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for the newly…married wife was all in all to the Squire; and his son
felt himself almost a cipher; where he had so long been everything。
The lady herself had ever the softest consideration for her stepson;
almost too obtrusive was the attention paid to his wishes; but still
he fancied that the heart had no part in the winning advances。 There
was a watchful glance of the eye that Owen once or twice caught when
she had imagined herself unobserved; and many other nameless little
circumstances; that gave him a strong feeling of want of sincerity in
his stepmother。 Mrs。 Owen brought with her into the family her
little child by her first husband; a boy nearly three years old。 He
was one of those elfish; observant; mocking children; over whose
feelings you seem to have no control: agile and mischievous; his
little practical jokes; at first performed in ignorance of the pain
he gave; but afterward proceeding to a malicious pleasure in
suffering; really seemed to afford some ground to the superstitious
notion of some of the common people that he was a fairy changeling。
Years passed on; and as Owen grew older he became more observant。 He
saw; even in his occasional visits at home (for from school he had
passed on to college); that a great change had taken place in the
outward manifestations of his father's character; and; by degrees;
Owen traced this change to the influence of his stepmother; so
slight; so imperceptible to the common observer; yet so resistless in
its effects。 Squire Griffiths caught up his wife's humbly advanced
opinions; and; unawares to himself; adopted them as his own; defying
all argument and opposition。 It was the same with her wishes; they
met their fulfilment; from the extreme and delicate art with which
she insinuated them into her husband's mind; as his own。 She
sacrificed the show of authority for the power。 At last; when Owen
perceived some oppressive act in his father's conduct toward his
dependants; or some unaccountable thwarting of his own wishes; he
fancied he saw his stepmother's secret influence thus displayed;
however much she might regret the injustice of his father's actions
in her conversations with him when they were alone。 His father was
fast losing his temperate habits; and frequent intoxication soon took
its usual effect upon the temper。 Yet even here was the spell of his
wife upon him。 Before her he placed a restraint upon his passion;
yet she was perfectly aware of his irritable disposition; and
directed it hither and thither with the same apparent ignorance of
the tendency of her words。
Meanwhile Owen's situation became peculiarly mortifying to a youth
whose early remembrances afforded such a contrast to his present
state。 As a child; he had been elevated to the consequence of a man
before his years gave any mental check to the selfishness which such
conduct was likely to engender; he could remember when his will was
law to the servants and dependants; and his sympathy necessary to his
father: now he was as a cipher in his father's house; and the
Squire; estranged in the first instance by a feeling of the injury he
had done his son in not sooner acquainting him with his purposed
marriage; seemed rather to avoid than to seek him as a companion; and
too frequently showed the most utter indifference to the feelings and
wishes which a young man of a high and independent spirit might be
supposed to indulge。
Perhaps Owen was not fully aware of the force of all these
circumstances; for an actor in a family drama is seldom unimpassioned
enough to be perfectly observant。 But he became moody and soured;
brooding over his unloved existence; and craving with a human heart
after sympathy。
This feeling took more full possession of his mind when he had left
college; and returned home to lead an idle and purposeless life。 As
the heir; there was no worldly necessity for exertion: his father
was too much of a Welsh squire to dream of the moral necessity; and
he himself had not sufficient strength of mind to decide at once upon
abandoning a place and mode of life which abounded in daily
mortifications; yet to this course his judgment was slowly tending;
when some circumstances occurred to detain him at Bodowen。
It was not to be expected that harmony would long be preserved; even
in appearance; between an unguarded and soured young man; such as
Owen; and his wary stepmother; when he had once left college; and
come; not as a visitor; but as the heir to his father's house。 Some
cause of difference occurred; where the woman subdued her hidden
anger sufficiently to become convinced that Owen was not entirely the
dupe she had believed him to be。 Henceforward there was no peace
between them。 Not in vulgar altercations did this show itself; but
in moody reserve on Owen's part; and in undisguised and contemptuous
pursuance of her own plans by his stepmother。 Bodowen was no longer
a place where; if Owen was not loved or attended to; he could at
least find peace; and care for himself: he was thwarted at every
step; and in every wish; by his father's desire; apparently; while
the wife sat by with a smile of triumph on her beautiful lips。
So Owen went forth at the early day dawn; sometimes roaming about on
the shore or the upland; shooting or fishing; as the season might be;
but oftener 〃stretched in indolent repose〃 on the short; sweet grass;
indulging in gloomy and morbid reveries。 He would fancy that this
mortified state of existence was a dream; a horrible dream; from
which he should awake and find himself again the sole object and
darling of his father。 And then he would start up and strive to
shake off the incubus。 There was the molten sunset of his childish
memory; the gorgeous crimson piles of glory in the west; fading away
into the cold calm light of the rising moon; while here and there a
cloud floated across the western heaven; like a seraph's wing; in its
flaming beauty; the earth was the same as in his childhood's days;
full of gentle evening sounds; and the harmonies of twilightthe
breeze came sweeping low over the heather and blue…bells by his side;
and the turf was sending up its evening incense of perfume。 But
life; and heart; and hope were changed for ever since those bygone
days!
Or he would seat himself in a favourite niche of the rocks on Moel
Gest; hidden by a stunted growth of the whitty; or mountain…ash; from
general observation; with a rich…tinted cushion of stone…crop for his
feet; and a straight precipice of rock rising just above。 Here would
he sit for hours; gazing idly at the bay below with its back…ground
of purple hills; and the little fishing…sail on its bosom; showing
white in the sunbeam; and gliding on in such harmony with the quiet
beauty of the glassy sea; or he would pull out an old school…volume;
his companion for years; and in morbid accordance with the dark
legend that still lurked in the recesses of his minda shape of
gloom in those innermost haunts awaiting its time to come forth in
distinct outlinewould he turn to the old Greek dramas which treat
of a family foredoomed by an avenging Fate。 The worn page opened of
itself at the play of the OEdipus Tyrannus; and Owen dwelt with the
craving disease upon the prophecy so nearly resembling that which
concerned himself。 With his consciousness of neglect; there was a
sort of self…flattery in the consequence which the legend gave him。
He almost wondered how they durst; with slights and insults; thus
provoke the Avenger。
The days drifted onward。 Often he would vehemently pursue some
sylvan sport; till thought and feeling were lost in the violence of
bodily exertion。 Occasionally his evenings were spent at a small
public…house; such as stood by the unfrequented wayside; where the
welcome; hearty; though bought; seemed so strongly to contrast with
the gloomy negligence of homeunsympathising home。
One evening (Owen might be four or five…and…twenty); wearied with a
day's shooting on the Clenneny Moors; he passed by the open door of
〃The Goat〃 at Penmorfa。 The light and the cheeriness within tempted
him; poor self…exhausted man! as it has done many a one more wretched
in worldly circumstances; to step in; and take his evening meal where
at least his presence was of some consequence。 It was a busy day in
that little hostel。 A flock of sheep; amounting to some hundreds;
had arrived at Penmorfa; on their road to England; and thronged the
space before the house。 Inside was the shrewd; kind…hearted hostess;
bustling to and fro; with merry greetings for every tired drover who
was to pass the night in her house; while the sheep were penned in a
field close by。 Ever and anon; she kept attending to the second
crowd of guests; who were celebrating a rural wedding in her house。
It was busy work to Martha Thomas; yet her smile never flagged; and
when Owen Griffiths had finished his evening meal s