第 2 节
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  She soon made him the father of a blooming little daughter; called
  Augharad after her mother。  Then there came several uneventful years
  in the household of Bodowen; and when the old women had one and all
  declared that the cradle would not rock again; Mrs。 Griffiths bore
  the son and heir。  His birth was soon followed by his mother's death:
  she had been ailing and low…spirited during her pregnancy; and she
  seemed to lack the buoyancy of body and mind requisite to bring her
  round after her time of trial。  Her husband; who loved her all the
  more from having few other claims on his affections; was deeply
  grieved by her early death; and his only comforter was the sweet
  little boy whom she had left behind。  That part of the squire's
  character; which was so tender; and almost feminine; seemed called
  forth by the helpless situation of the little infant; who stretched
  out his arms to his father with the same earnest cooing that happier
  children make use of to their mother alone。  Augharad was almost
  neglected; while the little Owen was king of the house; still next to
  his father; none tended him so lovingly as his sister。  She was so
  accustomed to give way to him that it was no longer a hardship。  By
  night and by day Owen was the constant companion of his father; and
  increasing years seemed only to confirm the custom。  It was an
  unnatural life for the child; seeing no bright little faces peering
  into his own (for Augharad was; as I said before; five or six years
  older; and her face; poor motherless girl! was often anything but
  bright); hearing no din of clear ringing voices; but day after day
  sharing the otherwise solitary hours of his father; whether in the
  dim room; surrounded by wizard…like antiquities; or pattering his
  little feet to keep up with his 〃tada〃 in his mountain rambles or
  shooting excursions。  When the pair came to some little foaming
  brook; where the stepping…stones were far and wide; the father
  carried his little boy across with the tenderest care; when the lad
  was weary; they rested; he cradled in his father's arms; or the
  Squire would lift him up and carry him to his home again。  The boy
  was indulged (for his father felt flattered by the desire) in his
  wish of sharing his meals and keeping the same hours。  All this
  indulgence did not render Owen unamiable; but it made him wilful; and
  not a happy child。  He had a thoughtful look; not common to the face
  of a young boy。  He knew no games; no merry sports; his information
  was of an imaginative and speculative character。  His father
  delighted to interest him in his own studies; without considering how
  far they were healthy for so young a mind。
  Of course Squire Griffiths was not unaware of the prophecy which was
  to be fulfilled in his generation。  He would occasionally refer to it
  when among his friends; with sceptical levity; but in truth it lay
  nearer to his heart than he chose to acknowledge。  His strong
  imagination rendered him peculiarly impressible on such subjects;
  while his judgment; seldom exercised or fortified by severe thought;
  could not prevent his continually recurring to it。  He used to gaze
  on the half…sad countenance of the child; who sat looking up into his
  face with his large dark eyes; so fondly yet so inquiringly; till the
  old legend swelled around his heart; and became too painful for him
  not to require sympathy。  Besides; the overpowering love he bore to
  the child seemed to demand fuller vent than tender words; it made him
  like; yet dread; to upbraid its object for the fearful contrast
  foretold。  Still Squire Griffiths told the legend; in a half…jesting
  manner; to his little son; when they were roaming over the wild
  heaths in the autumn days; 〃the saddest of the year;〃 or while they
  sat in the oak…wainscoted room; surrounded by mysterious relics that
  gleamed strangely forth by the flickering fire…light。  The legend was
  wrought into the boy's mind; and he would crave; yet tremble; to hear
  it told over and over again; while the words were intermingled with
  caresses and questions as to his love。  Occasionally his loving words
  and actions were cut short by his father's light yet bitter speech
  〃Get thee away; my lad; thou knowest not what is to come of all this
  love。〃
  When Augharad was seventeen; and Owen eleven or twelve; the rector of
  the parish in which Bodowen was situated; endeavoured to prevail on
  Squire Griffiths to send the boy to school。  Now; this rector had
  many congenial tastes with his parishioner; and was his only
  intimate; and; by repeated arguments; he succeeded in convincing the
  Squire that the unnatural life Owen was leading was in every way
  injurious。  Unwillingly was the father wrought to part from his son;
  but he did at length send him to the Grammar School at Bangor; then
  under the management of an excellent classic。  Here Owen showed that
  he had more talents than the rector had given him credit for; when he
  affirmed that the lad had been completely stupefied by the life he
  led at Bodowen。  He bade fair to do credit to the school in the
  peculiar branch of learning for which it was famous。  But he was not
  popular among his schoolfellows。  He was wayward; though; to a
  certain degree; generous and unselfish; he was reserved but gentle;
  except when the tremendous bursts of passion (similar in character to
  those of his father) forced their way。
  On his return from school one Christmas…time; when he had been a year
  or so at Bangor; he was stunned by hearing that the undervalued
  Augharad was about to be married to a gentleman of South Wales;
  residing near Aberystwith。  Boys seldom appreciate their sisters; but
  Owen thought of the many slights with which he had requited the
  patient Augharad; and he gave way to bitter regrets; which; with a
  selfish want of control over his words; he kept expressing to his
  father; until the Squire was thoroughly hurt and chagrined at the
  repeated exclamations of 〃What shall we do when Augharad is gone?〃
  〃How dull we shall be when Augharad is married!〃  Owen's holidays
  were prolonged a few weeks; in order that he might be present at the
  wedding; and when all the festivities were over; and the bride and
  bridegroom had left Bodowen; the boy and his father really felt how
  much they missed the quiet; loving Augharad。  She had performed so
  many thoughtful; noiseless little offices; on which their daily
  comfort depended; and now she was gone; the household seemed to miss
  the spirit that peacefully kept it in order; the servants roamed
  about in search of commands and directions; the rooms had no longer
  the unobtrusive ordering of taste to make them cheerful; the very
  fires burned dim; and were always sinking down into dull heaps of
  gray ashes。  Altogether Owen did not regret his return to Bangor; and
  this also the mortified parent perceived。  Squire Griffiths was a
  selfish parent。
  Letters in those days were a rare occurrence。  Owen usually received
  one during his half…yearly absences from home; and occasionally his
  father paid him a visit。  This half…year the boy had no visit; nor
  even a letter; till very near the time of his leaving school; and
  then he was astounded by the intelligence that his father was married
  again。
  Then came one of his paroxysms of rage; the more disastrous in its
  effects upon his character because it could find no vent in action。
  Independently of slight to the memory of the first wife which
  children are so apt to fancy such an action implies; Owen had
  hitherto considered himself (and with justice) the first object of
  his father's life。  They had been so much to each other; and now a
  shapeless; but too real something had come between him and his father
  there for ever。  He felt as if his permission should have been asked;
  as if he should have been consulted。  Certainly he ought to have been
  told of the intended event。  So the Squire felt; and hence his
  constrained letter which had so much increased the bitterness of
  Owen's feelings。
  With all this anger; when Owen saw his stepmother; he thought he had
  never seen so beautiful a woman for her age; for she was no longer in
  the bloom of youth; being a widow when his father married her。  Her
  manners; to the Welsh lad; who had seen little of female grace among
  the families of the few antiquarians with whom his father visited;
  were so fascinating that he watched her with a sort of breathless
  admiration。  Her measured grace; her faultless movements; her tones
  of voice; sweet; till the ear was sated with their sweetness; made
  Owen less angry at his father's marriage。  Yet he felt; more than
  ever; that the cloud was between him and his father; that the hasty
  letter he had sent in answer to the announcement of his wedding was
  not forgotten; although no allusion was ever made to it。  He was no
  longer his father's confidanthardly ever his father's companion;
  for the newly…married wife was all in all to the Squire; and his son
  felt himself almo