第 13 节
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津鸿一瞥 更新:2023-08-28 11:47 字数:9322
of his own in any trifling matter between them。 Whatever the men
might say; Mr。 Knifton was a model husband in the estimation of
all the women who knew him。
〃You will see us as we come back; Bessie。 Till then; you are our
banker; and the pocketbook is yours;〃 cried Mrs。 Knifton; gayly;
at the door。 Her husband lifted her into the saddle; mounted
himself; and away they both galloped over the moor as wild and
happy as a couple of children。
Although my being trusted with money by Mrs。 Knifton was no
novelty (in her maiden days she always employed me to pay her
dress…maker's bills); I did not feel quite easy at having a
pocketbook full of bank…notes left by her in my charge。 I had no
positive apprehensions about the safety of the deposit placed in
my hands; but it was one of the odd points in my character then
(and I think it is still) to feel an unreasonably strong
objection to charging myself with money responsibilities of any
kind; even to suit the convenience of my dearest friends。 As soon
as I was left alone; the very sight of the pocketbook behind the
glass door of the book…case began to worry me; and instead of
returning to my work; I puzzled my brains about finding a place
to lock it up in; where it would not be exposed to the view of
any chance passers…by who might stray into the Black Cottage。
This was not an easy matter to compass in a poor house like ours;
where we had nothing valuable to put under lock and key。 After
running over various hiding…places in my mind; I thought of my
tea…caddy; a present from Mrs。 Knifton; which I always kept out
of harm's way in my own bedroom。 Most unluckilyas it afterward
turned outinstead of taking the pocketbook to the tea…caddy; I
went into my room first to take the tea…caddy to the pocketbook。
I only acted in this roundabout way from sheer thoughtlessness;
and severely enough I was punished for it; as you will
acknowledge yourself when you have read a page or two more of my
story。
I was just getting the unlucky tea…caddy out of my cupboard; when
I heard footsteps in the passage; and; running out immediately;
saw two men walk into the kitchenthe room in which I had
received Mr。 and Mrs。 Knifton。 I inquired what they wanted
sharply enough; and one of them answered immediately that they
wanted my father。 He turned toward me; of course; as he spoke;
and I recognized him as a stone…mason; going among his comrades
by the name of Shifty Dick。 He bore a very bad character for
everything but wrestling; a sport for which the working men of
our parts were famous all through the county。 Shifty Dick was
champion; and he had got his name from some tricks of wrestling;
for which he was celebrated。 He was a tall; heavy man; with a
lowering; scarred face; and huge hairy handsthe last visitor in
the whole world that I should have been glad to see under any
circumstances。 His companion was a stranger; whom he addressed by
the name of Jerrya quick; dapper; wicked…looking man; who took
off his cap to me with mock politeness; and showed; in so doing;
a very bald head; with some very ugly…looking knobs on it。 I
distrusted him worse than I did Shifty Dick; and managed to get
between his leering eyes and the book…case; as I told the two
that my father was gone out; and that I did not expect him back
till the next day。
The words were hardly out of my mouth before I repented that my
anxiety to get rid of my unwelcome visitors had made me
incautious enough to acknowledge that my father would be away
from home for the whole night。
Shifty Dick and his companion looked at each other when I
unwisely let out the truth; but made no remark except to ask me
if I would give them a drop of cider。 I answered sharply that I
had no cider in the house; having no fear of the consequences of
refusing them drink; because I knew that plenty of men were at
work within hail; in a neighboring quarry。 The two looked at each
other again when I denied having any cider to give them; and
Jerry (as I am obliged to call him; knowing no other name by
which to distinguish the fellow) took off his cap to me once
more; and; with a kind of blackguard gentility upon him; said
they would have the pleasure of calling the next day; when my
father was at home。 I said good…afternoon as ungraciously as
possible; and; to my great relief; they both left the cottage
immediately afterward。
As soon as they were well away; I watched them from the door。
They trudged off in the direction of Moor Farm; and; as it was
beginning to get dusk; I soon lost sight of them。
Half an hour afterward I looked out again。
The wind had lulled with the sunset; but the mist was rising; and
a heavy rain was beginning to fall。 Never did the lonely prospect
of the moor look so dreary as it looked to my eyes that evening。
Never did I regret any slight thing more sincerely than I then
regretted the leaving of Mr。 Knifton's pocketbook in my charge。 I
cannot say that I suffered under any actual alarm; for I felt
next to certain that neither Shifty Dick nor Jerry had got a
chance of setting eyes on so small a thing as the pocketbook
while they were in the kitchen; but there was a kind of vague
distrust troubling mea suspicion of the nighta dislike of
being left by myself; which I never remember having experienced
before。 This feeling so increased after I had closed the door and
gone back to the kitchen; that; when I heard the voices of the
quarrymen as they passed our cottage on their way home to the
village in the valley below Moor Farm; I stepped out into the
passage with a momentary notion of telling them how I was
situated; and asking them for advice and protection。
I had hardly formed this idea; however; before I dismissed it。
None of the quarrymen were intimate friends of mine。 I had a
nodding acquaintance with them; and believed them to be honest
men; as times
went。 But my own common sense told me that what little knowledge
of their characters I had was by no means sufficient to warrant
me in admitting them into my confidence in the matter of the
pocketbook。 I had seen enough of poverty and poor men to know
what a terrible temptation a large sum of money is to those whose
whole lives are passed in scraping up sixpences by weary hard
work。 It is one thing to write fine sentiments in books about
incorruptible honesty; and another thing to put those sentiments
in practice when one day's work is all that a man has to set up
in the way of an obstacle between starvation and his own
fireside。
The only resource that remained was to carry the pocketbook with
me to Moor Farm; and ask permission to pass the night there。 But
I could not persuade myself that there was any real necessity for
taking such a course as this; and; if the truth must be told; my
pride revolted at the idea of presenting myself in the character
of a coward before the people at the farm。 Timidity is thought
rather a graceful attraction among ladies; but among poor women
it is something to be laughed at。 A woman with less spirit of her
own than I had; and always shall have; would have considered
twice in my situation before she made up her mind to encounter
the jokes of plowmen and the jeers of milkmaids。 As for me; I had
hardly considered about going to the farm before I despised
myself for entertaining any such notion。 〃No; no;〃 thought I; 〃I
am not the woman to walk a mile and a half through rain; and
mist; and darkness to tell a whole kitchenful of people that I am
afraid。 Come what may; here I stop till father gets back。〃
Having arrived at that valiant resolution; the first thing I did
was to lock and bolt the back and front doors; and see to the
security of every shutter in the house。
That duty performed; I made a blazing fire; lighted my candle;
and sat down to tea; as snug and comfortable as possible。 I could
hardly believe now; with the light in the room; and the sense of
security inspired by the closed doors and shutters; that I had
ever felt even the slightest apprehension earlier in the day。 I
sang as I washed up the tea…things; and even the cat seemed to
catch the infection of my good spirits。 I never knew the pretty
creature so playful as she was that evening。
The tea…things put by; I took up my knitting; and worked away at
it so long that I began at last to get drowsy。 The fire was so
bright and comforting that I could not muster resolution enough
to leave it and go to bed。 I sat staring lazily into the blaze;
with my knitting on my lapsat till the splashing of the rain
outside and the fitful; sullen sobbing of the wind grew fainter
and fainter on my ear。 The last sounds I heard before I fairly
dozed off to sleep were the cheerful crackling of the fire and
the steady purring of the cat; as she basked luxuriously in the
warm light on the hearth。 Those were the last sounds before I
fell asleep。 The sound that woke me was one loud bang at the
front door。
I started up; with my heart (as the saying is) in my mouth; with
a frightful momentary shuddering at the roots of my hairI
started up breathless; cold and motionless; waiting in the
silence I hardly knew for what; doubtful at first whether I had
dreamed about the bang at the door; or whe