第 16 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  the fourth by the front of the lodge itself。
  The whole character of the place was that
  of dreary desertion and decay; which
  would of itself have predisposed the mind
  for melancholy impressions。 My guide
  dismounted; and with respectful attention
  held my horse's bridle while I got down;
  and knocking at the door with the handle
  of his whip; it was speedily opened by a
  neatly…dressed female domestic; and I was
  admitted to the interior of the house; and
  conducted into a small room; where a fire
  in some degree dispelled the cheerless air;
  which would otherwise have prevailed
  to a painful degree throughout the
  place。
  I had been waiting but for a very few
  minutes when another female servant;
  somewhat older than the first; entered the
  room。 She made some apology on the
  part of the person whom I had come to
  visit; for the slight delay which had already
  occurred; and requested me further to wait
  for a few minutes longer; intimating that
  the lady's grief was so violent; that without
  great effort she could not bring herself
  to speak calmly at all。 As if to beguile
  the time; the good dame went on in a
  highly communicative strain to tell me;
  amongst much that could not interest me;
  a little of what I had desired to hear。 I
  discovered that the grief of her whom I
  had come to visit was excited by the
  sudden death of a little boy; her only
  child; who was then lying dead in his
  mother's chamber。
  'And the mother's name?' said I; inquiringly。
  The woman looked at me for a moment;
  smiled; and shook her head with the air of
  mingled mystery and importance which
  seems to say; 'I am unfathomable。' I
  did not care to press the question; though
  I suspected that much of her apparent
  reluctance was affected; knowing that my
  doubts respecting the identity of the person
  whom I had come to visit must soon
  be set at rest; and after a little pause the
  worthy Abigail went on as fluently as
  ever。 She told me that her young
  mistress had been; for the time she had
  been with herthat was; for about a year
  and a halfin declining health and spirits;
  and that she had loved her little child to a
  degree beyond expressionso devotedly
  that she could not; in all probability;
  survive it long。
  While she was running on in this way
  the bell rang; and signing me to follow;
  she opened the room door; but stopped in
  the hall; and taking me a little aside; and
  speaking in a whisper; she told me; as I
  valued the life of the poor lady; not to say
  one word of the death of young O'Mara。
  I nodded acquiescence; and ascending a
  narrow and ill…constructed staircase; she
  stopped at a chamber door and knocked。
  'Come in;' said a gentle voice from
  within; and; preceded by my conductress;
  I entered a moderately…sized; but rather
  gloomy chamber。
  There was but one living form within it
  it was the light and graceful figure of a
  young woman。 She had risen as I
  entered the room; but owing to the
  obscurity of the apartment; and to the
  circumstance that her face; as she looked
  towards the door; was turned away from
  the light; which found its way in dimly
  through the narrow windows; I could not
  instantly recognise the features。
  'You do not remember me; sir?' said the
  same low; mournful voice。 'I amI WAS
  Ellen Heathcote。'
  'I do remember you; my poor child;'
  said I; taking her hand; 'I do remember
  you very well。 Speak to me frankly
  speak to me as a friend。 Whatever I can
  do or say for you; is yours already; only
  speak。'
  'You were always very kind; sir; to
  thoseto those that WANTED kindness。'
  The tears were almost overflowing; but
  she checked them; and as if an accession
  of fortitude had followed the momentary
  weakness; she continued; in a subdued but
  firm tone; to tell me briefly the
  circumstances of her marriage with O'Mara。
  When she had concluded the recital;
  she paused for a moment; and I asked
  again:
  'Can I aid you in any wayby advice
  or otherwise?'
  'I wish; sir; to tell you all I have been
  thinking about;' she continued。 'I am
  sure; sir; that Master Richard loved me
  onceI am sure he did not think to
  deceive me; but there were bad; hard…
  hearted people about him; and his family
  were all rich and high; and I am sure he
  wishes NOW that he had never; never seen
  me。 Well; sir; it is not in my heart to blame
  him。 What was _I_ that I should look at
  him?an ignorant; poor; country girl
  and he so high and great; and so beautiful。
  The blame was all mineit was all my
  fault; I could not think or hope he would
  care for me more than a little time。 Well;
  sir; I thought over and over again that
  since his love was gone from me for ever;
  I should not stand in his way; and hinder
  whatever great thing his family wished for
  him。 So I thought often and often to write
  him a letter to get the marriage broken;
  and to send me home; but for one reason;
  I would have done it long ago: there was
  a little child; his and minethe dearest;
  the loveliest。' She could not go on for a
  minute or two。 'The little child that is
  lying there; on that bed; but it is dead
  and gone; and there is no reason NOW why
  I should delay any more about it。'
  She put her hand into her breast; and
  took out a letter; which she opened。 She
  put it into my hands。 It ran thus:
  'DEAR MASTER RICHARD;
  'My little child is dead; and your
  happiness is all I care about now。 Your
  marriage with me is displeasing to your
  family; and I would be a burden to you;
  and in your way in the fine places; and
  among the great friends where you must
  be。 You ought; therefore; to break the
  marriage; and I will sign whatever YOU
  wish; or your family。 I will never try
  to blame you; Master Richarddo not
  think itfor I never deserved your
  love; and must not complain now that
  I have lost it; but I will always pray
  for you; and be thinking of you while
  I live。'
  While I read this letter; I was satisfied
  that so far from adding to the poor
  girl's grief; a full disclosure of what had
  happened would; on the contrary; mitigate
  her sorrow; and deprive it of its sharpest
  sting。
  'Ellen;' said I solemnly; 'Richard
  O'Mara was never unfaithful to you; he
  is now where human reproach can reach
  him no more。'
  As I said this; the hectic flush upon her
  cheek gave place to a paleness so deadly;
  that I almost thought she would drop lifeless
  upon the spot。
  'Is heis he dead; then?' said she;
  wildly。
  I took her hand in mine; and told her
  the sad story as best I could。 She listened
  with a calmness which appeared almost
  unnatural; until I had finished the mournful
  narration。 She then arose; and going to
  the bedside; she drew the curtain and gazed
  silently and fixedly on the quiet face of the
  child: but the feelings which swelled at
  her heart could not be suppressed; the
  tears gushed forth; and sobbing as if her
  heart would break; she leant over the bed
  and took the dead child in her arms。
  She wept and kissed it; and kissed it and
  wept again; in grief so passionate; so
  heartrending; as to draw bitter tears from
  my eyes。 I said what little I could to
  calm herto have sought to do more
  would have been a mockery; and observing
  that the darkness had closed in; I
  took my leave and departed; being
  favoured with the services of my former
  guide。
  I expected to have been soon called
  upon again to visit the poor girl; but
  the Lodge lay beyond the boundary of my
  parish; and I felt a reluctance to trespass
  upon the precincts of my brother minister;
  and a certain degree of hesitation in intruding
  upon one whose situation was so
  very peculiar; and who would; I had no
  doubt; feel no scruple in requesting my
  attendance if she desired it。
  A month; however; passed away; and I
  did not hear anything of Ellen。 I called
  at the Lodge; and to my inquiries they
  answered that she was very much worse
  in health; and that since the death of the
  child she had been sinking fast; and so
  weak that she had been chiefly confined
  to her bed。 I sent frequently to inquire;
  and often called myself; and all that I
  heard convinced me that she was rapidly
  sinking into the grave。
  Late one night I was summoned from
  my rest; by a visit from the person who
  had upon the former occasion acted as
  my guide; he had come to summon me to
  the death…bed of her whom I had then
  attended。 With all celerity I made my
  preparations; and; not without considerable
  difficulty and some danger; we made a
  rapid night…ride to the Lodge; a distance
  of five miles at least。 We arrived safely;
  and in a very short timebut too late。
  I stood by the bed upon which lay the
  once beautiful form of Ellen Heathcote。
  The brief but sorrowful trial was past
  the desolate mourner was gone to that
  land where the pangs of grief; the tumults
  of passion;