第 32 节
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  letter might accidentally have had; in addition to the moral effect
  which she had intended; the practical effect which she did not
  intend; by arriving before; instead of after; his purposed visit to
  her; thereby stopping him in spite of all her care。
  'How long are letters going to Bloomsbury?' she said suddenly。
  'Two hours; Joey tells me;' replied Picotee; who had already
  inquired on her own private account。
  'There!' exclaimed Ethelberta petulantly。  'How I dislike a man to
  misrepresent things!  He said there was not time for a reply!'
  'Perhaps he didn't know;' said Picotee; in angel tones; 'and so it
  happens all right; and he has got it; and he will not come after
  all。'
  They waited and waited; but Christopher did not appear that night;
  the true case being that his declaration about insufficient time for
  a reply was merely an ingenious suggestion to her not to be so cruel
  as to forbid him。  He was far from suspecting when the letter of
  denial did reach himabout an hour before the time of appointment
  that it was sent by a refinement of art; of which the real intention
  was futility; and that but for his own misstatement it would have
  been carefully delayed。
  The next day another letter came from the musician; decidedly short
  and to the point。  The irate lover stated that he would not be made
  a fool of any longer:  under any circumstances he meant to come that
  self…same afternoon; and should decidedly expect her to see him。
  'I will not see him!' said Ethelberta。  'Why did he not call last
  night?'
  'Because you told him not to;' said Picotee。
  'Good gracious; as if a woman's words are to be translated as
  literally as Homer!  Surely he is aware that more often than not
  〃No〃 is said to a man's importunities because it is traditionally
  the correct modest reply; and for nothing else in the world。  If all
  men took words as superficially as he does; we should die of decorum
  in shoals。'
  'Ah; Berta! how could you write a letter that you did not mean
  should be obeyed?'
  'I did in a measure mean it; although I could have shown Christian
  forgiveness if it had not been。  Never mind; I will not see him。
  I'll plague my heart for the credit of my sex。'
  To ensure the fulfilment of this resolve; Ethelberta determined to
  give way to a headache that she was beginning to be aware of; go to
  her room; disorganize her dress; and ruin her hair by lying down; so
  putting it out of her power to descend and meet Christopher on any
  momentary impulse。
  Picotee sat in the room with her; reading; or pretending to read;
  and Ethelberta pretended to sleep。  Christopher's knock came up the
  stairs; and with it the end of the farce。
  'I'll tell you what;' said Ethelberta in the prompt and broadly…
  awake tone of one who had been concentrated on the expectation of
  that sound for a length of time; 'it was a mistake in me to do this!
  Joey will be sure to make a muddle of it。'
  Joey was heard coming up the stairs。  Picotee opened the door; and
  said; with an anxiety transcending Ethelberta's; 'Well?'
  'O; will you tell Mrs。 Petherwin that Mr。 Julian says he'll wait。'
  'You were not to ask him to wait;' said Ethelberta; within。
  'I know that;' said Joey; 'and I didn't。  He's doing that out of his
  own head。'
  'Then let Mr。 Julian wait; by all means;' said Ethelberta。  'Allow
  him to wait if he likes; but tell him it is uncertain if I shall be
  able to come down。'
  Joey then retired; and the two sisters remained in silence。
  'I wonder if he's gone;' Ethelberta said; at the end of a long time。
  'I thought you were asleep;' said Picotee。  'Shall we ask Joey?  I
  have not heard the door close。'
  Joey was summoned; and after a leisurely ascent; interspersed by
  various gymnastic performances over the handrail here and there;
  appeared again。
  'He's there jest the same:  he don't seem to be in no hurry at all;'
  said Joey。
  'What is he doing?' inquired Picotee solicitously。
  'O; only looking at his watch sometimes; and humming tunes; and
  playing rat…a…tat…tat upon the table。  He says he don't mind waiting
  a bit。'
  'You must have made a mistake in the message;' said Ethelberta;
  within。
  'Well; no。  I am correct as a jineral thing。  I jest said perhaps
  you would be engaged all the evening; and perhaps you wouldn't。'
  When Joey had again retired; and they had waited another ten
  minutes; Ethelberta said; 'Picotee; do you go down and speak a few
  words to him。  I am determined he shall not see me。  You know him a
  little; you remember when he came to the Lodge?'
  'What must I say to him?'
  Ethelberta paused before replying。  'Try to find out ifif he is
  much grieved at not seeing me; and saygive him to understand that
  I will forgive him; Picotee。'
  'Very well。'
  'And Picotee'
  'Yes。'
  'If he says he MUST see meI think I will get up。  But only if he
  says MUST:  you remember that。'
  Picotee departed on her errand。  She paused on the staircase
  trembling; and thinking between the thrills how very far would have
  been the conduct of her poor slighted self from proud recalcitration
  had Mr。 Julian's gentle request been addressed to her instead of to
  Ethelberta; and she went some way in the painful discovery of how
  much more tantalizing it was to watch an envied situation that was
  held by another than to be out of sight of it altogether。  Here was
  Christopher waiting to bestow love; and Ethelberta not going down to
  receive it:  a commodity unequalled in value by any other in the
  whole wide world was being wantonly wasted within that very house。
  If she could only have stood to…night as the beloved Ethelberta; and
  not as the despised Picotee; how different would be this going down!
  Thus she went along; red and pale moving in her cheeks as in the
  Northern Lights at their strongest time。
  Meanwhile Christopher had sat waiting minute by minute till the
  evening shades grew browner; and the fire sank low。  Joey; finding
  himself not particularly wanted upon the premises after the second
  inquiry; had slipped out to witness a nigger performance round the
  corner; and Julian began to think himself forgotten by all the
  household。  The perception gradually cooled his emotions and enabled
  him to hold his hat quite steadily。
  When Picotee gently thrust open the door she was surprised to find
  the room in darkness; the fire gone completely out; and the form of
  Christopher only visible by a faint patch of light; which; coming
  from a lamp on the opposite side of the way and falling upon the
  mirror; was thrown as a pale nebulosity upon his shoulder。  Picotee
  was too flurried at sight of the familiar outline to know what to
  do; and; instead of going or calling for a light; she mechanically
  advanced into the room。  Christopher did not turn or move in any
  way; and then she perceived that he had begun to doze in his chair。
  Instantly; with the precipitancy of the timorous; she said; 'Mr。
  Julian!' and touched him on the shouldermurmuring then; 'O; I beg
  pardon; II will get a light。'
  Christopher's consciousness returned; and his first act; before
  rising; was to exclaim; in a confused manner; 'Ahyou have come
  thank you; Berta!' then impulsively to seize her hand; as it hung
  beside his head; and kiss it passionately。  He stood up; still
  holding her fingers。
  Picotee gasped out something; but was completely deprived of
  articulate utterance; and in another moment being unable to control
  herself at this sort of first meeting with the man she had gone
  through fire and water to be near; and more particularly by the
  overpowering kiss upon her hand; burst into hysterical sobbing。
  Julian; in his inability to imagine so much emotionor at least the
  exhibition of itin Ethelberta; gently drew Picotee further forward
  by the hand he held; and utilized the solitary spot of light from
  the mirror by making it fall upon her face。  Recognizing the
  childish features; he at once; with an exclamation; dropped her hand
  and started back。  Being in point of fact a complete bundle of
  nerves and nothing else; his thin figure shook like a harp…string in
  painful excitement at a contretemps which would scarcely have
  quickened the pulse of an ordinary man。
  Poor Picotee; feeling herself in the wind of a civil d; started
  back also; sobbing more than ever。  It was a little too much that
  the first result of his discovery of the mistake should be absolute
  repulse。  She leant against the mantelpiece; when Julian; much
  bewildered at her superfluity of emotion; assisted her to a seat in
  sheer humanity。  But Christopher was by no means pleased when he
  again thought round the circle of circumstances。
  'How could you allow such an absurd thing to happen?' he said; in a
  stern; though trembling voice。  'You knew I might mistake。  I had no
  idea you were in the house:  I thought you were miles away; at
  Sandbourne or somewhere!  But I see:  it is just done for a joke;
  ha…ha!'
  This made Picotee rather worse still。  'O…O…O…O!' she replied; in
  the tone of pouring from a bottle。  'What shall I do…o…o…o!  It is
  not done for ajoke at all…l…l…l!'
  'Not done for a joke?  Then never minddon't cry; Picotee。  What
  was it done for; I wonder?'
  Picotee; mistaking the purport of his inquiry; i