第 4 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  from society; and driven for companionship
  to grades below his ownenjoying;
  too; the dangerous prerogative of spending
  much money。
  However; you may easily suppose that
  I found nothing in my cousin's communication
  fully to bear me out in so very
  decided a conclusion。
  I awaited the arrival of my uncle;
  which was every moment to be expected;
  with feelings half of alarm; half of
  curiositya sensation which I have often
  since experienced; though to a less degree;
  when upon the point of standing for the
  first time in the presence of one of whom
  I have long been in the habit of hearing
  or thinking with interest。
  It was; therefore; with some little
  perturbation that I heard; first a slight
  bustle at the outer door; then a slow step
  traverse the hall; and finally witnessed the
  door open; and my uncle enter the room。
  He was a striking…looking man; from
  peculiarities both of person and of garb; the
  whole effect of his appearance amounted
  to extreme singularity。 He was tall; and
  when young his figure must have been
  strikingly elegant; as it was; however; its
  effect was marred by a very decided stoop。
  His dress was of a sober colour; and in
  fashion anterior to anything which I could
  remember。 It was; however; handsome;
  and by no means carelessly put on; but
  what completed the singularity of his
  appearance was his uncut; white hair;
  which hung in long; but not at all
  neglected curls; even so far as his shoulders;
  and which combined with his regularly
  classic features; and fine dark eyes; to
  bestow upon him an air of venerable
  dignity and pride; which I have never seen
  equalled elsewhere。 I rose as he entered;
  and met him about the middle of the
  room; he kissed my cheek and both my
  hands; saying:
  'You are most welcome; dear child; as
  welcome as the command of this poor
  place and all that it contains can make
  you。 I am most rejoiced to see you
  truly rejoiced。 I trust that you are not
  much fatiguedpray be seated again。'
  He led me to my chair; and continued: 'I
  am glad to perceive you have made
  acquaintance with Emily already; I see;
  in your being thus brought together; the
  foundation of a lasting friendship。 You
  are both innocent; and both young。 God
  bless youGod bless you; and make you
  all that I could wish。'
  He raised his eyes; and remained for a
  few moments silent; as if in secret prayer。
  I felt that it was impossible that this man;
  with feelings so quick; so warm; so tender;
  could be the wretch that public opinion
  had represented him to be。 I was more
  than ever convinced of his innocence。
  His manner was; or appeared to me;
  most fascinating; there was a mingled
  kindness and courtesy in it which seemed
  to speak benevolence itself。 It was a
  manner which I felt cold art could never
  have taught; it owed most of its charm to
  its appearing to emanate directly from the
  heart; it must be a genuine index of the
  owner's mind。 So I thought。
  My uncle having given me fully to
  understand that I was most welcome; and
  might command whatever was his own;
  pressed me to take some refreshment; and
  on my refusing; he observed that previously
  to bidding me good…night; he had one duty
  further to perform; one in whose observance
  he was convinced I would cheerfully
  acquiesce。
  He then proceeded to read a chapter
  from the Bible; after which he took his
  leave with the same affectionate kindness
  with which he had greeted me; having
  repeated his desire that I should consider
  everything in his house as altogether at
  my disposal。 It is needless to say that I
  was much pleased with my uncleit was
  impossible to avoid being so; and I could
  not help saying to myself; if such a man
  as this is not safe from the assaults of
  slander; who is? I felt much happier than
  I had done since my father's death; and
  enjoyed that night the first refreshing
  sleep which had visited me since that event。
  My curiosity respecting my male cousin
  did not long remain unsatisfiedhe
  appeared the next day at dinner。 His
  manners; though not so coarse as I had
  expected; were exceedingly disagreeable;
  there was an assurance and a forwardness
  for which I was not prepared; there
  was less of the vulgarity of manner; and
  almost more of that of the mind; than I
  had anticipated。 I felt quite uncomfortable
  in his presence; there was just that
  confidence in his look and tone which
  would read encouragement even in mere
  toleration; and I felt more disgusted and
  annoyed at the coarse and extravagant
  compliments which he was pleased from
  time to time to pay me; than perhaps the
  extent of the atrocity might fully have
  warranted。 It was; however; one consolation
  that he did not often appear; being
  much engrossed by pursuits about which I
  neither knew nor cared anything; but
  when he did appear; his attentions; either
  with a view to his amusement or to some
  more serious advantage; were so obviously
  and perseveringly directed to me; that
  young and inexperienced as I was; even _I_
  could not be ignorant of his preference。 I
  felt more provoked by this odious persecution
  than I can express; and discouraged
  him with so much vigour; that I employed
  even rudeness to convince him that his
  assiduities were unwelcome; but all in
  vain。
  This had gone on for nearly a twelve…
  month; to my infinite annoyance; when one
  day as I was sitting at some needle…work
  with my companion Emily; as was my
  habit; in the parlour; the door opened;
  and my cousin Edward entered the room。
  There was something; I thought; odd in
  his mannera kind of struggle between
  shame and impudencea kind of flurry
  and ambiguity which made him appear;
  if possible; more than ordinarily disagreeable。
  'Your servant; ladies;' he said; seating
  himself at the same time; 'sorry to spoil
  your tete…a…tete; but never mind; I'll only
  take Emily's place for a minute or two;
  and then we part for a while; fair cousin。
  Emily; my father wants you in the corner
  turret。 No shilly…shally; he's in a hurry。'
  She hesitated。 'Be offtramp; march!'
  he exclaimed; in a tone which the poor girl
  dared not disobey。
  She left the room; and Edward followed
  her to the door。 He stood there for a
  minute or two; as if reflecting what he
  should say; perhaps satisfying himself
  that no one was within hearing in the
  hall。
  At length he turned about; having closed
  the door; as if carelessly; with his foot; and
  advancing slowly; as if in deep thought; he
  took his seat at the side of the table
  opposite to mine。
  There was a brief interval of silence;
  after which he said:
  'I imagine that you have a shrewd
  suspicion of the object of my early visit; but
  I suppose I must go into particulars。
  Must I?'
  'I have no conception;' I replied; 'what
  your object may be。'
  'Well; well;' said he; becoming more at
  his ease as he proceeded; 'it may be told in
  a few words。 You know that it is totally
  impossiblequite out of the question
  that an offhand young fellow like me; and
  a good…looking girl like yourself; could
  meet continually; as you and I have done;
  without an attachmenta liking growing
  up on one side or other; in short; I think
  I have let you know as plain as if I spoke
  it; that I have been in love with you
  almost from the first time I saw
  you。'
  He paused; but I was too much horrified
  to speak。 He interpreted my silence
  favourably。
  'I can tell you;' he continued; 'I'm
  reckoned rather hard to please; and very
  hard to HIT。 I can't say when I was taken
  with a girl before; so you see fortune
  reserved me'
  Here the odious wretch wound his arm
  round my waist。 The action at once
  restored me to utterance; and with the most
  indignant vehemence I released myself
  from his hold; and at the same time
  said:
  'I have not been insensible; sir; of your
  most disagreeable attentionsthey have
  long been a source of much annoyance to
  me; and you must be aware that I have
  marked my disapprobationmy disgust
  as unequivocally as I possibly could; without
  actual indelicacy。'
  I paused; almost out of breath from the
  rapidity with which I had spoken; and
  without giving him time to renew the
  conversation; I hastily quitted the room;
  leaving him in a paroxysm of rage and
  mortification。 As I ascended the stairs;
  I heard him open the parlour…door with
  violence; and take two or three rapid strides
  in the direction in which I was moving。 I
  was now much frightened; and ran the
  whole way until I reached my room; and
  having locked the door; I listened breathlessly;
  but heard no sound。 This relieved
  me for the present; but so much had I
  been overcome by the agitation and annoyance
  attendant upon the scene which I had
  just gone through; that when my cousin
  Emily knocked at my door; I was weeping
  in strong hysterics。
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