第 38 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-11-28 19:12      字数:9322
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  Charnsworth stopped short in his pacing and regarded his daughter with a
  queer look; a  concentrated look; as though what she had said   had set in
  motion a whole mass of mental machinery within his brain。
  〃When did he ask you?〃
  〃He's asked me a dozen times。            But it's different now。       All the men
  will   be   going   to   war。 There   won't   be   any   left。  Look   at   England   and
  France。     I'm not going to be left。〃       She turned squarely toward her father;
  her young face set and hard。          〃You know what I mean。           You know what
  I mean。〃
  Flora; sitting up in   bed; was sobbing。          〃I think   you might have told
  your mother; Adele。        What are children coming to!           You stand there and
  say; ‘I'm going to marry Daniel Oakley。'             Oh; I am so faint 。 。 。 all of a
  sudden 。 。 。    Get the spirits of ammonia。〃
  Adele    turned    and   walked    out  of  the   room。    She    was   married    six
  weeks later。      They  had a   regular prewar   weddingveil; flowers;   dinner;
  and all。    Aunt Sophy arranged the folds of her gown and draped her veil。
  The girl stood looking at herself in the mirror; a curious half smile twisting
  her lips。    She seemed slighter and darker than ever。
  〃In all this white; and my veil; I look just like a fly in a quart of milk;〃
  she said; with a laugh。       Then; suddenly; she turned to her aunt; who stood
  behind     her;  and   clung   to  her;  holding    her  tight;  tight。  〃I   can't!〃   she
  gasped。     〃I can't!    I can't!〃
  Aunt Sophy held her off and looked at her; her eyes searching the girl。
  〃What   do   you   mean;  Della?      Are   you   just   nervous   or   do   you   mean
  you don't want to marry him?            Do you mean that?          Then what are you
  marrying for?       Tell me!     Tell your Aunt Sophy。〃
  But Adele was straightening herself and pulling out the crushed folds
  of her veil。    〃To pay the mortgage on the old homestead; of course。                 Just
  like the girl in the play。〃     She laughed a little。      But Aunt Sophy did not。
  〃Now look here; Della。         If you're〃
  But   there   was   a   knock   at   the   door。 Adele   caught   up   her   flowers。
  〃It's all right;〃 she said。    Aunt Sophy stood with her back against the door。
  〃If  it's   money;〃   she   said。 〃It   is! It   is;   isn't   it! I've   got   money  saved。
  It was for you children。        I've always been afraid。        I knew he was sailing
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  pretty close; with his speculations and all; since the war。             He can have it
  all。   It isn't too late yet。   Adele!     Della; my baby。〃
  〃Don't;   Aunt   Sophy。     It   wouldn't   be   enough;   anyway。     Daniel   has
  been   wonderful;   really。     Dad's   been   stealing   money   for   years。    Dan's。
  Don't look like that。      I'd have hated being poor; anyway。
  Never   could   have   got   used   to   it。 It   is   ridiculous;   though;   isn't   it?
  Like   something   in   the   movies。     I   don't   mind。  I'm   lucky;   really;   when
  you come to think of it。       A plain little black thing like me。〃
  〃But your mother〃
  〃Mother doesn't know a thing。〃
  Flora wept mistily all through the ceremony; but Adele was composed
  enough for two。
  When; scarcely a month later; Baldwin came to Sophy Decker; his face
  drawn and queer; Sophy knew。
  〃How much?〃 she said。
  〃Thirty thousand will cover it。        If you've got more than that〃
  〃I thought OakleyAdele said〃
  〃He did; but he won't any  more; and this thing's got to be met。                 It's
  this   damned     war   that's  done   it。 I'd   have   been   all  right。  People     got
  scared。    They wanted their money。           They wanted it in cash。〃
  〃Speculating with it; were you?〃
  〃Oh; well; a woman doesn't understand these business deals。〃
  〃No; naturally;〃 said Aunt Sophy; 〃a butterfly like me。〃
  〃Sophy; for God's sake don't joke now。             I tell you this will cover it;
  and everything   will be   all right。      If   I had   anybody else   to go to for the
  money I wouldn't ask you。          But you'll get it back。     You know that。〃
  Aunt Sophy got up; heavily; and went over to her desk。                 〃It was for
  the children; anyway。        They won't need it now。〃
  He looked up at that。       Something in her voice。         〃Who won't?        Why
  won't they?〃
  〃I don't know what made me say that。            I had a dream。〃
  〃Eugene?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃Oh;    well;   we're   all  nervous。    Flora    has  dreams     every   night   and
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  presentiments   every   fifteen      minutes。    Now;   look     here;   Sophy。    About
  this   money。     You'll   never    know     how    grateful   I  am。     Flora    doesn't
  understand these things; but I can talk to you。           It's like this〃
  〃I might as well be honest about it;〃 Sophy interrupted。              〃I'm doing it;
  not for you; but for Flora; and Dellaand Eugene。              Flora has lived such a
  sheltered life。     I sometimes wonder if she ever really knew any of you。
  Her   husband;   or   her   children。   I   sometimes   have   the   feeling   that   Della
  and Eugene are my childrenwere my children。〃
  When he   came  home  that night   Baldwin told  his   wife  that   old   Soph
  was getting queer。       〃She talks about the children being hers;〃 he said。
  〃Oh; well; she's awfully fond of them;〃 Flora explained。                 〃And she's
  lived her little; narrow life; with nothing to bother her but her hats and her
  house。     She doesn't know what it means to suffer as a mother suffers
  poor Sophy。〃
  〃Um;〃 Baldwin grunted。
  When   the   official   notification   of   Eugene's   death   came   from   the   War
  Department; Aunt   Sophy was   so   calm it   might   have appeared   that   Flora
  had been right。       She took to her bed now in earnest; did Flora。               Sophy
  neglected everything to give comfort to the stricken two。
  〃How can you sit there like that!〃           Flora would rail。      〃How can you
  sit there like that!     Even if you weren't his mother; surely you must feel
  something。〃
  〃It's the way he died that comforts me;〃 said Aunt Sophy。
  〃What difference does that make!〃
  AMERICAN RED CROSS                        (Croix Rouge Americaine)
  MY   DEAR   MRS。   BALDWIN:                   I   am   sure   you   must   have   been
  officially notified by the U。S。 War Dept。 of the death of your son; Lieut。
  Eugene H。 Baldwin。          But I want to write you what I can of his last hours。
  I   was   with   him   much   of   that   time   as   his   nurse。 I'm   sure   it   must   mean
  much to a mother to hear from a woman who was privileged to be with her
  boy at the last。         Your son was brought to our hospital one night badly
  gassed   from   the   fighting   in   the Argonne   Forest。     Ordinarily   we   do   not
  receive   gassed   patients;   as   they   are   sent   to   a   special   hospital   near   here。
  But two nights before; the Germans wrecked that hospital; so many gassed
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  patients   have   come   to   us。        Your   son   was   put   in   the   officers'   ward;
  where   the   doctors   who   examined   him   told   me   there   was   absolutely   no
  hope for him; as he had inhaled so much gas that it was only a matter of a
  few hours。
  I could scarcely believe that a man so big and strong as he was could
  not pull through。            The first bad attack he had; losing his breath and
  nearly choking; rather frightened him; although the doctor and I were both
  with him。      He held my hand tightly in his; begging me not to leave him;
  and repeating; over and over; that it was good to have a woman near。                   He
  was propped high in bed and put his head on my shoulder while I fanned
  him   until   he   breathed    more    easily。  I   stayed   with   him   all  that  night;
  though   I   was   not   on   duty。  You   see;   his   eyes   also   were   badly   burned。
  But before he died he was able to see very well。              I stayed with him every
  minute of that night and have never seen a finer character than he showed
  during all that fight for life。          He had several bad attacks that night and
  came     through    each   one    simply   because