第 7 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  which he hastily concealed behind his back;
  and coming towards me; said something as
  if in an explanatory tone; but I was too
  much shocked and confounded to understand
  what it might be。 He said something
  about 'REPAIRSwindowframes
  cold; and safety。'
  I did not wait; however; to ask or to
  receive explanations; but hastily left the
  room。 As I went down the stairs I
  thought I heard the voice of the Frenchwoman
  in all the shrill volubility of excuse;
  which was met; however; by suppressed
  but vehement imprecations; or what
  seemed to me to be such; in which the
  voice of my cousin Edward distinctly
  mingled。
  I joined my cousin Emily quite out of
  breath。 I need not say that my head was
  too full of other things to think much of
  drawing for that day。 I imparted to her
  frankly the cause of my alarms; but at the
  same time as gently as I could; and with
  tears she promised vigilance; and devotion;
  and love。 I never had reason for a
  moment to repent the unreserved confidence
  which I then reposed in her。 She was no
  less surprised than I at the unexpected
  appearance of Edward; whose departure
  for France neither of us had for a moment
  doubted; but which was now proved by his
  actual presence to be nothing more than
  an imposture; practised; I feared; for no
  good end。
  The situation in which I had found my
  uncle had removed completely all my
  doubts as to his designs。 I magnified
  suspicions into certainties; and dreaded night
  after night that I should be murdered in
  my bed。 The nervousness produced by
  sleepless nights and days of anxious fears
  increased the horrors of my situation to
  such a degree; that I at length wrote a
  letter to a Mr。 Jefferies; an old and faithful
  friend of my father's; and perfectly
  acquainted with all his affairs; praying him;
  for God's sake; to relieve me from my
  present terrible situation; and communicating
  without reserve the nature and
  grounds of my suspicions。
  This letter I kept sealed and directed
  for two or three days always about my
  person; for discovery would have been
  ruinous; in expectation of an opportunity
  which might be safely trusted; whereby to
  have it placed in the post…office。 As neither
  Emily nor I were permitted to pass beyond
  the precincts of the demesne itself;
  which was surrounded by high walls
  formed of dry stone; the difficulty of
  procuring such an opportunity was greatly
  enhanced。
  At this time Emily had a short conver…
  sation with her father; which she reported
  to me instantly。
  After some indifferent matter; he had
  asked her whether she and I were upon
  good terms; and whether I was unreserved
  in my disposition。 She answered in the
  affirmative; and he then inquired whether
  I had been much surprised to find him in
  my chamber on the other day。 She
  answered that I had been both surprised and
  amused。
  'And what did she think of George
  Wilson's appearance?'
  'Who?' inquired she。
  'Oh; the architect;' he answered; 'who
  is to contract for the repairs of the house;
  he is accounted a handsome fellow。'
  'She could not see his face;' said Emily;
  'and she was in such a hurry to escape
  that she scarcely noticed him。'
  Sir Arthur appeared satisfied; and the
  conversation ended。
  This slight conversation; repeated
  accurately to me by Emily; had the effect of
  confirming; if indeed anything was required
  to do so; all that I had before believed as
  to Edward's actual presence; and I naturally
  became; if possible; more anxious
  than ever to despatch the letter to Mr。
  Jefferies。 An opportunity at length occurred。
  As Emily and I were walking one day
  near the gate of the demesne; a lad from
  the village happened to be passing down
  the avenue from the house; the spot was
  secluded; and as this person was not
  connected by service with those whose
  observation I dreaded; I committed the letter
  to his keeping; with strict injunctions that
  he should put it without delay into the
  receiver of the town post…office; at the
  same time I added a suitable gratuity; and
  the man having made many protestations
  of punctuality; was soon out of sight。
  He was hardly gone when I began to
  doubt my discretion in having trusted this
  person; but I had no better or safer means
  of despatching the letter; and I was not
  warranted in suspecting him of such
  wanton dishonesty as an inclination to
  tamper with it; but I could not be quite
  satisfied of its safety until I had received
  an answer; which could not arrive for a
  few days。 Before I did; however; an event
  occurred which a little surprised me。
  I was sitting in my bedroom early in the
  day; reading by myself; when I heard a
  knock at the door。
  'Come in;' said I; and my uncle entered
  the room。
  'Will you excuse me?' said he。 'I
  sought you in the parlour; and thence I
  have come here。 I desired to say a word
  with you。 I trust that you have hitherto
  found my conduct to you such as that of a
  guardian towards his ward should be。'
  I dared not withhold my consent。
  'And;' he continued; 'I trust that you
  have not found me harsh or unjust; and
  that you have perceived; my dear niece;
  that I have sought to make this poor place
  as agreeable to you as may be。'
  I assented again; and he put his hand
  in his pocket; whence he drew a folded
  paper; and dashing it upon the table with
  startling emphasis; he said:
  'Did you write that letter?'
  The sudden and tearful alteration of his
  voice; manner; and face; but; more than all;
  the unexpected production of my letter to
  Mr。 Jefferies; which I at once recognised;
  so confounded and terrified me; that I felt
  almost choking。
  I could not utter a word。
  'Did you write that letter?' he repeated
  with slow and intense emphasis。' You
  did; liar and hypocrite! You dared to
  write this foul and infamous libel; but it
  shall be your last。 Men will universally
  believe you mad; if I choose to call for an
  inquiry。 I can make you appear so。 The
  suspicions expressed in this letter are the
  hallucinations and alarms of moping lunacy。
  I have defeated your first attempt; madam;
  and by the holy God; if ever you make
  another; chains; straw; darkness; and the
  keeper's whip shall be your lasting portion!'
  With these astounding words he left the
  room; leaving me almost fainting。
  I was now almost reduced to despair;
  my last cast had failed; I had no course
  left but that of eloping secretly from the
  castle; and placing myself under the
  protection of the nearest magistrate。 I felt
  if this were not done; and speedily; that I
  should be MURDERED。
  No one; from mere description; can have
  an idea of the unmitigated horror of my
  situationa helpless; weak; inexperienced
  girl; placed under the power and wholly
  at the mercy of evil men; and feeling that
  she had it not in her power to escape for
  a moment from the malignant influences
  under which she was probably fated to fall;
  and with a consciousness that if violence;
  if murder were designed; her dying shriek
  would be lost in void space; no human
  being would be near to aid her; no human
  interposition could deliver her。
  I had seen Edward but once during his
  visit; and as I did not meet with him
  again; I began to think that he must have
  taken his departurea conviction which
  was to a certain degree satisfactory; as I
  regarded his absence as indicating the
  removal of immediate danger。
  Emily also arrived circuitously at the
  same conclusion; and not without good
  grounds; for she managed indirectly to
  learn that Edward's black horse had actually
  been for a day and part of a night in
  the castle stables; just at the time of her
  brother's supposed visit。 The horse had
  gone; and; as she argued; the rider must
  have departed with it。
  This point being so far settled; I felt a
  little less uncomfortable: when being one
  day alone in my bedroom; I happened to
  look out from the window; and; to my un…
  utterable horror; I beheld; peering through
  an opposite casement; my cousin Edward's
  face。 Had I seen the evil one himself in
  bodily shape; I could not have experienced
  a more sickening revulsion。
  I was too much appalled to move at
  once from the window; but I did so soon
  enough to avoid his eye。 He was looking
  fixedly into the narrow quadrangle upon
  which the window opened。 I shrank back
  unperceived; to pass the rest of the day
  in terror and despair。 I went to my room
  early that night; but I was too miserable
  to sleep。
  At about twelve o'clock; feeling very
  nervous; I determined to call my cousin
  Emily; who slept; you will remember; in
  the next room; which communicated with
  mine by a second door。 By this private
  entrance I found my way into her chamber;
  and without difficulty persuaded her to
  return to my room and sleep with me。
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