第 5 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  just gone through; that when my cousin
  Emily knocked at my door; I was weeping
  in strong hysterics。
  You will readily conceive my distress;
  when you reflect upon my strong dislike to
  my cousin Edward; combined with my
  youth and extreme inexperience。 Any
  proposal of such a nature must have
  agitated me; but that it should have come
  from the man whom of all others I most
  loathed and abhorred; and to whom I had;
  as clearly as manner could do it; expressed
  the state of my feelings; was almost too
  overwhelming to be borne。 It was a calamity;
  too; in which I could not claim the sym…
  pathy of my cousin Emily; which had
  always been extended to me in my minor
  grievances。 Still I hoped that it might
  not be unattended with good; for I
  thought that one inevitable and most
  welcome consequence would result from
  this painful eclaircissment; in the
  discontinuance of my cousin's odious
  persecution。
  When I arose next morning; it was with
  the fervent hope that I might never again
  behold the face; or even hear the name; of
  my cousin Edward; but such a consummation;
  though devoutly to be wished; was
  hardly likely to occur。 The painful
  impressions of yesterday were too vivid to
  be at once erased; and I could not help
  feeling some dim foreboding of coming
  annoyance and evil。
  To expect on my cousin's part anything
  like delicacy or consideration for me; was
  out of the question。 I saw that he had
  set his heart upon my property; and that
  he was not likely easily to forego such an
  acquisitionpossessing what might have
  been considered opportunities and facilities
  almost to compel my compliance。
  I now keenly felt the unreasonableness
  of my father's conduct in placing me to
  reside with a family of all whose members;
  with one exception; he was wholly
  ignorant; and I bitterly felt the helplessness
  of my situation。 I determined; however;
  in case of my cousin's persevering in
  his addresses; to lay all the particulars
  before my uncle; although he had never in
  kindness or intimacy gone a step beyond
  our first interview; and to throw myself
  upon his hospitality and his sense of honour
  for protection against a repetition of such
  scenes。
  My cousin's conduct may appear to have
  been an inadequate cause for such serious
  uneasiness; but my alarm was caused
  neither by his acts nor words; but entirely
  by his manner; which was strange and even
  intimidating to excess。 At the beginning
  of the yesterday's interview there was a
  sort of bullying swagger in his air; which
  towards the end gave place to the brutal
  vehemence of an undisguised ruffiana
  transition which had tempted me into a belief
  that he might seek even forcibly to extort
  from me a consent to his wishes; or by
  means still more horrible; of which I
  scarcely dared to trust myself to think;
  to possess himself of my property。
  I was early next day summoned to attend
  my uncle in his private room; which lay in
  a corner turret of the old building; and
  thither I accordingly went; wondering all
  the way what this unusual measure might
  prelude。 When I entered the room; he
  did not rise in his usual courteous way to
  greet me; but simply pointed to a chair
  opposite to his own。 This boded nothing
  agreeable。 I sat down; however; silently
  waiting until he should open the conversation。
  'Lady Margaret;' at length he said; in a
  tone of greater sternness than I thought
  him capable of using; 'I have hitherto
  spoken to you as a friend; but I have not
  forgotten that I am also your guardian;
  and that my authority as such gives me a
  right to control your conduct。 I shall
  put a question to you; and I expect and
  will demand a plain; direct answer。 Have
  I rightly been informed that you have con…
  temptuously rejected the suit and hand of
  my son Edward?'
  I stammered forth with a good deal of
  trepidation:
  'I believethat is; I have; sir; rejected
  my cousin's proposals; and my coldness
  and discouragement might have
  convinced him that I had determined to
  do so。'
  'Madam;' replied he; with suppressed;
  but; as it appeared to me; intense anger;
  'I have lived long enough to know that
  COLDNESS and discouragement; and such
  terms; form the common cant of a worthless
  coquette。 You know to the full; as
  well as I; that COLDNESS AND DISCOURAGEMENT
  may be so exhibited as to convince
  their object that he is neither distasteful
  or indifferent to the person who wears this
  manner。 You know; too; none better; that
  an affected neglect; when skilfully managed;
  is amongst the most formidable of the
  engines which artful beauty can employ。
  I tell you; madam; that having; without
  one word spoken in discouragement;
  permitted my son's most marked attentions
  for a twelvemonth or more; you have no
  right to dismiss him with no further
  explanation than demurely telling him that
  you had always looked coldly upon him;
  and neither your wealth nor your LADYSHIP'
  (there was an emphasis of scorn on the
  word; which would have become Sir
  Giles Overreach himself) 'can warrant you
  in treating with contempt the affectionate
  regard of an honest heart。'
  I was too much shocked at this undisguised
  attempt to bully me into an acquiescence
  in the interested and unprincipled
  plan for their own aggrandisement; which
  I now perceived my uncle and his son to
  have deliberately entered into; at once to
  find strength or collectedness to frame an
  answer to what he had said。 At length I
  replied; with some firmness:
  'In all that you have just now said; sir;
  you have grossly misstated my conduct and
  motives。 Your information must have been
  most incorrect as far as it regards my
  conduct towards my cousin; my manner
  towards him could have conveyed nothing
  but dislike; and if anything could have
  added to the strong aversion which I
  have long felt towards him; it would be
  his attempting thus to trick and frighten
  me into a marriage which he knows to be
  revolting to me; and which is sought by
  him only as a means for securing to
  himself whatever property is mine。'
  As I said this; I fixed my eyes upon
  those of my uncle; but he was too old in
  the world's ways to falter beneath the
  gaze of more searching eyes than mine; he
  simply said:
  'Are you acquainted with the provisions
  of your father's will?'
  I answered in the affirmative; and he
  continued:
  'Then you must be aware that if my
  son Edward werewhich God forbidthe
  unprincipled; reckless man you pretend to
  think him'(here he spoke very slowly;
  as if he intended that every word which
  escaped him should be registered in my
  memory; while at the same time the
  expression of his countenance underwent a
  gradual but horrible change; and the eyes
  which he fixed upon me became so darkly
  vivid; that I almost lost sight of everything
  else)'if he were what you have
  described him; think you; girl; he could
  find no briefer means than wedding
  contracts to gain his ends? 'twas but to gripe
  your slender neck until the breath had
  stopped; and lands; and lakes; and all were
  his。'
  I stood staring at him for many minutes
  after he had ceased to speak; fascinated
  by the terrible serpent…like gaze; until he
  continued with a welcome change of countenance:
  'I will not speak again to you upon this
  topic until one month has passed。 You
  shall have time to consider the relative
  advantages of the two courses which are
  open to you。 I should be sorry to hurry
  you to a decision。 I am satisfied with
  having stated my feelings upon the subject;
  and pointed out to you the path of duty。
  Remember this day monthnot one word
  sooner。'
  He then rose; and I left the room; much
  agitated and exhausted。
  This interview; all the circumstances
  attending it; but most particularly the
  formidable expression of my uncle's
  countenance while he talked; though hypothetically;
  of murder; combined to arouse all
  my worst suspicions of him。 I dreaded to
  look upon the face that had so recently
  worn the appalling livery of guilt and
  malignity。 I regarded it with the
  mingled fear and loathing with which one
  looks upon an object which has tortured
  them in a nightmare。
  In a few days after the interview; the
  particulars of which I have just related; I
  found a note upon my toilet…table; and on
  opening it I read as follows:
  'MY DEAR LADY MARGARET;
  'You will be perhaps surprised to
  see a strange face in your room to…day。 I
  have dismissed your Irish maid; and
  secured a French one to wait upon youa
  step rendered necessary by my proposing
  shortly to visit the Continent; with all my
  family。
  'Your faithful guardian;
  'ARTHUR TN。'
  On inquiry; I found that my faithful
  attendant was actually gone; and far on
  her way to the town of Galway; and in
  her stead th