第 44 节
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vexed her; but it had reminded her of one truth which she was in
danger of forgetting。 The town gentleman was not half so far
removed from Sol and Dan; and the hard…handed order in general; in
his passions as in his philosophy。 He still continued to be the
male of his species; and when the heart was hot with a dream Pall
Mall had much the same aspect as Wessex。
Well; she had not accepted him yet; indeed; for the moment they were
in a pet with one another。 Yet that might soon be cleared off; and
then recurred the perpetual question; would the advantage that might
accrue to her people by her marriage be worth the sacrifice? One
palliative feature must be remembered when we survey the matrimonial
ponderings of the poetess and romancer。 What she contemplated was
not meanly to ensnare a husband just to provide incomes for her and
her family; but to find some man she might respect; who would
maintain her in such a stage of comfort as should; by setting her
mind free from temporal anxiety; enable her to further organize her
talent; and provide incomes for them herself。 Plenty of saleable
originality was left in her as yet; but it was getting crushed under
the rubbish of her necessities。
She was not sure that Neigh would stand the test of her revelations。
It would be possible to lead him to marry her without revealing
anythingthe events of the last few days had shown her thatyet
Ethelberta's honesty shrank from the safe course of holding her
tongue。 It might be pleasant to many a modern gentleman to find
himself allied with a lady; none of whose ancestors had ever
pandered to a court; lost an army; taken a bribe; oppressed a
community; or broken a bank; but the added disclosure that; in
avoiding these stains; her kindred had worked and continued to work
with their hands for bread; might lead such an one to consider that
the novelty was dearly purchased。
Ethelberta was; upon the whole; dissatisfied with her progress thus
far。 She had planned many things and fulfilled few。 Had her father
been by this time provided for and made independent of the world; as
she had thought he might be; not only would her course with regard
to Neigh be quite clear; but the impending awkwardness of dining
with her father behind her chair could not have occurred。 True;
that was a small matter beside her regret for his own sake that he
was still in harness; and a mere change of occupation would be but a
tribute to a fastidiousness which he did not himself share。 She had
frequently tried to think of a vocation for him that would have a
more dignified sound; and be less dangerously close to her own path:
the post of care…taker at some provincial library; country
stationer; registrar of births and deaths; and many others had been
discussed and dismissed in face of the unmanageable fact that her
father was serenely happy and comfortable as a butler; looking with
dread at any hint of change short of perfect retirement。 Since;
then; she could not offer him this retirement; what right had she to
interfere with his mode of life at all? In no other social groove
on earth would he thrive as he throve in his present one; to which
he had been accustomed from boyhood; and where the remuneration was
actually greater than in professions ten times as stately in name。
For the rest; too; Ethelberta had indulged in hopes; the high
education of the younger ones being the chief of these darling
wishes。 Picotee wanted looking to badly enough。 Sol and Dan
required no material help; they had quickly obtained good places of
work under a Pimlico builder; for though the brothers scarcely
showed as yet the light…fingered deftness of London artizans; the
want was in a measure compensated by their painstaking; and
employers are far from despising country hands who bring with them
strength; industry; and a desire to please。 But their sister had
other lines laid down for them than those of level progress; to
start them some day as masters instead of men was a long…cherished
wish of Ethelberta's。
Thus she had quite enough machinery in her hands to keep decently
going; even were she to marry a man who would take a kindly view of
her peculiar situation; and afford her opportunities of
strengthening her powers for her kindred's good。 But what would be
the result if; eighteen months hencethe date at which her
occupation of the house in Exonbury Crescent came to an endshe
were still a widow; with no accumulated capital; her platform
talents grown homely and stunted through narrow living; and her
tender vein of poesy completely dispersed by it? To calmly
relinquish the struggle at that point would have been the act of a
stoic; but not of a woman; particularly when she considered the
children; the hopes of her mother for them; and her own condition
though this was leastunder the ironical cheers which would greet a
slip back into the mire。
It here becomes necessary to turn for a moment to Master Joey
Chickerel; Ethelberta's troublesome page and brother。 The face of
this juvenile was that of a Graeco…Roman satyr to the furthest
degree of completeness。 Viewed in front; the outer line of his
upper lip rose in a double arch nearly to his little round nostrils;
giving an expression of a jollity so delicious to himself as to
compel a perpetual drawing in of his breath。 During half…laughs his
lips parted in the middle; and remained closed at the corners; which
were small round pits like his nostrils; the same form being
repeated as dimples a little further back upon his cheek。 The
opening for each eye formed a sparkling crescent; both upper and
under lid having the convexity upwards。
But during some few days preceding the dinner…party at the
Doncastles' all this changed。 The luxuriant curves departed; a
compressed lineality was to be observed everywhere; the pupils of
his eyes seemed flattened; and the carriage of his head was limp and
sideways。 This was a feature so remarkable and new in him that
Picotee noticed it; and was lifted from the melancholy current of
her own affairs in contemplating his。
'Well; what's the matter?' said Picotee。
'Onothing;' said Joey。
'Nothing? How can you say so?'
'The world's a holler mockerythat's what I say。'
'Yes; so it is; to some; but not to you;' said Picotee; sighing。
'Don't talk argument; Picotee。 I only hope you'll never feel what I
feel now。 If it wasn't for my juties here I know what I'd do; I'd
'list; that's what I'd do。 But having my position to fill here as
the only responsible man…servant in the house; I can't leave。'
'Has anybody been beating you?'
'Beating! Do I look like a person who gets beatings? No; it is a
madness;' said Joey; putting his hand upon his chest。 'The case is;
I am in love。'
'O Joey; a boy no bigger than you are!' said Picotee reprovingly。
Her personal interest in the passion; however; provoked her to
inquire; in the next breath; 'Who is it? Do tell; Joey。'
'No bigger than I! What hev bigness to do with it? That's just
like your old…fashioned notions。 Bigness is no more wanted in
courting nowadays than in soldiering or smoking or any other duty of
man。 Husbands is rare; and a promising courter who means business
will fetch his price in these times; big or small; I assure ye。 I
might have been engaged a dozen times over as far as the bigness
goes。 You should see what a miserable little fellow my rival is
afore you talk like that。 Now you know I've got a rival; perhaps
you'll own there must be something in it。'
'Yes; that seems like the real thing。 But who is the young woman?'
'Well; I don't mind telling you; Picotee。 It is Mrs。 Doncastle's
new maid。 I called to see father last night; and had supper there;
and you should have seen how lovely she wereeating sparrowgrass
sideways; as if she were born to it。 But; of course; there's a
rivalthere always isI might have known that; and I will crush
him!'
'But Mrs。 Doncastle's new maidif that was she I caught a glimpse
of the other dayis ever so much older than youa dozen years。'
'What's that to a man in love? PoohI wish you would leave me;
Picotee; I wants to be alone。'
A short time after this Picotee was in the company of Ethelberta;
and she took occasion to mention Joey's attachment。 Ethelberta grew
exceedingly angry directly she heard of it。
'What a fearful nuisance that boy is becoming;' she said。 'Does
father know anything of this?'
'I think not;' said Picotee。 'O no; he cannot; he would not allow
any such thing to go on; she is so much older than Joey。'
'I should think he wouldn't allow it! The fact is I must be more
strict about this growing friendliness between you all and the
Doncastle servants。 There shall be absolutely no intimacy or
visiting of any sort。 When father wants to see any of you he must
come here; unless there is a most serious reason for your calling
upon him。 Some disclosure or reference to me otherwise than as your
mistress; will certainly be made else; and then I am ruined。 I will
speak to father myself about Joey's absurd nonsense this evening。 I
am going to see him on another matter。' And Ethelberta sighed。 'I
am to dine there on Thursd