第 25 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  to talk of her when Isaac tried hard to plead her cause after
  their marriage。
  This course of conduct was not in any degree occasioned by a
  discovery of the degradation in which Rebecca had lived。 There
  was no question of that between mother and son。 There was no
  question of anything but the fearfully…exact resemblance between
  the living; breathing woman and the specter…woman of Isaac's
  dream。
  Rebecca on her side neither felt nor expressed the slightest
  sorrow at the estrangement between herself and her mother…in…law。
  Isaac; for the sake of peace; had never contradicted her first
  idea that age and long illness had affected Mrs。 Scatchard's
  mind。 He even allowed his wife to upbraid him for not having
  confessed this to her at the time of their marriage engagement;
  rather than risk anything by hinting at the truth。 The sacrifice
  of his integrity before his one all…mastering delusion seemed but
  a small thing; and cost his conscience but little after the
  sacrifices he had already made。
  The time of waking from this delusionthe cruel and the rueful
  timewas not far off。 After some quiet months of married life;
  as the summer was ending; and the year was getting on toward the
  month of his birthday; Isaac found his wife altering toward him。
  She grew sullen and contemptuous; she formed acquaintances of the
  most dangerous kind in defiance of his objections; his
  entreaties; and his commands; and; worst of all; she learned; ere
  long; after every fresh difference with her husband; to seek the
  deadly self…oblivion of drink。 Little by little; after the first
  miserable discovery that his wife was keeping company with
  drunkards; the shocking certainty forced itself on Isaac that she
  had grown to be a drunkard herself。
  He had been in a sadly desponding state for some time before the
  occurrence of these domestic calamities。 His mother's health; as
  he could but too plainly discern every time he went to see her at
  the cottage; was failing fast; and he upbraided himself in secret
  as the cause of the bodily and mental suffering she endured。 When
  to his remorse on his mother's account was added the shame and
  misery occasioned by the discovery of his wife's degradation; he
  sank under the double trialhis face began to alter fast; and he
  looked what he was; a spirit…broken man。
  His mother; still struggling bravely against the illness that was
  hurrying her to the grave; was the first to notice the sad
  alteration in him; and the first to hear of his last worst
  trouble with his wife。 She could only weep bitterly on the day
  when he made his humiliating confession; but on the next occasion
  when he went to see her she had taken a resolution in reference
  to his domestic afflictions which astonished and even alarmed
  him。 He found her dressed to go out; and on asking the reason
  received this answer:
  〃I am not long for this world; Isaac;〃 she said; 〃and I shall not
  feel easy on my death…bed unless I have done my best to the last
  to make my son happy。 I mean to put my own fears and my own
  feelings out of the question; and to go with you to your wife;
  and try what I can do to reclaim her。 Give me your arm; Isaac;
  and let me do the last thing I can in this world to help my son
  before it is too late。〃
  He could not disobey her; and they walked together slowly toward
  his miserable home。
  It was only one o'clock in the afternoon when they reached the
  cottage where he lived。 It was their dinner…hour; and Rebecca was
  in the kitchen。 He was thus able to take his mother quietly into
  the parlor; and then prepare his wife for the interview。 She had
  fortunately drunk but little at that early hour; and she was less
  sullen and capricious than usual。
  He returned to his mother with his mind tolerably at ease。 His
  wife soon followed him into the parlor; and the m eeting between
  her and Mrs。 Scatchard passed off better than he had ventured to
  anticipate; though he observed with secret apprehension that his
  mother; resolutely as she controlled herself in other respects;
  could not look his wife in the face when she spoke to her。 It was
  a relief to him; therefore; when Rebecca began to lay the cloth。
  She laid the cloth; brought in the bread…tray; and cut a slice
  from the loaf for her husband; then returned to the kitchen。 At
  that moment; Isaac; still anxiously watching his mother; was
  startled by seeing the same ghastly change pass over her face
  which had altered it so awfully on the morning when Rebecca and
  she first met。 Before he could say a word; she whispered; with a
  look of horror:
  〃Take me backhome; home again; Isaac。 Come with me; and never
  go back again。〃
  He was afraid to ask for an explanation; he could only sign to
  her to be silent; and help her quickly to the door。 As they
  passed the breadtray on the table she stopped and pointed to it。
  〃Did you see what your wife cut your bread with?〃 she asked; in a
  low whisper。
  〃No; motherI was not noticingwhat was it?〃
  〃Look!〃
  He did look。 A new clasp…knife with a buckhorn handle lay with
  the loaf in the bread…tray。 He stretched out his hand
  shudderingly to possess himself of it; but; at the same time;
  there was a noise in the kitchen; and his mother caught at his
  arm。
  〃The knife of the dream! Isaac; I'm faint with fear。 Take me away
  before she comes back。〃
  He was hardly able to support her。 The visible; tangible reality
  of the knife struck him with a panic; and utterly destroyed any
  faint doubts that he might have entertained up to this time in
  relation to the mysterious dream…warning of nearly eight years
  before。 By a last desperate effort; he summoned self…possession
  enough to help his mother out of the houseso quietly that the
  〃Dream…woman〃 (he thought of her by that name now) did not hear
  them departing from the kitchen。
  〃Don't go back; Isaacdon't go back!〃 implored Mrs。 Scatchard;
  as he turned to go away; after seeing her safely seated again in
  her own room。
  〃I must get the knife;〃 he answered; under his breath。 His mother
  tried to stop him again; but he hurried out without another word。
  On his return he found that his wife had discovered their secret
  departure from the house。 She had been drinking; and was in a
  fury of passion。 The dinner in the kitchen was flung under the
  grate; the cloth was off the parlor table。 Where was the knife?
  Unwisely; he asked for it。 She was only too glad of the
  opportunity of irritating him which the request afforded her。 〃He
  wanted the knife; did he? Could he give her a reason why? No!
  Then he should not have itnot if he went down on his knees to
  ask for it。〃 Further recriminations elicited the fact that she
  had bought it a bargain; and that she considered it her own
  especial property。 Isaac saw the uselessness of attempting to get
  the knife by fair means; and determined to search for it; later
  in the day; in secret。 The search was unsuccessful。 Night came
  on; and he left the house to walk about the streets。 He was
  afraid now to sleep in the same room with her。
  Three weeks passed。 Still sullenly enraged with him; she would
  not give up the knife; and still that fear of sleeping in the
  same room with her possessed him。 He walked about at night; or
  dozed in the parlor; or sat watching by his mother's bedside。
  Before the expiration of the first week in the new month his
  mother died。 It wanted then but ten days of her son's birthday。
  She had longed to live till that anniversary。 Isaac was present
  at her death; and her last words in this world were addressed to
  him:
  〃Don't go back; my son; don't go back!〃 He was obliged to go
  back; if it were only to watch his wife。 Exasperated to the last
  degree by his distrust of her; she had revengefully sought to add
  a sting to his grief; during the last days of his mother's
  illness; by declaring that she would assert her right to attend
  the funeral。 In spite of any thing he could do or say; she held
  with wicked pertinacity to her word; and on the day appointed for
  the burial forced herselfinflamed and shameless with
  drinkinto her husband's presence; and declared that she would
  walk in the funeral procession to his mother's grave。
  This last worst outrage; accompanied by all that was most
  insulting in word and look; maddened him for the moment。 He
  struck her。
  The instant the blow was dealt he repented it。 She crouched down;
  silent; in a corner of the room; and eyed him steadily; it was a
  look that cooled his hot blood and made him tremble。 But there
  was no time now to think of a means of making atonement。 Nothing
  remained but to risk the worst till the funeral was over。 There
  was but one way of making sure of her。 He locked her into her
  bedroom。
  When he came back some hours after; he found her sitting; very
  much altered in look and bearing; by the bedside; with a bundle
  on her lap。 She rose; and faced him quietly; and spoke with a
  strange stillness in her voice; a strange repose in her eyes; a
  strange composure in her manner。
  〃No man has ever struck me twice;〃 she said; 〃and my husband
  shall have no second opportunity。 Set the door open and let me
  go。 From this day forth we see each other no more。〃
  Before he could answer she passed him and left the room。 He saw
  her walk aw