him to evade
  its denunciations; and it was equally clear that both delusions
  had been produced; in the first instance; by the lonely life he
  had led acting on a naturally excitable temperament; which was
  rendered further liable to moral disease by an hereditary taint
  of insanity。
  Was this curable? Miss Elmslie; who knew him far better than I
  did; seemed by her conduct to think so。 Had I any reason or right
  to determine offhand that she was mistaken? Supposing I refused
  to go to the frontier with him; he would then most certainly
  depart by himself; to commit all sorts of errors; and perhaps to
  meet with all sorts of accidents; while I; an idle man; with my
  time entirely at my own disposal; was stopping at Naples; and
  leaving him to his fate after I had suggested the plan of his
  expedition; and had encouraged him to confide in me。 In this way
  I kept turning the subject over and over again in my mind; being
  quite free; let me add; from looking at it in any other than a
  practical point of view。 I firmly believed; as a derider of all
  ghost stories; that Alfred was deceiving himself in fancying that
  he had seen the apparition of his uncle before the news of Mr。
  Monkton's death reached England; and I was on this account;
  therefore; uninfluenced by the slightest infection of my unhappy
  friend's delusions when I at last fairly decided to accompany him
  in his extraordinary search。 Possibly my harum…scarum fondness
  for excitement at that time biased me a little in forming my
  resolution; but I must add; in common justice to myself; that I
  also acted from motives of real sympathy for Monkton; and from a
  sincere wish to allay; if I could; the anxiety of the poor girl
  who was still so faithfully waiting and hoping for him far away
  in England。
  Certain arrangements preliminary to our departure; which I found
  myself obliged to make after a second interview with Alfred;
  betrayed the object of our journey to most of our Neapolitan
  friends。 The astonishment of everybody was of course unbounded;
  and the nearly universal suspicion that I must be as mad in my
  way as Monkton himself showed itself pretty plainly in my
  presence。 Some people actually tried to combat my resolution by
  telling me what a shameless profligate Stephen Monkton had
  beenas if I had a strong personal interest in hunting out his
  remains! Ridicule moved me as little as any argumen