第 21 节
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addressing himself to the Profession of Law;whereof; indeed; the world has since seen him a public graduate。 But omitting these broken; unsatisfactory thrums of Economical relation; let us present rather the following small thread of Moral relation; and therewith; the reader for himself weaving it in at the right place; conclude our dim arras…picture of these University years。
〃Here also it was that I formed acquaintance with Herr Towgood; or; as it is perhaps better written; Herr Toughgut; a young person of quality (_von Adel_); from the interior parts of England。 He stood connected; by blood and hospitality; with the Counts von Zahdarm; in this quarter of Germany; to which noble Family I likewise was; by his means; with all friendliness; brought near。 Towgood had a fair talent; unspeakably ill…cultivated; with considerable humor of character: and; bating his total ignorance; for he knew nothing except Boxing and a little Grammar; showed less of that aristocratic impassivity; and silent fury; than for most part belongs to Travellers of his nation。 To him I owe my first practical knowledge of the English and their ways; perhaps also something of the partiality with which I have ever since regarded that singular people。 Towgood was not without an eye; could he have come at any light。 Invited doubtless by the presence of the Zahdarm Family; he had travelled hither; in the almost frantic hope of perfecting his studies; he; whose studies had as yet been those of infancy; hither to a University where so much as the notion of perfection; not to say the effort after it; no longer existed! Often we would condole over the hard destiny of the Young in this era: how; after all our toil; we were to be turned out into the world; with beards on our chins indeed; but with few other attributes of manhood; no existing thing that we were trained to Act on; nothing that we could so much as Believe。 'How has our head on the outside a polished Hat;' would Towgood exclaim; 'and in the inside Vacancy; or a froth of Vocables and Attorney…Logic! At a small cost men are educated to make leather into shoes; but at a great cost; what am I educated to make? By Heaven; Brother! what I have already eaten and worn; as I came thus far; would endow a considerable Hospital of Incurables。''Man; indeed;' I would answer; 'has a Digestive Faculty; which must be kept working; were it even partly by stealth。 But as for our Miseducation; make not bad worse; waste not the time yet ours; in trampling on thistles because they have yielded us no figs。 _Frisch zu; Bruder_! Here are Books; and we have brains to read them; here is a whole Earth and a whole Heaven; and we have eyes to look on them: _Frisch zu_!'
〃Often also our talk was gay; not without brilliancy; and even fire。 We looked out on Life; with its strange scaffolding; where all at once harlequins dance; and men are beheaded and quartered: motley; not unterrific was the aspect; but we looked on it like brave youths。 For myself; these were perhaps my most genial hours。 Towards this young warm…hearted; strong…headed and wrong…headed Herr Towgood I was even near experiencing the now obsolete sentiment of Friendship。 Yes; foolish Heathen that I was; I felt that; under certain conditions; I could have loved this man; and taken him to my bosom; and been his brother once and always。 By degrees; however; I understood the new time; and its wants。 If man's _Soul_ is indeed; as in the Finnish Language; and Utilitarian Philosophy; a kind of _Stomach_; what else is the true meaning of Spiritual Union but an Eating together? Thus we; instead of Friends; are Dinner…guests; and here as elsewhere have cast away chimeras。〃
So ends; abruptly as is usual; and enigmatically; this little incipient romance。 What henceforth becomes of the brave Herr Towgood; or Toughgut? He has dived under; in the Autobiographical Chaos; and swims we see not where。 Does any reader 〃in the interior parts of England〃 know of such a man?
CHAPTER IV。 GETTING UNDER WAY。
〃Thus nevertheless;〃 writes our Autobiographer; apparently as quitting College; 〃was there realized Somewhat; namely; I; Diogenes Teufelsdrockh: a visible Temporary Figure (_Zeitbild_); occupying some cubic feet of Space; and containing within it Forces both physical and spiritual; hopes; passions; thoughts; the whole wondrous furniture; in more or less perfection; belonging to that mystery; a Man。 Capabilities there were in me to give battle; in some small degree; against the great Empire of Darkness: does not the very Ditcher and Delver; with his spade; extinguish many a thistle and puddle; and so leave a little Order; where he found the opposite? Nay your very Day…moth has capabilities in this kind; and ever organizes something (into its own Body; if no otherwise); which was before Inorganic; and of mute dead air makes living music; though only of the faintest; by humming。
〃How much more; one whose capabilities are spiritual; who has learned; or begun learning; the grand thaumaturgic art of Thought! Thaumaturgic I name it; for hitherto all Miracles have been wrought thereby; and henceforth innumerable will be wrought; whereof we; even in these days; witness some。 Of the Poet's and Prophet's inspired Message; and how it makes and unmakes whole worlds; I shall forbear mention: but cannot the dullest hear Steam…engines clanking around him? Has he not seen the Scottish Brass…smith's IDEA (and this but a mechanical one) travelling on fire…wings round the Cape; and across two Oceans; and stronger than any other Enchanter's Familiar; on all hands unweariedly fetching and carrying: at home; not only weaving Cloth; but rapidly enough overturning the whole old system of Society; and; for Feudalism and Preservation of the Game; preparing us; by indirect but sure methods; Industrialism and the Government of the Wisest? Truly a Thinking Man is the worst enemy the Prince of Darkness can have; every time such a one announces himself; I doubt not; there runs a shudder through the Nether Empire; and new Emissaries are trained; with new tactics; to; if possible; entrap him; and hoodwink and handcuff him。
〃With such high vocation had I too; as denizen of the Universe; been called。 Unhappy it is; however; that though born to the amplest Sovereignty; in this way; with no less than sovereign right of Peace and War against the Time…Prince (_Zeitfurst_); or Devil; and all his Dominions; your coronation…ceremony costs such trouble; your sceptre is so difficult to get at; or even to get eye on!〃
By which last wire…drawn similitude does Teufelsdrockh mean no more than that young men find obstacles in what we call 〃getting under way〃? 〃Not what I Have;〃 continues he; 〃but what I Do is my Kingdom。 To each is given a certain inward Talent; a certain outward Environment of Fortune; to each; by wisest combination of these two; a certain maximum of Capability。 But the hardest problem were ever this first: To find by study of yourself; and of the ground you stand on; what your combined inward and outward Capability specially is。 For; alas; our young soul is all budding with Capabilities; and we see not yet which is the main and true one。 Always too the new man is in a new time; under new conditions; his course can be the _fac…simile_ of no prior one; but is by its nature original。 And then how seldom will the outward Capability fit the inward: though talented wonderfully enough; we are poor; unfriended; dyspeptical; bashful; nay what is worse than all; we are foolish。 Thus; in a whole imbroglio of Capabilities; we go stupidly groping about; to grope which is ours; and often clutch the wrong one: in this mad work must several years of our small term be spent; till the purblind Youth; by practice; acquire notions of distance; and become a seeing Man。 Nay; many so spend their whole term; and in ever…new expectation; ever…new disappointment; shift from enterprise to enterprise; and from side to side: till at length; as exasperated striplings of threescore…and…ten; they shift into their last enterprise; that of getting buried。
〃Such; since the most of us are too ophthalmic; would be the general fate; were it not that one thing saves us: our Hunger。 For on this ground; as the prompt nature of Hunger is well known; must a prompt choice be made: hence have we; with wise foresight; Indentures and Apprenticeships for our irrational young; whereby; in due season; the vague universality of a Man shall find himself ready…moulded into a specific Craftsman; and so thenceforth work; with much or with little waste of Capability as it may be; yet not with the worst waste; that of time。 Nay even in matters spiritual; since the spiritual artist too is born blind; and does not; like certain other creatures; receive sight in nine days; but far later; sometimes never;is it not well that there should be what we call Professions; or Bread…studies (_Brodzwecke_); preappointed us? Here; circling like the gin…horse; for whom partial or total blindness is no evil; the Bread…artist can travel contentedly round and round; still fancying that it is forward and forward; and realize much: for himself victual; for the world an additional horse's power in the grand corn…mill or hemp…mill of