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who want to call us by our front names。
〃And the men we have to meet after the show are the worst of all。 The
stage…door kind; and the man… ager's friends who take us to supper and
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show their diamonds and talk about seeing 'Dan' and 'Dave' and 'Charlie'
for us。 They're beasts; and I hate 'em。
〃I tell you; Lynn; it's the girls like us on the stage that ought to be
pitied。 It's girls from good homes that are honestly ambitious and work
hard to rise in the profession; but never do get there。 You bear a lot of
sympathy sloshed around on chorus girls and their fifteen dollars a week。
Piffle! There ain't a sorrow in the chorus that a lobster cannot heal。
〃If there's any tears to shed; let 'em fall for the actress that gets a salary
of from thirty to forty…five dollars a week for taking a leading part in a
bum show。 She knows she'll never do any better; but she hangs on for
years; hoping for the 'chance I that never comes。
〃And the fool plays we have to work in! Having another girl roll you
around the stage by the hind legs in a 'Wheelbarrow Chorus' in a musical
comedy is dignified drama compared with the idiotic things I've had to do
in the thirty…centers。
〃But what I hated most was the men the men leering and blathering
at you across tables; trying to buy you with Wurzburger or Extra Dry;
accord… ing to their estimate of your price。 And the men in the audiences;
clapping; yelling; snarling; crowding; writhing; gloating like a lot of
wild beasts; with their eyes fixed on you; ready to eat you up if you come
in reach of their claws。 Oh; how I hate 'em!
〃Well; I'm not telling you much about myself; am I; Lynn ?
〃I had two hundred dollars saved up; and I cut the stage the first of the
summer。 I went over on Long Island and found the sweetest little village
that ever was; called Soundport; right on the water。 I was going to spend
the summer there; and study up on elocution; and try to get a class in the
fall。 There was an old widow lady with a cottage near the beach who
sometimes rented a room or two just for com… pany; and she took me in。
She had another boarder; too the Reverend Arthur Lyle。
〃Yes; he was the head…liner。 You're on; Lynn。 I'll tell you all of it in a
minute。 It's only a one…act play。
〃The first time he walked on; Lynn; I felt myself going; the first lines
he spoke; he had me。 He was different from the men in audiences。 He was
tall and slim; and you never heard him come in the room; but you felt him。
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He had a face like a picture of a knight like one of that Round Table
bunch and a voice like a 'cello solo。 And his manners!
〃Lynn; if you'd take John Drew in his best draw… ing…room scene and
compare the two; you'd have John arrested for disturbing the peace。
〃I'll spare you the particulars; but in less than a month Arthur and I
were engaged。 He preached at a little one…night stand of a Methodist
church。 There was to be a parsonage the size of a lunch…wagon; and hens
and honeysuckles when we were married。 Ar… thur used to preach to me a
good deal about Heaven; but be never could get my mind quite off those
honey… suckles and hens。
〃No; I didn't tell him I'd been on the stage。 I hated the business and all
that went with it; I'd cut it out forever; and I didn't see any use of stirring
things up。 I was a good girl; and I didn't have any… thing to confess; except
being an elocutionist; and that was about all the strain my conscience
would stand。
〃Oh; I tell you; Lynn; I was happy。 I sang in the choir and attended the
sewing society; and re… cited that 'Annie Laurie' thing with the whistling
stunt in it; 'in a manner bordering upon the profes… sional;' as the weekly
village paper reported it。 And Arthur and I went rowing; and walking in
the woods; and clamming; and that poky little village seemed to me the
best place in the world。 I'd have been happy to live there always; too; if
〃But one morning old Mrs。 Gurley; the widow lady; got gossipy while
I was helping her string beans on the back porch; and began to gush
information; as folks who rent out their rooms usually do。 Mr。 Lyle was
her idea of a saint on earth as he was mine; too。 She went over all his
virtues and graces; and wound up by telling me that Arthur had had an ex…
tremely romantic love…affair; not long before; that had ended unhappily。
She didn't seem to be on to the de… tails; but she knew that he had been hit
pretty hard。 He was paler and thinner; she said; and he had some kind of a
remembrance or keepsake of the lady in a little rosewood box that he kept
locked in his desk drawer in his study。
〃'Several times;〃 says she; 〃I've seen him gloomerin' over that box of
evenings; and he always locks it up right away if anybody comes into the
room。'
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〃Well; you can imagine how long it was before I got Arthur by the
wrist and led him down stage and hissed in his ear。
〃That same afternoon we were lazying around in a boat among the
water…lilies at the edge of the bay。
〃'Arthur;' says I; 'you never told me you'd had another love…affair。 But
Mrs。 Gurley did;' I went on; to let him know I knew。 I hate to bear a man
lie。
〃' Before you came;' says he; looking me frankly in the eye; 'there was
a previous affection … a strong one。 Since you know of it; I will be
perfectly candid with you。'
〃'I am waiting;' says I。
〃'My dear Ida;' says Arthur of course I went by my real name; while
I was in Soundport 'this former affection was a spiritual one; in fact。 Al…
though the lady aroused my deepest sentiments; and was; as I thought; my
ideal woman; I never met her; and never spoke to her。 It was an ideal love。
My love for you; while no less ideal; is different。 You wouldn't let that
come between us。'
〃'Was she pretty?' i asked。
〃' She was very beautiful;' said Arthur。
〃'Did you see her often?' I asked。
〃' Something like a dozen times;' says he。
〃'Always from a distance?' says I。
〃'Always from quite a distance;' says he。
〃'And you loved her?' I asked。
〃'She seemed my ideal of beauty and grace and soul;〃 says Arthur。
〃'And this keepsake that you keep under lock and key; and moon over
at times; is that a remembrance from her?'
〃'A memento;' says Arthur; 'that I have treasured。'
〃'Did she send it to you?'
〃'It came to me from her' says be。
〃'In a roundabout way?' I asked。
〃'Somewhat roundabout;' says he; 'and yet rather direct。'
〃'Why didn't you ever meet her?' I asked。 'Were your positions in life
so different?'
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〃She was far above me;' says Arthur。 'Now; Ida;' he goes on; 'this is all
of the past。 You're not going to be jealous; are you?'
'Jealous!' says I。 'Why; man; what are you talking about? It makes me
think ten times as much of you as I did before I knew about it。'
〃And it did; Lynn … if you can understand it。 That ideal love was a new
one on me; but it struck me as being the most beautiful and glorious thing
I'd ever heard of。 Think of a man loving a woman he'd never even spoken
to; and being faithful just to what his mind and heart pictured her! Oh; it
sounded great to me。 The men I'd always known come at you with either
diamonds; knock…out…drops or a raise of salary; and their ideals! well;
we'll say no more。〃
〃Yes; it made me think more of Arthur than I did before。 I couldn't be
jealous of that far…away divin… ity that he used to worship; for I was going
to have him myself。 And I began to look upon him as a saint on earth; just
as old lady Gurley did。
〃About four o'clock this afternoon a man came to the house for Arthur
to go and see somebody that was sick among his church bunch。 Old lady
Gurley was taking her afternoon snore on a couch; so that left me pretty
much alone。
〃In passing by Arthur's study I