第 13 节
作者:飘雪的季节      更新:2023-08-22 20:47      字数:9321
  unsuitable to show。  Still; she was happy。  Never had her favourite
  College garden seemed so beautiful; with each tree and flower so
  cared for; and the very wind excluded; never had the birds seemed
  so tame and friendly。  The sun shone softly; even the clouds were
  luminous and joyful。  She sat a long time; musing; and went back
  forgetting all she had come out to do。  Having both courage and
  decision; she did not leave the letter to burn a hole in her
  corsets; but gave it to her husband at lunch; looking him in the
  face; and saying carelessly:
  〃Providence; you see; answers your question。〃
  He read it; raised his eyebrows; smiled; and; without looking up;
  murmured:
  〃You wish to prosecute this romantic episode?〃
  Did he mean anythingor was it simply his way of putting things?
  〃I naturally want to be anywhere but here。〃
  〃Perhaps you would like to go alone?〃
  He said that; of course; knowing she could not say: Yes。  And she
  answered simply: 〃No。〃
  〃Then let us both goon Monday。  I will catch the young man's
  trout; thou shalt catchh'm!he shall catch  What is it he
  catchestrees?  Good!  That's settled。〃
  And; three days later; without another word exchanged on the
  subject; they started。
  Was she grateful to him?  No。  Afraid of him?  No。  Scornful of
  him?  Not quite。  But she was afraid of HERSELF; horribly。  How
  would she ever be able to keep herself in hand; how disguise from
  these people that she loved their boy?  It was her desperate mood
  that she feared。  But since she so much wanted all the best for him
  that life could give; surely she would have the strength to do
  nothing that might harm him。  Yet she was afraid。
  He was there at the station to meet them; in riding things and a
  nice rough Norfolk jacket that she did not recognize; though she
  thought she knew his clothes by heart; and as the train came slowly
  to a standstill the memory of her last moment with him; up in his
  room amid the luggage that she had helped to pack; very nearly
  overcame her。  It seemed so hard to have to meet him coldly;
  formally; to have to waitwho knew how longfor a minute with him
  alone!  And he was so polite; so beautifully considerate; with all
  the manners of a host; hoping she wasn't tired; hoping Mr。 Stormer
  had brought his fishing…rod; though they had lots; of course; they
  could lend him; hoping the weather would be fine; hoping that they
  wouldn't mind having to drive three miles; and busying himself
  about their luggage。  All this when she just wanted to take him in
  her arms and push his hair back from his forehead; and look at him!
  He did not drive with themhe had thought they would be too
  crowdedbut followed; keeping quite close in the dust to point out
  the scenery; mounted on a 'palfrey;' as her husband called the roan
  with the black swish tail。
  This countryside; so rich and yet a little wild; the independent…
  looking cottages; the old dark cosy manor…house; all was very new
  to one used to Oxford; and to London; and to little else of
  England。  And all was delightful。  Even Mark's guardian seemed to
  her delightful。  For Gordy; when absolutely forced to face an
  unknown woman; could bring to the encounter a certain bluff
  ingratiation。  His sister; too; Mrs。 Doone; with her faded
  gentleness; seemed soothing。
  When Anna was alone in her room; reached by an unexpected little
  stairway; she stood looking at its carved four…poster bed and the
  wide lattice window with chintz curtains; and the flowers in a blue
  bowl。  Yes; all was delightful。  And yet!  What was it?  What had
  she missed?  Ah; she was a fool to fret!  It was only his anxiety
  that they should be comfortable; his fear that he might betray
  himself。  Out there those last few dayshis eyes!  And now!  She
  brooded earnestly over what dress she should put on。  She; who
  tanned so quickly; had almost lost her sunburn in the week of
  travelling and Oxford。  To…day her eyes looked tired; and she was
  pale。  She was not going to disdain anything that might help。  She
  had reached thirty…six last month; and he would be nineteen to…
  morrow!  She decided on black。  In black she knew that her neck
  looked whiter; and the colour of her eyes and hair stranger。  She
  put on no jewellery; did not even pin a rose at her breast; took
  white gloves。  Since her husband did not come to her room; she went
  up the little stairway to his。  She surprised him ready dressed;
  standing by the fireplace; smiling faintly。  What was he thinking
  of; standing there with that smile?  Was there blood in him at all?
  He inclined his head slightly and said:
  〃Good!  Chaste as the night!  Black suits you。  Shall we find our
  way down to these savage halls?〃
  And they went down。
  Everyone was already there; waiting。  A single neighbouring squire
  and magistrate; by name Trusham; had been bidden; to make numbers
  equal。
  Dinner was announced; they went in。  At the round table in a
  dining…room; all black oak; with many candles; and terrible
  portraits of departed ancestors; Anna sat between the magistrate
  and Gordy。  Mark was opposite; between a quaint…looking old lady
  and a young girl who had not been introduced; a girl in white; with
  very fair hair and very white skin; blue eyes; and lips a little
  parted; a daughter evidently of the faded Mrs。 Doone。  A girl like
  a silvery moth; like a forget…me…not!  Anna found it hard to take
  her eyes away from this girl's face; not that she admired her
  exactly; pretty she wasyes; but weak; with those parted lips and
  soft chin; and almost wistful look; as if her deep…blue half…eager
  eyes were in spite of her。  But she was youngso young!  That was
  why not to watch her seemed impossible。  〃Sylvia Doone?〃  Indeed!
  Yes。  A soft name; a pretty nameand very like her!  Every time
  her eyes could travel away from her duty to Squire Trusham; and to
  Gordy (on both of whom she was clearly making an impression); she
  gazed at this girl; sitting there by the boy; and whenever those
  two young things smiled and spoke together she felt her heart
  contract and hurt her。  Was THIS why that something had gone out of
  his eyes?  Ah; she was foolish!  If every girl or woman the boy
  knew was to cause such a feeling in her; what would life be like?
  And her will hardened against her fears。  She was looking brilliant
  herself; and she saw that the girl in her turn could not help
  gazing at her eagerly; wistfully; a little bewilderedhatefully
  young。  And the boy?  Slowly; surely; as a magnet draws; Anna could
  feel that she was drawing him; could see him stealing chances to
  look at her。  Once she surprised him full。  What troubled eyes!  It
  was not the old adoring face; yet she knew from its expression that
  she could make him want hermake him jealouseasily fire him with
  her kisses; if she would。
  And the dinner wore to an end。  Then came the moment when the girl
  and she must meet under the eyes of the mother; and that sharp;
  quaint…looking old governess。  It would be a hard moment; that!
  And it camea hard moment and a long one; for Gordy sat full span
  over his wine。  But Anna had not served her time beneath the gaze
  of upper Oxford for nothing; she managed to be charming; full of
  interest and questions in her still rather foreign accent。  Miss
  Doonesoon she became Sylviamust show her all the treasures and
  antiquities。  Was it too dark to go out just to look at the old
  house by night?  Oh; no。  Not a bit。  There were goloshes in the
  hall。  And they went; the girl leading; and talking of Anna knew
  not what; so absorbed was she in thinking how for a moment; just a
  moment; she could contrive to be with the boy alone。
  It was not remarkable; this old house; but it was his homemight
  some day perhaps be his。  And houses at night were strangely alive
  with their window eyes。
  〃That is my room;〃 the girl said; 〃where the jessamine isyou can
  just see it。  Mark's is abovelook; under where the eave hangs
  out; away to the left。  The other night〃
  〃Yes; the other night?〃
  〃Oh; I don't!  Listen。  That's an owl。  We have heaps of owls。
  Mark likes them。  I don't; much。〃
  Always Mark!
  〃He's awfully keen; you see; about all beasts and birdshe models
  them。  Shall I show you his workshop?it's an old greenhouse。
  Here; you can see in。〃
  There through the glass Anna indeed could just see the boy's quaint
  creations huddling in the dark on a bare floor; a grotesque company
  of small monsters。  She murmured:
  〃Yes; I see them; but I won't really look unless he brings me
  himself。〃
  〃Oh; he's sure to。  They interest him more than anything in the
  world。〃
  For all her cautious resolutions Anna could not for the life of her
  help saying:
  〃What; more than you?〃
  The girl gave her a wistful stare before she answered:
  〃Oh! I don't count much。〃
  Anna laughed; and took her arm。  How soft and young it felt!  A
  pang went through her heart; half jealous; half remorseful。
  〃Do you know;〃 she said; 〃that you are very sweet?〃
  The girl did not answer。
  〃Are you his cousin?〃
  〃No。  Gordy is only Mark's uncle by marriage; my mother is Gordy's
  sisterso I'm nothing。〃
  Nothing!
  〃I seejust what you English call 'a connection。'〃
  They were silent; seeming to examine the night; then the girl said: