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unhappy beneath the many hours of gaiety that came to me; as to every
young man。〃
〃Those two years we could have been in Michigan;〃 said Ethel; 〃had
you understood。〃
〃I know。 But understanding; I believe that I should do the same again。
At the office; when not busy; I wrote more poetry; and began also to write
prose; which I found at the outset less easy。 When my first writings were
accepted (they were four sets of verses upon the Summer Resort) I felt that
I could soon address Ethel; for I had made ten dollars outside my salary。
Had she not been in Europe that July; I believe that I should have spoken
to her at once。 But I sent her the paper; and I have the letter that she wrote
in reply。〃
〃I〃began Ethel。 But she stopped。
〃Yes; I know now that you kept the verses;〃 said Richard。 〃My next
manuscript; however; was rejected。 Indeed; I went on offering my literary
productions nearly every week until the following January before a second
acceptance came。 It was twenty five dollars this time; and almost made me
feel again that I could handsomely support Ethel。 But not quite。 After the
first charming elation at earning money with my pen; those weeks of
refusal had caused me to think more soberly。 And though I was now bent
upon becoming an author and leaving Nassau Street; I burned no bridges
behind me; but merely filled my spare hours with writing and with
showing it to Ethel。〃
〃It was now that the second area of perturbation of my life came to me。
I say the second; because the first had been the recent dawning belief that
Ethel thought about me when I was not there to remind her of myself。 This
idea had stirred but you will understand。 And now; what was my proper;
my honourable course? It was a positive relief that at this crisis she went
to Florida。 I could think more quietly。 My writing had come to be quite
often accepted; sometimes even solicited。 Should I speak to her; and ask
her to wait until I could put a decent roof over her head; or should I keep
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away from her until I could offer such a roof? Her father; I supposed;
could do something for us。 But I was not willing to be a pensioner。 His
businesswere he generouswould be to provide cake and butter; but the
bread was to be mine and bread was still a long way off; according to New
York standards。 These things I thought over while she was in Florida; yet
when once I should I find myself with her again; I began to fear that I
could not hold myself frombut these are circumstances which universal
knowledge renders it needless to mention; and I will pass to the second
perturbation。〃
〃A sum of money was suddenly left me。 Then for the first time I
understood why I had during my boyhood been so periodically sent to see
a cross old brother of my mother's; who lived near Cold Spring on the
Hudson; and whom we called Uncle Snaggletooth when no one could hear
us。 Uncle Godfrey (for I have called him by his right name ever since)
died and left me what in those old days six years ago was still a large
amount。 To…day we understand what true riches mean。 But in those bygone
times six years ago; a million dollars was a sum considerable enough to be
still seen; as it were; with the naked eye。 That was my bequest from Uncle
Godfrey; and I felt myself to be the possessor of a fortune。〃
At this point in Richard's narrative; a sigh escaped from Ethel。
〃I know;〃 he immediately said; 〃that money is always welcome。 But it
is certainly some consolation to reflect how slight a loss a million dollars
is counted to…day in New York。 And I did not lose all of it。〃
〃I met Ethel at the train on her return from Florida; and crossed with
her on the ferry from Jersey City to Desbrosses Street。 There I was obliged
to see her drive away in the carriage with her father。〃
〃Mr。 Field;〃 said Mrs。 Davenport; 〃what hour did that train arrive at
Jersey City?〃
Richard looked surprised。 〃Why; seven…fifteen P。 M。;〃 he replied。 〃The
tenth of March。〃
〃Dark!〃 Mrs。 Davenport exclaimed。 〃Mr。 Field; you and Ethel were
engaged before the ferry boat landed at Desbrosses Street。〃
Richard and Ethel both sat straight up; but remained speechless。
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〃Pardon my interruption;〃 said Mrs。 Davenport; smiling。 〃I didn't want
to miss a single point in this storydo go on!〃
Richard was obliged to burst out laughing; in which Ethel; after a
moment; followed him; though perhaps less heartily。 And as he continued;
his blush subsided。
〃With my Uncle Godfrey's legacy I was no longer dependent upon my
salary; or my pen; or my father's purse; and I decided that with the money
properly invested; I could maintain a modest establishment of my own。
Ethel agreed with me entirely; and; after a little; we disclosed our plans to
our families; and they met with approval。 This was in April; and we
thought of October or November for the wedding。 It seemed long to wait;
but it came near being so much longer; that I grow chilly now to think of
it。〃
〃Of course; I went steadily on with my work at the office in Nassau
Street; nor did I neglect my writing entirely。 My attention; however; was
now turned to the question of investing my fortune。 Just round the corner
from our office was the firm of Blake and Beverly; Stocks and Bonds。
Thither my steps began frequently to turn。 Mr。 Beverly had business which
brought him every week to the room of our president; and so having a sort
of acquaintance with him; I felt it easier to consult him than to seek any
other among the brokers; to which class I was a well nigh total stranger。
He very kindly consented to be my adviser。 I was well pleased to find how
much I had underrated the interest…bearing capacity of my windfall。 'Four
per cent!' he cried; when I told him this was the extent of my expectations。
'Why; you're talking like a trustee。' And then seeing that his meaning was
beyond me; he explained in his bluff; humorous manner。 'All a trustee
cares for you know; is his reputation for safety。 It's not his own income
he's nursing; and so he doesn't care how small he makes it; provided only
that his investments would be always called safe。 Now there are ways of
being safe without spending any trouble or time upon it; and those are the
ways a trustee will take。 For example;' and here he arose and unhooking a
file of current quotations from the wall; placed it in my lap as I sat beside
him。 'now here are Government three's selling at 108 3…8。 They are as safe
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as the United States; and if I advised you to buy them; it would cost me no
thought; and my character for safety would run no risk of a blemish。 That
is the sort of bond that a trustee recommends。 But see what income it gives
you。 Roughly speaking; about twenty…eight thousand dollars。'〃
〃'That would not do at all;' said I; thinking of Ethel and October。〃
〃'Certainly not for you;' returned Mr。 Beverly; gaily。 If you were a
timorous old maid; now; who would really like all her money in her
stocking in gold pieces; only she's ashamed to say so! But a young fellow
like you with no responsibility; no wife; and butcher's billit's quite
another thing!'〃
〃'Quite;' said I; 'oh; quite!'〃
〃Richard;〃 interrupted Ethel; 〃do you have to make yourself out so
simple?〃
〃My dear; you forget that I said I should invent nothing; but should
keep myself to actual experiences。 The part of my story that is coming
now is one where I should be very glad to draw upon my imagination。〃
〃Mr。 Beverly now ran his finger up and down various columns。 'Here
again;' said he; 'is a typical trustee bond; and nets you a few thousand
dollars more at present prices。 New York Central and Hudson River 3 1…2's。
Or here are West Shore 4's at 113 5…8。 But you see it scales down to pretty
much the same thing。 The sort of bond that a trustee will call safe does not
bring the owner more than about three and one…half p