第 16 节
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吹嘻 更新:2023-08-28 11:47 字数:9322
the fourth by the front of the lodge itself。
The whole character of the place was that
of dreary desertion and decay; which
would of itself have predisposed the mind
for melancholy impressions。 My guide
dismounted; and with respectful attention
held my horse's bridle while I got down;
and knocking at the door with the handle
of his whip; it was speedily opened by a
neatly…dressed female domestic; and I was
admitted to the interior of the house; and
conducted into a small room; where a fire
in some degree dispelled the cheerless air;
which would otherwise have prevailed
to a painful degree throughout the
place。
I had been waiting but for a very few
minutes when another female servant;
somewhat older than the first; entered the
room。 She made some apology on the
part of the person whom I had come to
visit; for the slight delay which had already
occurred; and requested me further to wait
for a few minutes longer; intimating that
the lady's grief was so violent; that without
great effort she could not bring herself
to speak calmly at all。 As if to beguile
the time; the good dame went on in a
highly communicative strain to tell me;
amongst much that could not interest me;
a little of what I had desired to hear。 I
discovered that the grief of her whom I
had come to visit was excited by the
sudden death of a little boy; her only
child; who was then lying dead in his
mother's chamber。
'And the mother's name?' said I; inquiringly。
The woman looked at me for a moment;
smiled; and shook her head with the air of
mingled mystery and importance which
seems to say; 'I am unfathomable。' I
did not care to press the question; though
I suspected that much of her apparent
reluctance was affected; knowing that my
doubts respecting the identity of the person
whom I had come to visit must soon
be set at rest; and after a little pause the
worthy Abigail went on as fluently as
ever。 She told me that her young
mistress had been; for the time she had
been with herthat was; for about a year
and a halfin declining health and spirits;
and that she had loved her little child to a
degree beyond expressionso devotedly
that she could not; in all probability;
survive it long。
While she was running on in this way
the bell rang; and signing me to follow;
she opened the room door; but stopped in
the hall; and taking me a little aside; and
speaking in a whisper; she told me; as I
valued the life of the poor lady; not to say
one word of the death of young O'Mara。
I nodded acquiescence; and ascending a
narrow and ill…constructed staircase; she
stopped at a chamber door and knocked。
'Come in;' said a gentle voice from
within; and; preceded by my conductress;
I entered a moderately…sized; but rather
gloomy chamber。
There was but one living form within it
it was the light and graceful figure of a
young woman。 She had risen as I
entered the room; but owing to the
obscurity of the apartment; and to the
circumstance that her face; as she looked
towards the door; was turned away from
the light; which found its way in dimly
through the narrow windows; I could not
instantly recognise the features。
'You do not remember me; sir?' said the
same low; mournful voice。 'I amI WAS
Ellen Heathcote。'
'I do remember you; my poor child;'
said I; taking her hand; 'I do remember
you very well。 Speak to me frankly
speak to me as a friend。 Whatever I can
do or say for you; is yours already; only
speak。'
'You were always very kind; sir; to
thoseto those that WANTED kindness。'
The tears were almost overflowing; but
she checked them; and as if an accession
of fortitude had followed the momentary
weakness; she continued; in a subdued but
firm tone; to tell me briefly the
circumstances of her marriage with O'Mara。
When she had concluded the recital;
she paused for a moment; and I asked
again:
'Can I aid you in any wayby advice
or otherwise?'
'I wish; sir; to tell you all I have been
thinking about;' she continued。 'I am
sure; sir; that Master Richard loved me
onceI am sure he did not think to
deceive me; but there were bad; hard…
hearted people about him; and his family
were all rich and high; and I am sure he
wishes NOW that he had never; never seen
me。 Well; sir; it is not in my heart to blame
him。 What was _I_ that I should look at
him?an ignorant; poor; country girl
and he so high and great; and so beautiful。
The blame was all mineit was all my
fault; I could not think or hope he would
care for me more than a little time。 Well;
sir; I thought over and over again that
since his love was gone from me for ever;
I should not stand in his way; and hinder
whatever great thing his family wished for
him。 So I thought often and often to write
him a letter to get the marriage broken;
and to send me home; but for one reason;
I would have done it long ago: there was
a little child; his and minethe dearest;
the loveliest。' She could not go on for a
minute or two。 'The little child that is
lying there; on that bed; but it is dead
and gone; and there is no reason NOW why
I should delay any more about it。'
She put her hand into her breast; and
took out a letter; which she opened。 She
put it into my hands。 It ran thus:
'DEAR MASTER RICHARD;
'My little child is dead; and your
happiness is all I care about now。 Your
marriage with me is displeasing to your
family; and I would be a burden to you;
and in your way in the fine places; and
among the great friends where you must
be。 You ought; therefore; to break the
marriage; and I will sign whatever YOU
wish; or your family。 I will never try
to blame you; Master Richarddo not
think itfor I never deserved your
love; and must not complain now that
I have lost it; but I will always pray
for you; and be thinking of you while
I live。'
While I read this letter; I was satisfied
that so far from adding to the poor
girl's grief; a full disclosure of what had
happened would; on the contrary; mitigate
her sorrow; and deprive it of its sharpest
sting。
'Ellen;' said I solemnly; 'Richard
O'Mara was never unfaithful to you; he
is now where human reproach can reach
him no more。'
As I said this; the hectic flush upon her
cheek gave place to a paleness so deadly;
that I almost thought she would drop lifeless
upon the spot。
'Is heis he dead; then?' said she;
wildly。
I took her hand in mine; and told her
the sad story as best I could。 She listened
with a calmness which appeared almost
unnatural; until I had finished the mournful
narration。 She then arose; and going to
the bedside; she drew the curtain and gazed
silently and fixedly on the quiet face of the
child: but the feelings which swelled at
her heart could not be suppressed; the
tears gushed forth; and sobbing as if her
heart would break; she leant over the bed
and took the dead child in her arms。
She wept and kissed it; and kissed it and
wept again; in grief so passionate; so
heartrending; as to draw bitter tears from
my eyes。 I said what little I could to
calm herto have sought to do more
would have been a mockery; and observing
that the darkness had closed in; I
took my leave and departed; being
favoured with the services of my former
guide。
I expected to have been soon called
upon again to visit the poor girl; but
the Lodge lay beyond the boundary of my
parish; and I felt a reluctance to trespass
upon the precincts of my brother minister;
and a certain degree of hesitation in intruding
upon one whose situation was so
very peculiar; and who would; I had no
doubt; feel no scruple in requesting my
attendance if she desired it。
A month; however; passed away; and I
did not hear anything of Ellen。 I called
at the Lodge; and to my inquiries they
answered that she was very much worse
in health; and that since the death of the
child she had been sinking fast; and so
weak that she had been chiefly confined
to her bed。 I sent frequently to inquire;
and often called myself; and all that I
heard convinced me that she was rapidly
sinking into the grave。
Late one night I was summoned from
my rest; by a visit from the person who
had upon the former occasion acted as
my guide; he had come to summon me to
the death…bed of her whom I had then
attended。 With all celerity I made my
preparations; and; not without considerable
difficulty and some danger; we made a
rapid night…ride to the Lodge; a distance
of five miles at least。 We arrived safely;
and in a very short timebut too late。
I stood by the bed upon which lay the
once beautiful form of Ellen Heathcote。
The brief but sorrowful trial was past
the desolate mourner was gone to that
land where the pangs of grief; the tumults
of passion;