第 10 节
作者:飘雪的季节      更新:2023-08-22 20:47      字数:9322
  his portmanteau came out and was deposited with the other things
  behind; and he got up beside her。
  She said: 〃Let go; Billy。〃
  The roan rushed past the little groom; whose top boots seemed to
  twinkle as he jumped up behind。  They whizzed round the corner from
  the station yard; and observing that her mouth was just a little
  open as though this had disconcerted her; he said:
  〃He pulls a bit。〃
  〃Yesbut isn't he perfectly sweet?〃
  〃He IS rather decent。〃
  Ah! when SHE came; he would drive her; they would go off alone in
  the T…cart; and he would show her all the country round。
  He was re…awakened by the words:
  〃Oh! I know he's going to shy!〃  At once there was a swerve。  The
  roan was cantering。
  They had passed a pig。
  〃Doesn't he look lovely now?  Ought I to have whipped him when he
  shied?〃
  〃Rather not。〃
  〃Why?〃
  〃Because horses are horses; and pigs are pigs; it's natural for
  horses to shy at them。〃
  〃Oh!〃
  He looked up at her then; sidelong。  The curve of her cheek and
  chin looked very soft; and rather jolly。
  〃I didn't know you; you know!〃 he said。  〃You've grown up so
  awfully。〃
  〃I knew you at once。  Your voice is still furry。〃
  There was another silence; till she said:
  〃He does pull; ratherdoesn't he; going home?〃
  〃Shall I drive?〃
  〃Yes; please。〃
  He stood up and took the reins; and she slipped past under them in
  front of him; her hair smelt exactly like hay; as she was softly
  bumped against him。
  She kept regarding him steadily with very blue eyes; now that she
  was relieved of driving。
  〃Cicely was afraid you weren't coming;〃 she said suddenly。  〃What
  sort of people are those old Stormers?〃
  He felt himself grow very red; choked something down; and answered:
  〃It's only he that's old。  She's not more than about thirty…five。〃
  〃That IS old。〃
  He restrained the words: 〃Of course it's old to a kid like you!〃
  And; instead; he looked at her。  Was she exactly a kid?  She seemed
  quite tall (for a girl) and not very thin; and there was something
  frank and soft about her face; and as if she wanted you to be nice
  to her。
  〃Is she very pretty?〃
  This time he did not go red; such was the disturbance that question
  made in him。  If he said: 〃Yes;〃 it was like letting the world know
  his adoration; but to say anything less would be horrible;
  disloyal。  So he did say: 〃Yes;〃 listening hard to the tone of his
  own voice。
  〃I thought she was。  Do you like her very much?〃  Again he
  struggled with that thing in his throat; and again said: 〃Yes。〃
  He wanted to hate this girl; yet somehow could notshe looked so
  soft and confiding。  She was staring before her now; her lips still
  just parted; so evidently THAT had not been because of Bolero's
  pulling; they were pretty all the same; and so was her short;
  straight little nose; and her chin; and she was awfully fair。  His
  thoughts flew back to that other faceso splendid; so full of
  life。  Suddenly he found himself unable to picture itfor the
  first time since he had started on his journey it would not come
  before him。
  〃Oh!  Look!〃
  Her hand was pulling at his arm。  There in the field over the hedge
  a buzzard hawk was dropping like a stone。
  〃Oh; Mark!  Oh!  Oh!  It's got it!〃
  She was covering her face with both her hands; and the hawk; with a
  young rabbit in its claws; was sailing up again。  It looked so
  beautiful that he did not somehow feel sorry for the rabbit; but he
  wanted to stroke and comfort her; and said:
  〃It's all right; Sylvia; it really is。  The rabbit's dead already;
  you know。  And it's quite natural。〃
  She took her hands away from a face that looked just as if she were
  going to cry。
  〃Poor little rabbit!  It was such a little one!〃
  XII
  On the afternoon of the day following he sat in the smoking…room
  with a prayer book in his hand; and a frown on his forehead;
  reading the Marriage Service。  The book had been effectively
  designed for not spoiling the figure when carried in a pocket。  But
  this did not matter; for even if he could have read the words; he
  would not have known what they meant; seeing that he was thinking
  how he could make a certain petition to a certain person sitting
  just behind at a large bureau with a sliding top; examining
  artificial flies。
  He fixed at last upon this form:
  〃Gordy!〃  (Why Gordy no one quite knew nowwhether because his
  name was George; or by way of corruption from Guardian。)  〃When Cis
  is gone it'll be rather awful; won't it?〃
  〃Not a bit。〃
  Mr。 Heatherley was a man of perhaps sixty…four; if indeed guardians
  have ages; and like a doctor rather than a squire; his face square
  and puffy; his eyes always half…closed; and his curly mouth using
  bluntly a voice of that refined coarseness peculiar to people of
  old family。
  〃But it will; you know!〃
  〃Well; supposin' it is?〃
  〃I only wondered if you'd mind asking Mr。 and Mrs。 Stormer to come
  here for a littlethey were awfully kind to me out there。〃
  〃Strange man and woman!  My dear fellow!〃
  〃Mr。 Stormer likes fishing。〃
  〃Does he?  And what does she like?〃
  Very grateful that his back was turned; the boy said:
  〃I don't knowanythingshe's awfully nice。〃
  〃Ah!  Pretty?〃
  He answered faintly:
  〃I don't know what YOU call pretty; Gordy。〃
  He felt; rather than saw; his guardian scrutinizing him with those
  half…closed eyes under their gouty lids。
  〃All right; do as you like。  Have 'em here and have done with it;
  by all means。〃
  Did his heart jump?  Not quite; but it felt warm and happy; and he
  said:
  〃Thanks awfully; Gordy。  It's most frightfully decent of you;〃 and
  turned again to the Marriage Service。  He could make out some of
  it。  In places it seemed to him fine; and in other places queer。
  About obeying; for instance。  If you loved anybody; it seemed
  rotten to expect them to obey you。  If you loved them and they
  loved you; there couldn't ever be any question of obeying; because
  you would both do the things always of your own accord。  And if
  they didn't love you; or you them; thenoh! then it would be
  simply too disgusting for anything; to go on living with a person
  you didn't love or who didn't love you。  But of course SHE didn't
  love his tutor。  Had she once?  Those bright doubting eyes; that
  studiously satiric mouth came very clearly up before him。  You
  could not love them; and yethe was really very decent。  A feeling
  as of pity; almost of affection; rose in him for his remote tutor。
  It was queer to feel so; since the last time they had talked
  together out there; on the terrace; he had not felt at all like
  that。
  The noise of the bureau top sliding down aroused him; Mr。
  Heatherley was closing in the remains of the artificial flies。
  That meant he would be going out to fish。  And the moment he heard
  the door shut; Mark sprang up; slid back the bureau top; and began
  to write his letter。  It was hard work。
  〃DEAR MRS。 STORMER;
  〃My guardian wishes me to beg you and Mr。 Stormer to pay us a visit
  as soon as you come back from the Tyrol。  Please tell Mr。 Stormer
  that only the very best fishermenlike himcan catch our trout;
  the rest catch our trees。  This is me catching our trees (here
  followed a sketch)。  My sister is going to be married to…morrow;
  and it will be disgusting afterwards unless you come。  So do come;
  please。  And with my very best greetings;
  〃I am;
  〃Your humble servant;
  〃M。 LENNAN。〃
  When he had stamped this production and dropped it in the letter…
  box; he had the oddest feeling; as if he had been let out of
  school; a desire to rush about; to frolic。  What should he do?
  Cis; of course; would be busythey were all busy about the
  wedding。  He would go and saddle Bolero; and jump him in the park;
  or should he go down along the river and watch the jays?  Both
  seemed lonely occupations。  And he stood in the windowdejected。
  At the age of five; walking with his nurse; he had been overheard
  remarking: 〃Nurse; I want to eat a biscuitALL THE WAY I want to
  eat a biscuit!〃 and it was still rather so with him perhapsall
  the way he wanted to eat a biscuit。  He bethought him then of his
  modelling; and went out to the little empty greenhouse where he
  kept his masterpieces。  They seemed to him now quite horribleand
  two of them; the sheep and the turkey; he marked out for summary
  destruction。  The idea occurred to him that he might try and model
  that hawk escaping with the little rabbit; but when he tried; no
  nice feeling came; and flinging the things down he went out。  He
  ran along the unweeded path to the tennis groundlawn tennis was
  then just coming in。  The grass looked very rough。  But then;
  everything about that little manor house was left rather wild and
  anyhow; why; nobody quite knew; and nobody seemed to mind。  He
  stood there scrutinizing the condition of the ground。  A sound of
  humming came to his ears。  He got up on the wall。  There was Sylvia
  sitting in the field; making a wreath of honeysuckle。  He stood
  very quiet and listened。  She looked prettylost in her tune。
  Then he slid down off the wall; and said gently:
  〃Hallo!〃
  She looked round at him; her eyes very wide open。
  〃Your voice is jolly; Sylvia!〃
  〃Oh; no!〃
  〃It is。  Come and climb a tree!〃
  〃Where?〃
  〃In