第 8 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  was sulky。 In short; she tormented Morgan; whenever she could
  catch him; with such ingenious and such relentless malice; that
  he actually threatened to go back to London; and prey once more;
  in the unscrupulous character of a doctor; on the credulity of
  mankind。
  Thus situated in her relations toward ourselves; and thus
  occupied by country diversions of her own choosing; Miss Jessie
  passed her time at The Glen Tower; excepting now and then a dull
  hour in the long evenings; to her guardian's satisfactionand;
  all things considered; not without pleasure to herself。 Day
  followed day in calm and smooth succession; and five quiet weeks
  had elapsed out of the six during which her stay was to last
  without any remarkable occurrence to distinguish them; when an
  event happened which personally affected me in a very serious
  manner; and which suddenly caused our handsome Queen of Hearts to
  become the object of my deepest anxiety in the present; and of my
  dearest hopes for the future。
  CHAPTER IV。
  OUR GRAND PROJECT。
  AT the end of the fifth week of our guest's stay; among the
  letters which the morning's post brought to The Glen Tower there
  was one for me; from my son George; in the Crimea。
  The effect which this letter produced in our little circle
  renders it necessary that I should present it here; to speak for
  itself。
  This is what I read alone in my own room:
  〃MY DEAREST FATHERAfter the great public news of the fall of
  Sebastopol; have you any ears left for small items of private
  intelligence from insignificant subaltern officers? Prepare; if
  you have; for a sudden and a startling announcement。 How shall I
  write the words? How shall I tell you that I am really coming
  home?
  〃I have a private opportunity of sending this letter; and only a
  short time to write it in; so I must put many things; if I can;
  into few words。 The doctor has reported me fit to travel at last;
  and I leave; thanks to the privilege of a wounded man; by the
  next ship。 The name of the vessel and the time of starting are on
  the list which I inclose。 I have made all my calculations; and;
  allowing for every possible delay; I find that I shall be with
  you; at the latest; on the first of Novemberperhaps some days
  earlier。
  〃I am far too full of my return; and of something else connected
  with it which is equally dear to me; to say anything about public
  affairs; more especially as I know that the newspapers must; by
  this time; have given you plenty of information。 Let me fill the
  rest of this paper with a subject which is very near to my
  heartnearer; I am almost ashamed to say; than the great triumph
  of my countrymen; in which my disabled condition has prevented me
  from taking any share。
  〃I gathered from your last letter that Miss Yelverton was to pay
  you a visit this autumn; in your capacity of her guardian。 If she
  is already with you; pray move heaven and earth to keep her at
  The Glen Tower till I come back。 Do you anticipate my confession
  from this entreaty? My dear; dear father; all my hopes rest on
  that one darling treasure which you are guarding perhaps; at this
  moment; under your own roofall my happiness depends on making
  Jessie Yelverton my wife。
  〃If I did not sincerely believe that you will heartily approve of
  my choice; I should hardly have ventured on this abrupt
  confession。 Now that I have made it; let me go on and tell you
  why I have kept my attachment up to this time a secret from every
  oneeven from Jessie herself。 (You see I call her by her
  Christian name already!)
  〃I should have risked everything; father; and have laid my whole
  heart open before her more than a year ago; but for the order
  which sent our regiment out to take its share in this great
  struggle of the Russian war。 No ordinary change in my life would
  have silenced me on the subject of all others of which I was most
  anxious to speak; but this change made me think seriously of the
  future; and out of those thoughts came the resolution which I
  have kept until this time。 For her sake; and for her sake only; I
  constrained myself to leave the words unspoken which might have
  made her my promised wife。 I resolved to spare her the dreadful
  suspense of waiting for her betrothed husband till the perils of
  war might; or might not; give him back to her。 I resolved to save
  her from the bitter grief of my death if a bullet laid me low。 I
  resolved to preserve her from the wretched sacrifice of herself
  if I came back; as many a brave man will come back from this war;
  invalided for life。 Leaving her untrammeled by any engagement;
  unsuspicious perhaps of my real feelings toward her; I might die;
  and know that; by keeping silence; I had spared a pang to the
  heart that was dearest to me。 This was the thought that stayed
  the words on my lips when I left England; uncertain whether I
  should ever come back。 If I had loved her less dearly; if her
  happiness had been less precious to me; I might have given way
  under the hard restraint I imposed on myself; and might have
  spoken selfishly at the last moment。
  〃And now the time of trial is past; the war is over; and;
  although I still walk a little lame; I am; thank God; in as good
  health and in much better spirits than when I left home。 Oh;
  father; if I should lose her nowif I should get no reward for
  sparing her but the bitterest of all disappointments! Sometimes I
  am vain enough to think that I made some little impression on
  her; sometimes I doubt if she has a suspicion of my love。 She
  lives in a gay worldshe is the center of perpetual
  admirationmen with all the qualities to win a woman's heart are
  perpetually about hercan I; dare I hope? Yes; I must! Only keep
  her; I entreat you; at The Glen Tower。 In that quiet world; in
  that freedom from frivolities and temptations; she will listen to
  me as she might listen nowhere else。 Keep her; my dearest;
  kindest fatherand; above all things; breathe not a word to her
  of this letter。 I have surely earned the privilege of being the
  first to open her eyes to the truth。 She must know nothing; now
  that I am coming home; till she knows all from my own lips。〃
  Here the writing hurriedly broke off。 I am only giving myself
  credit for common feeling; I trust; when I confess that what I
  read deeply affected me。 I think I never felt so fond of my boy;
  and so proud of him; as at the moment when I laid down his
  letter。
  As soon as I could control my spirits; I began to calculate the
  question of time with a trembling eagerness; which brought back
  to my mind my own young days of love and hope。 My son was to come
  back; at the latest; on the first of November; and Jessie's
  allotted six weeks would expire on the twenty…second of October。
  Ten days too soon! But for the caprice which had brought her to
  us exactly that number of days before her time she would have
  been in the house; as a matter of necessity; on George's return。
  I searched back in my memory for a conversation that I had held
  with her a week since on her future plans。 Toward the middle of
  November; her aunt; Lady Westwick; had arranged to go to her
  house in Paris; and Jessie was; of course; to accompany herto
  accompany her into that very circle of the best English and the
  best French society which contained in it the elements most
  adverse to George's hopes。 Between this time and that she had no
  special engagement; and she had only settled to write and warn
  her aunt of her return to London a day or two before she left The
  Glen Tower。
  Under these circumstances; the first; the all…important necessity
  was to prevail on her to prolong her stay beyond the allotted six
  weeks by ten days。 After the caution to be silent impressed on me
  (and most naturally; poor boy) in George's letter; I felt that I
  could only appeal to her on the ordinary ground of hospitality。
  Would this be sufficient to effect the object?
  I was sure that the hours of the morning and the afternoon had;
  thus far; been fully and happily occupied by her various
  amusements indoors and out。 She was no more weary of her days now
  than she had been when she first came among us。 But I was by no
  means so certain that she was not tired of her evenings。 I had
  latterly noticed symptoms of weariness after the lamps were lit;
  and a suspicious regularity in retiring to bed the moment the
  clock struck ten。 If I could provide her with a new amusement for
  the long evenings; I might leave the days to take care of
  themselves; and might then make sure (seeing that she had no
  special engagement in London until the middle of November) of her
  being sincerely thankful and ready to prolong her stay。
  How was this to be done? The piano and the novels had both failed
  to attract her。 What other amusement was there to offer?
  It was useless; at present; to ask myself such questions as
  these。 I was too much agitated to think collectedly on the most
  trifling subjects。 I was even too restless to stay in my own
  room。 My son's letter had given me so fresh an interest in Jessie
  that I was now as impatient to see her as if we were about to
  meet for the first time。 I wanted to look at her with my new
  eyes; to listen to her with my new ears; to study her secretly
  with my new purposes; and my new hopes and